Quote by 95Elizabeth
You're not a child.... I'm really bubbly around kids and I become mature and fun
and all that around them...
Resists cute things... Umm... usually... I can resists everything actually....
But cute things are the hardest! They're so cute!
Nanny...? o_O No way.... Anyway... They're so cute when they sleep! Kids are
soooo aaddoorrabbllee!
I just make teenagers angry... Once, the guy from basketball said if he ever had
a kid, he would commit suicide if the kid was anything like me! :P
But I'm scared of practically everything.... Especially anyone other than myself
holding anything dangerous... I nearly killed one of my friends when she was
chopping some carrots cause I freaked out since the knife was the first thing I
saw when I woke up... I threw a needle at her and it missed her eye by
centimeters... And I'm incredibly scared of fire.... Cause my house caught on
fire when I was little(littler), I was so shocked I just... Uh.... Don't
remember.... Maybe I fainted.... Or maybe I... Don't know... o_O Short term
memory loss.... My friends said I forgot my own name a few times.... And I
forget when I'm stressed out... Oh! And when I'm stressed I go a bit.... Off...
You figured out why I don't trust vatican? Why? I want to know myself too...
Just joking about the exploding voice... I just talk a lot and I'm good at
annoying all the teens..... Somehow they just hate me.... Oh well... At least
the old people and the tiny people like me! If that's even a good thing...
Okay I'm not a child..fuuu.But Eli-chan wa kodomo da nya~.Oh I see,some people
are like that they become softer when it comes to kids or certain other
things.
It's really suprising at times but it says alot of things about yourself.Humans
never had one dimensional feelings anyway,they had lots more than what they
think they possesed.
Yeah,kawaii things are hard to resists....
What?That kid don't even know what he's talking about.Baka,who dares he be mean
to my Eli-chan..baka baka....
Oh,you're scared of everything?That's fine I guess and you holding dangerous
stuffs makes others scared too so that even things out ne?
Almost killed your friend who was chopping carrots?Where did you sleep
Eli-chan?In the kitchen?Because you said the first thing you saw when you woke
up was the knife or did you bring it to bed the night before?
Wow!You threw needles too...sugoi sugoi.Like Kakei Juubei from
Getbackers,Eli-chan must have deft skills to threw something small and thin like
that and almost hit that friend.
Flames....bad.
Take it easy my imoto.Don't get too stressed out but I am in no position to say
this since I don't know how you lead your life anyway.
Yes I do know why but that's what you need to figure out yourself.I can't tell
you everything ne.Somethings like feelings for example must be figured out by
oneself.Others may guide but ultimately that person must find the own answers
Haha I see well that's their problem then.Baka teens.Well at least I like my
dear imoto too aru.And maybe even more people like you too.Its just that
well....you didn't noticed.
Elizabeth......... I came to say hi
Sorry I wasnt online for quite some time.........
I'm so stressed out...... I wanna cry TT^TT
Sorry Elizabeth... I'll try to catch up and reply as soon as possible........
Take care Elizabeth...... and stop getting hurt
Love you Elizabeth
merged: 01-24-2008 ~ 11:07pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Boys shouldn't cry
Glad you bothered to come and say hi! ^_^ You've just made my day!
Hope you feel better soon... Sorry I can't help...
Stop getting hurt? uh... yeah... I tripped today... I'm so unlucky TT^TT
You say love you so freely..
^_^ Ju-chan's the best kuu! ^_^
Boys arent robots you know
Boys should cry all they want
That's one of the reasons why boys are always dense and insensitive
Because they're taught they shouldnt cry
So boys dont understand when other people cry or act all hysterical
It's okay Elizabeth
I'm still happy to know that you're there
But please pray for me if you can
Clumsy Eli-chama
I say it freely because I feel it in my heart that I should say it
And I only say it freely to you
But I sincerely mean it you know
Thank yu ^^
Elizabeth best too
merged: 01-24-2008 ~ 11:27pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Yeah... You're really insensitive... Ooo... How long should I keep my hair?
Waist length? shoulder? Hip? Or should I cut it short? Should I have my hair
wavy or straight? Do you think I should cut my fringe cause right now my fringe
is as long as the rest of my hair!
I don't know how to pray...
Kuu... I'm not clumsy!
Somehow I just don't trust you... I WANT A TEDDY BEAR! I've never ever had a
teddy bear before! Except for the one my father bought... The teddy with army
clothes and feels rock hard...
Well... yes I am I suppose........
I guess guys arent meant to be understanding and compassionate
Your hair? I dont really mind whatever length it is
I would like your hair no matter how it is
Well..... praying is..... just like how you talk to your friends or family but
to God....
Clumsy clumsy Elichan
You must really like teddy bears Elizabeth
I never had one either
I had this giant doggie doll when I was young.....
The eyes were so cuutttee
Your father has a weird taste in teddy bears
Well the boy was like 7... And the girl was like 8... Somehow I'm a child
magnet... There was this girl that always hides behind me and calls me
swisty.... BUT SHE'S SO CCUUUTTTEE! And kids like to sleep on me... Ugh... If
they weren't cute I would have hit them...
I said vatican said I couldn't climb up the window and jump on him from there
but who said I was gonna listen to him...
Why don't I trust him? You know why? Why?
Ugh.... Mythical siren? No.... I just have a braty girl's voice.... I scream a
lot and I either talk really soft or so loud your ears explode...
Wowie!Eli-chan is a child magnet.Ei ei oh oh yay..Eli..Eli.Oh..am I becoming a
child now? Wierd...Anyway,you can resists anything that's cute can't you?
You even let them sleep on you...hmm...maybe you can become a nanny or
something.
Yeah,like you would listen to anybody...
Hai.I know why...and you did tell me about it once.Don't you remember?Well maybe
you didn't...maybe I just figured it out on my own.
An exploding voice ka?Sugoi!.
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Lost Butterfly is one of my favourite songs ^_^ And have you seen the english
translation?
Here here! I wrote it! But I can't write but I tried! I just changed it a bit
from the original translation! It doesn't follow the music though!
Like a wandering butterfly in labyrinthâ?¦
It continues to flutter trying to find a way
outâ?¦
What if one day that happened to you?
Rememberâ?¦ Rememberâ?¦
Iâ?m always here for youâ?¦
There are as many reasons for smilingâ?¦
As many as all the hearts in this worldâ?¦
But if you have too muchâ?¦
Youâ?ll lose sight of them allâ?¦
The day that never seems to endâ?¦
Repeatingâ?¦
Repeatingâ?¦
Is starting to change the futureâ?¦
The illusion that comes to us at night named
dreamsâ?¦
Begins to show itselfâ?¦
If your wings catch on fireâ?¦
You would even reach the blazing sunâ?¦
I wish we could turn to ash togetherâ?¦
As you show me that smileâ?¦
Anywayâ?¦
One day I know we will partâ?¦
But I knowâ?¦ But I
knowâ?¦
Itâ?s okay because I met youâ?¦
Far awayâ?¦
Even when weâ?re apartâ?¦
Iâ?ll continue to pray for your
happinessâ?¦
Even if it doesnâ?t reach youâ?¦
Even if it doesnâ?t reach youâ?¦
Iâ?ll sing this song for only youâ?¦
I know it will only be when we dieâ?¦
That we know why we were bornâ?¦
But when that day comes it will be too lateâ?¦
So we continue to wanderâ?¦
When the reality begins to showâ?¦
I know itâ?s changing you to someone
elseâ?¦
But no matter how much you changeâ?¦
You will always be youâ?¦
If you scream loud enoughâ?¦
Or even if you whisper Iâ?ll be
thereâ?¦
Even if your courage to say the truth is a faint
glowâ?¦
The day that never seems to endâ?¦
Is starting to change the futureâ?¦
The illusion that comes to us at night named
dreamsâ?¦
Begins to show itselfâ?¦
If your wings catch on fireâ?¦
You would even reach the blazing sunâ?¦
I wish we could turn to ash togetherâ?¦
As you show me that smileâ?¦
I love the song and translation. ^_^
GUESS WHAT.
My lastest break-up, the one I ranted about and was upset over, came crawling
back. He apologises and says he promised he'd come back and he never stopped
loving me, he just wanted to see if he could live without me or if I was the one
he loved. He is sincere, really. But I'm not going to date him.
If a stranger... No... Someone I don't consider as ultra important is 5
centimeters from touching I will kill them... No seriously... I will kill
them...
Yepee! I can touch oniichan! *huggies* ^_^_^_^ BYUUN!
I'm not surprised that you're wise O_O I always thought you were wise...
The best imouto you had? So how many imotous did you have before me? O_O
Call you if anyone's mean to me...? If I were to do that... I would call you
everyday... But I don't get upset much so yeah...
I'm a bit like Hina-ichigo too kuu! And like kanaria! I'm a mixed Rozen Maiden
heheh.... Oniichan's fruit basket and Eli-chan is Rozen Maiden kuu!
You will really kill them ka?Then you must've killed alot already ne.Must be a
bloody affair but....boohoo....Eli-chan didn't invite me to join in...I wanna
tear them apart too just to see if my instincts and sanity is still intact..
Yes*hugs back*.Eli-chan can jump and hug me whenever she likes.Even when walking
you can jump on my back and I'll give you a ride.
Well in real life I have one imoto.Here I have two imoto but you're the best
one...
I don't mind if you call me everyday ne.Just don't want Eli-chan to be
defenseless and get bullied.
Hai,I'm Fruits Basket and Eli-chan is Rozen Maiden aru..
Well... I would kill a lot if it was legal anyway... I have a reputation for
being a goody goody that I have to keep... Umm... Have my reason...
A boy fell asleep on my shoulder today... I WOULD have killed him but he's so
cccuuutttee! And his sister was trying to lick me... I was moving so much the
boy decided to sleep on my lap instead... HE'S SO ADORABLE! He's like 2 feet
tall! Or 3... Whatever....
Invite you? O_O Where do you live? Singapore? It's like 5 hours drive from here
to singapore...
You have one imotou? How old is she? You like her? Are you lying to me about me
being the best? There's no reason for you to like me...
Oniichan so nice kuu! Ju-chan said I couldn't... TT^TT Kuu... He apologized and
said he meant satsuki was his only friend in real life and he liked me better
anyway but I don't trust him...
Defenseless? I never will be... I have a knife, fire lighter, iron pole(Don't
ask me why I have it... i just do okay? ) and I have a bunch of dangerous
things.... Don't ask why I have them... Cause I don't know why either.... And
did you know my voice can be heard in a sound proof room and I can break glass
with my voice... Seriously I can... I speak really high pitched when I'm bubbly
but I speak really low when I feel like it... I don't often speak normal
Somehow it's weird when you say you're a fruit basket O_O
A reputation to keep as a goody goody..haha okay if you had a reason then why
not.All the better then not having a reason.
Haha..you had a fun experience ne.A cute sleeping boy and a licky licky girl.All
the people must be staring ne.
Yes I live in Singapore.5 hours huh?Hmm maybe I'll go visit then.However I can't
leave my friends at the moment.
My imoto is...well forget about her.I not close to her at all so yeah we hardly
know each other so don't ask.
No,I'm not lying.Eli-chan is the best*starts cheering*.I have my reasons too.
Haha I see.Vati-kun has his own reasons but you can always sneak up and jump on
ne...be naughty for a bit.
Ooh so Satsuki is just a friend,that's good to hear but why won't you trust
him..wait I think I know.
Wow,that's alot of weapons...then all the better to have you around me.You do
have a powerful voice,are you a mythical siren?*poke poke*
Yeah I know.....weird.
Quote by 95ElizabethOkay... I'll
answer everything one by one...
My parents want me to go to college too... They wanted me to go since like I was
5...
When I get less than As my mother hits me with anything she has.... But luckily
I'm not so stupid...
My father wants me to be into business and my mother does her best to shed my
life with tragedy...
My mother does her best and she's doing a very good job in telling me all the
tragedy in the world... I hear them so much I even know how to kill someone
without being noticed.... My mother slaps me when I don't smile... And she hits
me when I'm sad.... So am I supposed to be emotionless?
Never mind... Seriously... I wouldn't even care if I married 600 times
anymore....
Whatever.... I know I should be nicer to you since you're sad but I really don't
think you need me anymore... Go to satsuki or whatever....
I'm sorry Elizabeth.......
But your parents are wrong in forcing you to do something that you dont want
to
They can make suggestions but they shouldnt set the path for you......
I'm sorry but I cannot let you do that Elizabeth
I'll probably get angry at you for one whole day if you did so
Marriage is not a game or a picnic
It's a promise.... or a contract that you promise to the other person that you
will cherish him or her forever..... although people are blinded by the feeling
of "love" which they have obviously gotten mixed up with some other
medicore emotion and gets married without thinking so there are too many divorce
cases these days
I wont let you Eli-chama
You dont have to be nice to me Elizabeth.......
Just...... dont ignore me.... and I'll be content
It's better to get angry or hate me than to ignore me........
And no! I want to be with you not with Satsuki.... or whatever her name
is
Quote: .....Sorry... My brain's
been really blank.... I get angry then all bubbly later... Sorry...
You're really great.... You're not useless or stupid.... I'm just taking my
anger out on you... Sorry... I managed to hurt myself a lot these few weeks...
But this time REALLY! on accident... Well... A few of them just
subconsciously.... I'm so sleepy.... I hit my head on the wall when I woke up
today... And I have a fever... TT^TT Sorry.... I'll be nicer to you when I feel
better.... If I talk too much to you know I'll be really cruel to
you...
Im sorry Elizabeth.....
it's my fault......
I'm really sorry..........
I wish I could be by your side to cheer you on..... although it wouldnt help a
lot
Please Elizabeth....... I beg you.... please....... be careful..... I dont want
to know that you're hurt......
How am I suppose to sleep well at night?
It's okay..... be cruel to me all you want Elizabeth.......
If that can rid your pain even a little bit........
Quote:
Okay... I feel better now...
Is feeling bad your excuse for not coming online...? If I used that excuse I
wouldn't be here everyday since I'm always depressed... I have
mental problems... Well.... Not like I'm mad or suddenly seem drunk or
something... Like I just try to die a lot when I'm depressed.... Ysaac
promised not to the the doctor I tried killing myself yesterday if I told you
that I had mental problems and I nearly killed myself a few times because of
you...
Never mind... I hope you're feeling better today ^_^ Sorry I can't help... TT^TT
But you don't need to blame yourself for any depressing things I do... because
no matter how cruel you are I'll always be glad I met you
^_^
Umm no not really
I would come online every few month then........
Really?....... Elizabeth....... dont leave me......
I love you and I dont want you to go.........
I know......... I am........ really stupid....... but I hope that you wont cry
over me..... or get depressed........
Thank you Elizabeth TT^TT
I'm so glad that I met you as well........
Quote:
Ju-chan, you know I said I recorded God Knows on youtube? Don't listen to it yet
okay? I'm going to sing it another time.... A better one.... Cause that one
really wasn't good... But if you REALLLYYY want to.... My voice was okay... But
I just didn't follow the music and I was glaring at Ysaac so much that I sang so
loud at some places and a part "And if it would help you to go
farther" where Ysaac was tugging my skirt so I was singing it really loud
and it sounded weird.... And I was screaming at some of the parts cause Ysaac
was bothering me and Aiko and playing with my hair which was annoying... And a
part where I was supposed to say know but I said something more like between no
and na... It was just weird... I sounded like I didn't speak english or
something... Well at least I managed to keep my voice sound like a love song...
But that was probably cause Aiko was cutting love shaped paper over my head...
Blocking my view so I couldn't see the lyrics and I was just blabring...
Umm..... I thought it was nice
I want to see both your bad and good
Your darkness and your light
If I only knew your good side..... I wouldnt know you very well
You must really be talented Elizabeth....
I wouldnt sing infront of people even if they were people I knew for my whole
life
Well at least not a solo
Not to mention that I hate my voice..... sounds too..... teenager
You know....... I couldnt believe some of those were your voices
Like when you were saying Daisuke........ and something about Riku........
O_O
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
Ju-chan I'm scared... TT^TT I'm watching some mummy thing.... *screams and
cries*
Dont cry my little Elizabeth.... No mummy will hurt you
They dont exist after all
Our emotions overwhelm us sometimes but if we think about it..... we have
nothing to fear in this world.......
Well actually we do but they're only superficial....
We need fear to...... set our boundaries and all that.........
Sorry I'm not helping much am I?......
But dont worry Elizabeth....... even though my hope of protecting you might be a
little overboard at the moment..... you're safe in God's hands.......
You are always loved Elizabeth.......
I must go to bed now..... I hate school........
Less time with you TT^TT
Good night Elizabeth
A girl fell asleep on your shoulder...? Other than your girlfriend doing that I
don't think any other girl would want to risk their life falling asleep on your
shoulder O_O
Elizabeth can't touch hajime oniichan without permission...? *pokes pokes*
Okay.... Am I dead now? Kuu.... TT^TT
Oniichan sounds so wise kuu... O_O Oniichan is so wise kuu.... O_O
I likey oniichan best ^_^
My feelings...? lets see... What am I feeling now... Ooo! I know! I feel like
killing everyone if that was legal! *clap clap*
I wish killing was legal and they sold guns here kuu... TT^TT Paku paku....
Mommy's gonna get angry is eli kills kuu!
Well.. I guess I am pretty much like Suigintou..... Umm yeah... I really am like
suigntou....
Don't get me wrong,if its a stranger than that will be a problem.Its not nice of
a girl to fall asleep on some random guy's shoulder....
Haha...You can touch me Eli-chan,I won't kill you...
Sometimes I may say things that is wise but at times I say things that I'm not
even sure of and it come out wise O_O.Why are you suprise that I'm wise...?
I like Eli-chan too.The best imoto I had....Kawaiii....
Kill everyone?Really?Oh okay just don't get yourself hurt okay..Call me if
anyone don't want to die when you say so or is being mean to you.
Yeah,she'll get angry but Eli-chan won't mind ne?Because Eli-chan won't get
upset...because you are used to it.
I see.Then to me,you are suiginto and I am Haru.....wait...I'm a mixed Fruits
Basket......
Haru....Kyo....Yuki...Shigure...Ayame...Hat(...) ...I'm
everyone....
Quote by 95ElizabethBecause I want to
do my best not to kill myself and make you happy.... Guess what.... You made me
fall down the stairs yesterday.... And I got 27 stitches because I stabbed my
hand... And I tripped more than usual today.... And I tried dying a few times but
only managed to get hurt... Aren't
you glad that you managed to depress me so much? Okay.... The places I put Os
are the places I would kill myself hearing you say that... The more Os the more
angry I am but you're lucky I don't blame others much....
I'm
sorry Elizabeth........
I try to understand but...... I'm just too insensitive and dense to understand
people other than myself......
I really am stupid arent I?........ To make you sad.......
Sorry Elizabeth....... really......
I never meant to hurt your feelings or make you sad......
Elizabeth.........
When you do those kinds of things....... You make me want to die as
well......
These words may be only paper and plastic to you but it's real to me...... and I
really mean it
Quote:
Just because you're angry, obligated and all that you're not coming online?!?!
Oh my gosh! I STABBED MY HAND! And I nearly killed myself a few times because of
you and I'm online! I go out of my way for you and you can't even come online
and say at least hi or something! I came online even when I was in hospital
because of Dengue Fever! AND YOU CAN'T EVEN COME ONLINE TO SAY TWO WORDS?!?!
But why can't I ever make you happy? You make me happy all the time and I would
even take a taxi from Perth to some cafe that has wireless to get online O_O
Wait... I DID do that! Why am I always so useless to you? Why can't I do
anything right? Is coming online and saying two words "hi" that
painful for you to do? I came online even when I had a twisted leg and had an
X-Ray! X-Ray! So why is it so hard just to say hi? Am I really that annoying? I
know I'm useless, bad tempered, sensitive, annoying and the list goes on but
why?!
No....... actually that wasn't the reason I didnt' come
online
I usually come online whatever Im feelings
But my parents are putting a lot of pressure on me these days.......
About college..... and about academics....... the future......
When the only thing I can see is today and right now
When the only place I want to be is this second and this place
My head was just full of negative thoughts Elizabeth........
And it boiled my anxiety.... and I was in a state of panic....... I hate
emotional breakdowns......
Sorry....... you're right..... I should have come online to at least say
hi.....
I'm sorry Elizabeth....... so...... sorry........ I'm just too selfish....... I
really am....... I can only care about my pain........
Because I'm just too stupid........
Don't blame yourself Elizabeth........
I'm the one to blame....... I know that sorry is not enough but that's all I
have.....
Quote by vatican92
Elizabeth....... you shouldnt spread your full name on the internet........
Mine doesnt matter since most Korean names are similar and nobody can
distinguish it unless it's written in Chinese
Kiuh? What kind of food is that?
I'm not that childish am I?.........
And I dont act immature around her
I go to church with her every few weeks....... *half circle... I guess that's
your religion...*
And the meeting thing is at night *I will never know why... *
I dont let her....... *Yeah sure... Then kick her... Stab her... Whatever... *
OOOOOOOO
I push her away right after she does....... *As if... Lightly probably... *
OOOOOO
She doesnt ask permission or give me any warnings......... *Yeah... I'm really
starting to hate her... * OOOO
I dont like being hugged by anybody...... *.....Even me...? *
OOO
Sorry Elizabeth........
And I dont like any girl that way OOO
And she's like my only friend... I dont have any girls around me
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(...) MAKES ME VERY VERY VERY VERY
ANGRY! NOW SHE'S YOUR ONLY FRIEND?!
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(...)
Well actually there's about 2 guys that I hang around with but they dont really
care much about me
Elizabeth........
I'm sorry......... I'm really sorry........
That's all I can say......
That's all I can ever say........
I will never forgive myself if something happens to you........ *As if... You seem
to be fine right now.... I feel like stabbing myself again... Wonder how many
stitches I'll get this time... * O
So please........ dont be so careless about yourself Elizabeth *Then don't make
me!* OOO
Maybe I'm not as good as you expect me to be but I care for you more than
anybody.......... *I wasn't the one that expected you to be someone else... All
I wanted was for you to for once like me the way I am and stop forgetting I ever
existed... I just wanted you to be happy with how I was for once...*
You might not believe me but it doesnt matter because even if you dont care
about me, I still will *As if...*
I dont know why I'm being depressed again *You're depressed? When I'm depressed
I come online because you make me feel better but the more I read the more I
want to die now*
I dont remember anything sad or tragic happening to me...... *Yep... The saddest
thing that happened in your life was the day we met*
But I just feel down and it feels like gravity is too heavy....... *And I can't
do anything about it right?*
I cant really pretend to be happy anymore to others...... *.....I smile every
single day..... I didn't even cry when I got stitches and a knife through my
hand...*
I'm sorry Elizabeth......... that I cant make you truely happy *You do make me
happy... You just have to remember I exists... And stop saying you expected me
to be something else... And insulting me by telling me what things you hate!
Because the things you hate is exactly how I am!*
I dont really make anybody else happy either *Yeah... You don't make me happy
when you say that girl was your only friend!*
Everybody else around me always seem so disappointed in me....... *I'm never
disappointed in you okay..? That's what I mean... You always leave me out of the
picture... Because I feel like I'm less than nothing to you... Way less than
nothing... But I'm never disappointed in you... I've only been disappointed in
myself...*
If you say that..... you dont really need me either *I do need you... I need the
part of you that remembers me and the part of you that doesn't insult me all the
time without knowing it! But I never hated you for insulting me without
knowing... I just hated myself for not being your friend... You said that gay
girl's sister was your only friend... Okay fine.... I understand that I'm less
than nothing.... Someone you can't even remember...*
But I want you to be there....... even if you dont care about me and even if you
love somebody else...... I'll get jealous but...... at least you'll be happy and
I'll be happy with *You get jealous? I do my best to hate everyone so I only see
you in my world! But I'm less than nothing in your world...*
that
No Elizabeth..... if everybody else was grass, you'd be a rose or a lily.....
since I like lilies
*I'm not the rose or lily... Not anymore...*
Sorry..... Elizabeth
I guess I dont talk about you since....... I dont want to share you with other
people.......
Sorry........... I'm really sorry........
But I sometimes talk about you with other people
Like with Maria recently......
But I wont tell you what I talk to her about since it was about you
God does have many people who love him......
But there are so many more people who make him sad......
His heart cries every time he sees us killing, stealing, hurting others and.....
everything like that
I think the teacher doesnt talk about you because you're obviously smart *As
if...*
So he doesnt need to say it because everybody knows it already ^_^ *As if...*
And he might be saying that other kids are smart because he wants to encourage
them... *As if...*
You are the greenest of all grasses Elizabeth *I never will be...*
And the gemstone in the desert *Haha... very funny...*
I'm sorry Elizabeth.....
I'm sorry.......
But Elizabeth..... I cant ignore everybody else Elizabeth.... *........Do as you
wish......*
I..... just cant.......
It's not in me..... I just cant be cold towards people who I dont even know or
to the people who are kind to me...... *Ian was nice to me but I tried to hate
him so I only liked you... I ignored everyone that was kind to me except for
Hajime but he's like an older brother.. I treated everyone like dolls just so I
could see you as the only real one... But I'll always love you more than you
will ever love me.... *
I'm sorry........ I dont want to leave you...... but I will if you want me
to........ *I don't want you to leave.... But the more I talk to you... The more
you treat me like nothing....
Sorry for being so selfish Elizabeth...... I hope that you'll forgive me *You
weren't selfish... You're just forgetful... I don't mind if you want me to not
make friends.... Since I don't want myself to make friends because I'm really
scared I would forget you.... Because I forget when I'm stressed and I know I
forgot many many people because I'm so used to the sentences "What...?
You... Can't.... remember me...?" And all those people that cried because I
couldn't remember them.... That's why I want to remember you! But I seem to be
the one you forget about most*
But I'm willing to let you do anything with me unlike my other friends.......
*You just said that the gay girl was your only friend... And you could have just
added in real life or something..... And you didn't... So if she is your only
friend.... Then she is... You can't take what you said back...*
Half circle?....... what do you mean?
I dont really know why either.......
But I dont know if I can do that........
I cant shove her hard........ I dont have it in me......
No I would be honored if you were to hug me Elizabeth
Ummm sorry Elizabeth....... I should have made that clear
She's like my only friend at where I am right now..... in real life I
mean
Sorry Elizabeth..... I would beg on my knees if I was there but....... There's
never much I can do.......
I do like you for the way you are...... and I could never forget you.......
How could I?
I pray for you before anybody else whenever I pray..... even before my family or
myself.....
And you're the first person I think of when I wake up everyday........
I really love you..... with all the sincerity of my heart.......
Sorry Elizabeth....... I didnt want to hurt you somehow...... if I came online
feeling like I was on drugs or something......
Although I already hurt you basically everyday...... I'm really sorry.......
And I wasnt in the circumstance to come online.....
Not to mention the guy at my house was always on the computer...... My parents
wouldn't have let me anyway though
They're being a bit more strict than usual...... they're pressuring me about my
future and all that......
I wasnt nervous about it but as they kept trying to tell me about it..... I got
more nervous and scared of it.......
Elizabeth........ I really really do care for you
Sometimes to the point where I think is ridiculous
But I do anyway.... I dont care.......
I do remember that you exist Elizabeth...... and you really make me happy
too......
But I'm easily brought down by the things going around me.......
When I should be happy to know that you exist
And Elizabeth..... I dont expect anything from you......
The only thing I expect from you is for you to be yourself without trying to
change yourself according to what other people like.....
Even if we are different...... My love for you doesnt change one bit
And if we like different things or if we think differently..... that might stirr
up some misunderstanding and trouble but I still love you the same
Maybe I do dislike some of the characteristics that you have but it doesnt apply
to you.....
It's because.......... well........... mmm........... it's because you're
Elizabeth.......
The one I love most
So I can forget about the things I hate......
Thank you for forgiving me Elizabeth...... truely.....
Like I said before....... I just meant that...... she's the only friend that I
have in real life..... well something like a friend that's not exactly a
friend......
You're my bestest friend ever Elizabeth..... i will never replace you with
anybody
That's not true..... Elizabeth....... I care for you the most..... I think of
you before anybody..........
You are the most precious flower to me Elizabeth........
The one with the sweetest scent and multicolored ethereal petals
I cannot measure how much I love you but I hope that I will love you as much as
you love me.......
Or even more if it's possible
Sorry Elizabeth..... I didnt mean what I said......... please
understand......
Quote:
But... ler...?
Why don't you have the time? Spending too much time with satsuki(I shall name
that gay guy's sister satsuki because from now on I hate hate hate hate hate
till I want to kill anyone with the name satsuki! I hate satsuki so much I would
torture her to death! And I would die just to make her die with me!)
Of course... Now I see you're a girl... You're more like a heartbreaker...
I was joking about hating you... I really don't hate anyone more than I hate
myself...
Butler..... like a male maid
I dont spend much time with her
I dont even see her or talk to her much at school
Sorry Elizabeth........ Sorry........
Dont hate yourself Elizabeth........
I hate myself for hurting you as well.......
Quote: You're so stupid... I have
two half older brothers because they were the sons of my father's wife... My
mother isn't his wife... Well... Not exactly anyway... They didn't marry or
anything.... And you remind me of an older brother... Not mine.... Just an older
brother that actually shares the same DNA as me that I will never have since I'm
the first child of my mother... Though she tries to act like I wasn't her
daughter
I'm slow too... But if you give me time I do things easily... I'm just not fast
in maths and sports.... But I'm fast in everything else.... I understand things
in a short time and all that...
You were almost robbed...? You
should have just killed him..... I would have stabbed or burnt him... And yes I
always carry a knife around with me and I always keep candles or lighters....
Just to hurt myself when I need to... Cause if I don't hurt myself I'll hurt
someone else so yeah....
Umm...... okay
It would have been nice if you had a legimite sibling.......
I'm basically slow at everything...... I take too much time and I focus too much
on the small details.....
Well I was but he didnt harm me....
And even if he did.... it's only money.....
We're not rich but life is more important than life right?
I guess I'll have to let you hurt me a lot so that you wont hurt
yourself.....
Quote:
If I become taller than you I could become a model... I
don't want to be taller than you... It's
weird if I am...
I would think it'd be weird
There are a lot of women who are taller than guys
Although statistically men are taller....
Quote: Satsuki.... Okay okay! The
gay guy's sister is satsuki! And the girl at your house is satsuky! And the rest
of the girls are satsuke! Satsuki I hate her ultra hate! Satsuky I hate! And
Satsuke I dislike! AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME FROM HATING YOUR GIRLFRIEND SATSUKI!
Maths is so boring nya!
They didn't annoy me much... They were just saying my friend was fat..... So
carrie and I played a little game of... "Hahaha.... You're so dead cause
you're gonna get a broken neck!" yep...
They're my friends... But you'll always be more important than all of them
together... Because Ju-chan is the best! Even though he gets me depressed all
the time
Yeah that's what my mother tells me... "You need to eat more bla bla
bla" And when she eats one meal a day!
Isn't she supposed to be a good example?
I don't want to be fat!
You'll hate me if I am TT^TT
Okay fine... SHe wasn't 43kg... I was being dramatic... She was 35kg
Why is it so hard to be angry at you?!?! I'm
supposed to be angry and depressed! But you're just way too cute and adorable!
YOU'RE SO CUTE!
I dont have a girlfriend Elizabeth
And I dont think I will....... Although I wanted one in the past, now I dont
really want one
Yeah.... math sure is.... dull
Thank you sooooooo much Eli-chama TT_TT
You're the best too
Wish i could give you the biggest hug in the world right now
Of course I wont Elizabeth
Even if you were fat (not saying that you would be) I would still like you the
same
I just want you to be healthy and not sad
You're cute too Elizabeth
But...... is it good for a guy to be cute?...........
Quote: I sang a lot of songs on
Youtube without showing you I sang God
Knows... Well... The english one with ateotu's lyrics but only because it was a
a friend of mine's favourite song.... But it was like romance... And like....
It's hard.. To put emotions.... Because love is... Annoyingly disgustingly
charming... Well... I didn't show you cause it wasn't very good since I was
rushing so I could give it to her on her birthday and I didn't follow the music
Really? I better check it out as soon as I can
I think if you put your best in it...... it's still a good song
Your voice is annoyingly disgustingly charming as well so I like your songs
Quote: I'm sorry... I was scolding
you and getting angry for nothing...
I was... Jealous.... Sorry... I'm really unreasonable aren't I?
But I just got really mad when you said that gay guy's sister was your only
friend... I guess I felt a little left out...
You said you were confused and tired and angry and all that and I didn't care...
I'm sorry... I'm so sorry....
I can't do anything for you so it's okay if Satsuki(But I'll name the gay guy's
sister satsuki)
since I can't do anything for you, it's okay if she hugs you or clings on to you
or whatever.... I really can't do anything right can I?
You know... You really seem flawless to me ^_^ So please don't think you're
selfish or not good enough for me!
cause I really think I'm not good enough for you.... Because I see flaws way too
clearly.... I really hate myself for being who I am.... So whenever you tell me
you expected me to be someone else or criticize me without knowing I guess I
just become bad tempered.... When I really don't have any reason to get angry
Satsuki is really much better for you than I am.... At least she knows how to
make you happy and make you remember her
I can never forget mistakes..... So when someone criticizes me I just really
want to die even more since my faults are already an open book to me
It's okay now.... I won't be so sensitive and unreasonable anymore! I'm glad
you have satsuki instead of stupid me that can't do anything right
Well, have a nice day ^_^ See you tomorrow or the day after or next week or next
month or next year or the next decade or today when I die! haha! Joking joking
Thank you soo much for forgiving me Elizabeth......
I'm really sorry too.....
I would never leave you out Elizabeth....... I..... just said it wrong......
I dont really like her clinging on to me
And I think she already has a boyfriend anyway
I guess I'm just a play thing to her or something
You've already done enough for me Elizabeth
I'm just so happy that you've forgiven me
You made my day a lot brighter and happier already
You're a lot more important to me than Satsuki
And Elizabeth.... I also tell you about other people..... because I want you to
understand me.......
What kind of life I have and what kind of people are around me......
I never want to let go of you........
I'm sooo selfish....... but I want to make you my true bff
Quote by 95ElizabethIt's okay if you
like satsuki better than me! She's so
great that she managed to make you happier than I ever could! She must be
really good then! I admire her! I'm glad you're happy!
I don't feel like wasting your time bothering you anymore... It's okay now...
Marry, date, do whatever you want... You can stick with satsuki or whatever....
I was just pulling you back... Anyway... I shouldn't live in my fantasy that you
actually find me important! So
bye! ^_^
I wont be happy without you Elizabeth.... even if I
have everything in the world......
So please dont leave me.......
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
I didn't finish reading what you wrote but seriously... Whatever.... It's
okay... I'm really not in a good mood.... I didn't even read Hajime's post.... I
really don't feel like it right now..... Sorry... I'll talk to you when stupid
Ysaac finished bandaging my hand... He's so useless...
I'm sorry Elizabeth.........
You can take your time...... You can take 10 years if you want to..... although
I would prefer if it was shorter
I must go now Elizabeth......
Please take care........
I love you....... Really really really!
I don't love vatican... He's annoying... Anyway... I decided to just leave him
alone..... It just seems like the more I'm with him the more depressed he
gets... And some girl comes alone and he just seems so happy that he said she
was his only friend... Heh... I guess I never was his friend or less than
nothing... I'm naming the girl the official satsuki....
I'm just going to leave him alone.... I used to always tell him he wasn't
allowed to marry but it's really okay now.... I don't want to pull him back all
the time... Anyway there's no point even liking him.... He always treats me like
someone he can go to when everyone else isn't available... Never mind.... I'm
just going to leave him with satsuki...
Him...? A knight...? As if... He made my life worse than it was.... But it's
okay.... I glad I met him ^_^
Betrayed? You should have just killed anyone who betrayed you... I don't trust
anyone... After vatican I seriously won't.... He doesn't forget people who are
nice to him but I hate everyone so I can only see the few people... Scratch
that... The two people that are... Scratch that again... One person that I care
about and actually cares about me... Vatican was in the important list but he
doesn't want to... He has satsuki so there's no point in liking someone that
makes you feel like nothing.... So oniichan can be important.... And if you hate
me I'll hate you... I really don't get sad over things.... I gotten used to
it...
Believe in vatican...? I believed in him many times.... He doesn't care about me
much... He barely knows anything about me and I even know what food he hates and
likes.... Never mind.... I give up on him... I should stop living from the
fantasy where he seems so perfect.... But I don't regret meeting him... Never
did.....
I don't lead my own life... I END my own life.... Someone else just leads me...
I follow and when no one leads me I just turn back till I fall down the cliff
that I would never see if I'm walking backwards without looking.... I follow
whoever ask me to follow.... I don't like going against people.... I just do
whatever I do subconsciously... I don't even think... That's why I hurt myself
by accident so much.... But I'm just really blank when I get hurt.... I suddenly
feel like doing maths... Uh... Weird...
Tsk...I'm totally annoyed for today.My day has been spoilt by some measly humans
that don't know their place..baka baka and a stupid girl that fell asleep on my
shoulders....
Arghhh....don't touch me unless I say so if not it might cost you your
life....
Tsk....lets put that aside ne..
Okay,seems that you don't love vati-kun but your feelings are bordering near
that...hmm...letsee...if correct its called a feeling of affection.
He might really like the girl to be able to forget about you.Bad bad..
Sounds like you're really hoping to be able to be with him by telling those
things.But its normal,certain people have that kind of big expectations over
something or someone.
And its smart of you to let him be....if you hadn't you would have been stuck
thinkng about this forever.I don't think he treats you like that,he likes you ne
that's why he goes to you everytime not ony when nobody else is available.
Yeah,just leave him with satsuki if that's what you think is best.I'll support
you.
Haha....good to hear that you're glad to had met him.He must felt the same
too.
If I was who I am a few years back,I would have killed everyone that betrays me
or stood in my way but I don't want to do that now....I want to change that
darker side....erase all that dark history...
But I can't as long as I think about HIM,my blood rages....I would never kill
anybody but HIM I WILL!
You hate everyone ka?Been there,done that....my heart used to be darker than the
night sky and colder than the Arctic winds....
...just forget about this...
Vati-kun is still on that list,he just doesn't realise that what he's doing is
hurting you.If you don't believe him then so be it but at least give him a
chance.
See you do care about another person..good for you my dear imoto.
I won't hate you.I've said so many times before.
Fantasy?Its okay to lived in that fantasy.
Tell you something Eli-chan.I lead my own life to destroy my own life.
The world is as cruel as it is and kind as it is....that's called
fairness.Remember you are one person,choose your path and live the way you see
fits or drift along with time and head towards the abyss like I almost
did....tsk....now it got worst...I'm heading to hell instead.
Eli-chan ask this to yourself:"What's my true fellings right now?"
Don't get caught up in this moment of thinking because that is not your truest
feelings....
btw...arigatou.You like that pic I made ne.Yes you are Suiginto because I
visualise you as her.Don't ask why.
Quote by 95ElizabethMe...? Well..
I'm...
You know... I can't help thinking you were a girl since you RP as mint
yes im asking about you..oh sorry hehe i am a guy so don't worry about it..yeah
i just play a girls role as mint...its not easy trying to think like a girl..so
its defenaly a challenge but i always loved mint so i try to do her character
justice
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I'm really sensitive to criticism and vatican criticizes me so much without
noticing TT^TT When I get criticized I usually snap and start being aggressive
and mean and try killing myself and all that.... Seriously.... Vatican gets me
really depressed and he doesn't know it!
Yeah I know I'm really stubborn... Once I say I want to die I'll do anything to
die... vatican managed to make me happy and I didn't hurt myself for a few weeks
but then he insulted me without knowing it and talked about the girl he used to
like and said "I never expected you to be so childish" and I got
extremely depressed since he used to say he thought I was wise so I decided not
to be so childish and stop saying paku paku and kuu and all that... He insults
me a lot but I don't get angry... I'm barely ever angry at anyone but myself...
But then I told him I hated it when someone expected me to be someone else or
expects more from me than I can give and he still continues insulting me... I
tell him I don't like it and he just says he likes me no matter what personality
I have but.... He just said he hated childish personalities and all that so it's
pretty hard to believe... I don't really feel like trusting anyone anymore...
Nowadays when he promises me something I just forget it since I know he's not
keeping the promises... And he said he hated the characters I liked but I only
like characters with personalities like me... TT^TT He really doesn't know me
when I know a lot about him like what food he hates and likes and all that...
TT^TT And I know what people he hates... And it's depressing to think about what
personalities he hates because my personality is exactly like that When he comes
back I might apologize for being alive since he probably hates me a lot TT^TT
And I'm probably just bothering him...
I remind you of Tohru...? TT^TT But the difference is I apologize for being
me.... And I did do wrong... The wrong I did was being born... I'm probably more
like Ritsu...
When my mind is empty I just go blank and hurt myself subconsciously...
I don't like being treated nicely... It just makes me feel like I'm wasting your
time....
Paku paku.. kuu... Okay...
And my mother didn't die... She NEARLY died...
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Oniichan.... Am I really that bad? That vatican can't even remember my
existence...? Or am I just nothing to him...? He said some girl was his only
friend... He said she was the only girl who was around him.... He told me he
expected more from me and all that and I was okay with it! Am I really that bad?
Oh great... Now I just let my cousin see me cry... I hate life so much more than
ever now! I'm sorry I ever existed and tell vatican that I wish I was dead and
I'm sorry that his stupid brain can't even figure out why I'm angry! I am so
sorry for ever being born... And I feel like the foolish one now! Why did I ever
think that he actually thought I was important?! Okay I'm not talking about this
anymore cause I am going to cover my laptop with tears! I kinda prefer blood...
If I'm not online tomorrow, expect me to be dead ^_^
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Umm... Sorry... It's okay now.... I was angry at vatican just because he said
some girl was his only friend.... I was just being immature and unreasonable...
He can like whoever he likes.... It's okay now ^_^
There there,don't cry now liltte Eli-chan my dear sister.
Hmm...so its okay now.Good.I thought I've lost my imoto in anguish and
despair.You be as you are,its fine.You're not bad aru,see you even let him like
any girl he fancies.
You shouldn't be angry if he did explained some things to you.Afterall,h still
cares for you and you should too.
Tell vati-kun that you're dead?You're too hasty besides I will never do
that.Hate life?oya oya...Eli-chan,you're letting your emotions control you.
You thought that you're important to him because he's the one that you really
like and wants to share everything with.You're not foolish.You're are something
of value to him..
Cheer up a bit or something okay?
Its okay to be sensitive to criticisms most people are just like that too.Some
take it alot worst than you..
Be as you want to be.Don't care what others think about you,if you want to be
childish than just be.That's who you are and they must learn to accept it.
If you barely get angry over others than its pointless too get angry at
yourself...getting all angry and depress is not a good thing.
Eli-chan like I told you countless times....be yourself.Don't do things that you
don't like just to please others,do what you think is best.And everything will
be fine....
This is getting to tense..I miss the child name Eli-chan.
So you think that you're wasting my time?Hmm....its so sad...that all the effort
that I tried to help you is just nothing to you.
But oh well,I don't mind because as a brother I will always treat you nice..
.
Oniichan TT^TT YOU'RE THE GREATEST KUU!
Actually... When we first met I was pretty rude to him and I said things like
"Don't even say you'd hug me... No touchie the hair! " And things like
that but he kept on telling me he loved me and I was important and all that she
I guess I just gave in....
Cheer up yeah sure.... I'll cheer up when he stops lying.... I was lied to for
so many years I really hate being lied to...
Vatican keeps on telling me that he'll like me no matter how I am but I know
that's not true... He sees me as the kind, gentle, loving, pretty, angelic and
charming Elizabeth but I'm not... I'm not even close... I will never be what
anyone wants me to be... I'm just a hollow shell with over a zillion masks....
Ara ara,I'm just being someone who tries to help.
Hmm see you two have gone a long way.From being rude to loving each other.You
must cherish the moments with him ne...or you might regret it later.
Think of him as someone who has come to save you like a white...err..no black
knight rescuing a lolita princess.
I hate being lied too but I hate betrayals more.Especially by those you thought
are your most trusted friends....tsk....bad memories.
Eli-chan my imoto...you must learn to believe in him because he is sincere in
his feelings for you because vati-kun says things that are on his mind very
easily.
Never what people want you to be?Hmm...that says for alot of people not only
you.
Eli-chan my dearest imoto,you are who you are.Life goes on....you lead the way
not them...
Quote by 95Elizabeth
No ones ever loved you before TT^TT But I do! I would die for you even though I
prefer pain than death Sis is the best kuu!
Chantz...? He sounds nice... Better than SOME people with a name that starts
with a vati and ends with a can... He says sorry for leaving me for so long and
making me lonely and dissapears the next day for like a week!
I know you love me, I know that very well. I love you so much. I think about you
a lot. I also put "Lost Butterfly" on my music player so I can learn
the words and sing along when I think of you.
Chantz is great. He's a great guy and I can tell he's different.. But I'm still
starting to push him away.. I kick and fight and try to make him leave.. But he
knows better. He's staying.
Oh dear, people may come and go physically, but we never leave you emotionally,
we will stay by your side in your heart and ours.
Quote by 95ElizabethI really miss
you.... Please come online... I'm in Australia.... So I payed for the internet
so I could talk to you..... But
you seem to be busy with your real life...... Are you busy with that girl at
your house...? Please come online for just 2 seconds and type "hi" or
something Hajime's really nice and he's keeping me company but he's not
the same... Well... Not as stupid and naive anyway
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
Really....... sorry........
I'm just not myself these days......
I'm confused and tired......
A sheep gone astray......
My little head full of useless thoughts and anger.....
Blinded by the hollowness that my eyes show me
Overwhelmed by the void that fills my soul with thirst......
Eh..... it's not time to be poetic.......
But that's what I feel now
My absence ahd nothing to do with the girl
I say 2 words to her everyday
I say hi when she says hi and..... I say yes or no to the questions she ask
Sometimes I answer her English problem and all that but that's just because I
feel obligated to
Quote: Names....? I hate my real
name.... My sur name sounds like the name of a malaysian food... It's
Koay.... And Kuih is the name for a malaysian food...
Baby brother...? That's cause you're immature...
At night...? What's she doing with you at night...? Hugging you...? And why do
you let her....? Actually... I don't really care anymore... I give up on you...
You're impossible to please... Never mind.... I'll just go for Ian or
something... he's not that bad... At least he doesn't have a bunch of girls
around him... No... Actually he does... Never mind... I'll just go for the
devil... No use thinking you're most important since you seem to have so many
friends of yours... I shouldn't have met you.... You make life harder for me....
I
don't care about you talking to me about how others treat you... It just shows
how common I am....
I'm starting to dislike the gay guy's sister.... Why can't she see at night
anyway...? We went for a night walk at camp... And I sneaked away and wandered
around the ally without my teacher... Who cares if I get kidnapped or
anything...? I could die for all I care.. I really don't care about anything
anymore....
Depressed....? Depression is extremely common for me... I don't see the point in
being happy... I really don't mind suffering at all... I've gotten used to
it.... I had lots of practice with not crying when I feel like dying thanks to
you... Thanks a lot for the training... But I don't care so yeah whatever..
You don't need me... Stop telling me how much you care about me.... You don't
seem like you do... I did my best not to make friends so you were all I ever
thought about but I just noticed that I was stupid to care about you so much
when I'm just like grass... So common....
You don't complain a lot.... You actually talk about the people who've been
there for you a lot..... If only you WOULD complain... But you don't.... You
talk about the friends and important people to you a lot... And I wish you would
just shut up... I hate being grass all the time... My father always talks about
his children... And I seem to be only one of his children.... My teacher talks
about all the great singers she's heard and that just makes me sick to be one of
the good voices... God has a million people and that irritates me like hell to
know that I'm just one of his several children.... My teacher talks about all
his smart students all the time and it just makes me angry to know I'm one of
the smart ones.... I don't want to be grass... I don't want to be stone where
you can just pick one up anywhere... I don't want to be gold either where
there's more than one... I don't want to be one of them... I don't want to be
one of your best friends.... Even if you treated me like your sister, I know you
treat more than me as a sister... So if you're not going to see only me in this
world please just leave me alone.....
Elizabeth....... you
shouldnt spread your full name on the internet........
Mine doesnt matter since most Korean names are similar and nobody can
distinguish it unless it's written in Chinese
Kiuh? What kind of food is that?
I'm not that childish am I?.........
And I dont act immature around her
I go to church with her every few weeks.......
And the meeting thing is at night
I dont let her.......
I push her away right after she does.......
She doesnt ask permission or give me any warnings.........
I dont like being hugged by anybody......
Sorry Elizabeth........
And I dont like any girl that way
And she's like my only friend... I dont have any girls around me
Well actually there's about 2 guys that I hang around with but they dont really
care much about me
Elizabeth........
I'm sorry......... I'm really sorry........
That's all I can say......
That's all I can ever say........
I will never forgive myself if something happens to you........
So please........ dont be so careless about yourself Elizabeth
Maybe I'm not as good as you expect me to be but I care for you more than
anybody..........
You might not believe me but it doesnt matter because even if you dont care
about me, I still will
I dont know why I'm being depressed again
I dont remember anything sad or tragic happening to me......
But I just feel down and it feels like gravity is too heavy.......
I cant really pretend to be happy anymore to others......
I'm sorry Elizabeth......... that I cant make you truely happy
I dont really make anybody else happy either
Everybody else around me always seem so disappointed in me.......
If you say that..... you dont really need me either
But I want you to be there....... even if you dont care about me and even if you
love somebody else...... I'll get jealous but...... at least you'll be happy and
I'll be happy with
that
No Elizabeth..... if everybody else was grass, you'd be a rose or a lily.....
since I like lilies
Sorry..... Elizabeth
I guess I dont talk about you since....... I dont want to share you with other
people.......
Sorry........... I'm really sorry........
But I sometimes talk about you with other people
Like with Maria recently......
But I wont tell you what I talk to her about since it was about you
God does have many people who love him......
But there are so many more people who make him sad......
His heart cries every time he sees us killing, stealing, hurting others and.....
everything like that
I think the teacher doesnt talk about you because you're obviously smart
So he doesnt need to say it because everybody knows it already ^_^
And he might be saying that other kids are smart because he wants to encourage
them...
You are the greenest of all grasses Elizabeth
And the gemstone in the desert
I'm sorry Elizabeth.....
I'm sorry.......
But Elizabeth..... I cant ignore everybody else Elizabeth....
I..... just cant.......
It's not in me..... I just cant be cold towards people who I dont even know or
to the people who are kind to me......
I'm sorry........ I dont want to leave you...... but I will if you want me
to........
Sorry for being so selfish Elizabeth...... I hope that you'll forgive me
But I'm willing to let you do anything with me unlike my other
friends.......
Quote: What's Hayate no Gotoku...?
o_O
Trinity blood...? You watch so much anime...
Selfish...? Cruel....? Scared of you...? You're
like a girl to me... Why would I be scared...?
Kind and gentle..? Caring...? I'm not! I hate you kuu! Hate hate
Ju-chan!
Hayate no Gotoku is an anime about some weird butler
who works for this little girl because she thought he was in love with her or
something.....
I do watch animes often but nowadays I dont find the time to do so.......
Me? A girl? I dont act like a girl or think like one
People just mistake me for one sometimes
Of course you are Elizabeth
I want to believe that you are Elizabeth......
And you are kind, gentle and caring to me even if you dont think so
Sorry Elizabeth.......
Sorry for making you hate somebody
...... even if it's just me
Quote: Of course it still hurts!
I didn't say I had an older brother... I
meant you remind me of an older brother that I never had... Well.. That is not
counting my half siblings...
Change...? If I've never changed in 11 years I'm not changing... EVER!
you're so slow...
Why do people get meaner if they stay in Korea...? o_O I'm not even sure they
do....
I'm sorry Elizabeth.....
An older brother you never had?........
Umm....... I dont really understand
Elizabeth...... I never wanted to change either really
But I just changed with realizing
Sorry Elizabeth........ I am slow....... But I can't really do things fast
I guess people are influenced by the hostile culture and mean people
I almost got robbed while I was in Korea too
I was taking a walk and this weird guy came up to me and asked for money
But I got out of trouble soon by talking to him
I was thinking of hitting him and running since he didnt' look that big......
although he seemed a lot stronger than me
But I just talked to him and he just left me alone
Quote: 6 4 months...? o_O Is she on
a long holiday or something?!?! I never stay at somewhere else for more than 2
weeks! And that includes the hospital! They
can't make me!
You should just kill her... Seriously... If I were your little sister I would've
killed her for you... Well.. For me but lets say for you... Seriously....
Worthless little low life like her should just vanish... I know I know... You'd
probably hate me for saying such cruel things about your precious satsuki(I
decided to name all the girls you have a relationship(Even if you're just
friends) Satsuki... Because in Nana(I only watched a few episodes and I hated
it) Nana(Two nanaS, the Nana with brownish hair) thought that her
boyfriend(whatever his name is) had another girlfriend called satsuki(or
something else) and he really did! So satsuki for all the girls in this world!
Except for me...
Kick him? You should stab him.... Much easier... I always get what I want
because I'm younger... tehehhehe.... But it's
much more fun seeing them bleedd! You
know, my friend carrie and I always hit boys! carrie even stabbed a boy's
shoulder with needles once! And I scratched a boy's eye and he had his eye
covered for a year... My nails are 2.5 cetimeters long And
incredibly sharp thanks to manicure! MAUAHHAA! But of course if they wanted to
live they didn't tell anyone about it... Like Ian says! What's worse than me is
me AND carrie! carrie hates him too Carrie's
not good at studies like I am but she's incredibly good at orgami! And I'm good
at painting landscapes! She can't act or sing as good as me but she's extremely
good at sports! I'm so proud to have her as a friend!
You ARE girly... Carrie's tougher than you and she's a girl... She's
better at sports(she's even better than me!) she's better at fighting(She's even
better than me! AGAIN) She wears boy's clothes(WAAYYY MORE THAN ME) She has
short hair(So much shorter than mine!) Her face is quite pretty as a girl when
you look closely though! And once I forced her to wear a dress to school and let
down her hair and just wear a hairband she looked so pretty that the boys
drooled over her and I just couldn't stand beside her... She
eats a lot, more than me... When has anyone ate less than me? I eat like, once a
day but still Carrie who eats 5 meals a day is skinnier than me... Oh
well... Kane eats 4 meals a day, she eats like a bundle of rice and she's
thinner... And I practice netball 5 hours everyday and she doesn't even practice
and she's better... No use.. I'll just stick to depression... I don't eat cotton
candy, sweets nothing! I eat one cotton candy in every 4 or 5 years and
everyone's still thinner than me Emma
eats sweet everyday and she looks perfectly fine! But I guess I'm not overweight
so it's okay.. You know! Emma's 10 years old, she's short, she weights 43
kilograms and she's thinner than me when I weight 29 kilograms! o_O Stupid
god... Another reason for me to hate him...
You're not selfish...? I do my best not to make friends so you'll always be
number one so you didn't have to say so...
I think it's
holiday or something.......
She was in China before she came here so she must be having a long holiday or
something
I dont like staying at someplace other than m house either
I cant kill anybody Elizabeth....... and she's done nothing to me anyway and I
havent done anything to her either
Which Satsuki are you talking about?
I dont hate you Elizabeth.......
I said like 15 words to her in the past few days......
When I was learning math, she was "Do you know how to do this?" and I
was nodding or shaking my head and she explained blabla and she asks "do
you understand?" and I nod
my head and it was really quiet.......
I dont like to see people bleeding Elizabeth
They must have done something really bad to annoy you...... or something
You have a variety of friends there Elizabeth
People around me are quite....... dull and similar
I think I'm stronger than a girl who's younger than me Elizabeth
She sounds like an anime character
You eat once a day?
That's not good Elizabeth...... you wont get enough nutrition that you need when
you grow
Are girls sensitive about how thin or fat they are?
43kg at 10 years and thinner than you? That doesnt make much sense.......
It would if she was as tall as me.....
Thank you Elizabeth........
I'm so glad to have somebody like you Elizabeth
You're so understanding and caring person
Quote by 95ElizabethYou're less than
60kg? o_O Wow.. You're pretty light for a guy... No wonder you're like a
girl...
Taller...? I think you're really tall already... I have
to look up to talk to you...
Umm I weigh around 54~58kg
Somewhere between that.... I'm not sure
Am I?..... Well at my height..... if I go over 68kg, I am overweight
I am not like a girl
You still have lots of time to grow
I think I already stopped growing.......
I dont really care about my height anymore.......
who knows? You might turn out to be taller than me when we meet....
Quote by 95ElizabethJu-chan! I
seriously have issues with love songs you know.. But I
just ADORE the music! She's not professional but I think she sings really well!
Could you hear please? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1VSr3DN9oR0
I LOVE THIS SONG! Well... the music... not the lyrics... Well... The lyrics
is... okay... maybe a little bit more than okay but it's not to die
over...
Her voice is nice too..... but I like your voice a lot more
And I'm not lying
I dont know if it's because your voice but I still think your voice is just as
good as Noto Mamiko's voice
But love songs...... I dont really fancy romance lyrics......
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Yeah I shouldn't compare you to an idiot like him... He's so naive and he lets
me bully him.. Stupid... He reminds me of a girl... That I can pick on all the
time....
No I trust you! Gomenasai TT^TT
I only get bored when the other person gets bored... I never get bored if they
don't get bored I don't take things to heart! Even if someone hits me with an
iron pole I only get angry for like 5 seconds! I'm so stupid! But I don't wanna
be angry for a long time.... I apologize even when I didn't do anything wrong...
But they think I did... So I just apologize.... I don't like making enemies.....
Though I seem to have a lot of people hating me
You should tear V apart... You should kill him.. KILL! That idiot.... He
promises me that he'll never leave me alone again and he vanishes the next
day... Did you know I forget things when I'm stressed....? Hard to explain....
But I remember after a while... I forgot my name a few times and sometimes I do
things when my brain isn't even thinking and I have no idea what I'm doing...
And I have problems breathing when I cry... Stupid... Not that I ever cry...
Except that when I'm alone.... I hate loneliness....
I'll commit suicide even if someone tells me I'll never grow old... I have no
interest in life...
I never did underestimate you.... I know you can take care of yourself... I
can't take care of myself though.... You find me smooth and perfectly fine today
and you see blood all over my room the next day... or minute... heh....
You like to be alone...? I feel alone even when my friends are talking with
me.... Nothing pleases me... But I'm extremely lonely now! THAT IDIOT VATICAN
LEFT ME FOR SO MANY DAYS! I WILL KILL HIM!
Be mad at them forever...? Depends on my mood.... I'd either kill them there and
then or... There and then... I don't like it when I don't finish something I
start...
Knives...? If I did that I am so not getting good marks for my report card and
if I don't that idiot boy in my class is going to gloat... I hate that guy... He
only sees everything bad about me.... One day I swear I will kill him and make
him beg for forgiveness! UGH!
Your girlfriend hits you...? Wow she's cool! ^_^ I LIKE HER MORE NOW! No
offense.... I just love it when I get to control people! Vatican's so stupid
he's like a 2 year old girl...
I have a personality...? What...? Split personalities...?
Vatican likes milk... But not sure about strawberry milk...
Even I'm an open book...? Tsk... As if... I could be crying when I'm extremely
happy and extremely happy when my mother just died...
I really don't like Vatican's personality.... Sometimes I think he takes me for
granted.... He tells me things about which anime he doesn't like when my
personality is just like the type of anime characters he says he hates... And he
tends to talk about people he likes a lot and that really irritates me... I
don't mind the fact that he complaints a lot.... but I mind the fact that he's
always telling me he never expected me to be so childish and bla bla bla... He
reminds me of how useless I am....
That's right never ever compare me to the paesants out there..my blood rages
when I'm been compared to but fortunately,I'm on the happy side for now...
Most humans are naive aru.Maybe he lets you pick on him to show that he don't
really mind and to let you know he cares...?Hmm...I don't know..
Gomenasai ka?....
I'll never get bored with little Eli-chan,there's no reason for me to get
bored.
There you go again saying that your stupid....you're being stubborrn ne but I
don't really care what you want to do because its your life so you make the
decisions..
You're awfully nice not to stay angry for long and keep apologizing even if you
done no wrong..ahaha...you remind me of Touru Honda aru...
Its better not to make enemies by yourself,let them hate you because they are
silly to feel that way..and I don't know why would they make you an enemy?
I'll kill them for casting you aside.....tsk....
Korosuuuuu!But when will he return?How dare he promises and leave you alone for
so many days...wait he's doing what I used to do...hmm....its bothersome..
Hmm....you have a very complicated mind but its great since it works differently
from others.
You hate loneliness....then don't worry that's what I'm heree for.To be on your
side.
No interest in life?Life is really boring isn't it...I sometimes lose interest
too.I can become a nutcase when it gets to boring....
When my mind is empty the other side will take over and make me do insane
stuffs....
I trust that you can take care of yourself.Even if you're all bloody,I'll carry
you and treat those wounds myself.I'm used to seeing blood.....
Sometimes I do like to be alone just to get away from the suffocating
reality...
and pointless conversations that other have among each other which doesn't
concern me at all....
You shouldn't be alone...hmm where has my kawaii imoto gone to?Where's
the"paku paku" and "kuu" gone to?I miss them....
Ooh you sound just like me.I finishes things that I started.So you'll kill
them...haha....sugoi sugoi..I'm even more liking this...but you should make him
beg before you kill him otherwise there is no point...
She didn't really hit me that hard,she's only playfully doing so.There's no
major anger or anything...
Controllin people...ahahaha...already done that.And it was fun until I cut the
strings because they were begining to bore me...
OKay having split personalities is more fun...no a whole lot of fun..too bad I
only have two...white and black...
Oh,you're mother just died...hmm...sad to hear that.
He's a straight shooter ne?Say things on his mind as soon as they pops up and
sometimes it does't really make sense.I don't really know since he seem sane too
me and make some sense in his posts...
You're not useless...thank you for living.You're existence is really much
appreciated by me and some others.
Eli-chan...okaeri..
Quote by 95Elizabeth
If an angel's job is to help those who have just begun their journey... Then a
demons job must be to accept those who have stopped... ^_^ I know it seem as if
it has nothing to do with anything but it does! To me anyway! I just don't get
how you can love so many people... So... Who do you love most of all of them?
^_^
Eh, it is complicated.
See, there is LOVE.. and there is LUST.
I was never loved in my life by family, friends, or romantically.
So when boys started liking me, I took whatever I could get.
I loved them, but they lusted for me, thus creating bad relationships.
Then because of this love/lust combination causing bad experience I wrote of
love as bad, although I'd never had a love/love relationship.
Then I kicked love and decided to lust.
I'd lust/lust with people but I wanted emotion.
Now I do nothing, I stray away from love and lust..
But now people are starting to love me, and I feel nothing.
My bestie Chantz is a great guy, and this time I mean it. He is innocent,
respectful, polite, caring, honest, trustworthy, and he really feels for me.
But I openly told him I don't do dating or love or lust or infatuation
anymore.
He respects that <33
I think if he is a good guy and keeps a good friendship and mild interest in me
for over a year, then he's a keeper.
But it's all very comlplicated, but with every passing day I learn something
new, so the day before every day was more confusing than the one after, so my
past in very complex so I try not to think about it..
Beautiful voice? Hope so kuu.... But I think I can act pretty good... I know how
to cry on stage! Though once I has to wear a mustache cause I was supposed to be
mad...
I'm not worrying.... Because I trust Hajime oniichan! ^_^
Not mean... Just weird kuu... Me like weird people kuu... ^_^
Die early? TT^TT But... Then Elichama will be looneellyyy.... Well there's
vatican but he seems to have a lot of friends to go to...
Careful? Vatican told me that too but he himself is clumsy kuu.... I'll be
careful for oniichan! I'll walk 1 meter per hour ku! And when I learn to drive
I'll drive one kilometer an hour kuu!
haji oniichan really like a big brother kuu.... ^_^ Elichama only child kuu!
Kyo... Yeah Kyou senpai is okay.... But he's pretty stupid kuu.... Hajime
oniichan is better kuu! And Kyo trained in the mountains! Fighting bears kuu!
Alone.... Sometimes I feel that everyone's lower than me... Everyone's so stupid
there isn't a competition for me at all kuu.... They all suck at studies and
they sing like turtles.... Low life... But Hajime Oniichan isn't low life kuu!
Hajime oniichan high life! That doesn't make sense kuu... TT^TT Hajime oniichan
king of the world kuu!
Flowers and butterflies are pretty kuu.... Especially roses kuu....
Rooossiieee.... Black and red butterflies pretty but my classmates say they're
scary and they tried to squash it! But I kick kicked their faces Stupid low
life! Flowers and butterflies deserve to live more than them...
Hajime oniichan heart isn't black! Even if you tell me I'm stupid, childish,
ridiculous and hateful I still don't think oniichan is mean!
I was joking about the mental problem.... Elichama is fine.... I'm just a bit
cold that's all....
Mommy asked me to be smart... And I get straight As but she still scolds me...
Mommy asked me to love god and I tried but she still scolds me... Mommy asked me
to be quiet and I did... Mommy asked me to not make friends outside and I
didn't... Mommy asked me to learn all about tragedy and only read tragedy and
learn to adore sadness more than happiness and never smile in front of her... I
did all she asked me to do but she still hates me... Maybe because I couldn't be
the kids she told me to be.... Because I'm not Christina... Because I'm not
Jekrin... because I'm not someone else.... So she hates me.... I'm so bad at
acting! I can't even become my cousins! Elichama so useless kuu... TT^TT
You know... That orden thing you talked about... Who's the leader kuu...? Or do
you not have leaders? Curious kuu... Because I've never heard of an orden kuu...
Except for my father's stupid company... I never wanted to be related to my
father... I never asked to exists....
Cut my hair? But mommy told me I shouldn't... She said if I had long hair she
could play with me... She dresses me up like a dolly a lot... And she treats me
like one too.... Never mind.... I want to be useful anyway....
Conditions... But I didn't say "go out with me" Because my mother
would 1, kill me... 2... She'd kill me... 3... She'd kill me... She doesn't like
me having relationships... Friends are for "humans" she would say...
And since when have I NOT been human...? Kuu... Never mind kuu...
Vampire....? I want to be a vampire too! So then I can meet the devil! And ask
him if I was his daughter! If I was I'll suffer for eternity if I wasn't... I'd
be sad.... Because the devil seems so lonely... Everyone's looking at god and
forgetting the devil... So the devil really is lonely... Maybe he just needs
friends... But at the same time I don't really believe in these god stuff kuu...
I think god is the door you open when you want to escape and devil is the lock
you blame when the door doesn't open.. heh... I'm so childish kuu! TT^TT
Devil Beast of Dawn...? Ne... Oniichan... Do you want people tobe scared of you?
I don't think they should call you that.... When they don't even know you
well... I'll only let them call you that if you want them to! If you don't! I'll
summon the devil to eat them up! Well... That is if I could... Other than a
bunch of witchcraft stuff I have nothing... Few voodoo dolls... Few books of
spells... Uh... Stuff like that... Physically I'm pretty useles... I think I'd
prefer hiding behind you... But then again.... If someone wanted to kill me and
if you stood in front of me you might get hurt right...? And if you do I'll be
sad for the rest of my life ku!
Thank you for existing ^_^ I know you dislike your parents(Or maybe you don't)
but I thank them for bringing you into this world ^_^ Have a nice day! I type so
slow! TT^TT Kuu...
merged: 01-08-2008 ~ 10:29pm
I just noticed something! Is your birthday July 18th? ^_^
You are a good lil actress if you can cry like that on stage.Hmm..a what?A
mustache...you must have look silly ne?I had to wear a dress because some
friends made me wear them but I don't mind...I like nail arts too but its no
longer fun.
You trust me...why thank you and I trust lil Eli-chan too.
I'm wierd..haha...maybe.But I'm don't care what others think about me
anymore.
Oya oya...really might die early because I have many enemies who wants me to pay
for the pain I caused but I won't let them because they are fools.BAKA!
Eli-chan won't be lonely because Vati-kun still with you right.
1 meter per hour?Haha...that's really funny but that'll will be slow for you to
get to school.Vati-kun's clumsy?
Well everyone is clumsy at times even me .
Me is onichan.You is my imoto...
Better?Watashi ka?No no I'm just average like you said I'm a mixed Fruits
Basket.
Kyo did trained in mountains but never fought bears...
Silly silly that didn't really made sense but I understand what you
meant.Everyone is peasants...they are nothing compared to you lovely
Eli-chan.
They lived on Earth but we lived in the Sky Noah.huh,calling me king?I'm not a
king nor a prince but I like being graceful and elegant.
The only noble here is you,princess Eli-chan.
Ooh..how dare they try kill a beautiful butterfly...they deserve nothing less
than that royal kick from you.Shall they all die...peasants!
My heart is black but its no longer in that colour now.Hmm..why will I call you
those?You are nice even when you're mean....and I don't care because people who
does are well....stupid.
Eli-chan tricked me?..........boohoo
Mommy is still bad.Bad.Reminds me of a story:
One day a boy was taken away from his family by his Ojisama because they want
him to learn life itself.
Ojisama was a good man,strong,silent,cold-looking but has a caring heart
although he never shows it.
Ojisama taught the boy a lot of things even fighting and he'll beat up the boy
when he does mistakes in anything but the boy still loves his ojisama.
Because he was the only person there that took care of him.The boy never had
friends because ojisama doesn't allows so he grew up lonely...going up the roofs
to watch the sky,going to the garden to pick flowers or play with animals.
Then when the time comes,he had to leave because he's all grown up but the boy
would never forget about everything that happened.Even about that lolly.
When he entered school,he became cold and nobody wants to become his
friends...the end
The orden I talked about is the name of my group who beats baddies up and the
current leaders is me and a loyal friend.
oh,Eli-chan is useful.Follows mommy advices.
I won't go out with you either because you are still young and have lotsa things
to learn.
yes yes the devil is lonely but he has the useless souls to torment so he's
having fun no worrries...yes no worries.
I never asked them to be scared of me.But at the same time happy that I can be
alone.hmm..I did beat up those fools for fun at that time just because they make
my morning bad.However that changed when I met some friends.As soon as we knows
it we are called Treasures...because we helped people in school.
Hoho..Eli-chan will do that?Now I feel safe because you are around.
Witchcraft.You remind me of Robin Sena....and Rhode Camelot.They are a little
like you.
Stay behind me and read those spells.They will never hurt me because they
can't.
Ony fools dare go up against me.Besides before they can touch me,the'll die
because my friends will had them kill already.
No problem.I'll stay long enough so that you and her won't be sad.
Oh that,you must have read it somewhere.I won't forgive them....
No no you're doing fine.
hai...my birthday is 18th July.
Hajime oniichan and Vatican's birthday is the same kuu! ^_^ Then I can celebrate
both of your birthdays together kuu! *clap clap*
yeah... When I wore the mustache I looked like... like... A cave man..
Nail art? I never knew boys paint their nails.. I just did my nails a few weeks
ago! Black background and a white rose! I like white too but it doesn't really
mean purity to me, more like emptiness kuu
Ne... Oniichan.... I'm curious... Where did you learn fighting from...? Judo
class o_O Karate? o_O Witchcraft...? Umm... No... witchcraft has nothing to do
with fighting kuu
Enemies kuu...? You should just kill them... Every single one of them... Because
they're worthless little creatures.... If they want oniichan dead... They should
die first...
Vatican? But he's so unreliable... Sometimes I feel like I'm taking care of
him... He's so dense... It took him like a year to find out I was jealous of him
making friends because he talked about how great others were so much..
baka....
It takes me 1 hour to drive to school! Because I live in another state from my
school kuu! I study in an international school kuu!
You're not as clumsy as vatican though... Vatican's really girly... He's not
good at sports... he's slow... He likes pink... He acts like a girl... And he's
just... Even my friend Carrie is more boyish than him! But Carrie's a tomboy
kuu! She hits boys a lot! And she stands up for me even though she's shorter
she's older than me kuu... She always hits the boys when they bully me! ^_^
She's kinda violent though... Hajime Oniichan reminds me of Carrie kuu! When we
were kids I carrie always told me to hide behind her! And she would beat up boys
all the time but she's clumsy kuu TT^TT A boy was going to hit me with a metal
pole once(Well he hit me a few times already) and Carrie just dashes in front of
me and gets hurt! She's so stupid kuu! TT^TT I'll be sad if she gets hurt
kuu!
Average? Oniichan isn't average kuu! Oniichan special kuu! oniichan even has his
own theme song kuu!
Princess...? that's been my nickname on MT for years kuu! Everyone calls me
princess! It's because my friend, Rai on minitokyo called me night princess
because I kept on getting these things saying I'm going to commit suicide, I'm
cold and all those things when I try quizzes! So everyone started calling me
princess kuu!
Thank you kuu! ^_^ I loovvee you kuu! Arigato Haji oniiicchhhaan!
Ojisama....? Ojisama doesn't come home kuu! ^_^ At first mommy said it was
because ojisama is working but it was because ojisama has wife and children to
love kuu! But mommy didn't have to lie to me for 10 years kuu... Should have
just said so kuu
Loyal friend kuu? Oniichan seems to have lots of friends kuu! Wahh.... Oniichan
sounds so cool kuu! I know what I can attack! COOOTTOONNN CAANNDDYY! Eli-chan
likes sweet stuff kuu! And soft and cute and fluffy things kuu! Roses are best
kuu! Elichama has lots of porcelain dollies kuu! But friends say dollies are
creepy kuu....
Mommy doesn't give advice... It's not advice... Either I be what she wants me to
be or I'm not her daughter.... But I'll try my best to be useful kuu ^_^
Lots of things to learn? Kuu...
Kids are cute kuu! Babies are adorable kuu! Cute cute cute cute! Paku paku! NYA!
CUTE CUTE CUTE BABIES!
School...? Kuu... Kuu.... Kuu... Carrie helps me in school! Aiko gets suspension
and detention.. She gets angry when I try to study with her kuu... TT^TT And
Kane... Kane's so perfect there's no point...
Your friends sound really really nice kuu... But everyone thinks I'm scary!
TT^TT And one of the boys wrote "It's he witch! Don't kill me" on my
table... Maybe I shouldn't be so creepy all the time It's weird... I talk to
flowers and butterflies all the time.... I'm so weird...
Yes I know.We are about the same height and weight too.Celebrate my
birthday?Why?
I don't celebrate though but if that makes you happy then you can do it.I don't
mind..
Not all boys paint their nails...I paint them dark red with a black flame
motif.
White is emptiness.Its lonliness too....
I learn fighting from ojisama...he knows a very good style that nobody had ever
learnt nowadays...well that style used to need a sword but now it just using
hands and legs...
And I used a style called Instinct.Its a complicated thing to understand.
Hmm..I'll kill them one day and I can stay here ne?Forever...
They must die first worthless paesants...I can't die now because I need to find
someone first.
Ara ara all people are like that Eli-chan,no need to get angry or jealous.You do
have other friends too right?
Look at your FL,that's alot of them.
International school?What did you study?
He's girly?Hmm..I'm a girly too..well sometimes...like Ayame.Oh a friend of mine
is a tomboy too but I liked her,we stay together in the same house because I
don't want to go back home yet.
Wow..you do have a caring friend.Be sure to take care of her in your on way
okay?
Special?Haha....I'm not that special.Eli-chan is special.Oh the song on my
page...I liked changing them alot.But every song describes about me just a
little.
So you like being called a princess?
Love me already.Hmm...well I love you too my sister.
What?!Your grandfather never visits you at all for 10 years.Unforgivable..both
mommy and gramps....
Not alot of a friends..they are just some people I trust and in the Orden.
Okay,Eli-chan attacks cotton candy while I attack lollies.Itadakimasu!
Porcelain dolls?I don't have them but I have straw dolls with red strings like
those from Jigoku shoujo.
Yes yes you must be useful.Well listen to mommy then but I don't like how she
treats you but if its okay with you then I don't have to worry.
Everyone use to hate me too.But I don't care about it.btw the story I told you
about do you know who the boy is?
Even if Eli-chan is creepy or wierd.I will treat you all the same like
now..
Kuu... What's oniichan's favourite colour kuu...? need to get new photoshop
kuu.... Photoshop not working kuu....
Oniichan like Vatican kuu.... But vatican's more naive kuu.... He's so slow and
weak kuu...
Flame nails...? I don't like fire kuu... TT^TT Scary kuu.... Because I burnt my
finger when I was 2 kuu.... And the place where I live... In front of my house
has a lot of trees... They caught on fire when I was 8 kuu.... And once my
candle in my room fell and curtains caught on fire kuu... TT^TT Fire's scary
kuu...
Loneliness kuu...? But that's normal kuu...
Ojisama kuu...? Sword kuu...? I only know how to use knives kuu... But mommy
asked me not to because I'
Okay I'm not a child..fuuu.But Eli-chan wa kodomo da nya~.Oh I see,some people are like that they become softer when it comes to kids or certain other things.
It's really suprising at times but it says alot of things about yourself.Humans never had one dimensional feelings anyway,they had lots more than what they think they possesed.
Yeah,kawaii things are hard to resists....
What?That kid don't even know what he's talking about.Baka,who dares he be mean to my Eli-chan..baka baka....
Oh,you're scared of everything?That's fine I guess and you holding dangerous stuffs makes others scared too so that even things out ne?
Almost killed your friend who was chopping carrots?Where did you sleep Eli-chan?In the kitchen?Because you said the first thing you saw when you woke up was the knife or did you bring it to bed the night before?
Wow!You threw needles too...sugoi sugoi.Like Kakei Juubei from Getbackers,Eli-chan must have deft skills to threw something small and thin like that and almost hit that friend.
Flames....bad.
Take it easy my imoto.Don't get too stressed out but I am in no position to say this since I don't know how you lead your life anyway.
Yes I do know why but that's what you need to figure out yourself.I can't tell you everything ne.Somethings like feelings for example must be figured out by oneself.Others may guide but ultimately that person must find the own answers
Haha I see well that's their problem then.Baka teens.Well at least I like my dear imoto too aru.And maybe even more people like you too.Its just that well....you didn't noticed.
Elizabeth......... I came to say hi
Sorry I wasnt online for quite some time.........
I'm so stressed out...... I wanna cry TT^TT
Sorry Elizabeth... I'll try to catch up and reply as soon as possible........
Take care Elizabeth...... and stop getting hurt
Love you Elizabeth
merged: 01-24-2008 ~ 11:07pm
Boys arent robots you know
Boys should cry all they want
That's one of the reasons why boys are always dense and insensitive
Because they're taught they shouldnt cry
So boys dont understand when other people cry or act all hysterical
It's okay Elizabeth
I'm still happy to know that you're there
But please pray for me if you can
Clumsy Eli-chama
I say it freely because I feel it in my heart that I should say it
And I only say it freely to you
But I sincerely mean it you know
Thank yu ^^
Elizabeth best too
merged: 01-24-2008 ~ 11:27pm
Well... yes I am I suppose........
I guess guys arent meant to be understanding and compassionate
Your hair? I dont really mind whatever length it is
I would like your hair no matter how it is
Well..... praying is..... just like how you talk to your friends or family but to God....
Clumsy clumsy Elichan
You must really like teddy bears Elizabeth
I never had one either
I had this giant doggie doll when I was young.....
The eyes were so cuutttee
Your father has a weird taste in teddy bears
Wowie!Eli-chan is a child magnet.Ei ei oh oh yay..Eli..Eli.Oh..am I becoming a child now?
Wierd...Anyway,you can resists anything that's cute can't you?
You even let them sleep on you...hmm...maybe you can become a nanny or something.
Yeah,like you would listen to anybody...
Hai.I know why...and you did tell me about it once.Don't you remember?Well maybe you didn't...maybe I just figured it out on my own.
An exploding voice ka?Sugoi!.
I love the song and translation. ^_^
GUESS WHAT.
My lastest break-up, the one I ranted about and was upset over, came crawling back. He apologises and says he promised he'd come back and he never stopped loving me, he just wanted to see if he could live without me or if I was the one he loved. He is sincere, really. But I'm not going to date him.
You will really kill them ka?Then you must've killed alot already ne.Must be a bloody affair but....boohoo....Eli-chan didn't invite me to join in...I wanna tear them apart too just to see if my instincts and sanity is still intact..
Yes*hugs back*.Eli-chan can jump and hug me whenever she likes.Even when walking you can jump on my back and I'll give you a ride.
Well in real life I have one imoto.Here I have two imoto but you're the best one...
I don't mind if you call me everyday ne.Just don't want Eli-chan to be defenseless and get bullied.
Hai,I'm Fruits Basket and Eli-chan is Rozen Maiden aru..
merged: 01-22-2008 ~ 09:51pm
A reputation to keep as a goody goody..haha okay if you had a reason then why not.All the better then not having a reason.
Haha..you had a fun experience ne.A cute sleeping boy and a licky licky girl.All the people must be staring ne.
Yes I live in Singapore.5 hours huh?Hmm maybe I'll go visit then.However I can't leave my friends at the moment.
My imoto is...well forget about her.I not close to her at all so yeah we hardly know each other so don't ask.
No,I'm not lying.Eli-chan is the best*starts cheering*.I have my reasons too.
Haha I see.Vati-kun has his own reasons but you can always sneak up and jump on ne...be naughty for a bit.
Ooh so Satsuki is just a friend,that's good to hear but why won't you trust him..wait I think I know.
Wow,that's alot of weapons...then all the better to have you around me.You do have a powerful voice,are you a mythical siren?*poke poke*
Yeah I know.....weird.
I'm sorry Elizabeth.......
But your parents are wrong in forcing you to do something that you dont want to
They can make suggestions but they shouldnt set the path for you......
I'm sorry but I cannot let you do that Elizabeth
I'll probably get angry at you for one whole day if you did so
Marriage is not a game or a picnic
It's a promise.... or a contract that you promise to the other person that you will cherish him or her forever..... although people are blinded by the feeling of "love" which they have obviously gotten mixed up with some other medicore emotion and gets married without thinking so there are too many divorce cases these days
I wont let you Eli-chama
You dont have to be nice to me Elizabeth.......
Just...... dont ignore me.... and I'll be content
It's better to get angry or hate me than to ignore me........
And no! I want to be with you not with Satsuki.... or whatever her name is
Im sorry Elizabeth.....
it's my fault......
I'm really sorry..........
I wish I could be by your side to cheer you on..... although it wouldnt help a lot
Please Elizabeth....... I beg you.... please....... be careful..... I dont want to know that you're hurt......
How am I suppose to sleep well at night?
It's okay..... be cruel to me all you want Elizabeth.......
If that can rid your pain even a little bit........
Umm no not really
I would come online every few month then........
Really?....... Elizabeth....... dont leave me......
I love you and I dont want you to go.........
I know......... I am........ really stupid....... but I hope that you wont cry over me..... or get depressed........
Thank you Elizabeth TT^TT
I'm so glad that I met you as well........
Umm..... I thought it was nice
I want to see both your bad and good
Your darkness and your light
If I only knew your good side..... I wouldnt know you very well
You must really be talented Elizabeth....
I wouldnt sing infront of people even if they were people I knew for my whole life
Well at least not a solo
Not to mention that I hate my voice..... sounds too..... teenager
You know....... I couldnt believe some of those were your voices
Like when you were saying Daisuke........ and something about Riku........ O_O
merged: 01-21-2008 ~ 11:16pm
Dont cry my little Elizabeth.... No mummy will hurt you
They dont exist after all
Our emotions overwhelm us sometimes but if we think about it..... we have nothing to fear in this world.......
Well actually we do but they're only superficial....
We need fear to...... set our boundaries and all that.........
Sorry I'm not helping much am I?......
But dont worry Elizabeth....... even though my hope of protecting you might be a little overboard at the moment..... you're safe in God's hands.......
You are always loved Elizabeth.......
I must go to bed now..... I hate school........
Less time with you TT^TT
Good night Elizabeth
Don't get me wrong,if its a stranger than that will be a problem.Its not nice of a girl to fall asleep on some random guy's shoulder....
Haha...You can touch me Eli-chan,I won't kill you...
Sometimes I may say things that is wise but at times I say things that I'm not even sure of and it come out wise O_O.Why are you suprise that I'm wise...?
I like Eli-chan too.The best imoto I had....Kawaiii....
Kill everyone?Really?Oh okay just don't get yourself hurt okay..Call me if anyone don't want to die when you say so or is being mean to you.
Yeah,she'll get angry but Eli-chan won't mind ne?Because Eli-chan won't get upset...because you are used to it.
I see.Then to me,you are suiginto and I am Haru.....wait...I'm a mixed Fruits Basket......
Haru....Kyo....Yuki...Shigure...Ayame...Hat(...)
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
I try to understand but...... I'm just too insensitive and dense to understand people other than myself......
I really am stupid arent I?........ To make you sad.......
Sorry Elizabeth....... really......
I never meant to hurt your feelings or make you sad......
Elizabeth.........
When you do those kinds of things....... You make me want to die as well......
These words may be only paper and plastic to you but it's real to me...... and I really mean it
No....... actually that wasn't the reason I didnt' come online
I usually come online whatever Im feelings
But my parents are putting a lot of pressure on me these days.......
About college..... and about academics....... the future......
When the only thing I can see is today and right now
When the only place I want to be is this second and this place
My head was just full of negative thoughts Elizabeth........
And it boiled my anxiety.... and I was in a state of panic....... I hate emotional breakdowns......
Sorry....... you're right..... I should have come online to at least say hi.....
I'm sorry Elizabeth....... so...... sorry........ I'm just too selfish....... I really am....... I can only care about my pain........
Because I'm just too stupid........
Don't blame yourself Elizabeth........
I'm the one to blame....... I know that sorry is not enough but that's all I have.....
Half circle?....... what do you mean?
I dont really know why either.......
But I dont know if I can do that........
I cant shove her hard........ I dont have it in me......
No I would be honored if you were to hug me Elizabeth
Ummm sorry Elizabeth....... I should have made that clear
She's like my only friend at where I am right now..... in real life I mean
Sorry Elizabeth..... I would beg on my knees if I was there but....... There's never much I can do.......
I do like you for the way you are...... and I could never forget you.......
How could I?
I pray for you before anybody else whenever I pray..... even before my family or myself.....
And you're the first person I think of when I wake up everyday........
I really love you..... with all the sincerity of my heart.......
Sorry Elizabeth....... I didnt want to hurt you somehow...... if I came online feeling like I was on drugs or something......
Although I already hurt you basically everyday...... I'm really sorry.......
And I wasnt in the circumstance to come online.....
Not to mention the guy at my house was always on the computer...... My parents wouldn't have let me anyway though
They're being a bit more strict than usual...... they're pressuring me about my future and all that......
I wasnt nervous about it but as they kept trying to tell me about it..... I got more nervous and scared of it.......
Elizabeth........ I really really do care for you
Sometimes to the point where I think is ridiculous
But I do anyway.... I dont care.......
I do remember that you exist Elizabeth...... and you really make me happy too......
But I'm easily brought down by the things going around me.......
When I should be happy to know that you exist
And Elizabeth..... I dont expect anything from you......
The only thing I expect from you is for you to be yourself without trying to change yourself according to what other people like.....
Even if we are different...... My love for you doesnt change one bit
And if we like different things or if we think differently..... that might stirr up some misunderstanding and trouble but I still love you the same
Maybe I do dislike some of the characteristics that you have but it doesnt apply to you.....
It's because.......... well........... mmm........... it's because you're Elizabeth.......
The one I love most
So I can forget about the things I hate......
Thank you for forgiving me Elizabeth...... truely.....
Like I said before....... I just meant that...... she's the only friend that I have in real life..... well something like a friend that's not exactly a friend......
You're my bestest friend ever Elizabeth..... i will never replace you with anybody
That's not true..... Elizabeth....... I care for you the most..... I think of you before anybody..........
You are the most precious flower to me Elizabeth........
The one with the sweetest scent and multicolored ethereal petals
I cannot measure how much I love you but I hope that I will love you as much as you love me.......
Or even more if it's possible
Sorry Elizabeth..... I didnt mean what I said......... please understand......
Butler..... like a male maid
I dont spend much time with her
I dont even see her or talk to her much at school
Sorry Elizabeth........ Sorry........
Dont hate yourself Elizabeth........
I hate myself for hurting you as well.......
Umm...... okay
It would have been nice if you had a legimite sibling.......
I'm basically slow at everything...... I take too much time and I focus too much on the small details.....
Well I was but he didnt harm me....
And even if he did.... it's only money.....
We're not rich but life is more important than life right?
I guess I'll have to let you hurt me a lot so that you wont hurt yourself.....
I would think it'd be weird
There are a lot of women who are taller than guys
Although statistically men are taller....
I dont have a girlfriend Elizabeth
And I dont think I will....... Although I wanted one in the past, now I dont really want one
Yeah.... math sure is.... dull
Thank you sooooooo much Eli-chama TT_TT
You're the best too
Wish i could give you the biggest hug in the world right now
Of course I wont Elizabeth
Even if you were fat (not saying that you would be) I would still like you the same
I just want you to be healthy and not sad
You're cute too Elizabeth
But...... is it good for a guy to be cute?...........
Really? I better check it out as soon as I can
I think if you put your best in it...... it's still a good song
Your voice is annoyingly disgustingly charming as well so I like your songs
Thank you soo much for forgiving me Elizabeth......
I'm really sorry too.....
I would never leave you out Elizabeth....... I..... just said it wrong......
I dont really like her clinging on to me
And I think she already has a boyfriend anyway
I guess I'm just a play thing to her or something
You've already done enough for me Elizabeth
I'm just so happy that you've forgiven me
You made my day a lot brighter and happier already
You're a lot more important to me than Satsuki
And Elizabeth.... I also tell you about other people..... because I want you to understand me.......
What kind of life I have and what kind of people are around me......
I never want to let go of you........
I'm sooo selfish....... but I want to make you my true bff
I wont be happy without you Elizabeth.... even if I have everything in the world......
So please dont leave me.......
merged: 01-20-2008 ~ 10:48pm
I'm sorry Elizabeth.........
You can take your time...... You can take 10 years if you want to..... although I would prefer if it was shorter
I must go now Elizabeth......
Please take care........
I love you....... Really really really!
Tsk...I'm totally annoyed for today.My day has been spoilt by some measly humans that don't know their place..baka baka and a stupid girl that fell asleep on my shoulders....
Arghhh....don't touch me unless I say so if not it might cost you your life....
Tsk....lets put that aside ne..
Okay,seems that you don't love vati-kun but your feelings are bordering near that...hmm...letsee...if correct its called a feeling of affection.
He might really like the girl to be able to forget about you.Bad bad..
Sounds like you're really hoping to be able to be with him by telling those things.But its normal,certain people have that kind of big expectations over something or someone.
And its smart of you to let him be....if you hadn't you would have been stuck thinkng about this forever.I don't think he treats you like that,he likes you ne that's why he goes to you everytime not ony when nobody else is available.
Yeah,just leave him with satsuki if that's what you think is best.I'll support you.
Haha....good to hear that you're glad to had met him.He must felt the same too.
If I was who I am a few years back,I would have killed everyone that betrays me or stood in my way but I don't want to do that now....I want to change that darker side....erase all that dark history...
But I can't as long as I think about HIM,my blood rages....I would never kill anybody but HIM I WILL!
You hate everyone ka?Been there,done that....my heart used to be darker than the night sky and colder than the Arctic winds....
...just forget about this...
Vati-kun is still on that list,he just doesn't realise that what he's doing is hurting you.If you don't believe him then so be it but at least give him a chance.
See you do care about another person..good for you my dear imoto.
I won't hate you.I've said so many times before.
Fantasy?Its okay to lived in that fantasy.
Tell you something Eli-chan.I lead my own life to destroy my own life.
The world is as cruel as it is and kind as it is....that's called fairness.Remember you are one person,choose your path and live the way you see fits or drift along with time and head towards the abyss like I almost did....tsk....now it got worst...I'm heading to hell instead.
Eli-chan ask this to yourself:"What's my true fellings right now?"
Don't get caught up in this moment of thinking because that is not your truest feelings....
btw...arigatou.You like that pic I made ne.Yes you are Suiginto because I visualise you as her.Don't ask why.
that's good no emotions will be better than being sad....
yes im asking about you..oh sorry hehe i am a guy so don't worry about it..yeah i just play a girls role as mint...its not easy trying to think like a girl..so its defenaly a challenge but i always loved mint so i try to do her character justice
EIEN no KOIBITO
Pardon this but I'm not that good in making these things
.Just want you to know you are important to me,my dearest imoto...
hi! how are you i haven't talked to you in a wile how is it going?
There there,don't cry now liltte Eli-chan my dear sister.
Hmm...so its okay now.Good.I thought I've lost my imoto in anguish and despair.You be as you are,its fine.You're not bad aru,see you even let him like any girl he fancies.
You shouldn't be angry if he did explained some things to you.Afterall,h still cares for you and you should too.
Tell vati-kun that you're dead?You're too hasty besides I will never do that.Hate life?oya oya...Eli-chan,you're letting your emotions control you.
You thought that you're important to him because he's the one that you really like and wants to share everything with.You're not foolish.You're are something of value to him..
Cheer up a bit or something okay?
Its okay to be sensitive to criticisms most people are just like that too.Some take it alot worst than you..
Be as you want to be.Don't care what others think about you,if you want to be childish than just be.That's who you are and they must learn to accept it.
If you barely get angry over others than its pointless too get angry at yourself...getting all angry and depress is not a good thing.
Eli-chan like I told you countless times....be yourself.Don't do things that you don't like just to please others,do what you think is best.And everything will be fine....
This is getting to tense..I miss the child name Eli-chan.
So you think that you're wasting my time?Hmm....its so sad...that all the effort that I tried to help you is just nothing to you.
But oh well,I don't mind because as a brother I will always treat you nice..
.
merged: 01-18-2008 ~ 10:54pm
Ara ara,I'm just being someone who tries to help.
Hmm see you two have gone a long way.From being rude to loving each other.You must cherish the moments with him ne...or you might regret it later.
Think of him as someone who has come to save you like a white...err..no black knight rescuing a lolita princess.
I hate being lied too but I hate betrayals more.Especially by those you thought are your most trusted friends....tsk....bad memories.
Eli-chan my imoto...you must learn to believe in him because he is sincere in his feelings for you because vati-kun says things that are on his mind very easily.
Never what people want you to be?Hmm...that says for alot of people not only you.
Eli-chan my dearest imoto,you are who you are.Life goes on....you lead the way not them...
I know you love me, I know that very well. I love you so much. I think about you a lot. I also put "Lost Butterfly" on my music player so I can learn the words and sing along when I think of you.
Chantz is great. He's a great guy and I can tell he's different.. But I'm still starting to push him away.. I kick and fight and try to make him leave.. But he knows better. He's staying.
Oh dear, people may come and go physically, but we never leave you emotionally, we will stay by your side in your heart and ours.
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
Really....... sorry........
I'm just not myself these days......
I'm confused and tired......
A sheep gone astray......
My little head full of useless thoughts and anger.....
Blinded by the hollowness that my eyes show me
Overwhelmed by the void that fills my soul with thirst......
Eh..... it's not time to be poetic.......
But that's what I feel now
My absence ahd nothing to do with the girl
I say 2 words to her everyday
I say hi when she says hi and..... I say yes or no to the questions she ask
Sometimes I answer her English problem and all that but that's just because I feel obligated to
Elizabeth....... you shouldnt spread your full name on the internet........
Mine doesnt matter since most Korean names are similar and nobody can distinguish it unless it's written in Chinese
Kiuh? What kind of food is that?
I'm not that childish am I?.........
And I dont act immature around her
I go to church with her every few weeks.......
And the meeting thing is at night
I dont let her.......
I push her away right after she does.......
She doesnt ask permission or give me any warnings.........
I dont like being hugged by anybody......
Sorry Elizabeth........
And I dont like any girl that way
And she's like my only friend... I dont have any girls around me
Well actually there's about 2 guys that I hang around with but they dont really care much about me
Elizabeth........
I'm sorry......... I'm really sorry........
That's all I can say......
That's all I can ever say........
I will never forgive myself if something happens to you........
So please........ dont be so careless about yourself Elizabeth
Maybe I'm not as good as you expect me to be but I care for you more than anybody..........
You might not believe me but it doesnt matter because even if you dont care about me, I still will
I dont know why I'm being depressed again
I dont remember anything sad or tragic happening to me......
But I just feel down and it feels like gravity is too heavy.......
I cant really pretend to be happy anymore to others......
I'm sorry Elizabeth......... that I cant make you truely happy
I dont really make anybody else happy either
Everybody else around me always seem so disappointed in me.......
If you say that..... you dont really need me either
But I want you to be there....... even if you dont care about me and even if you love somebody else...... I'll get jealous but...... at least you'll be happy and I'll be happy with
that
No Elizabeth..... if everybody else was grass, you'd be a rose or a lily..... since I like lilies
Sorry..... Elizabeth
I guess I dont talk about you since....... I dont want to share you with other people.......
Sorry........... I'm really sorry........
But I sometimes talk about you with other people
Like with Maria recently......
But I wont tell you what I talk to her about since it was about you
God does have many people who love him......
But there are so many more people who make him sad......
His heart cries every time he sees us killing, stealing, hurting others and..... everything like that
I think the teacher doesnt talk about you because you're obviously smart
So he doesnt need to say it because everybody knows it already ^_^
And he might be saying that other kids are smart because he wants to encourage them...
You are the greenest of all grasses Elizabeth
And the gemstone in the desert
I'm sorry Elizabeth.....
I'm sorry.......
But Elizabeth..... I cant ignore everybody else Elizabeth....
I..... just cant.......
It's not in me..... I just cant be cold towards people who I dont even know or to the people who are kind to me......
I'm sorry........ I dont want to leave you...... but I will if you want me to........
Sorry for being so selfish Elizabeth...... I hope that you'll forgive me
But I'm willing to let you do anything with me unlike my other friends.......
Hayate no Gotoku is an anime about some weird butler who works for this little girl because she thought he was in love with her or something.....
I do watch animes often but nowadays I dont find the time to do so.......
Me? A girl? I dont act like a girl or think like one
People just mistake me for one sometimes
Of course you are Elizabeth
I want to believe that you are Elizabeth......
And you are kind, gentle and caring to me even if you dont think so
Sorry Elizabeth.......
Sorry for making you hate somebody
...... even if it's just me
I'm sorry Elizabeth.....
An older brother you never had?........
Umm....... I dont really understand
Elizabeth...... I never wanted to change either really
But I just changed with realizing
Sorry Elizabeth........ I am slow....... But I can't really do things fast
I guess people are influenced by the hostile culture and mean people
I almost got robbed while I was in Korea too
I was taking a walk and this weird guy came up to me and asked for money
But I got out of trouble soon by talking to him
I was thinking of hitting him and running since he didnt' look that big...... although he seemed a lot stronger than me
But I just talked to him and he just left me alone
I think it's holiday or something.......
She was in China before she came here so she must be having a long holiday or something
I dont like staying at someplace other than m house either
I cant kill anybody Elizabeth....... and she's done nothing to me anyway and I havent done anything to her either
Which Satsuki are you talking about?
I dont hate you Elizabeth.......
I said like 15 words to her in the past few days......
When I was learning math, she was "Do you know how to do this?" and I was nodding or shaking my head and she explained blabla and she asks "do you understand?" and I nod
my head and it was really quiet.......
I dont like to see people bleeding Elizabeth
They must have done something really bad to annoy you...... or something
You have a variety of friends there Elizabeth
People around me are quite....... dull and similar
I think I'm stronger than a girl who's younger than me Elizabeth
She sounds like an anime character
You eat once a day?
That's not good Elizabeth...... you wont get enough nutrition that you need when you grow
Are girls sensitive about how thin or fat they are?
43kg at 10 years and thinner than you? That doesnt make much sense.......
It would if she was as tall as me.....
Thank you Elizabeth........
I'm so glad to have somebody like you Elizabeth
You're so understanding and caring person
Umm I weigh around 54~58kg
Somewhere between that.... I'm not sure
Am I?..... Well at my height..... if I go over 68kg, I am overweight
I am not like a girl
You still have lots of time to grow
I think I already stopped growing.......
I dont really care about my height anymore.......
who knows? You might turn out to be taller than me when we meet....
Her voice is nice too..... but I like your voice a lot more
And I'm not lying
I dont know if it's because your voice but I still think your voice is just as good as Noto Mamiko's voice
But love songs...... I dont really fancy romance lyrics......
That's right never ever compare me to the paesants out there..my blood rages when I'm been compared to but fortunately,I'm on the happy side for now...
Most humans are naive aru.Maybe he lets you pick on him to show that he don't really mind and to let you know he cares...?Hmm...I don't know..
Gomenasai ka?....
I'll never get bored with little Eli-chan,there's no reason for me to get bored.
There you go again saying that your stupid....you're being stubborrn ne but I don't really care what you want to do because its your life so you make the decisions..
You're awfully nice not to stay angry for long and keep apologizing even if you done no wrong..ahaha...you remind me of Touru Honda aru...
Its better not to make enemies by yourself,let them hate you because they are silly to feel that way..and I don't know why would they make you an enemy?
I'll kill them for casting you aside.....tsk....
Korosuuuuu!But when will he return?How dare he promises and leave you alone for so many days...wait he's doing what I used to do...hmm....its bothersome..
Hmm....you have a very complicated mind but its great since it works differently from others.
You hate loneliness....then don't worry that's what I'm heree for.To be on your side.
No interest in life?Life is really boring isn't it...I sometimes lose interest too.I can become a nutcase when it gets to boring....
When my mind is empty the other side will take over and make me do insane stuffs....
I trust that you can take care of yourself.Even if you're all bloody,I'll carry you and treat those wounds myself.I'm used to seeing blood.....
Sometimes I do like to be alone just to get away from the suffocating reality...
and pointless conversations that other have among each other which doesn't concern me at all....
You shouldn't be alone...hmm where has my kawaii imoto gone to?Where's the"paku paku" and "kuu" gone to?I miss them....
Ooh you sound just like me.I finishes things that I started.So you'll kill them...haha....sugoi sugoi..I'm even more liking this...but you should make him beg before you kill him otherwise there is no point...
She didn't really hit me that hard,she's only playfully doing so.There's no major anger or anything...
Controllin people...ahahaha...already done that.And it was fun until I cut the strings because they were begining to bore me...
OKay having split personalities is more fun...no a whole lot of fun..too bad I only have two...white and black...
Oh,you're mother just died...hmm...sad to hear that.
He's a straight shooter ne?Say things on his mind as soon as they pops up and sometimes it does't really make sense.I don't really know since he seem sane too me and make some sense in his posts...
You're not useless...thank you for living.You're existence is really much appreciated by me and some others.
Eli-chan...okaeri..
Eh, it is complicated.
See, there is LOVE.. and there is LUST.
I was never loved in my life by family, friends, or romantically.
So when boys started liking me, I took whatever I could get.
I loved them, but they lusted for me, thus creating bad relationships.
Then because of this love/lust combination causing bad experience I wrote of love as bad, although I'd never had a love/love relationship.
Then I kicked love and decided to lust.
I'd lust/lust with people but I wanted emotion.
Now I do nothing, I stray away from love and lust..
But now people are starting to love me, and I feel nothing.
My bestie Chantz is a great guy, and this time I mean it. He is innocent, respectful, polite, caring, honest, trustworthy, and he really feels for me.
But I openly told him I don't do dating or love or lust or infatuation anymore.
He respects that <33
I think if he is a good guy and keeps a good friendship and mild interest in me for over a year, then he's a keeper.
But it's all very comlplicated, but with every passing day I learn something new, so the day before every day was more confusing than the one after, so my past in very complex so I try not to think about it..
So very sorry for the late reply.
Love you sis.
You are a good lil actress if you can cry like that on stage.Hmm..a what?A mustache...you must have look silly ne?I had to wear a dress because some friends made me wear them but I don't mind...I like nail arts too but its no longer fun.
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You trust me...why thank you and I trust lil Eli-chan too.
I'm wierd..haha...maybe.But I'm don't care what others think about me anymore.
Oya oya...really might die early because I have many enemies who wants me to pay for the pain I caused but I won't let them because they are fools.BAKA!
Eli-chan won't be lonely because Vati-kun still with you right.
1 meter per hour?Haha...that's really funny but that'll will be slow for you to get to school.Vati-kun's clumsy?
Well everyone is clumsy at times even me
Me is onichan.You is my imoto...
Better?Watashi ka?No no I'm just average like you said I'm a mixed Fruits Basket.
Kyo did trained in mountains but never fought bears...
Silly silly that didn't really made sense but I understand what you meant.Everyone is peasants...they are nothing compared to you lovely Eli-chan.
They lived on Earth but we lived in the Sky Noah.huh,calling me king?I'm not a king nor a prince but I like being graceful and elegant.
The only noble here is you,princess Eli-chan.
Ooh..how dare they try kill a beautiful butterfly...they deserve nothing less than that royal kick from you.Shall they all die...peasants!
My heart is black but its no longer in that colour now.Hmm..why will I call you those?You are nice even when you're mean....and I don't care because people who does are well....stupid.
Eli-chan tricked me?..........boohoo
Mommy is still bad.Bad.Reminds me of a story:
One day a boy was taken away from his family by his Ojisama because they want him to learn life itself.
Ojisama was a good man,strong,silent,cold-looking but has a caring heart although he never shows it.
Ojisama taught the boy a lot of things even fighting and he'll beat up the boy when he does mistakes in anything but the boy still loves his ojisama.
Because he was the only person there that took care of him.The boy never had friends because ojisama doesn't allows so he grew up lonely...going up the roofs to watch the sky,going to the garden to pick flowers or play with animals.
Then when the time comes,he had to leave because he's all grown up but the boy would never forget about everything that happened.Even about that lolly.
When he entered school,he became cold and nobody wants to become his friends...the end
The orden I talked about is the name of my group who beats baddies up and the current leaders is me and a loyal friend.
oh,Eli-chan is useful.Follows mommy advices.
I won't go out with you either because you are still young and have lotsa things to learn.
yes yes the devil is lonely but he has the useless souls to torment so he's having fun no worrries...yes no worries.
I never asked them to be scared of me.But at the same time happy that I can be alone.hmm..I did beat up those fools for fun at that time just because they make my morning bad.However that changed when I met some friends.As soon as we knows it we are called Treasures...because we helped people in school.
Hoho..Eli-chan will do that?Now I feel safe because you are around.
Witchcraft.You remind me of Robin Sena....and Rhode Camelot.They are a little like you.
Stay behind me and read those spells.They will never hurt me because they can't.
Ony fools dare go up against me.Besides before they can touch me,the'll die because my friends will had them kill already.
No problem.I'll stay long enough so that you and her won't be sad.
Oh that,you must have read it somewhere.I won't forgive them....
No no you're doing fine.
hai...my birthday is 18th July.
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Yes I know.We are about the same height and weight too.Celebrate my birthday?Why?
I don't celebrate though but if that makes you happy then you can do it.I don't mind..
Not all boys paint their nails...I paint them dark red with a black flame motif.
White is emptiness.Its lonliness too....
I learn fighting from ojisama...he knows a very good style that nobody had ever learnt nowadays...well that style used to need a sword but now it just using hands and legs...
And I used a style called Instinct.Its a complicated thing to understand.
Hmm..I'll kill them one day and I can stay here ne?Forever...
They must die first worthless paesants...I can't die now because I need to find someone first.
Ara ara all people are like that Eli-chan,no need to get angry or jealous.You do have other friends too right?
Look at your FL,that's alot of them.
International school?What did you study?
He's girly?Hmm..I'm a girly too..well sometimes...like Ayame.Oh a friend of mine is a tomboy too but I liked her,we stay together in the same house because I don't want to go back home yet.
Wow..you do have a caring friend.Be sure to take care of her in your on way okay?
Special?Haha....I'm not that special.Eli-chan is special.Oh the song on my page...I liked changing them alot.But every song describes about me just a little.
So you like being called a princess?
Love me already.Hmm...well I love you too my sister.
What?!Your grandfather never visits you at all for 10 years.Unforgivable..both mommy and gramps....
Not alot of a friends..they are just some people I trust and in the Orden.
Okay,Eli-chan attacks cotton candy while I attack lollies.Itadakimasu!
Porcelain dolls?I don't have them but I have straw dolls with red strings like those from Jigoku shoujo.
Yes yes you must be useful.Well listen to mommy then but I don't like how she treats you but if its okay with you then I don't have to worry.
Everyone use to hate me too.But I don't care about it.btw the story I told you about do you know who the boy is?
Even if Eli-chan is creepy or wierd.I will treat you all the same like now..
merged: 01-10-2008 ~ 08:30pm