Quote by 95Elizabeth
Your princess is in a bad moon cause she's in a bad mood....
God set my path right....? He solved my problems with me right....? So I thank
him... I thank him for setting my path to become a cold heartless person that
wants to meet the devil more than anything... I thank him for solving my problem
of trying to die every single day by asking me to stand in front of the mirror
and remember every single scar the cruel world left me with... Okay.... I
believe in god now... he's the one who gave me all my sadness and
happiness....
I will thank him for a single drop of my happiness.... that he let you
exists..... That he let me step on stage for the first time... And that he let
the announcer say my name when he was announcing the winner... But the way I
sing.... I will never thank him for... the way I act... Has nothing to do with
him... Because the path that was set for me to sing happy songs so well when 2
seconds ago when I was crying... I thank the devil... because he gave me the
talent to never cry in front of anyone... If I were to thank god for that I
would have ruined his purity.... I thank the devil for giving me such worthless
parents that never even married and brought me into this world with regret....
because of that I can see fantasy from reality and not be so foolish... I thank
the devil for everything else... because god has only left me with two joys in
life which is your existence.... But at the same time it hurts that you exist...
And that he gave me my voice... But at the same time I know I will never be
best.... Everything else that made me who I am now.... Was the devil.... You
know... I have never hurt anyone consciously..... When I hurt people is when I
snap... And it take A LOT for me to snap.... In front of my friends I smile
every single time.... But I have no idea why I'm so foolish as to be so nice to
them... Because seeing them happy makes me stare at the mirror.... I hate and
like the mirror... But.... If there's no one in this world who likes the devil
except for me.. I'm glad.... Because then the devil will only see me.... I don't
like being just ONE of god's favourites.... My father loves his other children
more than me... He only adores me when he needs my help in business.... Because
I got his stupid genes of earning money really easily... I hate being related to
my parents.... They make me sick.... Whenever they see eachother it's as if I
never existed..... I could be sitting on the swings the whole day and they won't
even notice.... So would you want me to thank god for that? I don't blame god
for my hatred.... Because thanks to him I've become who I am.... I want to stay
cold and heartless.... Because then I will only love one person.... You're the
only one I won't want to kill... Everyone else is foolish... I would be more
than happy to let them die... You listen to every word the bible says... So what
if it said that I was the devil and anyone who likes me will be betrayed and
never go into the kingdom of god and never know god? You'll believe that too
won't you? I know you will... Don't like... It's okay.... Cause I will never
ever fall so easily... I will never fall and not get up.... My limit for
snapping is just a few days.... So I'll get over it soon... If something else
doesn't make me snap again... cause right now everything's making me
snap....
Elizabeth........ Elizabeth Elizabeth..........
Everybody blames God Elizabeth........ My parents too..... who probably love God
more than I do
Elizabeth........ God is like us Elizabeth......
It says that we are made in his image
God also gets jealous...... and God can also love us
I dont know much about God........ but all I care that is that I am his child
And you are too.....
We are not bound by the devil Elizabeth
We are bound by our own sins........
..........
Anyways.......... I really do care about you so much...........
I wrote you a poem........ I dont know if you'll like it but I hope you could at
least read it
It's been a while since I've written anything so it might sound a bit
weird.......
Poison my heart
I will forgive you
Rip off my wings and shred it
I will still forgive you
Take the little blossom from my tainted heart
Let my broken wings be your sanctuary
Give me all your tears..... Give me all your burden
Lock me up inside your misery
From inside the cage, I will pray for you
Tell me your story..... Tell me your pain
Forget my name..... erase my face
Forever I will remember you
Pour your bitterness into my cup
I will drink your agony to the last drop
You can tell me that you hate me
You may blame me for every calamity
Rest your soul my beloved one
For even though the devil may come for you
I will break him and batter him to death until my fists bathe in his blood
One day you might go somewhere far away
One day you might smile and never remember what happened between us
Maybe when I have drained all your transgressions.....
Maybe when I am drenched and drunk with your hatred.....
Then...... maybe then..... I can give you a reason to smile
Quote by 95ElizabethIt's okay if you
think I'm weird! I shall never be offended! NEVER!
Kyon's version of hare hare yukai is really funny! And kyons sisters version is
really funny too!
*sighed in relief* i didn't mean that you weird like anybody else
lol yeah xD heard that just now. He sang like he being forced by haruhi xD
i like yuki version xD cool!
btw, how's your world?
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i think i should mke friendship for three of us ne xD whatcha think?
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Quote by 95ElizabethYuki! Yuki's
sounded nice! yeah! Kyon's was really funny! You want me
to give you the lyrics for his song?
"This one comes straight from my heart
Please, lend me your ears: Hare Hare Yukai"
*sigh*
You know if I could solve all of the mysteries and the wonders of the world
I would keep my mouth shut and not tell a soul at all
Maybe you just wish that I could be more energetic and be more just like you
but I'm not really that type of guy you think I am
The time goes crazy crazy BOOON
Because of the warpy, loopy people gathering,
before I knew it, the world of delusions grows powerful and consumes
everything
(Someone help me!)
One sunny day as clear as can be
the person who searches endlessly
for some greater fun, dragging me around,
is a pain in the ass to me
(It's you, you know, it's you!)
Tomorrow, I wonder if I'll survive
I'm still amazed that I'm still alive
Are you happy now? Just do your best (Fight!)
If you're satisfied, just let me go
Go and chase your dream now (Do it by yourself)
Try and catch your dream now (Do it by yourself!)
Because I do not have/not have a dream at all
(Give me a break!)
If it's one thing that I know, it's that you cannot predict what's in the
future
even though the possibilities are endless
Oh crap, I see your eyes are twinkling
Don't look at me now - I know what you are thinking! (Could you back up?)
Looking at the stars, I wish someone would save me now
She's wasting all of my time BYUUN (BYUUUUNN!)
Even if it's cheap and cool, the things you wanna play
you just force me to do it and screw whatever I have to say
My hair's turning gray (Hey!)
Would you just please let go of my hand?
What will it take for you to understand?
Maybe next time I think that I will try to hypnotize you if I can (Crap, that
doesn't work!)
Don't just decide on things on a whim
Think it all out before you begin
I wish you would change
Oh, man, you kill me with all that pressure you put on me! (Are you a
demon!?)
Everywhere you go to (uh-huh)
you drag me behind you (that's right)
Every day my chest/my chest pounds way too much
(I'ma have a heart attack)
Boon
Because of all the warpy, loopy people gathering around me
Before I knew it, the world of delusions is growing powerful - more powerful -
and
consumes everything!
One sunny day as clear as can be
the person who searches endlessly
for some greater fun dragging me around
is a pain in the ass to me (It's you, IT'S YOU!)
Tomorrow I wonder if I'll survive
I'm still amazed that I'm still alive
Are you happy now? Just do your best (FIGHT!)
If you're satisfied, just let me go
Go and chase your dream now (I got it)
Try and catch your dream now (I'm going)
Your great big dream is just/is just/is just a dream (Dreeeaaammm)
"Look, let's just get outta here..."
I liked Itsuki's one! he's so cool! He's my favourite character!
Three? good idea but who's 3? you, me and?
Ah yup. and that emiri too thanks for
the lyric! xD
ack~ the lyric seems edited from the original one *lol*
Oh yeah, he's nice too :3 but my sis didn't like tho *coz she
said he's so...weird xD*
anyway, i like the live one the one they all dance those guys
dance so funny xD
and dirah of course :3 or maybe hanif? >D
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE ITSUKI?!?! My
precious precious beautiful Itsuki! *love love love*
Yeah the one when they dance is funny!
Dirah! Of course! hanif? Hanif! Just make him an old man in the friendship!
ack!
didn't meant that way lol xD
she just don't likt his song but other
than that, shes kinda like it
lol xD sure *cough* well, any idea what anime image to take for the card? *
well, at least one guy on it *
I know you and sara talk a lot.... Don't have' ta remind me....
Don't keep on telling me how god loves me and how you'll never love me as much
as he does!
It makes me more and more tempted to die and meet the devil now...
Why can't you love me more than god does? Why can't you like me and only me? Why
do you always give excuses for not loving me enough?
I think I'll love you more than gods x3 would! If no one could love someone more
than god than everyone can fall in love with god then!
If god loves us all that much does that mean all of us are most important to
him?
You always say as if god's heart is so big it can fill the world! But even if he
could.... What about the few souls that he never noticed because his heart was
so big it covered his eyes to see the ones crying!
At least the devil sees the ones crying before the ones who are happy! I like
the devil because the devil was what made me live! It was the devil who kept me
alive for so long!
But the god... The god is too blind looking at the ones that are happy and adore
him... And forget the ones who hate him and cry every single night staring at
the mirror telling herself she was important!
The worthless worthless god that I will never know... I rather burn in hell than
meet god!
Why must I follow someone that hasn't been there for me since the day I was
born!
So why can't I follow the devil who's told me that at least there's a place for
me in his tiny heart! His tiny heart is so small that he only sees a few crying
people in this world... His heart is so small that he'll know I exist! But the
stupid god has too many important ones to see the ones that really need
him...
i've waited way too long for god.... If he was as great as you say! Why did he
bring me into this world in the first place!
So what if I DO make people happy...? Who's going to make me smile then?!
I do mean every single word I say.... Every single sentence that floats through
my empty mind that only has words that I've ever heard in my life.... telling me
how worthless I am... And the useless words that you've ever said to me! Sara's
most important... god loves me more than you'll ever love me.... Well... If god
loves me more than you love me you must hate me.... Because god doesn't even
notice my existence.....
you know... Meeting you was the best thing that happened to me and the
worse!
Why is my princess in such a bad mood?
Elizabeth..... it's not that I dont love you.....
It's that even if I love you to the last drop...... I'm just a human and my love
is soooo tiny compared to what God has
I wish I had the heart to love you enough until you are satisfied with me but
I'm not...... well..... I'm just a selfish human Elizabeth.......
We are God's children
And how can a parent say that they love a child more than the other?
How can a mother say that she loves her son or daughter more than her other sons
or daughters?
Or how can a father say that he favors one child more than another?
It's not that God didn't notice us Elizabeth
It's because we did not notice God.......
Even when he's there...... even when he loves us so much...... we think it's
so..... obvious like water and air
And people come up with theories after theories to prove that God does not
exist
If only we bothered to cry out to God and not for our own selves..... we'd know
that God is always with us every step
We think that we solved our own problems thinking that it wasn't God at all who
helped us
Elizabeth...... you are really making me sad but it doesnt matter
You might think I'm just blabbering this and that..... but one thing that
remains the same and have remained the same is that God loved us so much
Even to the point where he killed his son to save us......
You might not believe this yet but God sent his son to die in order to save
us
You were born because God protected you Elizabeth
Just think of how many children die before birth or how many parents throw away
their children.......
We never think that God is there because we think all our problems are caused by
Gods and all the good things are from ourselves
I know why you hate God Elizabeth
I did the same
But the more I did so..... I just hated myself.......
For being so ignorant and selfish.......
Always hating God when I never even thanked God for everything he allowed me and
gave me
God has been with you even before the creation of Earth Elizabeth........
He planned you in your mother's womb and he set your paths for you before you
were born
And I know this because it is written in the Bible
God is omnipotent Elizabeth
He is in the past, present and the future, and he's in everybody's heart
We just can't fathom his infinite existence
He watches every one of us
After all, if he created the world, he can see all of us at the same time as
well
He brought you into this world because he needed you Elizabeth
God has plans for you......... and you dont know how much I praise and thank God
for your existence Elizabeth as long as with your parents
You know Elizabeth.......
I've decided quite a long time ago........
That if I can make you happy...... I would live for you
But now........ it's different.......
I would live for you if you could just even feel a tiny bit of God's love for
you
Because even with that, it really feels your heart with joy that you never felt
before Elizabeth.......
I really do love you Elizabeth
My heart will tell you.......
I really do......... I never know what is best for you or what to tell
you
You know Elizabeth......... maybe God sent you to me so he can melt my cold
heart.......
Maybe he sent you to me so I can really love somebody like I have never done
Maybe he sent you to me so I can grow stronger in faith
Maybe he sent you to me so I can set my future
Whatever the reason may be........ I just hope you know that God really really
really really really really loves you sooooo much
And I really really really really really really love you sooooo much as well
Quote by 95ElizabethRi-chan... Am
I... Weird....? TT^TT
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Oh yeah! I see you're starting to like Haruhi Melancholy! Please visit my group
ForeverDreams! http://foreverdreams.minitokyo.net/
I added lots of Haruhi Melancholy songs! Even Kyon singing Haruhi Melancholy!
Kyon singing it is reeaaalllyyy funny! And Kyon's sister!
haha ^^" uh.. at first.. yeah ^^"~ but you not that weird :3
xD ah! honto? *shiny eyes* oww.. i never heard that version before *i wonder
he sounds like xD*
but i had heard the Lucky star song *featuring kyon and that koizumi guy xD* so
funny and weird xD
anyway, i gotta check that one :3
Quote by 95ElizabethJUUUU(...) I'm
sorry! I was in a bad mood for a few days!
I adore you! Sorry... I was in a bad mood because I thought I hated you cause
well usually you're the first thing I think about when I wake up and for a few
days you weren't and I can't get someone out of my head so I was grumpy! And and
and! I WILL NEVER EVER EVER MAKE ANY FRIENDS EEVVVEERRR! again....
So how was your day? you don't like to be prince? So you HATTTEEE me?! TT^TT
Juu.... chhhhhaaaannn.... TT^TT You're sooooo mean.... Are you ignoring
me......? Didn't I apologize for being grumpy already....?
I knew it! I've been having the feeling that I was more and more of nothing to
you! And suddenly I noticed that you seem to have lots and lots of friends!
And I had a dream that everyone was clinging to you! TT^TT THAT'S UNFAIR! I HATE
YOU!
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...... I'm more angry at you than I was the first time..... And I still am....
But yesterday I wasn't... Today... I hate you....
the nocturnal-mts.... I'm just doing this for them... THEY miss you... I don't
care!
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
Umm.... I have somebody over..... and he's going to be living in our house until
February......
And there's a girl coming soon and she's going to be staying here a while as
well
So I dont have much alone time......
Sorry Elizabeth...... I wasnt ignoring you.........
I really do love you you know........
Thank you Elizabeth......
I'm really glad that you care about me
I dont know if you still believe me or not.... but I really care about you
Sometimes I want to get angry at you and sometimes....... I feel that you dont
like me........
But I just can't stop liking you
You just make me....... mmm..... well........
You just make me happy
Even when you make me sad or angry, I'm just happy that you are there.......
And Elizabeth...... It's okay for you to have friends.......
Even though you do make other friends....... I can't stop liking you anyway
So dont mind me.... I'll still like you even if you dont like me best
You know something Elizabeth?
The guy who is staying at my house called me prince yesterday.....
So I remembered you.... so I asked him why he called me that
And he said..... he just felt like it..... weird.......
My day was quite tiring......
I played basketball for 2 hours with the guy, played some games with him and
went to church
I missed you Elizabeth.......... I really missed you............
So how was your day Elizabeth?
And...... people are just leaving comments because it's Christmas time
Somehow my old friends and I dont have the chance to talk to each other any
more
They all left or are kinda busy......
I love you Elizabeth
And thank you for the message
I'll drop by Nocturnal-MTs
Quote by vatican92
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
Umm.... I have somebody over..... and he's going to be living in our house until
February......
And there's a girl coming soon and she's going to be staying here a while as
well
So I dont have much alone time......
Sorry Elizabeth...... I wasnt ignoring you.........
I really do love you you know........
Thank you Elizabeth......
I'm really glad that you care about me
I dont know if you still believe me or not.... but I really care about you
Sometimes I want to get angry at you and sometimes....... I feel that you dont
like me........
But I just can't stop liking you
You just make me....... mmm..... well........
You just make me happy
Even when you make me sad or angry, I'm just happy that you are there.......
And Elizabeth...... It's okay for you to have friends.......
Even though you do make other friends....... I can't stop liking you anyway
So dont mind me.... I'll still like you even if you dont like me best
You know something Elizabeth?
The guy who is staying at my house called me prince yesterday.....
So I remembered you.... so I asked him why he called me that
And he said..... he just felt like it..... weird.......
My day was quite tiring......
I played basketball for 2 hours with the guy, played some games with him and
went to church
I missed you Elizabeth.......... I really missed you............
So how was your day Elizabeth?
And...... people are just leaving comments because it's Christmas time
Somehow my old friends and I dont have the chance to talk to each other any
more
They all left or are kinda busy......
I love you Elizabeth
And thank you for the message
I'll drop by Nocturnal-MTs
Juuuu---cchhhaaannn.... TT^TT
A... Giiiirrrllll''ss coming to your house....? That ruined my day... more...
Congratulations...
I'm having doubts that you love me... At all... Or even just like me.... Or...
Not dislike me....
How could I make you angry.... You're the one who makes me angry! I carry my
laptop even to England and it weights like 3 kilograms! And WHY?! Because I
didn't wanna make you wait too long!
I don't want friends.... I forget things easily... So it's a bad idea to have
too much in my mind...
I do like you best.... It's you who doesn't like me best!
Prince....? Because you seem like one.... But you said you didn't like yuki...
TT^TT
Basketball... Lucky you.... Right now I'm taking a zillion pain killers!
TT^TT
My mother dragged me along with her to her friend's birthday party... And I just
had to be the baby sitter....
And one of the evil little kids swung a knife at me! TWICE! First time I caught
the knife! The next time another kid was shining a torch light at my eyes and
the knife cut like! SOOOOOooooo deep that I needed 32 stitches! Evil little
midgets... they're lucky I like kids and I'm patient with them... You know how
much I got tortured by those little kids! My eyes are having problems now... The
world goes blank a few times... If I wasn't being nice I would have broke their
necks already! And I tell you.... I can eat them alive if I want to... Anyway...
I just told the adults and fell and accidentally stabbed myself... Pain killers
don't taste that bad anymore.... But I'm not supposed to take that much....
Cause pain killers make the blood flow endlessly... But it hurttss..... TT^TT
But my mother doesn't seem to care if I'm dead or alive... She told her friends
that I could wait till the party was over.... She must be blind! 32 STITCHES! Oh
yeah... That doesn't hurt... At all....
You know... My mother was so angry at me.... Saying I was siding the devil... I
just said that god was just the so called "right" that everyone
believes.... So the amount of people is the amount of gods there are... And...
the devil's probably lonely... that everyone's looking at the god.... And
forgetting about the devil... So I just said I wanted to be devil's assistant
when I die... because... Some people just use the devil as their punching bag
when they do something wrong... I will never believe in god so no need to try to
make me.... I don't have god with me... Because I have no soul like mother
said.... I'm never sure about anything... But the devil seems lonely... You
know... I really hate mirrors... But I like them too... Because when I look at
my reflection I always see what I failure I am..... And did you know I stare at
the mirror whenever I cry to remember the tears that people gave me... So I can
remember it forever... And when I bleed I stare at the blood to give me more
sorrow.... because I will never believe the so called god... I rather be the
devil than follow god..... God has so many friends already... But the devil has
no one.... And whenever it makes a friend... They always leave... So I want to
remember every single bit of pain that god didn't save me from... So I'll always
remember to be devil's friend....
So no need to try to make me like god.... Being lied to for 10 years... Seeing
so many people cry because of my existence.... So I've had enough ^^ the scars
are more than enough to make me be a devil worshipper for the rest of my life!
So I don't think a Christian that believes in god so much should be friends with
me! ^^ The longer you tell me you love me the more I'll like you and the more
scars I'll have when you do leave! So if you don't think you can keep your
promise please leave now before I make malaysia go boom! ^^
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Ju-chan's so slow... Or are you just ignoring me...? TT^TT
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you're as slow as when I use 1 finger to type when i was 2 years old and if I
was a snail....
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Juuuu---cchhhaaannn.... TT^TT
A... Giiiirrrllll''ss coming to your house....? That ruined my day... more...
Congratulations...
I'm having doubts that you love me... At all... Or even just like me.... Or...
Not dislike me....
How could I make you angry.... You're the one who makes me angry! I carry my
laptop even to England and it weights like 3 kilograms! And WHY?! Because I
didn't wanna make you wait too long!
I don't want friends.... I forget things easily... So it's a bad idea to have
too much in my mind...
I do like you best.... It's you who doesn't like me best!
Prince....? Because you seem like one.... But you said you didn't like yuki...
TT^TT
Basketball... Lucky you.... Right now I'm taking a zillion pain killers!
TT^TT
My mother dragged me along with her to her friend's birthday party... And I just
had to be the baby sitter....
And one of the evil little kids swung a knife at me! TWICE! First time I caught
the knife! The next time another kid was shining a torch light at my eyes and
the knife cut like! SOOOOOooooo deep that I needed 32 stitches! Evil little
midgets... they're lucky I like kids and I'm patient with them... You know how
much I got tortured by those little kids! My eyes are having problems now... The
world goes blank a few times... If I wasn't being nice I would have broke their
necks already! And I tell you.... I can eat them alive if I want to... Anyway...
I just told the adults and fell and accidentally stabbed myself... Pain killers
don't taste that bad anymore.... But I'm not supposed to take that much....
Cause pain killers make the blood flow endlessly... But it hurttss..... TT^TT
But my mother doesn't seem to care if I'm dead or alive... She told her friends
that I could wait till the party was over.... She must be blind! 32 STITCHES! Oh
yeah... That doesn't hurt... At all....
You know... My mother was so angry at me.... Saying I was siding the devil... I
just said that god was just the so called "right" that everyone
believes.... So the amount of people is the amount of gods there are... And...
the devil's probably lonely... that everyone's looking at the god.... And
forgetting about the devil... So I just said I wanted to be devil's assistant
when I die... because... Some people just use the devil as their punching bag
when they do something wrong... I will never believe in god so no need to try to
make me.... I don't have god with me... Because I have no soul like mother
said.... I'm never sure about anything... But the devil seems lonely... You
know... I really hate mirrors... But I like them too... Because when I look at
my reflection I always see what I failure I am..... And did you know I stare at
the mirror whenever I cry to remember the tears that people gave me... So I can
remember it forever... And when I bleed I stare at the blood to give me more
sorrow.... because I will never believe the so called god... I rather be the
devil than follow god..... God has so many friends already... But the devil has
no one.... And whenever it makes a friend... They always leave... So I want to
remember every single bit of pain that god didn't save me from... So I'll always
remember to be devil's friend....
So no need to try to make me like god.... Being lied to for 10 years... Seeing
so many people cry because of my existence.... So I've had enough ^^ the scars
are more than enough to make me be a devil worshipper for the rest of my life!
So I don't think a Christian that believes in god so much should be friends with
me! ^^ The longer you tell me you love me the more I'll like you and the more
scars I'll have when you do leave! So if you don't think you can keep your
promise please leave now before I make malaysia go boom! ^^
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Ju-chan's so slow... Or are you just ignoring me...?
TT^TT
Sorry Elizabeth
I was responding to Sara's extremely long long post and I didn't realize you
wrote to me
(I'm still not done writing TT^TT)
Yes a giiirrrlllll is coming
Well whether girl or not, it's annoying for me since I dont get my alone time
And dont worry so much Elizabeth...... I'll like you much more than I'll ever
like her
I dont really understand girls anyway so I doubt we'll be close friends
She's coming sometime around January so it's really annoying for me
Well I hope I can make you believe me one day
Sorry Elizabeth....... TT^TT
You're so sweet doing all that for me
I'd worry about you because you wouldn't come online but I can wait
Elizabeth
Really?...... well I hope you get few very nice friends who wont hurt you
You so mean Eli-chan TT^TT
I really do like you best and you dont even trust me TT^TT
I dont think I resemble a prince or anything close to royalty
I'm just....... quite average..... person who likes weird extraordinary
things
Yuki.... well.... actually..... no..... I dont' really like him because he's
really rude to Kyo and all
Those rotten kids!
Why are kids so..... violent these days?
Are you okay Elizabeth?
I should've teached those kids some manners if I was there!
Dont listen to your mother when she says things like that
There is only one God Elizabeth.......
if there were more, there would be more than one world of people and animals and
all that
Dont say that Elizabeth!
I'll really get angry.......
You are coming with me and you are going to see God
No wonder she was angry at you!
Stop saying things like that Elizabeth............
You really...... make me sad..........
You are God's beautiful creation no matter what other people says
And you are so important to me that I cannot describe with words alone
Satan already has enough friends and enough people to torture for
eternity.........
And I dont care about that!
I wont let you go to a place like that
I really mean it Elizabeth....... I wont let you
And I'll do basically anything........ to prevent you from it
You dont know how many people you made happy because of your existence do
you?
You just dont understand how much God loves you Elizabeth
God's love is so big that it cannot fit in the world or the universe or anything
else
I can't believe that your mother or father didn't tell you how big God's love
is!
And it doesnt matter Christian or not
It's only a name of a religion after all...... what matters is what you believe
and your relationship with God.....
And if I must suffer for the rest of my life for you to understand God's love, I
will do that happily
I really dont want to lose you
If you...... just die without knowing God..... that's even worse than not
meeting you at all.......
If you meant what you said up there...... you really hurt me a lot.......
Elizabeth.........
And I really am desperate...... for you to know God.......
You know...... I'm so jealous that God has more love than I do because God loves
you more
Even if my heart was a billion times bigger, it cannot compare to how much God
loves you.........
Quote by 95Elizabeth
TT^TT I..... I love you! Everyone who heard me say that thinks I'm mentally
challenged! I'm so glad you don't hate me now!
Like love! It hurts! But it's great! I won't forget the good and the bad... Some
people always wish they wouldn't remember the bad things in life... But if thy
forget the bad... they're throwing away a part of themselves..... I appreciate
every second of my life.... Good and bad.... Life are like stairs! If there's a
broken step.... You can't just stop going up! Because then you'll never reach
your destination! No matter how dangerous it is you still have to go up! Even if
the steps are made of needles! And I'll help you up when you can't! ^^ I know I
can't be there for you all the time since I can't see you or anything... But
I'll use my blabber mouth to help you! My nonsense! Heheh!
Caterpillar... yeah... You're like a caterpillar.... ^^ But you know... a
butterfly and a caterpillar... Is the same... Still the same person.... The same
soul... The same faults... It just changed it's skin! Like a crystal that looks
like a rock! And a crystal that is taken out of the rock! It's valuable
whichever it is!
So I'll love you no matter what you choose to become! caterpillar or butterfly!
Because you are you and forever will be you no matter how much you change!
yeah... Love like in the dark... I love your poems! Much better than the
meaningless happy go lucky ones that are talking about useless things...
I'm going to do great things...? never... knew..... Thought I was just blabbing
nonsense... heh....
I could never hate you, and that is one thing I know is true.
Your "blabber" always helps me out, just know that. You're not useless
and I need you.
Your nonsense babble is very wise. You and I... are very alike.. In a spiritual
sense. You made me beam with pride.. Know that. I want to be with you, I want to
show you many things. But talking to you makes me happy enough.
You know more than your years have shown you. You see with your mind's eye. You
use more of your brain than the average person, you have a very strong aura, and
you can do much with it.
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
Thank you! TT^TT
You know... It's incredible... How you can read auras!
You I know.... Lots of people say "Woah... She might look little but she
knows a more about life than me!"
heheh! But that's just cause of how I've lived in these years! Lots has happened
to me in 11 years of living!
I just have a feeling about you. Something makes me smile. Of course it's you.
Yes, lots has happened, but you can see far beyond your years. You speak of what
you have never known or seen. Things you lived in yuor past lives, things
waiting to be discovered. All that information and memories in your mind,
speaking through you.
Quote by 95ElizabethOkay... lets
see... What's happening? TT^TT
ok..lets see they have just arrive underground they are in a gigantic cavern of
some kind their were these huge trap door of some kind and they were sealed by
these gigantic locks..and the Martians destroyed them..
Quote by 95Elizabeth
You know... Sometimes you seem perfect.... Though I see your faults but I still
think you're perfect... You have a heart of gold and golden hair! You're quite
pretty! Not lying! But the more important thing is! You're really really nice! I
love you!
Well you are the first and only person I'll believe when you say I seem perfect.
That's because I know you see my faults, and you accept them. Perfect means
having faults that are accepted. A person who is called perfect usually is one
whose faults are unknown. You're pretty damn perfect, to me at very least. I
love you very much. I feel at rest when I talk to you. People underestimate my
heart and mind, thank you very much for appreciating them. I'm okay-looking ;D
And no matter what you say you are, you are very sweet, even if you don't act
that way to others or are treated that way, you have a very kind heart, even if
there is some ice on it, we'll melt it together. I promise. <33
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
....... You know.... Vatican right...? He told me something.... God would love
me more than he will ever love me.... He makes me pretty angry at times... He's
really dense!
I love you.... And I believe you when you say you feel that I'm perfect....
Because I hate being judged by looks.... Like they say! A blind man sees the
clearer side of things when a man with 6 eyes only sees a stone! heh! No
actually... That's what I say! Cause a blind man would even fall in love with
someone that's the ugliest in this world but see the golden heart in them that
shines brightly! Don't mind me! I never make any sense! heheh.... I hate your
parents for ruining your life... but I thank them for bringing you into this
world.... Even if they say you're a mistake like mine does... I know they love
you... And even if they don't! They have 2 eyes but only see a stone then! They
must be looking the wrong way! The true blind people are the ones who see the
caterpillar before the turned into a butterfly! I'm getting the feeling I have
mentally challenged problems with me! But really.... Even though I can't see
you.... To me.... I think you're like a crystal! It looks like a rock in the
out-side but once you open it... It shines brighter than a plastic crystal that
shines outside but when you open it the plastic covers all the brightness it
holds! Like the moon! When you look at it... It shines brightly but the parts
you don't see... Is filled with dents and holes.... Ah.... I'm so sorry! You
must think I'm weird! I'm sorry! I make no sense!
Relax! You make perfect sense to me, I'm a poet remember? Yep, and
whether I know how someone looks or not, I always judge by their heart...
Looking at someone, I just.. know.
Exactly like my poem "Love like in the Dark", huh?
The thing is... I thanks my parents for my bad treatment... If I was.. raised
well... I wouldn't be.. me. I wouldn't be so deep, so understanding. I wouldn't
be thoughtful, I'd be another worthless waste of life. My pain made me
blossom.
My.. nickname is.. Caterpillar ^_^ Because.. I refuse to be a butterfly until
people respect as see me as the caterpillar I am. I want people to love me for
the right reasons, instead of being a pretty butterfly.
You aren't mentally-challenged either ^_^ You're thoughtful and understanding,
you have a very strong power in you. You speak with your mind, sometimes not
knowing what you're saying. You'll do great things in life. Trust me.
Quote by 95Elizabeth((I asked....
What am I supposed to post...? TT^TT ))
i cant tell you what to post Elizabeth..i just asked if you had any
questions..is their anything that you need to know anything at all?i want to
help you
Quote by 95ElizabethSorry I replied
you so late... I didn't feel like talking to you... And my
mind was... blank... And I feel sleepy.... I never get sleepy...
weird...
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Heh.... You know... You have a sense of humor.... When I met you at first I
thought you were cold and depressing.... But you don't seem that way.... You're
right... You really are different from me.... So you wanna be removed as prince?
tehe
It's okay Eli-chan
You can reply late if you want to
Sense of humor?......... Hmm..... I dont really remember if I was being
funny......
Hmm yeah..... I was......
I still am you know..... but now I try not to really show it
Yeah.... we really are quite different in lots of ways
But does that really matter?
Well actually I never really wanted to be called prince in the first place
Bumble Bee just started calling me that..... somehow......
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 07:05pm
Quote by 95ElizabethNo.... they just
call anyone that I like prince....
Since I'm cold... harsh... depressing and all... I hate everyone... So it's
always shocking to find me liking... no.... even just not hating someone...
They used to call orpheuz king cause I was princess and I always said that he
reminded me of my father...
I'm not sure who's the queen though...
Prince.... They just called you that because I don't hate you.... But I'm
starting too... heh... joking...
You can marry if you want... I was joking about that too... Well.... I wasn't
for a time but now I am....
And I can be your little sister or something..... I didn't want to but I don't
care anymore...
And.... Since you didn't want to be prince I guess you're relived that I don't
want you to be prince anymore....
I dont find it shocking or surprising at all
I didnt' really think that you were cold or depressing
Maybe a bit harsh sometimes but I thought you were kind and... a bit
timid
Umm Eli-chan?...... Are you angry at me?......
i just want to be what you like the most........
Elizabeth daisuki
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 07:39pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
...... Well... If you don't think I'm cold and depressing you don't know me very
well...
I'm not angry... I'm just not in a good mood....
Don't tell me that you love me so freely.... You tell lots of people that...
It's... common...
Well........ I just have a feeling......
Something just tells me...... that Elizabeth is warm and kind............
I just dont know what
But I do........
It doesn't matter for me what other people really do....... But I really do
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 08:10pm
Elizabeth....... You dont really believe me.......... do you?
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 08:23pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
hard to.... When I compare how you talk to me and everyone else... You treat me
the same..... So... yeah... I don't believe you... by the way.... Do you have
gmail...? Cause it's much faster.... And it won't irritate me as much since I
get tempted to read your conversations... Heh....
I just wanted you to know my feelings toward you........
Sorry....... And no....... I dont have Gmail
See you later Elizabeth... I'm going to go now
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Who said I fake? I never fake!
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 10:48pm
....You know.... You'll live fine without me ^_^
I just noticed that... No... Noticed that for quite a while! Just didn't wanna
admit
Well I think it'd be fake if you were happy just because I told you
to......
Well Elizabeth....... I might be fine
But I must admit that I dont want to live in a life without you
Quote by 95Elizabeth
My room is filled with voodoo dolls... And I can be really cold if I want to...
Though I don't sing sakura uta very well...
Sad...? Okay.... I'm so sad I wanna die! happy? In fact! I'm always sad! Since I
was 4!
I thought you sang Sakura Uta very well
No........ I'm not happy.......
I'd rather see you happy.... is that so wrong?
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 10:16pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI was waiting for
your reply... didn't see your post above rika's.... Sorry....
....You're so sweet... TT^TT
but didn't you ask me to tell you if I'm sad?
Yes... I did tell you to tell me when you're sad..... but I just meant I would
rather see you happy
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 10:46pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Sorry... I'll be happy if you want me to! ^_^
No....... I want you to be happy but I want you to be happy on your own.... not
just fake happiness but one that will last
Quote by 95ElizabethAll the rozen
maiden dolls are 100.88 US dollars... Except for Hinaichigo... Hinaichigo is
104.99 US dollars... tehehe.... I have a room filled with anime dollies!
Especially lacus dolls! And all the cute fluffy little animes like Mokona!
Mokona mokona! I have a modoki one too! And I have lots and lots of other cute
stuff! I used to have more but mother said they were childish and unlady like so
she threw them away.... I WANT MOKONA BACK! MOKONA'S SOOOO
CCUUTTTEE!
Hina Ichigo? Why is she more expensive compared to the other dolls?
I wish I had a Barasuishou doll
You must really like dolls
Here you go Elizabeth
Sorry..... I didn't have time to make it look good
And I'm not really improving with my photoshop TT^TT
I hope you have another great year and I'm sorry if I hurt you in any
way.....
I hope we can be better friends....... and........ hope you can forgive me
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 07:46pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI know how to
make dollies too! I made a few... But most of them look two round... heh... And
they look like.... Either eggs or snow men... I tried to make the christmas card
for you with a picture of a santa claus doll... But I didn't finish the santa in
time... And I got pierced by the needle a lot... tehe....
Sorry... It's not very good... My photoshop wasn't working... So I had to use
ordinary paint program....
Merry christmas.... thanks for the card... I'm not offended... I was just a bit
grumpy then... I wasn't in a good mood.... My mother was complaining about what
a mistake I am... And I fell like a zillion times... And I just got a pass for
my vocal test.... I got honors last year... Not to mention one of the porcelain
dolls broke... And Kane was chosen as captain of the netball team.... I wasn't
exactly happy about that... heh... I
get jealous... tehe... Maybe my mother forgot it was christmas.... Or maybe that
just didn't care... Never mind... I've never ever believed in these santas
things since I was.... Well... 4.... So it's okay... We don't celebrate
anything... Well... Not anything about me anyway.... I guess my parents just
want to forget that I ever existed.... But I don't mind.... I wasn't supposed to
be born anyway... Merry christmas.... Sorry... I'm not christian so I forget
that I shouldn't talk about sad things on christmas... But I don't find it
really sad... Really ^^ Merry merry merry christmas!
You do? You are really talented in everything Eli-chan
I dont know how to make anything TT^TT
Needles are dangerous Eli-chan! Always be careful
It's okay Elizabeth
I'm just happy that you took the time
And I'm ok if it's anything that you made
It's a lovely card
You are not a mistake Elizabeth...... you are a precious person to me..... and a
precious daughter to God and a precious person to everybody else around
you
I know that you can do better and better as you go on
I have no doubt that you'll become even more of a wonderful person
Dont get jealous Eli-chan
You can do much more greater things
I dont really like santa..... he reminds me of..... hatred........
And I'm sorry but to tell you the truth.... I'm glad that you didn't make me the
santa one
You are the most important person to me..........
So we can celebrate it together
I dont really celebrate Christmas anymore..... I just celebrate it for Jesus's
birth..
And it is a happy day that Jesus came to die for us.........
Well that sounds quite sad but it's happy
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
This is the worse... christmas ever! No... Actually... All the Christmases are
bad...
My mother just gave me a lecture about my vocal test! And that just made me
0.0000345mm from committing suicide!
What was I supposed to do?! The examiner asked me sight reading when I was
supposed to do music knowledge! Was I supposed to know something I never
learnt?! And whenever she's angry she always calls me by my full name... And
saying my first name with my father's last name annoys me like hell...
I feel like touching a needle! And the better thing is I sleep for a 100 years!
No! I sleep for a 1000 years! No! FOREVER!
Don't like to me... You're always telling I'm important to everyone else around
me but it's obvious that I'm not even close to that....
My parents lied to me for 10 years.... And I don't find that a sweet memory....
When my father told my half brother he had a younger sister he completely
ignored my existence.... I hate lies... So don't tell me I'm important to god
when I'm not... I ruined a whole family's life.... My father's first wife cried
pools when she heard I was born... I got my father and his children in an
argument... Everyday... Every minute my mother cries and tells me "If only
you didn't exists... If only you were never born! I wouldn't have a demon for a
child!" She tells me that... So much that it was the only sentence that
ever went through my head... My father stresses out a lot.... He has to take
care of two families... And so many times I've heard them talk about abandoning
me... The times I've heard them quarrel... About who should keep me...
So don't tell me something that's fake..... I hate lies... I hate lies the
most...
Don't tell me I can do much more greater things when I know I can't.....
Singing... I can't even get merit.... Acting... Kane's always part of the
spotlight... Netball... Kane can beat me by a long shot.... I know because the
netballers asked me to not play the second half and let kane play...
Intelligence... Ian always wins.... Sports.... I suck.... Drawing... Natalie is
always a competition... Writing.... There's always Madeleine... Designing....
Aiko's always there to shine brighter than me.... And even at being god's
daughter.... Jack the ripper is more important that me... He has a zillion
websites about him... So don't lie....
Unfortunate... I finished the santa clothes.... Never mind... It's not like
it'll be any good anyway... Amelia beats me at it...
And I'm so useless I don't even understand myself... I smile when I don't know
what I'm happy about... I cry when I want to and never because I have to...
Well I blame your parents..... You did nothing wrong
And it doesnt matter to me what your parents think........
I love you and if your parents dont like it....... that's too bad
Elizabeth..... I know that you can.......
I just know it....... so dont worry or get frustrated
I know that you are an awesome person and you can do so many things
You just have to work hard and believe
And there are people with different talents
I bet all your friends aren't even half as good as you at singing
I'll always take care of you
Because you really are the most important.......
So dont cry inside........
And you know Elizabeth...... God loves you much more than I can ever love
you.......
You might not believe it but you are his precious daughter.......
You cannot be compared to any jewel or riches in the world.......
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
I wish that I could believe that.... But I probably forgot how to trust... Or
maybe I just forgot how to think... cause right now I feel hollow.... I'm so
stupid! I lost my brain!
I'm not crying inside.... I'm not... I'm definitely not... I'm sure I won't ever
cry... Not inside... not outside... I'm not crying... I'm not a coward...
You know... I drew myself a bloody red eye crying blood for a christmas
present... heh... weird gift... I look like a ghost you know... Cause my fringe
covers my face and my hair reaches my hips when my hair is wet and I sound a lot
like a ghost too... tehe... I scared the soul out of my cousin yesterday... I'm
so mean! Well I just remembered jigoku shoujo and I felt like I had to do
it!
It's okay Elizabeth..... you dont have to believe
Because it's still going to remain the truth
I'll always love you and God will always love you
Well Elizabeth.... if you dont admit that you are sad when you are, that's being
a coward too you know
You can always tell me when you are feeling down.....
Wow I would've.......... well..... that sounds a bit.....
Well... I still would've liked anything you drew
Although I would prefer a drawing of you smiling
That does sound scary
I thought you needed red eyes and vodoo dolls to be like Jigoku Shoujo
Elizabeth........ Elizabeth Elizabeth..........
Everybody blames God Elizabeth........ My parents too..... who probably love God more than I do
Elizabeth........ God is like us Elizabeth......
It says that we are made in his image
God also gets jealous...... and God can also love us
I dont know much about God........ but all I care that is that I am his child
And you are too.....
We are not bound by the devil Elizabeth
We are bound by our own sins........
..........
Anyways.......... I really do care about you so much...........
I wrote you a poem........ I dont know if you'll like it but I hope you could at least read it
It's been a while since I've written anything so it might sound a bit weird.......
Poison my heart
I will forgive you
Rip off my wings and shred it
I will still forgive you
Take the little blossom from my tainted heart
Let my broken wings be your sanctuary
Give me all your tears..... Give me all your burden
Lock me up inside your misery
From inside the cage, I will pray for you
Tell me your story..... Tell me your pain
Forget my name..... erase my face
Forever I will remember you
Pour your bitterness into my cup
I will drink your agony to the last drop
You can tell me that you hate me
You may blame me for every calamity
Rest your soul my beloved one
For even though the devil may come for you
I will break him and batter him to death until my fists bathe in his blood
One day you might go somewhere far away
One day you might smile and never remember what happened between us
Maybe when I have drained all your transgressions.....
Maybe when I am drenched and drunk with your hatred.....
Then...... maybe then..... I can give you a reason to smile
I love you Elizabeth.........
*sighed in relief*
i didn't mean that you weird like anybody else 
lol yeah xD heard that just now. He sang like he being forced by haruhi xD
i like yuki version xD cool!
btw, how's your world?
merged: 12-30-2007 ~ 10:04pm
i think i should mke friendship for three of us ne xD whatcha think?
merged: 12-30-2007 ~ 11:04pm
Ah yup. and that emiri too
thanks for
the lyric! xD
ack~ the lyric seems edited from the original one *lol*
Oh yeah, he's nice too :3 but my sis didn't like tho
*coz she
said he's so...weird xD*
anyway, i like the live one the one they all dance
those guys
dance so funny xD
and dirah of course :3 or maybe hanif? >D
merged: 12-30-2007 ~ 11:56pm
ack!
she just don't likt his song
lol xD sure *cough* well, any idea what anime image to take for the card? * well, at least one guy on it
Why is my princess in such a bad mood?
Elizabeth..... it's not that I dont love you.....
It's that even if I love you to the last drop...... I'm just a human and my love is soooo tiny compared to what God has
I wish I had the heart to love you enough until you are satisfied with me but I'm not...... well..... I'm just a selfish human Elizabeth.......
We are God's children
And how can a parent say that they love a child more than the other?
How can a mother say that she loves her son or daughter more than her other sons or daughters?
Or how can a father say that he favors one child more than another?
It's not that God didn't notice us Elizabeth
It's because we did not notice God.......
Even when he's there...... even when he loves us so much...... we think it's so..... obvious like water and air
And people come up with theories after theories to prove that God does not exist
If only we bothered to cry out to God and not for our own selves..... we'd know that God is always with us every step
We think that we solved our own problems thinking that it wasn't God at all who helped us
Elizabeth...... you are really making me sad but it doesnt matter
You might think I'm just blabbering this and that..... but one thing that remains the same and have remained the same is that God loved us so much
Even to the point where he killed his son to save us......
You might not believe this yet but God sent his son to die in order to save us
You were born because God protected you Elizabeth
Just think of how many children die before birth or how many parents throw away their children.......
We never think that God is there because we think all our problems are caused by Gods and all the good things are from ourselves
I know why you hate God Elizabeth
I did the same
But the more I did so..... I just hated myself.......
For being so ignorant and selfish.......
Always hating God when I never even thanked God for everything he allowed me and gave me
God has been with you even before the creation of Earth Elizabeth........
He planned you in your mother's womb and he set your paths for you before you were born
And I know this because it is written in the Bible
God is omnipotent Elizabeth
He is in the past, present and the future, and he's in everybody's heart
We just can't fathom his infinite existence
He watches every one of us
After all, if he created the world, he can see all of us at the same time as well
He brought you into this world because he needed you Elizabeth
God has plans for you......... and you dont know how much I praise and thank God for your existence Elizabeth as long as with your parents
You know Elizabeth.......
I've decided quite a long time ago........
That if I can make you happy...... I would live for you
But now........ it's different.......
I would live for you if you could just even feel a tiny bit of God's love for you
Because even with that, it really feels your heart with joy that you never felt before Elizabeth.......
I really do love you Elizabeth
My heart will tell you.......
I really do......... I never know what is best for you or what to tell you
You know Elizabeth......... maybe God sent you to me so he can melt my cold heart.......
Maybe he sent you to me so I can really love somebody like I have never done
Maybe he sent you to me so I can grow stronger in faith
Maybe he sent you to me so I can set my future
Whatever the reason may be........ I just hope you know that God really really really really really really loves you sooooo much
And I really really really really really really love you sooooo much as well
haha ^^" uh.. at first.. yeah ^^"~ but you not that weird :3
xD ah! honto? *shiny eyes* oww.. i never heard that version before
*i wonder
he sounds like xD*
but i had heard the Lucky star song *featuring kyon and that koizumi guy xD* so funny and weird xD
anyway, i gotta check that one :3
I'm sorry Elizabeth........
Umm.... I have somebody over..... and he's going to be living in our house until February......
And there's a girl coming soon and she's going to be staying here a while as well
So I dont have much alone time......
Sorry Elizabeth...... I wasnt ignoring you.........
I really do love you you know........
Thank you Elizabeth......
I'm really glad that you care about me
I dont know if you still believe me or not.... but I really care about you
Sometimes I want to get angry at you and sometimes....... I feel that you dont like me........
But I just can't stop liking you
You just make me....... mmm..... well........
You just make me happy
Even when you make me sad or angry, I'm just happy that you are there.......
And Elizabeth...... It's okay for you to have friends.......
Even though you do make other friends....... I can't stop liking you anyway
So dont mind me.... I'll still like you even if you dont like me best
You know something Elizabeth?
The guy who is staying at my house called me prince yesterday.....
So I remembered you.... so I asked him why he called me that
And he said..... he just felt like it..... weird.......
My day was quite tiring......
I played basketball for 2 hours with the guy, played some games with him and went to church
I missed you Elizabeth.......... I really missed you............
So how was your day Elizabeth?
And...... people are just leaving comments because it's Christmas time
Somehow my old friends and I dont have the chance to talk to each other any more
They all left or are kinda busy......
I love you Elizabeth
And thank you for the message
I'll drop by Nocturnal-MTs
merged: 12-30-2007 ~ 12:39am
Sorry Elizabeth
I was responding to Sara's extremely long long post and I didn't realize you wrote to me
(I'm still not done writing TT^TT)
Yes a giiirrrlllll is coming
Well whether girl or not, it's annoying for me since I dont get my alone time
And dont worry so much Elizabeth...... I'll like you much more than I'll ever like her
I dont really understand girls anyway so I doubt we'll be close friends
She's coming sometime around January so it's really annoying for me
Well I hope I can make you believe me one day
Sorry Elizabeth....... TT^TT
You're so sweet doing all that for me
I'd worry about you because you wouldn't come online but I can wait Elizabeth
Really?...... well I hope you get few very nice friends who wont hurt you
You so mean Eli-chan TT^TT
I really do like you best and you dont even trust me TT^TT
I dont think I resemble a prince or anything close to royalty
I'm just....... quite average..... person who likes weird extraordinary things
Yuki.... well.... actually..... no..... I dont' really like him because he's really rude to Kyo and all
Those rotten kids!
Why are kids so..... violent these days?
Are you okay Elizabeth?
I should've teached those kids some manners if I was there!
Dont listen to your mother when she says things like that
There is only one God Elizabeth.......
if there were more, there would be more than one world of people and animals and all that
Dont say that Elizabeth!
I'll really get angry.......
You are coming with me and you are going to see God
No wonder she was angry at you!
Stop saying things like that Elizabeth............
You really...... make me sad..........
You are God's beautiful creation no matter what other people says
And you are so important to me that I cannot describe with words alone
Satan already has enough friends and enough people to torture for eternity.........
And I dont care about that!
I wont let you go to a place like that
I really mean it Elizabeth....... I wont let you
And I'll do basically anything........ to prevent you from it
You dont know how many people you made happy because of your existence do you?
You just dont understand how much God loves you Elizabeth
God's love is so big that it cannot fit in the world or the universe or anything else
I can't believe that your mother or father didn't tell you how big God's love is!
And it doesnt matter Christian or not
It's only a name of a religion after all...... what matters is what you believe and your relationship with God.....
And if I must suffer for the rest of my life for you to understand God's love, I will do that happily
I really dont want to lose you
If you...... just die without knowing God..... that's even worse than not meeting you at all.......
If you meant what you said up there...... you really hurt me a lot....... Elizabeth.........
And I really am desperate...... for you to know God.......
You know...... I'm so jealous that God has more love than I do because God loves you more
Even if my heart was a billion times bigger, it cannot compare to how much God loves you.........
I'm interesting huh?Well guess so.You like haru too..haha I'm pretty much is him.
Well let be friends then...
btw nice song
Well I don't doubt the best friends or twins theory, but I gotta go to bed ^_^
they destroyed the locks on the trap doors
I could never hate you, and that is one thing I know is true.
Your "blabber" always helps me out, just know that. You're not useless and I need you.
Your nonsense babble is very wise. You and I... are very alike.. In a spiritual sense. You made me beam with pride.. Know that. I want to be with you, I want to show you many things. But talking to you makes me happy enough.
You know more than your years have shown you. You see with your mind's eye. You use more of your brain than the average person, you have a very strong aura, and you can do much with it.
merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 01:09pm
I just have a feeling about you. Something makes me smile. Of course it's you. Yes, lots has happened, but you can see far beyond your years. You speak of what you have never known or seen. Things you lived in yuor past lives, things waiting to be discovered. All that information and memories in your mind, speaking through you.
ok..lets see they have just arrive underground they are in a gigantic cavern of some kind their were these huge trap door of some kind and they were sealed by these gigantic locks..and the Martians destroyed them..
I watched the video ^_^
It was quite nice.
I really like it.
Love you! <3333
merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 11:20am
Well you are the first and only person I'll believe when you say I seem perfect. That's because I know you see my faults, and you accept them. Perfect means having faults that are accepted. A person who is called perfect usually is one whose faults are unknown. You're pretty damn perfect, to me at very least. I love you very much. I feel at rest when I talk to you. People underestimate my heart and mind, thank you very much for appreciating them. I'm okay-looking ;D And no matter what you say you are, you are very sweet, even if you don't act that way to others or are treated that way, you have a very kind heart, even if there is some ice on it, we'll melt it together. I promise. <33
merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 12:11pm
Relax! You make perfect sense to me, I'm a poet remember?
Yep, and
whether I know how someone looks or not, I always judge by their heart...
Looking at someone, I just.. know.
Exactly like my poem "Love like in the Dark", huh?
The thing is... I thanks my parents for my bad treatment... If I was.. raised well... I wouldn't be.. me. I wouldn't be so deep, so understanding. I wouldn't be thoughtful, I'd be another worthless waste of life. My pain made me blossom.
My.. nickname is.. Caterpillar ^_^ Because.. I refuse to be a butterfly until people respect as see me as the caterpillar I am. I want people to love me for the right reasons, instead of being a pretty butterfly.
You aren't mentally-challenged either ^_^ You're thoughtful and understanding, you have a very strong power in you. You speak with your mind, sometimes not knowing what you're saying. You'll do great things in life. Trust me.
i cant tell you what to post Elizabeth..i just asked if you had any questions..is their anything that you need to know anything at all?i want to help you
It's okay Eli-chan
You can reply late if you want to
Sense of humor?......... Hmm..... I dont really remember if I was being funny......
Hmm yeah..... I was......
I still am you know..... but now I try not to really show it
Yeah.... we really are quite different in lots of ways
But does that really matter?
Well actually I never really wanted to be called prince in the first place
Bumble Bee just started calling me that..... somehow......
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 07:05pm
I dont find it shocking or surprising at all
I didnt' really think that you were cold or depressing
Maybe a bit harsh sometimes but I thought you were kind and... a bit timid
Umm Eli-chan?...... Are you angry at me?......
i just want to be what you like the most........
Elizabeth daisuki
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 07:39pm
Well........ I just have a feeling......
Something just tells me...... that Elizabeth is warm and kind............
I just dont know what
But I do........
It doesn't matter for me what other people really do....... But I really do
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 08:10pm
Elizabeth....... You dont really believe me.......... do you?
merged: 12-26-2007 ~ 08:23pm
I just wanted you to know my feelings toward you........
Sorry....... And no....... I dont have Gmail
See you later Elizabeth... I'm going to go now
hi how are you?
just wanted to say Merry Christmas!
oh and ..on a side note..could you start posting in my rpg? we are getting to the end of it
Wow...That is awesome...Same to you
thanks so much liz!~ ^^
Well I think it'd be fake if you were happy just because I told you to......
Well Elizabeth....... I might be fine
But I must admit that I dont want to live in a life without you
Thanks for the card!
You too enjoy!
I thought you sang Sakura Uta very well
No........ I'm not happy.......
I'd rather see you happy.... is that so wrong?
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 10:16pm
Yes... I did tell you to tell me when you're sad..... but I just meant I would rather see you happy
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 10:46pm
No....... I want you to be happy but I want you to be happy on your own.... not just fake happiness but one that will last
merry christmas to you too :3
Hina Ichigo? Why is she more expensive compared to the other dolls?
I wish I had a Barasuishou doll
You must really like dolls
Here you go Elizabeth
Sorry..... I didn't have time to make it look good
And I'm not really improving with my photoshop TT^TT
I hope you have another great year and I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way.....
I hope we can be better friends....... and........ hope you can forgive me
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 07:46pm
You do? You are really talented in everything Eli-chan
I dont know how to make anything TT^TT
Needles are dangerous Eli-chan! Always be careful
It's okay Elizabeth
I'm just happy that you took the time
And I'm ok if it's anything that you made
It's a lovely card
You are not a mistake Elizabeth...... you are a precious person to me..... and a precious daughter to God and a precious person to everybody else around you
I know that you can do better and better as you go on
I have no doubt that you'll become even more of a wonderful person
Dont get jealous Eli-chan
You can do much more greater things
I dont really like santa..... he reminds me of..... hatred........
And I'm sorry but to tell you the truth.... I'm glad that you didn't make me the santa one
You are the most important person to me..........
So we can celebrate it together
I dont really celebrate Christmas anymore..... I just celebrate it for Jesus's birth..
And it is a happy day that Jesus came to die for us.........
Well that sounds quite sad but it's happy
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 08:39pm
Well I blame your parents..... You did nothing wrong
And it doesnt matter to me what your parents think........
I love you and if your parents dont like it....... that's too bad
Elizabeth..... I know that you can.......
I just know it....... so dont worry or get frustrated
I know that you are an awesome person and you can do so many things
You just have to work hard and believe
And there are people with different talents
I bet all your friends aren't even half as good as you at singing
I'll always take care of you
Because you really are the most important.......
So dont cry inside........
And you know Elizabeth...... God loves you much more than I can ever love you.......
You might not believe it but you are his precious daughter.......
You cannot be compared to any jewel or riches in the world.......
merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 09:08pm
It's okay Elizabeth..... you dont have to believe
Because it's still going to remain the truth
I'll always love you and God will always love you
Well Elizabeth.... if you dont admit that you are sad when you are, that's being a coward too you know
You can always tell me when you are feeling down.....
Wow I would've.......... well..... that sounds a bit.....
Well... I still would've liked anything you drew
Although I would prefer a drawing of you smiling
That does sound scary
I thought you needed red eyes and vodoo dolls to be like Jigoku Shoujo
liz!~ ^^
hope you have a wonderful x'mas holiday!~ ^^
norine!~
well, but still you can practice so that you can be better on it ^^