Quote by Lionhearted911awwww hehe i never noticed the convo being over :P then again to be honest, i would feel as though i was rude if i didn't reply for some reason, like you were talking to a wall. i mean after you took the time to reply, i feel like i should say something in return as a gesture of appreciation ^///////^ weird?

ooh, well i don't think i'm a loner, even in the moments i want to be alone, it's rather hard to achieve. not that i'm ungrateful! i'm glad i'm always flocked by friends, it's really nice and fun...hehe and i'm a really open person at times my closer friends complain about it saying i should really be a lil more reserved and less accepting of strangers...but i have no idea ^^" it's in my nature and i like it for some reason. i find it hard to be like my sis. i guess i kinda worry it won't last, so i need to express it while i can kinda thing i feel like i sound definitely weird now! hehe you better not be laughing Maria! *giggles* just kidding ^^
...and it feels reassuring if you say so about Tommy loving that part of my nature ^^ thanks for saying so ^^

hahaha now that i never knew! about the beer thing sounds interesting...and wow blindfolded huh that means you could put beer in your bag and if it gets stolen a guy will surely find it for you! unless well..the burglar drank it on the way :P jk i'm teasing
...you know...do you really knit? for some reason, i never really thought you would ^///////^ not that i'm trying to offend you of course, you just didn't seem like you knit...hehe i don't knit a thing ^^" though maybe i should learn really.. wanna knit a kawaii scarf for my hubby! hehe ^//////^ put my name on it so all the ladies would know he's mine! mwaaaaahahahaha *ahem* hehe i was kidding :P

ahhh the divorce rates are sky high around here too...well...i'm happy for you ^^ it's nice your parents are still in love ^^ i donno if i can say the same about mine... i just hope they don't divorce cuz it's scary what would happen to dad if mother just up and leaves you know..i think he really needs her...too bad he doesn't know how to treat a woman right ^^" well...
....well i'm sure it'll be ok somehow ^^ ne ^^
hahahaha i'm glad my parents don't throw things when they're angry! from how much they get angry, we'd have no pans or anything in the house if they do! hehe and i can see why you would laugh about it ^^ i know i would *giggles* i'm glad your father ducked ^^ *applause* nice move ^^

hahaha well sex is taboo here too! but i personally prefer to well...make love with the man i marry. true i was raised that way, but it's really something i personally want too...then we'll have a kawaii wedding night ^/////^ ahaha what am i saying ^^" well anyway *ahem* our parents were strict. we even slept early! haha well till we grew up a lil, now my parents don't mind as much, other times i sneak up from bed when they're fast asleep *sneaky grin* :P
hehe well you never have to worry about being bad influence, i don't think you're bad influence at all, but i also don't get influenced easily. my teacher used to say i could hang out with the worst of girls but remain myself and just never change. though my sis influences me alottt! if she says my shirt sucks, even if i said a minute ago it was the cutest thing on earth, then it sucks! really i'm not even exaggerating. when we go shopping together i say "aww look how adorable!" and sis says "no it's icky" and me "yea it's icky" but it's also personality-wise. being with her i feel like i have a stronger personality than when i'm alone. it's really amusing, her chara rubs off on me at times. hehehe ^^ which is why i don't cry much around her, her strong personality makes things seem insignificant even if they initially hurt my feelings. i really admire her... hehe and love her ^/////^ ...and attached to her really, at times thinking of traveling for college and leaving her here is scary!

hehehe i think many teens and so on think cussing is cool, that's why they say it so much. hehe ^^" wonder who decides what's cool really... need to have a talk with him/her

awww... *hugs mum* she deserves credit too! loads of it! mother does more than just cook and care for his things! ...oh well...

...ahh ^^ hehe i'm sure things will be ok..
...mmm...now, i wonder if i'm saying that to reassure myself or you, Maria ^^"

hahaha ^^ it's so amusing. being a poet is pretty interesting. if you ever do become one, i'll read your work for sure! ^^ *cheers for Maria* i'm supporting you! *giggles* ^^

well, good luck with that list hope Mr. Right fits them all!

haha ^/////^ well it is a cute pic, so very adorable!

great talking to you again Maria ^^
hope it's not a bother though since you thought the convo was over ^/////^

take care! hope everything is great on your end ^^

Sincerely,
Sara

Haha, you're not a bother girl. But I always want to be the last one to reply too....does that mean we have a problem now? Just kidding.
I really don't mind talking to a wall now and then, it happens more often. I'll just make this one short, so you don't have to worry about replying, haha.
I read in your thread you are quite busy lately ayways, so I won't bug you anymore

*chuckles* You don't sound weird at all.....well okay, maybe a little bit But it's good for you to be around people Sara, that's better than being alone and isolate yourself from others.

About the knitting...you really think I'm not the type for that? Gee, now that doesn't surprise me. No, I don't knit. Have to admit I did it as a kid, but more to do my grandma a favour then because I wanted it myself I was only joking back then.
Hmm, you know....it would be really sweet to knit a scarf for your bf, maybe you should reconsider following a knitting course or something

Ahh, I read your parents had an argument...well, don't worry, it happens in every marriage. So I wouldn't think about things like divorce, cause I'm sure your parents never even thought about that. It's no use assuming things, ne?
.....I know I know, I'm pretty bad when it comes to cheering people up. Oh well, just wanted to say SOMETHING

Haha, really good for you that you and your sister get along so well ^^ Funny dialog about the shopping btw, very recognizable. That's how it usually goes between me and my mom too, my mom being the one calling "ohh look how cute! It would look so nice on you!" all the time and me telling her "mom...it's ugly, I would never wear something like that"

Oh, no no no, I'll never ever become a poet. I got both feet firmly on the ground, I'm way too down-to-earth to write poems or anything, even song lyrics are a no-can-do for me

Hmm, so you're suffering from migraine huh? Very nasty, I know. My mom and brother are bothered by it too now and then
Just take it easy and always carry some aspirines with you ^^

Well, I'm sure everything will be okay Sara.
It was fun and interesting chatting with you
Take care and enjoy your holidays ^^

Bye bye~

-Maria

HAPPY NEW YEARS, SARA-CHAN!

hope you have a good one!

see ya!

I'll see you next year! *Explodes*

yo! dropping by to wish you a happy new year before i go watch the city coloring heaven with colorful fires

see you in 2008

Aww thankies for the beautiful x-mas card. I'm glad u liked mine ^-^

hope to chat more with u later

Quote by Lionhearted911

awwww to be honest, i thought you were already on my fl! was so surprised when i saw you weren't ^^ it was really weird cuz i so seriously believed you were on my fl ^^"

well i'm actually probably going to Malaysia, but who knows, maybe i'll come visit you all in SG! only if you'll meet me in the airport though hehe ^^ would be fun though, don't you think ^^

and no worries about the late reply, i find i'm pretty busy too ^^" so this might be considered a late reply :P
still better late than never

take care norine! hope everything is going well with you!
...so when do you start school? next week?
in any case, wish you luck ^^

~Sara

i thought so too lolx!~ hahax..!~ well i added you already!~

oh malaysia? are you gonna go see kokuyu? oh only the airport~ hmm!~
i'll have to see!~ maybe i'll bring along midsummer and some of the others.
you'll have to tell me date first!~ incase i have sch!~ =)
yup of course it would be so much fun!~ ^^

hahax..!~ okie!~ yup of course better than never!~ ^-^
of course i'll take care!~ ^^ you too~~ ^^
yup next wed.... and thanks for the luck you too!~
i can't wait for sch and feel abit sad cause no more late night~ =p hahax..!~
but i'll have to catch up with my studies and stop slacking!~
*hug*

norine~

Quote by Lionhearted911

still waiting for your reply, really Ju, you should gimme some of your patience ^^

and you don't have to try to be a good brother...you already are ^^ i dropped by to tell you that

take care Ju!
hope things are well with you...would be worried if they aren't ^////^

Sorry Sara
I'll reply it ASAP
And NO~! My patience is priceless
I can only sell them to you for trading me what you hold dearest *hisses*

Thank you TT^TT
Then I'll try to be a better one

Well things aren't that well and fine as usual but I live on and that's what's important

merged: 12-30-2007 ~ 01:30am

Quote by Lionhearted911
hahaha well...i'm actually the tall one in the family (at 170cm, being 5.57 ft), so basically my brother's not gonna be taller than me anytime soon, though he's almost as tall as sis who's around three years his senior :P but it seems lil Adham is gonna be a tall one.
but it's interesting, watching them grow and seeing how they change... still... *deep thought* hehe well anyway then, every one is responsible for the person they decide to be.

awwww well i was actually pretty popular between the teachers. though i did naughty things like eat in class and so on, i was never rude and i accepted responsibility for my actions. besides in general i do try to develop a nice relationship with all my teachers, then they're more like my friends really. so the teachers liked me alot :P this one time i was late to class with a bunch of other girls and when the teacher saw me between then she got mad and didn't punish anyone the way she always does cuz she didn't want me to get into trouble. but then again i loved that teacher, she's such an amazing person... oh well T.T i miss her so much. to be honest just being around her at times, i felt like i was a better person myself. but if you were to categorize me between being the smart one or the one that suck up, i think i would be a combination of both, and trust me i do suck up even though it actually comes naturally with me. some teachers call it my 'charming side' others just giggle and play along. but it's not like i would be lying. if i tell the teacher she looks adorable a certain day, i would mean it. it's unkind to play with people's emotions and so on :P ^/////^"

hmmm well in our school, the level difference between the popular ones and the unpopular ones wasn't so great, so basically most of the class was ok with each other. though there were the groups, so each girl was like a part of an unsaid group. true though the groups were really based on nationality though...hehe well no one cared really. there was just one bunch that stuck to their own "kind" the rest of us just mingled with everyone and had all kinds of fun. then we always partied in class each girl would get food and we'd all like 'dig in' ...i really really miss those days ne... T.T really really miss them

haha Chinese whispers is when you start whispering something and it passes on and on and then by the time the whispering comes back to the person who started it, you see how is had changed this is what we call gossip...it starts out with one story and then changes as more people twist it around to how they wanna say it.. pretty interesting and fun
hehe ^^

haha hearing your own voice recorded is hilarious! personally i start thinking my voice sounds awful. but when i used to call my friend she said whenever her mother answered she would say "the girl with the pretty voice is on the phone" it was so funny to hear her telling me so...gives me confidence my voice isn't awful...still hearing it at times i feel like going 'urusai...your voice is annoying..."
Adham is the youngest brother, his name means "Stallion" in arabic actually and true, it is alot like Adam and Sara without the forbidden 'H' hehehe almost like you're teasing me with that statement. i always go "my name is Sara without the 'H' ok?" what...it' really pronounced differently... besides i kinda like my name the way it is

well it's true that the really pretty ones tend to have a cold personality alot...but i donno...there are a few exceptions. like over the summer i did meet a guy who looks really cute and so on...but he's really sweet and kind. besides my best friend was pretty, she was really nice...well ok...she was really nice to me and we were really close friends. my mother is completely beautiful but in general she's a really nice lady and everyone totally loves her...so there are many exceptions.
well i usually always have faith in God. i do agree though we believe in the same God, you and i...just have very slightly different ways of worship and so on... our housekeeper is Christian but there is very lil difference in our beliefs and so on.
well i think the bad things in life are tests of our endurance and patience. just like you stick with people during their bad times, you should stick to god as well. when i'm in a pinch i thank god, when i'm not in a pinch i thank god. there are a billion reasons to thank god even when i'm sick or scared...you can see and hear and eat anything...you can walk around on two legs and feel and...well...there are so many people so worse off...whenever i remember that, i thank god for keeping me healthy and sane and all... i get bugged when people look at those better off, they tend to forget that there are those looking at them and thinking they are better off themselves...
but well... i think you need to thank god and remember him during the good times, so that when the bad times come god would help you. it seems only fair. if you never gave a person a second glance when you were were happy and well off, you really don't expect him to give you a second glance when you're in a pinch right? ^/////^"

hahaha i do sound like that? well i told you that just to prove to you that i know what i'm talking about when i say you can change everything about you with your will. didn't want you think think i'm just talking crap and pretending to be a know-it-all. hehe was a first-hand experience.

hahaha really? i'm a mystery? well i donno, maybe i am one to myself too at times. but usually i pride myself at being a girl who knows who she is and what she wants. in a sense i believe nothing's impossible and sometimes i feel like nothing can stop me if i wanted something so bad...almost like invincible...but who knows

awwww we're almost opposites. for some reason i find i'm always concerned about other people's pains even if i'm in pain myself. for example i would never hurt a person's feelings even if she just hurt mine... always think on hurt feeling is better than two ^^"
another thing is i never ever blamed anyone for my pains. if my feelings hurt it was my fault. the only reason is cuz my feelings are mine to control, if i didn't want them to be in pain, they wouldn't be...sometimes though pain is better than being numb...alot better in my opinion.

hehehe yea there are lots of mountains. but a mountain is a mountain, always can climb it if you're good at climbing. and it takes practice i guess well hmmm... like i said, i get over it but at the same time i'm struggling to let go of the memory. i strugg;e to get over all my memories, whether they're good or bad. it's not that i live in the past, i'm just haunted by it. which technically is almost the same thing cuz if it's a good memory then i'm always missing it...if it's bad then i'm always trying to suppress the sad sort of bitterness ^^" thankfully i do keep quiet about my thoughts, at times if i do say the darker thoughts that come to mind, i really think it would hurt so many feelings...which is not in my nature to start with.

hehe i appreciate culture, it's interesting to see respect to traditions and sometimes those traditions of the past are so nice and lovely, and the new generation, being us, are so ignorant in a sense. elders are supposed to be respected really. they know more, they have more experience, they've gone through more. it makes sense your tradition really honors them. actually i think arabs too are supposed to honor their elders. even our parents! i hate seeing kids talk back to their parents. it's just so rude! if you weren't happy go live on the streets *grrr* i think even if your parents are mean and all... as long as they're not beating you up unfairly or 24/7 then they deserve appreciation. they provide food and give you a bed to sleep on and shelter from everything...besides when you're in a pinch, even if they yell at you, they solve the problem while yelling. though i guess the reason parents at times are cold and so on...it's cuz life made them that way. like i know why my father's just a rough man on the outside. he grew up all alone without parents and everything... been sent to boarding schools and...well...it's understandable. but at times all the gruff roughness is just to protect a hurting heart... but i donno...it's complicated ^^" a bad past is no excuse to treat people badly, that's for sure. i think a person shouldn't allow the past to shape their life, but well common sense of what's right and wrong. hmmm...

...but people change all the time. at least that's what i think, in a year, you find your friends are different people, to be honest i kinda feel like i'm a different person. it makes me wonder if it's all in my head and i'm the only one who's changed and basically the reason some friendships don't seem as strong as they used to be. or i think it's just me. actually about a year and a half ago, i made a wonderful friend. thing is, i was way more open then, i talked to her alot about my problems, i was generally even more talkative...but now i donno, we don't seem to talk together as much, perhaps it's cuz i don't talk about my problems much anymore to anyone, i wonder if it's cuz i grew out of it or i donno, just suddenly closed up maybe...or maybe cuz a part of me believed my first break-up was cuz i always talked about my problems... not that i think it's the reason now, but i believed it was the reason then and i guess it caused a certain change in my personality where i'm not into talking about my issues as much anymore. though we had lots of fun moments before and were so close...we don't talk much anymore, not about my problems, not about anything fun either.. hehe so it makes me think everything really just does fade away with time, esp when you lose contact for a while since there was a time i couldn't chat with her everyday and it almost caused this small gap. but maybe it's just me, i guess i struggle to trust people where i am concerned. it's hard to believe someone would have lasting feelings for me. i think the more someone gets to know me, the faster the love will fade. weird isn't it.. hehehehe ^^

wow...to be honest i live everyday thanking god in my heart for the people he allowed me to meet and befriend! i don't think i ever took anyone for granted, that's why when the love's lost or friendships fade, i have no regrets, cuz i gave my all no matter how anyone looks at it. it's interesting to know how much each person means to you, in myself some take priority over others cuz they mean more to me and so
on. besides to be honest, i kinda like living making people who are special to me know they are special...kinda like letting them know they mean alot to me... sometimes i don't really say it outright... maybe at times it's not so obvious either, but special people deserve special treatment right? ^^

yep, the world is rather infinite ne...our minds though are rather finite..

and not at all. I'm Muslim cuz my family is and their family is and you know we believe it's the right thing. it's not compulsory here at all. i told you our housekeeper was Christian, along with a few in our school and so on. it's no one's business what anyone's religion is basically.
well faith does come from the heart afterall, good for you. i think as logn as you believe in God firmly then things will work out somehow.
...mmmm Tommy would probably be a Christian... but i donno for sure since we nicely avoid talking about religion ^^"
so tell me, since i'm sadly ignorant a lil...is there a big difference between being Christian and being a Catholic?

hehe impenetrable huh... would you laugh if i said i thought i was like that at times too? like when i was checking in a book about people who deal with stress and it talked about the types of people and how each deals with stress, it was so easy to pinpoint my type. mine was the kind who creates a fantasy world and ignores the stress and the solution was that i was supposed to talk more sincerely to people ^^" it's kinda true, i talk so much, but i never say something i consider significant to random people... even friends in class ^^" like some of them share secrets with me and everything, but it's not mutual, i just listen and advice and so on or whatever, but i don't share a secret of my own. hehe so mean, but at times i really didn't give humanity such value...
...reminds me of this one time...
...see i used to hang out with a bunch of girls in school but after a while they really were so different from me that suddenly a deep friendship formed between me and a girl older than me in my class. so i ended up sitting with her in classes...thing is i was in a business project team with the other girls...and well i donno why they did it...but they all work on the project on their own and leave me out then when i ask about what they were gonna do for it, they say it's all done...
...so i was like "what about me...?"
and then my "friend" goes "oh but you were hanging out with your other best friend, so we thought you're not in our team anymore" and i said "why would i not be in this team? besides if i dropped out i would have said something don't you think?" and she was like "well we thought..."
whatever though, they didn't really think anything, i guess they were mad cuz i spoke to my close friend about my life and stuff...and thing is when one of the girls would join, i'd change the subject. ^^" i didn't trust them...at least not with my personal life stories... and it probably bothered them enough to make me have to do the project on my own.... ...not that i cared

well the scene we were talking about where you would have to kill the bad guy would be the scene where there's you, the one you love and a man who's a threat. you say you wouldn't kill to save the one you love, but dying right then and there before the one you love won't guarantee saving him now would it? hehe i guess i'm just protective...overly so ^^"
as for dying for others...
well...hehe at first Tommy did say he would die a hero...but i donno...it would hurt my feelings for sure though if he did...and if i didn't love him so much i would have brought wilted flowers to his grave :P ^^" i guess that's selfish though isn't it...but i just don't want to lose someone i love. i don't wanna sit by the door and wait for a hubby that won't come home ever again, i don't want to pick the phone up to the sound of a cop asking me to come and identify the body, i don't want to have to explain to my kids if we had any by that time that their father's just gone like that... so i'm selfish... but i donno...i want to be selfish if it means living with the one i love for the rest of my life, growing old with the one i love... it's funny ne ^//////^" wonder if i'm just naive.
...and i'm not kind, i'm not really sacrificing myself for random people, just the ones i truly love...like now they would be my parents and siblings and my closest friends and my Tommy...
but i donno, i have a feeling if it was a crying kid i just might do something about the situation...willingly die, no...but attempt to rescue in a way that's not life-threatening...well yea. but depends! if i had kids and a home by then, i probably won't...i wanna be a good mother to my kids and watch them grow and see them graduate and go off to college and attend their weddings and even have grandchildren too! ^////////^ *giggles*

well i'm not afraid of dad as much as i used to be... when he yells at times i don't hear him really, already in my own world so far away... like once mother traveled and well, i had tests...and well that day i had such a migraine...so what i did before father came from work during the evening was take some pills...they're painkillers as well as sleep inducers at the same time...i was hoping that i could go to sleep after eating dinner with dad... thing is, on that day too, our dsl connection thingi...well whatever it is, it expired and i had no idea how to renew it with a card father bought for renewing it...
and he was screaming and screaming and yelling at me, thing is i was so dazed from the pills, i could barely hear or understand what he was saying! besides he was yelling from another room too... i was just so drugged and ready to collapse in bed and just go to sleep. i had my literature book open on my lap pretending i was reading since i had our literature test the next morning but i was too dazed to read, trying to keep my eyes open after yelling for like two hours, and my head pounding...he says he called someone from the company to come by and renew it for us, and then he tells me to stay awake so that i would see how the man does it so that the next time it expires i could fix it myself...
well i stay awake, and watch the man and listen to him explaining, but if you ask me now, i don't remember a single thing. i have no idea how to renew the connection i was so drugged i couldn't think and concentrate so i don't remember... when the man left i ran to the bathroom to throw up since the pain in my head was a bother to bear, then i had to eat with dad and listen to his wayward apology... which i accepted and went to bed and...i got an A on the test though i thought the highest i would get would be a C! but i'm one lucky thing
...well also got a fever and came down with a cold, it was this time of year when the weather changes, but i was so scared to stay home and face the wrath of father...i went to school after stopping at a pharmacy to take something to lower my fever...
...ehehe i spent the first three hours of school crying though... ^^" when i get so sick i don't handle things very well and i guess i was at my limit already...
...but anyway ^^ i made it and it's ok...my friend was there for me and things were alright, she kinda took care of me in her own way so i was ok...i miss her..

hahaha *hands over Nobel Prize* thanks for your patience, very much appreciated ^^
well then...finally a reply ne ^^

take care Ju! hope everything's ok on your end!

Sincerely,
Sara

merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 05:37am
wow...that was...one...long...post

Yesh! I'm taller
I think I'm around 175 ( I only know the American system of measurement )
Really? So how old is Adham now?
Yeah it is....... unfortunately, it ain't fun for me to watch my parents get old and weak.......
Rather sad........

Oh I see
Teacher's pet! *throws tomatoes!*
Booo!
Joking joking
I'm quite popular with my history teacher but all the other teachers dont really care about me
Just another one of those Korean students (which we dont need anymore in my school)
Sometimes I feel the teachers here are rather.... hostile..... and unfriendly
Either that, or they have a tendancy to favoritize few students........
We have some passionate teachers in my school as well
It's just that I dont take any of their classes
Never heard of honest suck ups
But I dont think I would call that sucking up
More like......... instinctive impulse to give teachers compliments

That's cool
We see popularlity clearly in our school
The "cool" kids have their own gang type of things which they only hang around by themselves
They do talk to the "less popular" kids sometimes but I think it's just to make them feel inferior or something
Yeah it's quite weird how people stick to their own "race"

I guess what you are doing is "having flashbacks of the good ol' times"

Ohhh I know that game
But in Korea they called it something else........ (maybe it's because Koreans dont like Chinese or something :p )
But it's quite the undeniable fact that you never get the same phrase you started with :p

Yup.... but Chinese whispers arent really intentional while for gossip, they exaggerate on purpose

My voice sounds a lot like a teenager than I hear myself like
That's a nice way to refer somebody as
Sometimes when I hear my voice, I think "Whoa...... good thing that my dream isn't to become a singer because I wouldn't make one penny with my voice TT^TT"
Although I enjoy singing, my voice can't go too high (annoying puberty)

Stallion? That's a cool name
My name means something...... weird
It's like one of those chinese phrases of "wisdom" or something
My grandfather named me but I dont really like my name.......
Come to think of it, Arabic is really really hard
I tried learning it but it was a lot harder than French
I had to learn both at the same time when I was in Lebanon since they use both languages, but French..... was okay (maybe since I spoke English by then) but Arabic was like....... ".......... are you expecting me to learn this?"

So what's the name of your other brother and sister?
I wonder if their names will sound familiar
You are the one who told me the "Forbidden H" thing
I guess it's probably forbidden since Sarai in the Bible changed her name to Sara"h"
I wonder how you pronounce it.... makes me curious

Yeah there are always exceptions
But the pretty ones are usually cocky (without exaggeration or stereotyping)
Very rare to see people like your friend

Yeah... I guess we do..... since there is only one God anyway....
The people around me always told me that the life on Earth was like..... a practice stage before heaven
Like a temporary visit to get some experience before heaven........ then what about hell? I have no idea.......
It might be easy for you but being a natural extreme pessimist and all that, it's not easy at all for me
True....... although I believe that God will help me whether or not I'm being selfish......
But yeah, what you say is true

Well I wouldve believed you anyway even if you didn't have any experience
But I guess it makes you more trustworthy

Yes you are a wonder
You seem more and more mysterious every time I know more about you (seriously)
Wow....... You really have a seriously strong heart

Yes it's quite amusing to find you and I completely opposite

Well for me, I try not to hurt other's feelings when they haven't hurt mine yet
And if that's the case, everything should be your own fault
Every single bad and good thing
If you are happy because you are not dead but hurt, it's your own mindset
If you are angry or whatever because you didnt get your favorite food for dinner, that's still your own perspective
So if things are like that, we'd have to blame every single thing on ourselves
Which then would imply on the saying that goes like "If you aren't satisfied with the world, just die....... why destroy the world when you can die?"
When I first heard that, I thought it was pretty harsh but I thought it was reasonable
Wait... am I going off topic? Crud cakes

I'd have to disagree with you on that
I wouldnt let go of any of my memories
Of course I would move on if I am stuck but I would not dispose any of my memories
After all, it's the proof of my existence and the evidence of which how I turned out like this at the present

I'm not much of a cultural person
I think most cultures and traditions are rather bothersome
Although I think there should be some boundaries and stuff with ethinicity and stuff since it would be boring if everybody was from the same culture
My opinion is that whether elder or not, they have no right to look down or disregard younger ones and the younger ones are not prioritized to respect them when they have done nothing to gain any
I might sound ignorant or cruel or foolish but I'm sticking with what I believe
I give the minimal amount of respect at first and if they deserve more, I give it to them

Yeah my father's like that too
My grandparents always beat him up and treated him like crap so he doesn't treat me that well either
But I still think that's no excuse.......
Although that might be the way he grew up with, he should realize.........
I already decided that I will become a lot better father than mine was
And for the parents thing.... no actually I dont think that way
I think it's manditory for parents to provide food and shelter and other necesities for the children
After all.... no child asked to be borne......
So if they can't even do that, they shouldnt have children at all

Yeah I know what you mean
When I met my childhood friend after..... 3 years, I thought evolutionism was somewhat valid
He totally looked different and his personality wasn't like how I remembered it
So different that I wouldn't believe they're the same people unless they show me his fingerprints and all that

Maybe it's because you guys feel awkward about each other?.....
But it really is hard to believe...... that anybody even cares about me

Actually I...... used to think of my "friends" as just...... T-shirts or pants
I guess it's because..... I lost friends over and over that I didn't want them anymore
So I didnt let myself get any feelings for them and just moved on and threw them away like clothes when it was time for me to move again
Sometimes people dont really realize their worth......
And sometimes..... they dont really believe that they are important to me either

You know I began out as a supposed Christian because my parents were
But I realized it was just superficial
Pretending as a Christian all my life.......
That's when I realized the life I was living was a joke

Yeah religion is quite a touchy matter to talk about with your friends especially when it differs.....

Christian and Catholic?
I guess the fundamental basis are quite the same since Christianity (protestants) broke off from the Roman Catholic because of all the tyranny and abuse of power
I dont know the differences since I dont really know about Christianity or Catholic
Like I said, I believe the God of Christians but I believe God my own way
And I dont like those Christian people anyway
They're like..... so self-righteous only on the outside when they have zero faith on the inside

No actually I was expecting that
It's quite clear that you are a strong person Sara
And almost invincible like those final stage bosses with infinite healing magic and the ability to destroy half the battlefield and all dat

Umm quite the fascinating people you met
But I guess they did feel a lil bit left out
Wonder what made them think you already left the team though
I guess jealousy is a big weapon

You guys talk about seriously scary and quite unlikely topics
True...... but I would find another way to work things out if possible
So is the premise made so that the man has to kill us?
Love is so complicated........ but my happiness isnt the only happiness.... so I think we should respect the happiness of others as well........
But it really is hard........ really really hard TT^TT

I dont think that's being unkind
After all....... if you still care about others, that's still kindness
Even if it's not enough to die for them
Actually I wouldn't die for my parents
Not because I hate them or anything because I already know that they have insurance to go to heaven after death

Actually I'm quite apathetic towards my dad as well
I used to fear him like the devil but I just dont care about what he says anymore..... just..... quite sick of him
That sounds kinda well........ harsh and seriously wrong
I mean like...... hmmm well........ I wouldnt drug myself because of my father...... although I almost tried to kill him or something
But good thing I have a lot of patience
It's just so unfair how human brain works doesnt it?

And I give you a Nobel Patience Prize as well for waiting for my post
Thank you for your patience

Yup that really was one long long long long multiplied by infinity long post

Well I'll be okay
You take care of yourself too Sara

See ya

HEY LIONHEAD! How are you doing!? I'm fine, everything is good with me, for Christmas I got an iPod Classic. I've been asking my mom for one for months, and i finally got one. I'm so happy! Hope you have a great holiday sesaon! Thanks for the card!

hello ... =v=~ i know i'm kinda too late but still ... merrily xmasy ~ hahas ~

here's a present for ja ........ or are there ? .... xamsy ja ~

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hi sara .... i know you love my doggy =v=~ and so ... anada present for ja ~~

Quote by Lionhearted911Hello sensei ^^
how is everything with you? i hope everything is good ne...
do your best and never give up ^^Q(^_^Q)

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
take care and hope to hear from you soon ^^

HO HO HO merry ah whatever not really into the Christmas thing but Happy Holidays!

Quote by Lionhearted911Hello Jack how are you?
just dropping by to leave you a card!

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

take care!
see you around

but what have you done for me lately..oh right made the card..fine fine here you go meanie..

Hola Sarita! O_o You sure have a lot of greetings on your guestbook haha ! Well, guess I'll add on and bury you completely with Christmas cards...

Sorry for the late greetings, the last few days have been busy( or is that still an understatement...one of my ummm, "talents" ), preparations, family gatherings, a sleepover tomorrow night with my friends( actually, it's a sort of tradition we have...we usually draw sticks for that...whoever gets the shortest, gets to open her house for desecration and messing up hahaha ! Good thing it hasn't been me for two years now. Anyways, the Nochebuena was pretty much a party of sorts, actually it's been that way every year that I can't imagine a Christmas Eve with just the five of us here...

Ho ho...and I have a new guitar and I'm feeling like Queen Sofia right now ! Actually my brother wasn't too happy about buying me another one lol...but his Ibanez is rather battered before he even gave it to me!
Nothing like a constant badgering to make men see the point! Well, I kinda gave up when he surprised me...hmmm, maybe I'll try to use that method a lot more* evil laugh *...

Well, Happy Holidays to you too sis and wish you more great stuff for the coming year! Ha...as if you'll need that! Ens veiem mes tard, i cuida't sempre! Salutacions des de Barcelona! Bon Nadal(retardada lol) i un prosper Any Nou a voste ja la seua familia! Donar-los una abracia de part meua!

( Talk to you later and take care always. Happy Belated Christmas and a prosperous New Year to you and your family. Give them hugs from me! )

Lol, MT still doesn't allow special characters....grrrr...

Quote by Lionhearted911Hiiii Maria ^^
sorry for the late reply...but ^^"

...Good luck with your exams ^^ i hope things went well and everything.

hehe yep, my sis and i are pretty close. we share the same room and play games together and everything, so it's really funny. besides when i need someone to talk to i can usually go to her and give her the teary eyed look and she'd be like 'spill it' and me 'waaaaaaa' :P we're opposite sides of the same coin though. her personality is just sooooo different from mine. she has a strong personality that's on the firm fair side, while i'm the one with the more delicate feelings ^^" besides even relationship wise, she's just hard to get, good and keeping her emotions at bay and so on...while i'm a lil...ok alooot more open and i don't usually waste time, like take initiatives and so on ^/////^" not sure if it's a good thing...maybe i should ask Tommy ^///////^

and yep, i met my bf on MT about a year ago ^/////^ his username is Gearstalker05

heheh Mr. Right good luck! i'm sure he'll come by for coffee someday ^^ ...just don't make the coffee too bitter :P ^^

awwww...seems grandparents these days are the ones with the successful relationships ne... most adults and people from our parents' generations are getting divorces after like twenty years of marriage which is like...completely weird... but...my parents are together... not exactly love birds...or maybe just lovebirds that bite each other once in a while ^^"

awwwwww so nice of you to visit often! well mine live in another city so...i barely get to see them like every five years or something... no idea how i became the favorite but i believe at times there's no explanation to why you can love someone so much...hehehe :P ^^

hahahah thanks for the compliment i know...everyone tells dad he raised us well ^^" i guess so...but i'm sure there were times he could have been less strict...but that is the past and i'm grateful he at least raised us to be decent people esp my sis and i. you just don't hear us cussing or being rude or so on. that's cuz we had a nice bite of chilli pepper if we did you know i never even knew the f word till my friends told me in seventh grade ^^" we were pretty sheltered, if i had no friends in school, i probably would still think babies suddenly appeared in my mother's stomach by God. which is half the truth... but not the way it seemed like magic ^^"
i wonder if that would have been better though...i believe you kinda lose a small sense of innocence... i mean after my friends told me all that...just never felt the same way again i mean even if you still haven't been with a man, it just feels like some of your innocence is gone or is it ignorance? :P

ooooh i see i see, it's cool your dad is successful ^^ hehe well whe we were decent kids my father took alllll the credit when we were bad, he said mother wasn't doing agood job raising us i guess most men are the same ne. well now my father is an entrepreneur and mother helps him out. in my opinion mother's the one making him oh so successful you know what they say, 'behind every successful man is a woman' heheh :P

yep as long as you have goals, it gives you a reason to live, at least in my opinion.

well good luck with everything Maria ^^
hope everything goes great with you
if we're friends for long, be sure to tell me if you've met Mr. Right or not hehehe ^^ bet his real name would be better than the one you've made up for him *pokes and giggles* ^^

take care Maria! ^^
hope to hear from you soon!

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...and if i must say so myself...the pic is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! sooooooooo cutteeeeeeeeee! ^/////////^

Hi hi Sara,

Haha, relax, I didn't expect a reply in the first place, I kinda thought the conversation was over

Exams? *thinks hard* ....Ooooh yeah, that. Yeah, went pretty okay, thanks

Mhuahaha, well, I think Tommy just LOVES that open side of yours, it might even be the reason he fell for you, ne?
.....Gee, look at me, haha, I'm talking like I know everything about love here.......not really hahaha....I have zero experience myself
*ahem* Hmm, I guess I'm a lil' bit like your sis, I don't open up to people easily, and don't show my feelings to nobody... *nod nod* yep, that's right, and it fits perfectly with my 'loner' status ^^

Hahaha, coffee? I'm lousy at making coffee, always tastes either too bitter or too watery Plus I don't like coffee very much, though a good cappucino is always nice ^^
No, if I want a man I better put a fair amount of cold BEER in the fridge, have a tin-opener within reach, open the front door, sit down behind the window reading a lame magazine or knitting socks or something and wait for him to walk in...men really DO have a nose for alcohol, you know, even blind-folded they can find it easily

Ya, here in Holland the number of divorces is rising every year, right now 1 out of 3 marriages end in divorce A real good reason NOT to get married, or at least think twice before marrying someone, heheh ^^"
Oh, don't cha worry, in every marriage there are fights My parents had some rough ones too, most times ending in throwing things at each other, like our poor family Bible, which is totally ruined by now Frying pans are very popular too, they make good weapons....my mom once threw a big heavy pan right through the kitchen door window out of pure anger (it was meant for my dad but he ducked just in time ^^) *thinking back* Man, that was quite a mess....but now we can all laugh about it, haha But all that happened a long time ago, and my parents really DO love each other, haha

Wow, you can only visit your grandparents once every few years? That's a pity.....mine live just around the corner, only a five minute ride ^^ I'm glad they're living close-by, I like visiting them...though I don't come there as often as before, only once a week now

Ahhh, yeah, you're always very polite and neat with words, no cussing or anything. Really good on ya ^^ My parents raised us pretty strict too, no cursing in this house, sex is taboo (though I DO know where the babies come from by now ^^), we're going to church every Sunday and even up till now we don't watch tv of use internet on Sundays or Christian feasts like Christmas (which is a little bit TOO strict if you ask me ) So anyways, at home I behave myself (to stay out of trouble), but here on the net I sometimes go loose, haha. I know it's bad, but heck, I don't care *grins* ......Hmm, I sure hope I'm not of bad influence to you, hahaha
But ya, I know what you mean about the 'innocence' part...once I got into highschool I was quickly introduced to some 'worldly things' I never knew about and after we got internet at home I got to see some more crazy stuff...and the cuss language people practised in highschool, and now here in college, is still annoying me....it's like people have no dignity, talking trash like they do Like the 'f word' you mentioned, I can't say I like it

Haha, I see, so it's the same with your family huh? That's somewhat of a relief, I thought my dad was just very old-fashioned and other dad's wouldn't be like that ^^"
Guess you're right.....men just have too big an ego if you ask me
Ya, true, heheh...my dad wouldn't be anywhere if my mom didn't do his laundry and cook his meals, hahaha Hmm, really, that woman deserves more credit *going downstairs to hug my moms and tell her I love her*

Ya, without goals life it pretty worthless...

Ahhh, well Mr. Right is not yet in sight (hey, that rhymes! Maybe I should become a poet *day dreams* ) but once he walks in (the door's open after all ), finds my fridge (=beer) and decides to stay, I'll let you know, okay? ^^ But of course he has to meet certain requirements too, I'm not taking just ANY guy in *makes a list of demands*

Oh yeah, that pic...ya, back then I was still cute and adorable, too bad there's nothing much left of that anymore, haha...I think I'll change the photo again though
But thanks for the enthusiastic comment on it, if you were a guy it would make me blush *chuckles*

Heheh, nice talking to you again Sara, take care ^^
Hope you're enjoying the holidays as much as I am.

Bye bye

-Maria

PS And thanks for the Christmas card and good wishes ^^

Quote by Lionhearted911Hello Jenny-chan ^^
how are you? i missed talking to you, it's been a while ne.

Hope you Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year
hope to hear from you soon!
~Sara

hey sensei! haha yer, well, lotsa things happen and anyways how are u? and thanks for the cardie~ merry xmas! and i doubt i will be onlining much next yr anyways, i am currently wanting to look for a modelling job, so i can earn my own money :P

Quote by Lionhearted911Hello Lance!
long time no talk eh ^^
hope everything is going well with you, school and all.
just dropping by to send you a card ^^ hope you like it

Hey, thanks, sorry for not being active these two days, on 24th I was busy helping my old man with the dinner and on 25th my brother was in the computer all the day, however, I can still tell you I wish the best for you, because christmas and new year aren't the only days when friends are friends

By the way, thanks a lot for the card, sorry for not being able to make one for you myself....

Yo S-chan! You're missed too, I hope you had a beautiful holiday and honestly wishe we could speak sometime soon ^^ it was cool you know!

Until next time!

Haoh77

Quote by Lionhearted911
Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

sorry for the late well wishes but...better late than never ne
hope you have good times and everything goes great in your life Norine ^^
*hugs*
see you around! hope to hear from you soon ^^

sincerely,
Sara

oh!~ sara-nee chan!~ thanks much!~ ^^ sorry for the ate reply~ too many!~ @-@
and computer always disconnect~ but thanks again for the card and well wishes!~
*hugs* oh sara-nee chan? have any plans coming to singapore?
[p.s: thanks for adding me to your fl i'll do the same!~ ^^]

norine!~

Quote by Lionhearted911HIIIII sis ^^
how are you? i missed you already! can't wait till we're together in Malaysia ne ^^
hope things are going good and you're preparing for your school...

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
with love,
Sara

*hugs sis*
I missed you too!
Yeah...I can't wait either...^^...so happy!
I'm preparing for school alright...
which I'm dreading...
but still...
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you too!

Quote by Lionhearted911hiiiii Jonathan ^^
hope you are doing well and everything's going good.
plz tell me you finished your projects ^^

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

thanks for your wishes, and i hope you have a wonderful life ahead of you ^^
sincerely,
Sara

Hey there Sara!
Thanks for the card! I would be giving out cards too, but I don't have those kind of skills at the moment!
So, did you have a great Christmas?!

-Jonathan

Quote by Lionhearted911Hi Hi my sweet Beloved ^^
although i get to wish you a sweet Christmas in private, still, here's a card for my sweetheart ^//////^

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Love you Loadies and loadies darling

Yours Truly,
Sara

Awwwwwwwww, I am so touched.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, happy holidays and whatever other blessings are needed.

Hope to see you soon, my dearest love. Know that the feelings of love between us are oh so very mutual.

Love you loadies and loadies too, Beloved

Sincerely,
Thomas

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hehe i was talking about a different brother, i have two brothers, the young five year old one and the thirteen year old one. i wrestle around and play alot with the youngest, but the older one is ok too, i used to play alot with him and give him many piggy backs though when he was a lil baby. hehe ^^ but it's a fact that the lil one is a bundle of joy, at least to me. he always manages to make me smile even when i'm bugged. like when i'm angry and he goes "Sara?" and i ignore him, he comes over and pats my arm and says "You're so cute" and me "awwwwwww" *melting* so you see, he just knows how to flatter me and make me laugh and smile but he does bring out my motherly side too, cuz i took care of him alot when he was younger. besides, he also softened my nature, i only started using endearments after he was born, so yea ^^

hmmm i think alot of our teachers don't care if you sleep or not but they don't let you cuz it's against the rules to sleep in class but we did many fun things in class usually in eleventh grade though i didn't take part of the fun, always too busy in class writing my stories...but in tenth grade we'd make small tiny paper balls and place them on the desk, aim, and flick it over to someone we passed notes, played chinese whispers, passed food under the desks...got in trouble for it but yea, school times were fun. the students here are rather rude when they want to be, so they answer teachers back and so on, rather funny. of course there was the cheating during tests, the small scraps of paper with answers written on them...sometimes there was the stealing of exam papers...which in the end was found out but it was a lil toooooo late for that of course being me, i always helped out my friends and shared my exam answers with them when the teacher wasn't looking, never thought there would be benefits out of it...but i really believe that what you study for you get, even if yuo had the exam paper and studied for it, you're not destined to get an A. cheating and stealing are wrong, and we all tend to pay the price. ...of course i never stole the paper or cheated from anyone..so don't get any ideas

oooh well i usually read in my mind too, it's much faster, but we need to practice! so at times i read a lil aloud. usually in whispers loud enough for me to hear myself read. it's actually pretty fun. i enjoy hearing the different ways my tone changes and so on. i even put on a different accent for someone or talk harsher for a bad guy or something...so it's fun and amusing ^^
Adham likes to hear me read...sometimes he comes and gets his kiddy books and says "Sara read this for me" but that was before...now he's soooo occupied playing PS2 24/7....so unhealthy but he's spoiled so no one can tell him anything ^^"

you know something Ju? i was just never all that when i was younger. everytime i remember that, everytime i accomplish something i thank God a million times for helping me become a better person. in my opinion, God was the one who gave me a chance to better myself and of course when we're talking beauty-wise, of course it was God who gave me the looks.
you wouldn't believe me but i seriously wasn't a pretty girl every before i like turned 17...i'm so dead serious but no one believes me, they all think i'm being modest or exaggerating but i'm not. as a kid i was always always made fun off. what happened was i was a very cute kid, looked alot like my youngest brother, but then somewhere in second grade i kinda broke my nose in second grade...fell down the stairs or something. and dad being dad he told mother there was no need to go to a doctor and that my nose will be ok. well it wasn't ok. up till i turned 17 my nose was the worst! i never liked my nose, then again i never liked anything about me. i was just an unpretty girl. not ugly, but just not pretty either. but then that's for the looks...my personality was just as awful!
i was very very sensitive..(then again i still am but i manage it better now) i cried over every single thing, i was a cheerful girl, i talked way too much, i always told people secrets, i trusted people so fast, i believed in people.. but that's not the worst, i was so stupid. all my teachers as a kid said i'm intelligent.
you see the principal of my brother's school now (my youngest brother) was actually my teacher when i was in elementary. and when i went to visit with her after dropping my brother off she was like "if it isn't my intelligent beauty!" and me "hehe ^^" but you see she talked about how i'm such a clever person and if my brother was like me then he would be all clever and intelligent.
thing is though, i never put the intelligence to good use. i don't remember myself then...but i just know i was horrible cuz i remember my parents mocking me and calling me names...
then...when i was around twelve...all that personality thing changed...the pride within me didn't like being mocked, i didn't want to be mocked by my parents...i didn't want to be put down...i wanted a reason to hold my head up high...and you know, i made a reason.
by sitting in front of the mirror and crying in the bathroom everyday from being mocked, i think something within me was sparked. seeing a pitiful, tear-stained face looking back just made me damn angry, then lionhearted was born. basically, she would be the strong voice inside me that pushed me forward. i was never alone, the voice was always telling me to strive for the best. i lost the ability to cry, really i didn't cry much. whenever i did, the voice cursed me senseless and got angry and yelled at me..so i never cried...then i started reading dictionaries and encyclopedias...of course that gave me the information to be better off than many. i read stories so my vocabulary and reading skills would improve... i bettered myself and to be honest, i'm proud of myself. i'm proud and confident too.
and it all gave me the faith that a person can change themselves if they wanted to... and my inspiration was my proud Lionhearted.
...and now...no one makes fun of me, no one mocks me...even if they wanted to, they have no basis on which to mock me... mwahahahahahahaha *smirks* this would be the fruit that i myself reaped, and you must know, i enjoy every bite of that fruit... afterall, i worked oh so hard...i deserve the sweet taste the fruit brings me.
but the looks i have God to thank for. really...i'm grateful from the depths of my heart that i'm growing prettier each year. mother said i would be like her, the kind of girl who gets prettier as she grows older. which is well and good, afterall us women need the looks as we grow older ne my mother's very pretty, when we walk together, many people ask if she's my sister. so it's cool ^^

yea, no one is really appreciated for their talent around here either...
thankfully though i don't think there's gonna be any wars here, seems this is a peaceful kingdom...
but you don't need anyone to appreciate your talents if you appreciate them yourself. though i do think it's nice to be appreciated by others.
women aren't mistreated, they're just not given the freedom. there's a difference well the reason...hmmm......arab culture?

ohh...never know what you've got till its gone. true most people are like that, but personally i don't think it applies to me. i tend to appreciate the person and know his/her value to me, not gonna wait till the person's gone and sit there regretting. i guess i'm an open person, so i let people know how i feel about them, in case one of us disappears then there are rarely any regrets. i don't take those i love for granted, not for a minute, it doesn't seem right. even though most of the people i met seem to take everything for granted ^^"

i move on, at times though it feels like i only move on with half of me, while the other remains with my memories, holding on to my dearest moments... which is probably horrible really. but it doesn't really bother anyone but me...so ...it's ok if i want to sink in my own memories, i'm still moving forward in my own way. but the memories make me think "once upon a time...you treated me nicer" things like that ^^" so the memories do sometimes bother me and the person in my memories... kinda hard to explain :P ^^

i agree, i believe in God too because no way everything created itself, what created the right temperature then? what created time and the right moment? so you see, it's endless. i think everyone believes in God, everyone though calls it differently. like "The power that controls things" even when people say "fate" to me it's just like saying God ordained it and so on...but i donno... my teacher said even atheists knew there was a God. they just called it other things and pretended to be ignorant. oh well... it's not my business what anyone believes ne ^^"
i believe in heaven and hell too! well...we could close this topic though now, our religions are different...so there are alot of complications. but i happen to be Muslim just in case you were wondering ^^

when i'm hungry...i get migraines and don't do well in anything :P and thing is, during exam times i'm always hungry! so i always gain like two three pounds...oh yea! i get hungry for sweets so i have alot of icecream and chocolates ^^"

i don't usually get sick often, but when the weather changes from like summer to winter, i do get sick. it's usually even like the same time every year, around November or so, i come down with a cold, a flu, and fever. but usually i don't get sick often. i think i have a strong immune system, that's cuz i don't take much meds and let my body fight it out on normal occasions.

ohh? heheh wow do i look and seem that angelic? well i don't yell often that's for sure.. but i do get angry. usually when i do i try to ignore everything and pretend i'm not mad...the only person who has loud arguments with me is my sis..can't say it's that bad. thankfully sis and i are so close, so one sec we're arguing, and the next we're hugging. so it's ok ^^
the other person i yell at is my older brother at times. but it's true, i don't really shout much. and with friends, if i'm angry i walk off or just ignore them and start reading. but then again my friends never really do anything to make me angry
i don't think i'd regret killing someone who is a potential harm, i'd regret not getting rid of the danger and allowing it to steal the life of someone i love.
oh Ju, i'm not that kind, honestly. like once my Tommy and i were talking about sacrificing ourselves for the general public. simply, I WOULD NEVER! sorry, i only take bullets for those i love, not Mr. Random Stranger. i'm not willing to die for strangers, i don't think my opinion will ever change, and i will not accept my lover dying for a stranger either, i'll come close to cursing him in the grave for being a hero for some reason, it's sad. why would you want your lovwer to die for a stranger when you're sitting by the door waiting for him is beyond me! what if we had kids too?! i wonder if our kids would appreciate their parent dying for someone so random.. i know i wouldn't appreciate my parents acting like heroes...thank but leave the heroic acts to the cops. -/////-
..so did i shatter an illusion? did i seem like the type to stand in front of some man and protect him? now a child...well i donno..there are freakin exceptions...i'd try to save the child, but i donno...if there was a huge risk i was gonna die.....i donno really... ....i donno...

hahahahaha *hands over tissue*

they're not grudges, i don't hold grudges, but like the scar of the pain won't go away. i wouldn't be mad, the person's already forgiven...but it's hard to explain. it's just like my heart not wanting to be hurt by the same kind of pain again, so there's this barrier. and it's true, yell at me once, i'd cry cuz it hurt my feelings, when you yell the second time, i'd probably stare, maybe look sad, by the third time the yelling leaves no real emotion in me and i'm thinking "your voice is jarring" see what i mean? ^^
no one likes to be hurt, and being hurt so many times while growing up, this is my way of adapting to it.

hahaha both my brothers tell me if my shirt's cute! the youngest i go *cute baby voice* "Is the shirt cute?!" and him "yes" and me "nyaaaaaaaaaa!" then the older one i say *curious serious questino* "is the shirt really nice?" and my brother *Chokes* "umm...yes it is..." and me "ok then thanks ^^"
my youngest though tells me i'm cute alot i think he likes me saying 'nyaaaaaaa' and so on. but he likes messing up my hair

hahah thanks for forgiving me Mr. Generous brother ^^
take care and it was fun talking to you as usual ^^
hope to hear from you soon!

Sincerely,
Sara
P.S. have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year ^^

Oh different brother
I knew that
I was just joking
Ahh..... The good memories of the past
It's so weird when they grow up and become taller than you or something
Aww... that sounds adorable
Oh ho I seez
I wonder if you are so happy happy all the time because of him

Meh..... The teachers usually dont care about me
They care about their favorite students (which are either the smart ones or the cool ones who suck up to them)
I never join into the "Fun" either
Since it's always the popular kids having all the fun

Chinese whisper? Never heard of that before
Wow.... that's quite a lot of trouble.....
Shared exam answers? Dum dum dum!
Yeah we get what we deserve in the end
Of course I knew that you wouldnt do such a thing

You know.... it's really weird to hear yourself talking and to hear your voice that was recorded
You sound like somebody totally different... just wanted to mention it
Adham? Is he one of your brothers? The name sounds like Adam with a slight alteration in the pronounciation
Like Sara and the forbidden "H"

Yeah.... sometimes.... it's really hard to appreciate God
Even when he's there..... to me.... and to people.... he's something so obviously like air and water that we dont realize God's help
Well that is sure hard to believe but it doesn't really matter does it?
But I guess we are conscious of our beauty more and more since people put a lot of importance to it
But I dont really like pretty pretty girls
For some reason..... majority of them are kinda..... sassy and bossy and like ummm how to you describe it..... In one word, they're just.... "self-righteous".... wait that's two words but combined....
I'm not saying that you are (since you are pretty pretty) but I gues I'm being stereotypic

Wow... that's pretty harsh.... fell down the stairs......
That sounds scary I never broke anything so I dont know the pain.....

It's harder to believe how you were..... since you told me quite often that you dont trust people easily

Wow...... you sound like one of those coolio anime characters who transforms *twinkly eyes*
No wonder so many people admire you

You know.... you really are a mystery the more I get to know you

You know.... in my case.....
i lost almost all the hope I had.... or any happiness I had
Whenever I tried to get back up..... or whenever I even tried to move on......
Everything around me just collapsed
Whenever I cried out to God...... it felt like he was a million mile away
I guess that's why I was so....... bitter towards God... and people
I was so angry at everything that when I was young (around elementary?....) my dream was to be a dictator and enslave humanity
Quite cruel...... but I just couldnt really take it......

But.... I guess I was naive.....
I only prayed to God when I needed something...... I cried out to God only when I wanted to die... I only thanked him when I felt satisfaction.......
I shouldn't have really expected anything from God when I was so.... self-obssessed....
But I really wanted everything to go away....... Even God.......
Never really bothered about everybody else's pain... because I always thought I was the one suffering the most and I thought those people were the ones causing it

I've heard a lot of people in my life telling me to get over it......
And I did.... and when I got over that mountain..... there was a thousand more mountains.....
Sometimes I look back at life and it's really funny....
To realize.... all those thoughts.... all those feelings made me into who I am today

I guess it's hard to be treated as a normal human nowadays....
Well I see no difference
No freedom, not being treated the same which is being mistreated
I feel that it's unfair and when I say it's unfair, then it is
Culture?... well if it is so, then I must say that I dont really appreciate the culture like how I dont appreciate Koreans and how they worship elders as if they were their gods

........ You surprise me every second
I really cant appreciate anything...... sometimes even when they're gone......
I'm like..... "I'll live without it......."

Hmm I get what you mean
Memories affect people a lot.......

I dont understand how those scientists always are thinking in that little box and never realize how awesome and endless this world is..... It's unfathomable by mere human intellect

I see... I guess it was quite compulsory to be one in KSA?......
I'm a Christian by the way and I'm not a hypocrite
Actually.... I think I'm more of my religion
I believe in the Christian God but in my own way.... God is the God of each and every individual after all
I heard that the Muslim Koran was quite similar to the Bible
And from how you say things, it makes me feel like we believe in the same God
I could've been Buddhist or atheist and lived a simple life (and that life would've been more easy and more prosperous)
But my father gave up everything
And he was kicked out of the house and he got beat up for believing in something else (since my grandparents were strict Buddhists)
It really is cruel what people can do...... But I guess.... it is the matter of heaven or hell after all.....
I have no idea how my father became Christian.... although I heard that he saw something in a dream or something...... or something........ or..... something else..... I dont know
I dont really believe that since I didn't really experience it myself
And just because my parents were Christians..... I wasn't
I pretended all my life...... trying to live what my parents would expect me to
And actually I knew that there was God... I just didn't...... trust him.... or like him
But now I believe him with my own faith.... not from the faith of my parents but from my heart
So does Tommy have a religion?

I usually dont get hungry
My parents are kinda worried that I'll turn out all weak and stuff
But sometimes I get these crave for food (very rare cases)

Wow you even have a scheduled sick time?
But you must be really strong to fight all the sickness and stuff

I dont know to tell the truth
But the Sara right now seems quite.... hmm...... impenetrable
Yeah it's like that sometmes with friends too
When I fight with friends it's like "How can somebody curse so much and be so offensive to a friend?"
And few hours later it's like "Hey you wanna come over to play my new game?"

Yes.... I am aware of that...... but when I think things through.......
That person has a life as well... and makes me think "what right have I got to live any more than that person does?"
So did Tommy vote for sacrificing himself?
Well.... actually I was like that too.... I'm still a bit like that
I used to think..... I would rather save somebody else's life rather than my depressing sad little life
And I thought I could die for those who was walking down the street
But now.... I think I can die for others because I have the faith of what will be of my life after death
Of course I'm scared of it and I cannot promise myself that I will die for others when that time might come but I think I can..... maybe..... Of course I would not die.... it's not like I'm in such a hurry to just die...... and disappear.......
But....I will not save others by killing others.... never..... but if I have to, I will save others by dying
I understand what you mean Sara
It's really hard to sacrifice for others......
I didnt expect you to kill yourself for others... but I still think you are kind
After all... there are different kinds of kindness and.... people appreciate your kindness as well
And just because you can die for somebody, it doesnt mean you are strong or kind... I think......

*wipes blood*
I seriously need to eat more vegetables

I didn't mean grudges for you
I meant that I was kinda similar but I held grudges
I'm like that to my father too
When I was younger I was..... sad whenever my father got mad at me or hit me or something
But later I was just bitter at him and now I just dont care what he says
"Do your blabbering so I can get back to my sleep"
So I guess I have that kinda barrier as well
But every time I did that.... I kinda felt isolated from everybody
I started to be indifferent to everybody.... and didn't care what happened to everybody.......
I changed a bit now... but I used to be.... quite cold and cruel (now that I think back)

That's so cute
Wouldnt normally see that kind of siblings these days
Nobody really appreciate the gift of siblinghood anymore...... much

Hehe
I forgive too often
I should get the Nobel peace prize

Merry Christmas to you too
HOpe you have a wonderful 2008

sara-nee chan!~~ ^^

happy holidays and hope you have a wonderful time!~

norine!~

Quote by Lionhearted911helloooooo Dragon-chan!
*raises hands in a gesture of complete innocence* i come in peace
how are you Mnemeth? hope everything is good and dandy ^^
just dropping by to extend my greetings and warm wishes.

Yeah I guess we can be completely nice to each other on this day at least

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AS WELL

Quote by Lionhearted911hiiii Vatican ^^
so sorry, i'll reply to your GB post as soon as i can...
but for now i'm sending you this card ne ^^

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

It's okay Sara
I'm famous for my patience
I give you one too
I hope you have a Merry Christmas Sara
And I'll try to be a better bro from now