Quote by vatican92
Hello Sara!

Umm I dont trust people either
But since people dont really care, I just sleep ayway :p
But I guess I understand what you mean
Well.... majority of the teachers dont care...... and some teachers do so.... yeah
Usually it's okay
I dont understand how people stay awake in class

Umm I meant I read like a robot if I'm reading something planned out
Like a speech or whatever

Thirteen? But your brother looked so young and tiny and cuuuuttte in the picture
13..... Let me see...... I was 13 in....... 2005........ I was still a middle schooler back then TT^TT

Oh I get what you mean.... I've seen people read like that
I usually read in my mind so I dont read out loud
Hahahax that's hilarious
I kinda read like that too sometimes...... not very often but sometimes

I really can't do persuasive speeches or anything like that
You seem to be basically good at everything...... *jealousy spaarrrkkksss*

Well the country is still at the risk of war since it was just a truce with North Korea and even if it looks all good and stuff, the people dont have decent jobs and if they dont go to a college near the capital, they're considered stupid and people dont hire them
It's just one corrupt country
It's not a wonder so many people are going to the US where people are acutally appreciated for their talents and not which school they came from or what grades they got
Yeah there are worse places but I wouldn't call Korea a good place to live in either
And it's not just common racism.... Koreans are basically....... natural born racists or something
Either that or they're just too in love with themselves, they think everybody else is inferior
Wow..... that really is........ well..... unfair.......
I dont really get it..... so why are women so mistreated?

Hmm..... the sun usually irritates me...... so bright and what not..... and what's up with the birds being all loud? How about some sleep?
You know..... that reminds me of something that I read in a book
"Why must the sun rise every morning? If it just forgets to rise one day or not at all, we would see it's importance and learn to appreciate it"
And I was totally glad that there was at least one person who thought like I did

I dont really know....... I always feel like I'm losing something whether I'm pessimistic or opitimistic
I think the balance is tipping a bit...... people are changing.... the world is becoming more and more evil and corrupt......
True that there is nobody who doesn't have a bias...... because every opinion or thought we have is already biased

Oh I get that too.... even when I see people playing with their siblings I just wanna adopt one TT^TT
It's always hard to say goodbye.... but we have to move on Sara.......
I did that so often.... I thought.... "What's the point of having friends anyway?"
I remember my friends too......... it's quite funny to remember how I was with them.......
Then again.... it's quite sad like you said
But it was worth it right?
Yeah I think you don't really learn to appreciate something until you know it's gone.....

Well I usually believe things that I dont see and dont believe things that I see
Because we cant see love or hatred or hear it.... but we know it's there like air
And I know that there is God even though I dont see God because....... I just cannot accept the theory that the earth was just coincidentially made at the right temperature and right location with right amount of everything with all the animals to keep on life and it's cycle
Yeah that's true.... gossip is really a big weapon in society

You know..... I feel everything..... I realize things around me..... but there are times that I doubt...... "Am I really alive?"
What if..... by some chance..... everything that I see, feel, hear, taste, smell... everything.... what if everything was just memory..... or illusion.... or just a dream?
I'm sure that you have the faith to go to heaven........ although we are probably of different religion.......
.............
You know Sara...... it's really hard for me....... when I talk about heaven or hell.......
Because I do believe in it..........
Sometimes I wish that there was no God........ or heaven or hell.......
Anyways..... Let's move on!

Well the carrot and the AIDS thing was just hypothetical
I was just trying to say that they always change what they say
But I guess that's true
I havent seen vegetarians dying from diabetes :p
And yeah... when I'm hungry, I don't do well in school :p

You dont like scary movies? That's one more odd thing about you *adds to the list*
Wow..... you really must be healthy.... or strong.... whatever the difference is
I get cold and fever all the time
It's not much to brag about but whenever I got colds, I got fevers along with it like a package

I'd regret it all my life either way.......
For killing...... or not for being able to save someone I love
Wow....... I can't imagine you doing that eithe
You surprise me every minute......
Hmm....... nope
Just can't imagine you shouting or yelling or being angry.......

Scottish people have some odd sense of fashion though.......
Yeah now women can....... I think now they wear basically everything...... and some clothes that children should not see *cough cough.......* crud... I'm coughing blood again

Im like that too
I forgive but still have burning grudges inside me
But for me, since I have really bad memory, I just forget about it and just move on
Even if I dont forget, I just try to..... for some reason
If I dont..... I feel like I need to break something because of the anger inside me and the regret for forgiving that person
Yup.... human relationship is one of the most complicated thing.......

Yeah I saw that in a cartoon

Adulthood to me......... seems like the boringest thing ever........

Oh I sees
Still in KSA........ KSA.........?
*looks it up*
Oh I seez d(=w=)b

That sounds totally fun
So does your brother also tell you if the shirt is ugly or not?

Yeah actually...... I dont' know if I want to change a whole lot either..... although I changed dramatically since elementary.......
Dont know if you believe me but I was cheerful and optimistic until elementary

It's okay
I forgive you
I'm generous enough to do that

You take care too Sara
And hope you make all the right choices

hehe i was talking about a different brother, i have two brothers, the young five year old one and the thirteen year old one. i wrestle around and play alot with the youngest, but the older one is ok too, i used to play alot with him and give him many piggy backs though when he was a lil baby. hehe ^^ but it's a fact that the lil one is a bundle of joy, at least to me. he always manages to make me smile even when i'm bugged. like when i'm angry and he goes "Sara?" and i ignore him, he comes over and pats my arm and says "You're so cute" and me "awwwwwww" *melting* so you see, he just knows how to flatter me and make me laugh and smile but he does bring out my motherly side too, cuz i took care of him alot when he was younger. besides, he also softened my nature, i only started using endearments after he was born, so yea ^^

hmmm i think alot of our teachers don't care if you sleep or not but they don't let you cuz it's against the rules to sleep in class but we did many fun things in class usually in eleventh grade though i didn't take part of the fun, always too busy in class writing my stories...but in tenth grade we'd make small tiny paper balls and place them on the desk, aim, and flick it over to someone we passed notes, played chinese whispers, passed food under the desks...got in trouble for it but yea, school times were fun. the students here are rather rude when they want to be, so they answer teachers back and so on, rather funny. of course there was the cheating during tests, the small scraps of paper with answers written on them...sometimes there was the stealing of exam papers...which in the end was found out but it was a lil toooooo late for that of course being me, i always helped out my friends and shared my exam answers with them when the teacher wasn't looking, never thought there would be benefits out of it...but i really believe that what you study for you get, even if yuo had the exam paper and studied for it, you're not destined to get an A. cheating and stealing are wrong, and we all tend to pay the price. ...of course i never stole the paper or cheated from anyone..so don't get any ideas

oooh well i usually read in my mind too, it's much faster, but we need to practice! so at times i read a lil aloud. usually in whispers loud enough for me to hear myself read. it's actually pretty fun. i enjoy hearing the different ways my tone changes and so on. i even put on a different accent for someone or talk harsher for a bad guy or something...so it's fun and amusing ^^
Adham likes to hear me read...sometimes he comes and gets his kiddy books and says "Sara read this for me" but that was before...now he's soooo occupied playing PS2 24/7....so unhealthy but he's spoiled so no one can tell him anything ^^"

you know something Ju? i was just never all that when i was younger. everytime i remember that, everytime i accomplish something i thank God a million times for helping me become a better person. in my opinion, God was the one who gave me a chance to better myself and of course when we're talking beauty-wise, of course it was God who gave me the looks.
you wouldn't believe me but i seriously wasn't a pretty girl every before i like turned 17...i'm so dead serious but no one believes me, they all think i'm being modest or exaggerating but i'm not. as a kid i was always always made fun off. what happened was i was a very cute kid, looked alot like my youngest brother, but then somewhere in second grade i kinda broke my nose in second grade...fell down the stairs or something. and dad being dad he told mother there was no need to go to a doctor and that my nose will be ok. well it wasn't ok. up till i turned 17 my nose was the worst! i never liked my nose, then again i never liked anything about me. i was just an unpretty girl. not ugly, but just not pretty either. but then that's for the looks...my personality was just as awful!
i was very very sensitive..(then again i still am but i manage it better now) i cried over every single thing, i was a cheerful girl, i talked way too much, i always told people secrets, i trusted people so fast, i believed in people.. but that's not the worst, i was so stupid. all my teachers as a kid said i'm intelligent.
you see the principal of my brother's school now (my youngest brother) was actually my teacher when i was in elementary. and when i went to visit with her after dropping my brother off she was like "if it isn't my intelligent beauty!" and me "hehe ^^" but you see she talked about how i'm such a clever person and if my brother was like me then he would be all clever and intelligent.
thing is though, i never put the intelligence to good use. i don't remember myself then...but i just know i was horrible cuz i remember my parents mocking me and calling me names...
then...when i was around twelve...all that personality thing changed...the pride within me didn't like being mocked, i didn't want to be mocked by my parents...i didn't want to be put down...i wanted a reason to hold my head up high...and you know, i made a reason.
by sitting in front of the mirror and crying in the bathroom everyday from being mocked, i think something within me was sparked. seeing a pitiful, tear-stained face looking back just made me damn angry, then lionhearted was born. basically, she would be the strong voice inside me that pushed me forward. i was never alone, the voice was always telling me to strive for the best. i lost the ability to cry, really i didn't cry much. whenever i did, the voice cursed me senseless and got angry and yelled at me..so i never cried...then i started reading dictionaries and encyclopedias...of course that gave me the information to be better off than many. i read stories so my vocabulary and reading skills would improve... i bettered myself and to be honest, i'm proud of myself. i'm proud and confident too.
and it all gave me the faith that a person can change themselves if they wanted to... and my inspiration was my proud Lionhearted.
...and now...no one makes fun of me, no one mocks me...even if they wanted to, they have no basis on which to mock me... mwahahahahahahaha *smirks* this would be the fruit that i myself reaped, and you must know, i enjoy every bite of that fruit... afterall, i worked oh so hard...i deserve the sweet taste the fruit brings me.
but the looks i have God to thank for. really...i'm grateful from the depths of my heart that i'm growing prettier each year. mother said i would be like her, the kind of girl who gets prettier as she grows older. which is well and good, afterall us women need the looks as we grow older ne my mother's very pretty, when we walk together, many people ask if she's my sister. so it's cool ^^

yea, no one is really appreciated for their talent around here either...
thankfully though i don't think there's gonna be any wars here, seems this is a peaceful kingdom...
but you don't need anyone to appreciate your talents if you appreciate them yourself. though i do think it's nice to be appreciated by others.
women aren't mistreated, they're just not given the freedom. there's a difference well the reason...hmmm......arab culture?

ohh...never know what you've got till its gone. true most people are like that, but personally i don't think it applies to me. i tend to appreciate the person and know his/her value to me, not gonna wait till the person's gone and sit there regretting. i guess i'm an open person, so i let people know how i feel about them, in case one of us disappears then there are rarely any regrets. i don't take those i love for granted, not for a minute, it doesn't seem right. even though most of the people i met seem to take everything for granted ^^"

i move on, at times though it feels like i only move on with half of me, while the other remains with my memories, holding on to my dearest moments... which is probably horrible really. but it doesn't really bother anyone but me...so ...it's ok if i want to sink in my own memories, i'm still moving forward in my own way. but the memories make me think "once upon a time...you treated me nicer" things like that ^^" so the memories do sometimes bother me and the person in my memories... kinda hard to explain :P ^^

i agree, i believe in God too because no way everything created itself, what created the right temperature then? what created time and the right moment? so you see, it's endless. i think everyone believes in God, everyone though calls it differently. like "The power that controls things" even when people say "fate" to me it's just like saying God ordained it and so on...but i donno... my teacher said even atheists knew there was a God. they just called it other things and pretended to be ignorant. oh well... it's not my business what anyone believes ne ^^"
i believe in heaven and hell too! well...we could close this topic though now, our religions are different...so there are alot of complications. but i happen to be Muslim just in case you were wondering ^^

when i'm hungry...i get migraines and don't do well in anything :P and thing is, during exam times i'm always hungry! so i always gain like two three pounds...oh yea! i get hungry for sweets so i have alot of icecream and chocolates ^^"

i don't usually get sick often, but when the weather changes from like summer to winter, i do get sick. it's usually even like the same time every year, around November or so, i come down with a cold, a flu, and fever. but usually i don't get sick often. i think i have a strong immune system, that's cuz i don't take much meds and let my body fight it out on normal occasions.

ohh? heheh wow do i look and seem that angelic? well i don't yell often that's for sure.. but i do get angry. usually when i do i try to ignore everything and pretend i'm not mad...the only person who has loud arguments with me is my sis..can't say it's that bad. thankfully sis and i are so close, so one sec we're arguing, and the next we're hugging. so it's ok ^^
the other person i yell at is my older brother at times. but it's true, i don't really shout much. and with friends, if i'm angry i walk off or just ignore them and start reading. but then again my friends never really do anything to make me angry
i don't think i'd regret killing someone who is a potential harm, i'd regret not getting rid of the danger and allowing it to steal the life of someone i love.
oh Ju, i'm not that kind, honestly. like once my Tommy and i were talking about sacrificing ourselves for the general public. simply, I WOULD NEVER! sorry, i only take bullets for those i love, not Mr. Random Stranger. i'm not willing to die for strangers, i don't think my opinion will ever change, and i will not accept my lover dying for a stranger either, i'll come close to cursing him in the grave for being a hero for some reason, it's sad. why would you want your lovwer to die for a stranger when you're sitting by the door waiting for him is beyond me! what if we had kids too?! i wonder if our kids would appreciate their parent dying for someone so random.. i know i wouldn't appreciate my parents acting like heroes...thank but leave the heroic acts to the cops. -/////-
..so did i shatter an illusion? did i seem like the type to stand in front of some man and protect him? now a child...well i donno..there are freakin exceptions...i'd try to save the child, but i donno...if there was a huge risk i was gonna die.....i donno really... ....i donno...

hahahahaha *hands over tissue*

they're not grudges, i don't hold grudges, but like the scar of the pain won't go away. i wouldn't be mad, the person's already forgiven...but it's hard to explain. it's just like my heart not wanting to be hurt by the same kind of pain again, so there's this barrier. and it's true, yell at me once, i'd cry cuz it hurt my feelings, when you yell the second time, i'd probably stare, maybe look sad, by the third time the yelling leaves no real emotion in me and i'm thinking "your voice is jarring" see what i mean? ^^
no one likes to be hurt, and being hurt so many times while growing up, this is my way of adapting to it.

hahaha both my brothers tell me if my shirt's cute! the youngest i go *cute baby voice* "Is the shirt cute?!" and him "yes" and me "nyaaaaaaaaaa!" then the older one i say *curious serious questino* "is the shirt really nice?" and my brother *Chokes* "umm...yes it is..." and me "ok then thanks ^^"
my youngest though tells me i'm cute alot i think he likes me saying 'nyaaaaaaa' and so on. but he likes messing up my hair

hahah thanks for forgiving me Mr. Generous brother ^^
take care and it was fun talking to you as usual ^^
hope to hear from you soon!

Sincerely,
Sara
P.S. have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year ^^

Quote by vatican92It's okay

I get sad quickly but I get happy quickly as well (mood swings are really annoying )

Glad you liked it

*huggles back*

Anyways take care~

lol i now what you mean

it was soo cute, how could i not

same to you as well

hope you have a lovely day~^^

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Quote by 95ElizabethAll the rozen maiden dolls are 100.88 US dollars... Except for Hinaichigo... Hinaichigo is 104.99 US dollars... tehehe.... I have a room filled with anime dollies! Especially lacus dolls! And all the cute fluffy little animes like Mokona! Mokona mokona! I have a modoki one too! And I have lots and lots of other cute stuff! I used to have more but mother said they were childish and unlady like so she threw them away.... I WANT MOKONA BACK! MOKONA'S SOOOO CCUUTTTEE!

Hina Ichigo? Why is she more expensive compared to the other dolls?
I wish I had a Barasuishou doll
You must really like dolls

Here you go Elizabeth
Sorry..... I didn't have time to make it look good
And I'm not really improving with my photoshop TT^TT

I hope you have another great year and I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way.....
I hope we can be better friends....... and........ hope you can forgive me

merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 07:46pm

Quote by 95ElizabethI know how to make dollies too! I made a few... But most of them look two round... heh... And they look like.... Either eggs or snow men... I tried to make the christmas card for you with a picture of a santa claus doll... But I didn't finish the santa in time... And I got pierced by the needle a lot... tehe....
Sorry... It's not very good... My photoshop wasn't working... So I had to use ordinary paint program....

Merry christmas.... thanks for the card... I'm not offended... I was just a bit grumpy then... I wasn't in a good mood.... My mother was complaining about what a mistake I am... And I fell like a zillion times... And I just got a pass for my vocal test.... I got honors last year... Not to mention one of the porcelain dolls broke... And Kane was chosen as captain of the netball team.... I wasn't exactly happy about that... heh... I get jealous... tehe... Maybe my mother forgot it was christmas.... Or maybe that just didn't care... Never mind... I've never ever believed in these santas things since I was.... Well... 4.... So it's okay... We don't celebrate anything... Well... Not anything about me anyway.... I guess my parents just want to forget that I ever existed.... But I don't mind.... I wasn't supposed to be born anyway... Merry christmas.... Sorry... I'm not christian so I forget that I shouldn't talk about sad things on christmas... But I don't find it really sad... Really ^^ Merry merry merry christmas!

You do? You are really talented in everything Eli-chan
I dont know how to make anything TT^TT
Needles are dangerous Eli-chan! Always be careful

It's okay Elizabeth
I'm just happy that you took the time
And I'm ok if it's anything that you made
It's a lovely card

You are not a mistake Elizabeth...... you are a precious person to me..... and a precious daughter to God and a precious person to everybody else around you

I know that you can do better and better as you go on
I have no doubt that you'll become even more of a wonderful person
Dont get jealous Eli-chan
You can do much more greater things

I dont really like santa..... he reminds me of..... hatred........
And I'm sorry but to tell you the truth.... I'm glad that you didn't make me the santa one

You are the most important person to me..........
So we can celebrate it together
I dont really celebrate Christmas anymore..... I just celebrate it for Jesus's birth..
And it is a happy day that Jesus came to die for us.........
Well that sounds quite sad but it's happy

merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 08:39pm

Quote by 95Elizabeth
This is the worse... christmas ever! No... Actually... All the Christmases are bad...
My mother just gave me a lecture about my vocal test! And that just made me 0.0000345mm from committing suicide!
What was I supposed to do?! The examiner asked me sight reading when I was supposed to do music knowledge! Was I supposed to know something I never learnt?! And whenever she's angry she always calls me by my full name... And saying my first name with my father's last name annoys me like hell...
I feel like touching a needle! And the better thing is I sleep for a 100 years! No! I sleep for a 1000 years! No! FOREVER!
Don't like to me... You're always telling I'm important to everyone else around me but it's obvious that I'm not even close to that....
My parents lied to me for 10 years.... And I don't find that a sweet memory....
When my father told my half brother he had a younger sister he completely ignored my existence.... I hate lies... So don't tell me I'm important to god when I'm not... I ruined a whole family's life.... My father's first wife cried pools when she heard I was born... I got my father and his children in an argument... Everyday... Every minute my mother cries and tells me "If only you didn't exists... If only you were never born! I wouldn't have a demon for a child!" She tells me that... So much that it was the only sentence that ever went through my head... My father stresses out a lot.... He has to take care of two families... And so many times I've heard them talk about abandoning me... The times I've heard them quarrel... About who should keep me...
So don't tell me something that's fake..... I hate lies... I hate lies the most...
Don't tell me I can do much more greater things when I know I can't..... Singing... I can't even get merit.... Acting... Kane's always part of the spotlight... Netball... Kane can beat me by a long shot.... I know because the netballers asked me to not play the second half and let kane play... Intelligence... Ian always wins.... Sports.... I suck.... Drawing... Natalie is always a competition... Writing.... There's always Madeleine... Designing.... Aiko's always there to shine brighter than me.... And even at being god's daughter.... Jack the ripper is more important that me... He has a zillion websites about him... So don't lie....
Unfortunate... I finished the santa clothes.... Never mind... It's not like it'll be any good anyway... Amelia beats me at it...
And I'm so useless I don't even understand myself... I smile when I don't know what I'm happy about... I cry when I want to and never because I have to...

Well I blame your parents..... You did nothing wrong
And it doesnt matter to me what your parents think........
I love you and if your parents dont like it....... that's too bad

Elizabeth..... I know that you can.......
I just know it....... so dont worry or get frustrated
I know that you are an awesome person and you can do so many things
You just have to work hard and believe

And there are people with different talents
I bet all your friends aren't even half as good as you at singing

I'll always take care of you
Because you really are the most important.......
So dont cry inside........
And you know Elizabeth...... God loves you much more than I can ever love you.......
You might not believe it but you are his precious daughter.......
You cannot be compared to any jewel or riches in the world.......

merged: 12-25-2007 ~ 09:08pm

Quote by 95Elizabeth
I wish that I could believe that.... But I probably forgot how to trust... Or maybe I just forgot how to think... cause right now I feel hollow.... I'm so stupid! I lost my brain!
I'm not crying inside.... I'm not... I'm definitely not... I'm sure I won't ever cry... Not inside... not outside... I'm not crying... I'm not a coward...
You know... I drew myself a bloody red eye crying blood for a christmas present... heh... weird gift... I look like a ghost you know... Cause my fringe covers my face and my hair reaches my hips when my hair is wet and I sound a lot like a ghost too... tehe... I scared the soul out of my cousin yesterday... I'm so mean! Well I just remembered jigoku shoujo and I felt like I had to do it!

It's okay Elizabeth..... you dont have to believe
Because it's still going to remain the truth
I'll always love you and God will always love you

Well Elizabeth.... if you dont admit that you are sad when you are, that's being a coward too you know
You can always tell me when you are feeling down.....

Wow I would've.......... well..... that sounds a bit.....
Well... I still would've liked anything you drew
Although I would prefer a drawing of you smiling

That does sound scary
I thought you needed red eyes and vodoo dolls to be like Jigoku Shoujo

My room is filled with voodoo dolls... And I can be really cold if I want to... Though I don't sing sakura uta very well...
Sad...? Okay.... I'm so sad I wanna die! happy? In fact! I'm always sad! Since I was 4!

Quote by vatican92Thank you for the card

I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a wonderful new year

It's acutally harder to keep the smiles during Christmas time (At least for me)

But you take care as well~

your welcome

same to you as well

im sorry -huggles-

same to you as well

and thanks for the major cute card

its soo cute

hope you have a nice day~^^

aw thank you so much for the lovely card Vatican-kun :3 and about what you said
well if I can help I will help I am glad that somehow I managed to help you out in the past
and don`t hesitate to ask me in the future ne =)
so in return for your kind gesture here is a card from me as well

Best Wishes for Christmas and the New Year!
I wish you & your loved ones a Season of joy and harmony in 2008!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Merry Christmas to you too!
Thanks for a very nice postcard.

Quote by vatican92
Well I blame your parents..... You did nothing wrong
And it doesnt matter to me what your parents think........
I love you and if your parents dont like it....... that's too bad

Elizabeth..... I know that you can.......
I just know it....... so dont worry or get frustrated
I know that you are an awesome person and you can do so many things
You just have to work hard and believe

And there are people with different talents
I bet all your friends aren't even half as good as you at singing

I'll always take care of you
Because you really are the most important.......
So dont cry inside........
And you know Elizabeth...... God loves you much more than I can ever love you.......
You might not believe it but you are his precious daughter.......
You cannot be compared to any jewel or riches in the world.......

I wish that I could believe that.... But I probably forgot how to trust... Or maybe I just forgot how to think... cause right now I feel hollow.... I'm so stupid! I lost my brain!
I'm not crying inside.... I'm not... I'm definitely not... I'm sure I won't ever cry... Not inside... not outside... I'm not crying... I'm not a coward...
You know... I drew myself a bloody red eye crying blood for a christmas present... heh... weird gift... I look like a ghost you know... Cause my fringe covers my face and my hair reaches my hips when my hair is wet and I sound a lot like a ghost too... tehe... I scared the soul out of my cousin yesterday... I'm so mean! Well I just remembered jigoku shoujo and I felt like I had to do it!

Merry Christmas!

Hello vatican92! Just passing by to wish you a


and a happy new year!

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You do? You are really talented in everything Eli-chan
I dont know how to make anything TT^TT
Needles are dangerous Eli-chan! Always be careful

It's okay Elizabeth
I'm just happy that you took the time
And I'm ok if it's anything that you made
It's a lovely card

You are not a mistake Elizabeth...... you are a precious person to me..... and a precious daughter to God and a precious person to everybody else around you

I know that you can do better and better as you go on
I have no doubt that you'll become even more of a wonderful person
Dont get jealous Eli-chan
You can do much more greater things

I dont really like santa..... he reminds me of..... hatred........
And I'm sorry but to tell you the truth.... I'm glad that you didn't make me the santa one

You are the most important person to me..........
So we can celebrate it together
I dont really celebrate Christmas anymore..... I just celebrate it for Jesus's birth..
And it is a happy day that Jesus came to die for us.........
Well that sounds quite sad but it's happy

This is the worse... christmas ever! No... Actually... All the Christmases are bad...
My mother just gave me a lecture about my vocal test! And that just made me 0.0000345mm from committing suicide!
What was I supposed to do?! The examiner asked me sight reading when I was supposed to do music knowledge! Was I supposed to know something I never learnt?! And whenever she's angry she always calls me by my full name... And saying my first name with my father's last name annoys me like hell...
I feel like touching a needle! And the better thing is I sleep for a 100 years! No! I sleep for a 1000 years! No! FOREVER!
Don't like to me... You're always telling I'm important to everyone else around me but it's obvious that I'm not even close to that....
My parents lied to me for 10 years.... And I don't find that a sweet memory....
When my father told my half brother he had a younger sister he completely ignored my existence.... I hate lies... So don't tell me I'm important to god when I'm not... I ruined a whole family's life.... My father's first wife cried pools when she heard I was born... I got my father and his children in an argument... Everyday... Every minute my mother cries and tells me "If only you didn't exists... If only you were never born! I wouldn't have a demon for a child!" She tells me that... So much that it was the only sentence that ever went through my head... My father stresses out a lot.... He has to take care of two families... And so many times I've heard them talk about abandoning me... The times I've heard them quarrel... About who should keep me...
So don't tell me something that's fake..... I hate lies... I hate lies the most...
Don't tell me I can do much more greater things when I know I can't..... Singing... I can't even get merit.... Acting... Kane's always part of the spotlight... Netball... Kane can beat me by a long shot.... I know because the netballers asked me to not play the second half and let kane play... Intelligence... Ian always wins.... Sports.... I suck.... Drawing... Natalie is always a competition... Writing.... There's always Madeleine... Designing.... Aiko's always there to shine brighter than me.... And even at being god's daughter.... Jack the ripper is more important that me... He has a zillion websites about him... So don't lie....
Unfortunate... I finished the santa clothes.... Never mind... It's not like it'll be any good anyway... Amelia beats me at it...
And I'm so useless I don't even understand myself... I smile when I don't know what I'm happy about... I cry when I want to and never because I have to...

Quote by vatican92Merry Christmas S-S :p

HAHA ! So cute !

Merry Christmas , Vati !

Thank you for the lovely card. ^^

May your wishes come true on New Year's Day.

Merry Merry Christmas to you! ..

Oh and Santa got struck down by those fireworks last night so he's a lil banged up..

Quote by vatican92I'm glad at least I was able to give some encouragement

But the wallpaper was great so I think I should thank you more

Anyways take care~

awww, thanks -huggles-

oh, no, i should be thanking you

thanks a bunch -huggles some more-

also, merry christmas

hope you have a wonderful christmas with many gifts and smiling faces

hope you have a joyful holiday and a prosperous new year

all the best, happy holidays~^^

I know how to make dollies too! I made a few... But most of them look two round... heh... And they look like.... Either eggs or snow men... I tried to make the christmas card for you with a picture of a santa claus doll... But I didn't finish the santa in time... And I got pierced by the needle a lot... tehe....
Sorry... It's not very good... My photoshop wasn't working... So I had to use ordinary paint program....

Merry christmas.... thanks for the card... I'm not offended... I was just a bit grumpy then... I wasn't in a good mood.... My mother was complaining about what a mistake I am... And I fell like a zillion times... And I just got a pass for my vocal test.... I got honors last year... Not to mention one of the porcelain dolls broke... And Kane was chosen as captain of the netball team.... I wasn't exactly happy about that... heh... I get jealous... tehe... Maybe my mother forgot it was christmas.... Or maybe that just didn't care... Never mind... I've never ever believed in these santas things since I was.... Well... 4.... So it's okay... We don't celebrate anything... Well... Not anything about me anyway.... I guess my parents just want to forget that I ever existed.... But I don't mind.... I wasn't supposed to be born anyway... Merry christmas.... Sorry... I'm not christian so I forget that I shouldn't talk about sad things on christmas... But I don't find it really sad... Really ^^ Merry merry merry christmas!

Merry Christmas!

hiiii Vatican ^^
so sorry, i'll reply to your GB post as soon as i can...
but for now i'm sending you this card ne ^^

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

hope you have a wonderful x'mas holiday!~ ^^

norine!~

Quote by vatican92Special delivery desuu~
I heard it's Aaliyah's birthday
I read it on some group page :p

Well here's your package
And it's not our fault that we delivered it a bit late!
Blame Pizza Hut for their right on time delivery!

AWWWWWWW! Thank you Vatican! That's so sweet! I love it! It's adorable! Heh heh, I feel loved!

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Omg, by the way. I love your video! Both the song and the anime are two of my favorites!

All the rozen maiden dolls are 100.88 US dollars... Except for Hinaichigo... Hinaichigo is 104.99 US dollars... tehehe.... I have a room filled with anime dollies! Especially lacus dolls! And all the cute fluffy little animes like Mokona! Mokona mokona! I have a modoki one too! And I have lots and lots of other cute stuff! I used to have more but mother said they were childish and unlady like so she threw them away.... I WANT MOKONA BACK! MOKONA'S SOOOO CCUUTTTEE!

Quote by vatican92Well...... board games are always an option..... along with card games.....
But if you want to do something with your dad, you first have to find out what your dad likes.......

thanks for the advice

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Who? I never said I was gonna let anybody else watch before me! I like my animes :p

Wow..... I sees... so you kinda a risk taker at times?
Anything under 8 minutes is A and anything over 8 is F
I used to get like 9 minutes for running a mile 2 years ago
But now I have to run like 8 minutes for running 1.5 mile

Oh I see..... I'm more like a "If you are trying to connect my line...... you can't because this line is busy so don't bother" type
Wow.... your grandfather sounds like one of those Kung-Fu masters who teach people the way of life and the way of Kung-Fu
Yeah I suppose..... it'd be totally boring if Tae Kwon do was to use more punching
Jackie Chan I luv him
He's so funny and cool and all that
Too bad he's too old now....

Yeah they might shoot down Santa while they test their new Intercontinential Ballistic Missiles
Oh sorry.... I accidentally wrote Satanism

Yeah that's what I totally think as well?
Why waste time going to the theatre with bunch of jerks around eating popcorns and making out with their boy/girlfriends?
I waste all my money on anime stuff but not on movies
Oh cool
I'm waiting for an anime movie called Kara no Kyoukai to come out
I dont know if it's already out but I'm kinda waiting
It's similar to Tsukihime if you know it

Yeah..... it's scary how there are weird animals being born and children with deformed body....

True true
You dont know what old people have in their sleeves
Acting all weak and all as if their bones are deteriorating or something
I bet their spines are just fine!

Yeah the side characters are awesomerrr
I think the gun was called Jericho.... something.......
I thought the Kresnik form was still cool although Abel is really not my type
I liked Esther.... but maybe she's too weak and all that
Ion.... just not my type of character..... he's too........ gay or something..... I dont know

.......... too much of KOF indeed.......
You must play a lot of Iori
Yeah we were all tricked by the awesome wonders of the Power Rangers *drools*

No I was being sarcastic
I aint killing nobody
but the point of joining the army is to kill people (which I'll never do)
So it's just a waste of my life

Oh..... Wasn't Brussel the capital of Belgium?
I heard that they have awesome Belgian fries there
Oh and it does kida rhyme with waffles

oOh..kinda get that all mixed up.Haha...my bad.

Yeah,a risk taker.Even fought with a cat over a lolly.Dude it was my last one and that dumb cat stole it.
So,you slacking huh?Don't worry,keep up with Tae kwon do or whatever it is called now and the stamina will improve.Running long distances is not about speed.
Yeah,my gramps is like that."You must follow the WAY,young grasshopper"
Oh..shut up!The only way I'm following are those with streets signs and non-bothersome stuffs.

Old Jackie may be old but he still have the groove.Who else could do what he did.No stuntman....wwaaaay..awesome.

Haha...they kinda mixed up the missiles and the fireworks.Santa will never know what hit him.Take that old sadistic geezer.And yes,he's related to that red dude from Jigoku.So no biggie.

Stupid people.Respect the public will ya.Get a room or something.Dummy
Yep,same here.All on anime goodies.
Tsukihime.Yeah,I knew it but never got the chance to see it but I'll look forward to that new movie you mentioned.

Weird animals?Like those glow in the dark cats.What's next?Floating monkeys?

Better watch out for the cane!It might be a gun for all I know.

Oh yeah!Agree on that.The side chars. are awesome.Ion kinda gay,cocky bordering on the the arrogant side.How I wished the RozenKreuz orden would kill him....
Iori,nah not anymore.He might not be in the next game since he's magatama was taken by Ash while he was in RIOT.I play as K' or Shen(strangely that's my friends' name and they both have the same attitude)
You play K.O.F too?

Power Rangers.Will be around for as long as as those wacky ideas comes by.

Killing.Bad.Waste of time.I bet you rather do what your sig says.

Emm..fries...waffles....

NO! NEVER! I will never marry him! He's m rival and I like it to stay that way!

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I would marry you if there were a bunch of people to choose from... But you have to buy me a teddy bear first

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Yep! Cute stuff! Ribbons too! And pretty bells!

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They do sell Rozenmaiden dolls! Mokona! I LOVE MOKONA! IT'S SO CUTE!

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I'd like to buy them and support the creators but if I had that kinda money, I guess I should help other people who really needs to watch anime more than I do :p

I almost die after running a bit over a mile
But I have to run my butt off because if I come in after 8 minutes, that's F in my grade TT_TT
It does? Because I gotz zero attention here
I dunno...... I don't remember
But it's probably something you said before
I got enough respect for my parents....
After all..... Koreans are raised with no choice but to obey to the so called "elder"
And they dont deserve any That's why they force the younger people to respect them because they can't earn any
Well nothing can be kept "pure" and untainted
The foundation is probably same but they make changes once in a while
Yeah self-defence is the main purpose so whether you look like an alcoholic or whatever doesnt really matter

Yeah sometimes the UN seems quite...... useless
I mean.... really! I can't believe they haven't shot down Santa yet!
Yup.... the Santa era will be over.... but they'll start the fireworks since it's new year
I think he's the father of communism......... or satanism...... whatever

Oh did he? I just saw him turning into a burning skeleton
I thought movies were always boring.....
But I guess they're running out of brain juice :p
They've used all the good ideas so they're doing remakes of old movies nowadays

Umm okay......

Yeah the gene pools are getting a lot more...... bleak and all weirdo
I bet we'll be creating new human spiecies in a few decades
Oh I'm probably all Asian
Koreans dont marry foreigners often
So I probably have..... Chinese, Japanese, Korean and Mongolian blood....... and maybe French, American and British.... maybe even German.......

Oh I see so it's a group to chill out and stuff
That's quite a coincidence.....
Yeah we need at least some interesting people in this world
I see..... so by "major," do you mean like burning up an orphage and stealing from old people?

yeah we all need a vacation from this hectic world
Astaroshe is kinda cool but Tres He's one cool cyborg

Oh then I must be one of those sick psychotic ones :p
Yeah..... come to think of it.... Power Ranger defies the laws of physics

Shot himself? That's pretty......... ewe........
Yeah it's 2 years in korea as well and they've cut it down from 3
Well I would not join the military at all if I had a choice but since they're forcing me to kill people, I have to join the Korean one

Brussel? Where was that again?

Aww..you're being awfully nice.Helping others now,huh?Cool..letting them watch animes before you.

Running a mile.Letsee I did that when I was about to be beaten up by a gang after I said that they stink.Well they do actually. .
So what is the timing for A?
No attention?Maybe because I was the sort of person "who's gonna kick your butt if you annoy me" type.There not much delinquent in school so yeah that's why.I think...sweet moments but I'm none of that now.
Yep,I know how that feels.Forced to live with my gramps for half my life and obey an old man..hate that but loved him too without him I know nothing about fighting and being human.
If the foundation is the same but the styles being tempered then don't call it by its root name.Tae kwon do having too much hands strikes rather than legs is like watching boxing with the contenders wearing their Gi.
Drunk fighting.Reminds me of ole Jacky Chan.

They are useless as they come.Probably gonna shoot Santa down with a rocket when he stupidly flies over the fireworks when they celebrating New year.
Santaism..that's the word.

I never spent my money on movies.Why would I when you will watched it on Tv or download it,sit back and watched it in the comfort of my own home.Eating all the popcorns I want.
Yeah,when they run out of brain juice...they become suicidal..
Right now,translating comics to movies is the popular trend.Well,Japan's doing tons of C.G movies now so that's cool..the latest is called VEXILLE.Watched the trailer...freaking awesome..for a trailer that is.

The day that THAT happens will be the scariest day ever to be recorded down in history.
Woaah...that's kinda mixed up.

Just chilling out,catching up with the rest of the gang and stuff.
Your definition of major is too extreme....stealing from old people..che..like I care about that.For all I know that old people got a gun ready somewhere.

Tres.I'm not a human but a machine.Loved those guns*bang bang*Oops,shot a bird.Hugue is awesome.Come to think of it,the side chars. are more cooler than Abel or Esther except for Ion of course.

I see so you're a psycho.Soldier...haha...*ahem*too much K.O.F
Power Rangers...blew our minds away when we were just kids.What can you say?

So you're joining to kill people?

Brussels....hmm..its in Belgium...kinda rhyme with waffles..

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Umm okay....... Are you angry at me Elizabeth? TT^TT
.......... Elizabeth........ seriously..... take better care of yourself.......
It's your body....... and you're important.......
Really important to me and everybody around you
Don't do something like that Elizabeth....... I know that you are a kind and nice person.......
Don't tell me that I met you just to know that you died before I did.....

You can snap at me Elizabeth....... you can get angry.........
Just dont hurt yourself......
I'll still love you......
All I want is for you to be happy and healthy......

......I don't like living... It's painful and boring... And there's no such thing as happy ever after... So it's better if I kill myself... Cause then I won't miss anything when I die...
No one loves me as much as you do.... You love me more than my parents...
I'll let you live... For now... Just don't make me snap again... Cause if I do... I'll blow this place up and take everyone with me to die....

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Don't say "I love you" so simply.... That's another thing I don't like about you... You said it without thinking...

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Okay... I forgive you... YOU ARE SOOOO CUTE!

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^_^
Question! If I died, what would you do?

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Right... You never ask me anything that it seems like you don't care...