Quote by Lionhearted911Hello
Jenny-chan ^^
how are you? i missed talking to you, it's been a while ne. Hope you Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year
hope to hear from you soon!
~Sara
hey sensei! haha yer, well, lotsa things happen and anyways how are u? and
thanks for the cardie~ merry xmas! and i doubt i will be onlining much next yr
anyways, i am currently wanting to look for a modelling job, so i can earn my
own money :P
Quote by Lionhearted911Hello
Lance!
long time no talk eh ^^
hope everything is going well with you, school and all.
just dropping by to send you a card ^^ hope you like it
Hey, thanks, sorry for not being active these two days, on 24th I was busy
helping my old man with the dinner and on 25th my brother was in the computer
all the day, however, I can still tell you I wish the best for you, because
christmas and new year aren't the only days when friends are friends
By the way, thanks a lot for the card, sorry for not being able to make one for
you myself....
Quote by Lionhearted911 Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year
sorry for the late well wishes but...better late than never ne
hope you have good times and everything goes great in your life Norine ^^
*hugs*
see you around! hope to hear from you soon ^^
sincerely,
Sara
oh!~ sara-nee chan!~ thanks much!~ ^^ sorry for the ate reply~ too many!~ @-@
and computer always disconnect~ but
thanks again for the card and well wishes!~
*hugs* oh sara-nee chan? have any plans coming to singapore?
[p.s: thanks for adding me to your fl i'll do the same!~ ^^]
Quote by Lionhearted911HIIIII sis
^^
how are you? i missed you already! can't wait till we're together in Malaysia ne
^^
hope things are going good and you're preparing for your school... Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year!
with love,
Sara
*hugs sis*
I missed you too!
Yeah...I can't wait either...^^...so happy!
I'm preparing for school alright...
which I'm dreading...
but still...
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you too!
Quote by Lionhearted911hiiiii
Jonathan ^^
hope you are doing well and everything's going good.
plz tell me you finished your projects ^^
Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year!
thanks for your wishes, and i hope you have a wonderful life ahead of you ^^
sincerely,
Sara
Hey there Sara!
Thanks for the card! I would be giving out cards too, but I don't have those
kind of skills at the moment!
So, did you have a great Christmas?!
Quote by Lionhearted911Hi Hi my
sweet Beloved ^^
although i get to wish you a sweet Christmas in private, still, here's a card
for my sweetheart ^//////^ Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year!
Love you Loadies and loadies darling
Yours Truly,
Sara
Awwwwwwwww, I am so touched.
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, happy holidays and whatever other blessings are
needed.
Hope to see you soon, my dearest love. Know that the feelings of love between us
are oh so very mutual.
hehe i was talking about a different brother, i have two brothers, the young
five year old one and the thirteen year old one. i wrestle around and play alot
with the youngest, but the older one is ok too, i used to play alot with him and
give him many piggy backs though when he was a lil baby. hehe ^^ but it's a fact
that the lil one is a bundle of joy, at least to me. he always manages to make
me smile even when i'm bugged. like when i'm angry and he goes "Sara?"
and i ignore him, he comes over and pats my arm and says "You're so
cute" and me "awwwwwww" *melting* so you see,
he just knows how to flatter me and make me laugh and smile but he does
bring out my motherly side too, cuz i took care of him alot when he was younger.
besides, he also softened my nature, i only started using endearments after he
was born, so yea ^^
hmmm i think alot of our teachers don't care if you sleep or not but they don't
let you cuz it's against the rules to sleep in class but we did
many fun things in class usually in
eleventh grade though i didn't take part of the fun, always too busy in class
writing my stories...but in tenth grade we'd make small tiny paper balls and
place them on the desk, aim, and flick it over to someone we passed
notes, played chinese whispers, passed food under the desks...got in trouble for
it but yea,
school times were fun. the students here are rather rude when they want to be,
so they answer teachers back and so on, rather funny. of course there was the
cheating during tests, the small scraps of paper with answers written on
them...sometimes there was the stealing of exam papers...which in the end was
found out but it was a lil toooooo late for that of course
being me, i always helped out my friends and shared my exam answers with them
when the teacher wasn't looking, never thought there would be benefits out of
it...but i really believe that what you study for you get, even if yuo had the
exam paper and studied for it, you're not destined to get an A. cheating and
stealing are wrong, and we all tend to pay the price. ...of course
i never stole the paper or cheated from anyone..so don't get any ideas
oooh well i usually read in my mind too, it's much faster, but we need to
practice! so at times i read a lil aloud. usually in whispers loud enough for me
to hear myself read. it's actually pretty fun. i enjoy hearing the different
ways my tone changes and so on. i even put on a different accent for someone or
talk harsher for a bad guy or something...so it's fun and amusing ^^
Adham likes to hear me read...sometimes he comes and gets his kiddy books and
says "Sara read this for me" but that was before...now he's soooo
occupied playing PS2 24/7....so unhealthy but he's spoiled so no one can tell
him anything ^^"
you know something Ju? i was just never all that when i was younger. everytime i
remember that, everytime i accomplish something i thank God a million times for
helping me become a better person. in my opinion, God was the one who gave me a
chance to better myself and of course when we're talking beauty-wise, of course
it was God who gave me the looks.
you wouldn't believe me but i seriously wasn't a pretty girl every before i like
turned 17...i'm so dead serious but no one believes me, they all think i'm being
modest or exaggerating but i'm not. as a kid i was always always made fun off.
what happened was i was a very cute kid, looked alot like my youngest brother,
but then somewhere in second grade i kinda broke my nose in second grade...fell
down the stairs or something. and dad being dad he told mother there was no need
to go to a doctor and that my nose will be ok. well it wasn't ok. up till i
turned 17 my nose was the worst! i never liked my nose, then again i never liked
anything about me. i was just an unpretty girl. not ugly, but just not pretty
either. but then that's for the looks...my personality was just as awful!
i was very very sensitive..(then again i still am but i manage it better now) i
cried over every single thing, i was a cheerful girl, i talked way too much, i
always told people secrets, i trusted people so fast, i believed in people.. but
that's not the worst, i was so stupid. all my teachers as a kid said i'm
intelligent.
you see the principal of my brother's school now (my youngest brother) was
actually my teacher when i was in elementary. and when i went to visit with her
after dropping my brother off she was like "if it isn't my intelligent
beauty!" and me "hehe ^^" but you see she talked about how i'm
such a clever person and if my brother was like me then he would be all clever
and intelligent.
thing is though, i never put the intelligence to good use. i don't remember
myself then...but i just know i was horrible cuz i remember my parents mocking
me and calling me names...
then...when i was around twelve...all that personality thing changed...the pride
within me didn't like being mocked, i didn't want to be mocked by my parents...i
didn't want to be put down...i wanted a reason to hold my head up high...and you
know, i made a reason.
by sitting in front of the mirror and crying in the bathroom everyday from being
mocked, i think something within me was sparked. seeing a pitiful, tear-stained
face looking back just made me damn angry, then lionhearted was born. basically,
she would be the strong voice inside me that pushed me forward. i was never
alone, the voice was always telling me to strive for the best. i lost the
ability to cry, really i didn't cry much. whenever i did, the voice cursed me
senseless and got angry and yelled at me..so i never cried...then i started
reading dictionaries and encyclopedias...of course that gave me the information
to be better off than many. i read stories so my vocabulary and reading skills
would improve... i bettered myself and to be honest, i'm proud of myself. i'm
proud and confident too.
and it all gave me the faith that a person can change themselves if they wanted
to... and my inspiration was my proud Lionhearted.
...and now...no one makes fun of me, no one mocks me...even if they wanted to,
they have no basis on which to mock me... mwahahahahahahaha *smirks* this would
be the fruit that i myself reaped, and you must know, i enjoy every bite of that
fruit... afterall, i worked oh so hard...i deserve the sweet taste the fruit
brings me.
but the looks i have God to thank for. really...i'm grateful from the depths of
my heart that i'm growing prettier each year. mother said i would be like her,
the kind of girl who gets prettier as she grows older. which is well and good,
afterall us women need the looks as we grow older ne my mother's
very pretty, when we walk together, many people ask if she's my sister. so it's
cool ^^
yea, no one is really appreciated for their talent around here either...
thankfully though i don't think there's gonna be any wars here, seems this is a
peaceful kingdom...
but you don't need anyone to appreciate your talents if you appreciate them
yourself. though i do think it's nice to be appreciated by others.
women aren't mistreated, they're just not given the freedom. there's a
difference well
the reason...hmmm......arab culture?
ohh...never know what you've got till its gone. true most people are like that,
but personally i don't think it applies to me. i tend to appreciate the person
and know his/her value to me, not gonna wait till the person's gone and sit
there regretting. i guess i'm an open person, so i let people know how i feel
about them, in case one of us disappears then there are rarely any regrets. i
don't take those i love for granted, not for a minute, it doesn't seem right.
even though most of the people i met seem to take everything for granted
^^"
i move on, at times though it feels like i only move on with half of me, while
the other remains with my memories, holding on to my dearest moments... which is
probably horrible really. but it doesn't really bother anyone but me...so
...it's ok if i want to sink in my own memories, i'm still moving forward in my
own way. but the memories make me think "once upon a time...you treated me
nicer" things like that ^^" so the memories do sometimes bother me and
the person in my memories... kinda hard to explain :P ^^
i agree, i believe in God too because no way everything created itself, what
created the right temperature then? what created time and the right moment? so
you see, it's endless. i think everyone believes in God, everyone though calls
it differently. like "The power that controls things" even when people
say "fate" to me it's just like saying God ordained it and so on...but
i donno... my teacher said even atheists knew there was a God. they just called
it other things and pretended to be ignorant. oh well... it's not my business
what anyone believes ne ^^"
i believe in heaven and hell too! well...we could close this topic though now,
our religions are different...so there are alot of complications. but i happen
to be Muslim just in case you were wondering ^^
when i'm hungry...i get migraines and don't do well in anything :P and thing is,
during exam times i'm always hungry! so i always
gain like two three pounds...oh yea! i get hungry for sweets so i have
alot of icecream and chocolates ^^"
i don't usually get sick often, but when the weather changes from like summer to
winter, i do get sick. it's usually even like the same time every year, around
November or so, i come down with a cold, a flu, and fever. but usually
i don't get sick often. i think i have a strong immune system, that's cuz i
don't take much meds and let my body fight it out on normal occasions.
ohh? heheh wow do i look and seem that angelic? well i don't yell often that's
for sure.. but i do get angry. usually when i do i try to ignore everything and
pretend i'm not mad...the only person who has loud arguments with me is my
sis..can't say it's that bad. thankfully sis and i are so close, so one sec
we're arguing, and the next we're hugging. so it's ok ^^
the other person i yell at is my older brother at times. but it's true, i don't
really shout much. and with friends, if i'm angry i walk off or just ignore them
and start reading. but then again my friends never really do anything to make me
angry
i don't think i'd regret killing someone who is a potential harm, i'd regret not
getting rid of the danger and allowing it to steal the life of someone i
love.
oh Ju, i'm not that kind, honestly. like once my Tommy and i were talking about
sacrificing ourselves for the general public. simply, I WOULD NEVER! sorry, i
only take bullets for those i love, not Mr. Random Stranger. i'm not willing to
die for strangers, i don't think my opinion will ever change, and i will not
accept my lover dying for a stranger either, i'll come close to cursing him in
the grave for being a hero for some
reason, it's sad. why would you want your lovwer to die for a stranger when
you're sitting by the door waiting for him is beyond me! what if we had kids
too?! i wonder if our kids would appreciate their parent dying for someone so
random.. i know i wouldn't appreciate my parents acting like heroes...thank but
leave the heroic acts to the cops. -/////-
..so did i shatter an illusion? did i seem like the type to stand in front of
some man and protect him? now a child...well i donno..there are freakin
exceptions...i'd try to save the child, but i donno...if there was a huge risk i
was gonna die.....i donno really... ....i donno...
hahahahaha *hands over tissue*
they're not grudges, i don't hold grudges, but like the scar of the pain won't
go away. i wouldn't be mad, the person's already forgiven...but it's hard to
explain. it's just like my heart not wanting to be hurt by the same kind of pain
again, so there's this barrier. and it's true, yell at me once, i'd cry cuz it
hurt my feelings, when you yell the second time, i'd probably stare, maybe look
sad, by the third time the yelling leaves no real emotion in me and i'm thinking
"your voice is jarring" see what i
mean? ^^
no one likes to be hurt, and being hurt so many times while growing up, this is
my way of adapting to it.
hahaha both my brothers tell me if my shirt's cute! the youngest i go *cute baby
voice* "Is the shirt cute?!" and him "yes" and me
"nyaaaaaaaaaa!" then the older one i say *curious serious questino*
"is the shirt really nice?" and my brother *Chokes* "umm...yes it
is..." and me "ok then thanks ^^"
my youngest though tells me i'm cute alot i think he
likes me saying 'nyaaaaaaa' and so on. but he likes messing up my hair
hahah thanks for forgiving me Mr. Generous brother ^^
take care and it was fun talking to you as usual ^^
hope to hear from you soon!
Sincerely,
Sara
P.S. have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year ^^
Oh different brother
I knew that
I was just joking
Ahh..... The good memories of the past
It's so weird when they grow up and become taller than you or something
Aww... that sounds adorable
Oh ho I seez
I wonder if you are so happy happy all the time because of him
Meh..... The teachers usually dont care about me
They care about their favorite students (which are either the smart ones or the
cool ones who suck up to them)
I never join into the "Fun" either
Since it's always the popular kids having all the fun
Chinese whisper? Never heard of that before
Wow.... that's quite a lot of trouble.....
Shared exam answers? Dum dum dum!
Yeah we get what we deserve in the end
Of course I knew that you wouldnt do such a thing
You know.... it's really weird to hear yourself talking and to hear your voice
that was recorded
You sound like somebody totally different... just wanted to mention it
Adham? Is he one of your brothers? The name sounds like Adam with a slight
alteration in the pronounciation
Like Sara and the forbidden "H"
Yeah.... sometimes.... it's really hard to appreciate God
Even when he's there..... to me.... and to people.... he's something so
obviously like air and water that we dont realize God's help
Well that is sure hard to believe but it doesn't really matter does it?
But I guess we are conscious of our beauty more and more since people put a lot
of importance to it
But I dont really like pretty pretty girls
For some reason..... majority of them are kinda..... sassy and bossy and like
ummm how to you describe it..... In one word, they're just....
"self-righteous".... wait that's two words but combined....
I'm not saying that you are (since you are pretty pretty) but I gues I'm being
stereotypic
Wow... that's pretty harsh.... fell down the stairs......
That sounds scary I never broke anything so I dont know the pain.....
It's harder to believe how you were..... since you told me quite often that you
dont trust people easily
Wow...... you sound like one of those coolio anime characters who transforms
*twinkly eyes*
No wonder so many people admire you
You know.... you really are a mystery the more I get to know you
You know.... in my case.....
i lost almost all the hope I had.... or any happiness I had
Whenever I tried to get back up..... or whenever I even tried to move
on......
Everything around me just collapsed
Whenever I cried out to God...... it felt like he was a million mile away
I guess that's why I was so....... bitter towards God... and people
I was so angry at everything that when I was young (around elementary?....) my
dream was to be a dictator and enslave humanity
Quite cruel...... but I just couldnt really take it......
But.... I guess I was naive.....
I only prayed to God when I needed something...... I cried out to God only when
I wanted to die... I only thanked him when I felt satisfaction.......
I shouldn't have really expected anything from God when I was so....
self-obssessed....
But I really wanted everything to go away....... Even God.......
Never really bothered about everybody else's pain... because I always thought I
was the one suffering the most and I thought those people were the ones causing
it
I've heard a lot of people in my life telling me to get over it......
And I did.... and when I got over that mountain..... there was a thousand more
mountains.....
Sometimes I look back at life and it's really funny....
To realize.... all those thoughts.... all those feelings made me into who I am
today
I guess it's hard to be treated as a normal human nowadays....
Well I see no difference
No freedom, not being treated the same which is being mistreated
I feel that it's unfair and when I say it's unfair, then it is
Culture?... well if it is so, then I must say that I dont really appreciate the
culture like how I dont appreciate Koreans and how they worship elders as if
they were their gods
........ You surprise me every second
I really cant appreciate anything...... sometimes even when they're
gone......
I'm like..... "I'll live without it......."
Hmm I get what you mean
Memories affect people a lot.......
I dont understand how those scientists always are thinking in that little box
and never realize how awesome and endless this world is..... It's unfathomable
by mere human intellect
I see... I guess it was quite compulsory to be one in KSA?......
I'm a Christian by the way and I'm not a hypocrite
Actually.... I think I'm more of my religion
I believe in the Christian God but in my own way.... God is the God of each and
every individual after all
I heard that the Muslim Koran was quite similar to the Bible
And from how you say things, it makes me feel like we believe in the same God
I could've been Buddhist or atheist and lived a simple life (and that life
would've been more easy and more prosperous)
But my father gave up everything
And he was kicked out of the house and he got beat up for believing in something
else (since my grandparents were strict Buddhists)
It really is cruel what people can do...... But I guess.... it is the matter of
heaven or hell after all.....
I have no idea how my father became Christian.... although I heard that he saw
something in a dream or something...... or something........ or..... something
else..... I dont know
I dont really believe that since I didn't really experience it myself
And just because my parents were Christians..... I wasn't
I pretended all my life...... trying to live what my parents would expect me
to
And actually I knew that there was God... I just didn't...... trust him.... or
like him
But now I believe him with my own faith.... not from the faith of my parents but
from my heart
So does Tommy have a religion?
I usually dont get hungry
My parents are kinda worried that I'll turn out all weak and stuff
But sometimes I get these crave for food (very rare cases)
Wow you even have a scheduled sick time?
But you must be really strong to fight all the sickness and stuff
I dont know to tell the truth
But the Sara right now seems quite.... hmm...... impenetrable
Yeah it's like that sometmes with friends too
When I fight with friends it's like "How can somebody curse so much and be
so offensive to a friend?"
And few hours later it's like "Hey you wanna come over to play my new
game?"
Yes.... I am aware of that...... but when I think things through.......
That person has a life as well... and makes me think "what right have I got
to live any more than that person does?"
So did Tommy vote for sacrificing himself?
Well.... actually I was like that too.... I'm still a bit like that
I used to think..... I would rather save somebody else's life rather than my
depressing sad little life
And I thought I could die for those who was walking down the street
But now.... I think I can die for others because I have the faith of what will
be of my life after death
Of course I'm scared of it and I cannot promise myself that I will die for
others when that time might come but I think I can..... maybe..... Of course I
would not die.... it's not like I'm in such a hurry to just die...... and
disappear.......
But....I will not save others by killing others.... never..... but if I have to,
I will save others by dying
I understand what you mean Sara
It's really hard to sacrifice for others......
I didnt expect you to kill yourself for others... but I still think you are kind
After all... there are different kinds of kindness and.... people appreciate
your kindness as well
And just because you can die for somebody, it doesnt mean you are strong or
kind... I think......
*wipes blood*
I seriously need to eat more vegetables
I didn't mean grudges for you
I meant that I was kinda similar but I held grudges
I'm like that to my father too
When I was younger I was..... sad whenever my father got mad at me or hit me or
something
But later I was just bitter at him and now I just dont care what he says
"Do your blabbering so I can get back to my sleep"
So I guess I have that kinda barrier as well
But every time I did that.... I kinda felt isolated from everybody
I started to be indifferent to everybody.... and didn't care what happened to
everybody.......
I changed a bit now... but I used to be.... quite cold and cruel (now that I
think back)
That's so cute
Wouldnt normally see that kind of siblings these days
Nobody really appreciate the gift of siblinghood anymore...... much
Hehe
I forgive too often
I should get the Nobel peace prize
Merry Christmas to you too
HOpe you have a wonderful 2008
Quote by Lionhearted911helloooooo
Dragon-chan!
*raises hands in a gesture of complete innocence* i come in peace
how are you Mnemeth? hope everything is good and dandy ^^
just dropping by to extend my greetings and warm wishes.
Yeah
I guess we can be completely nice to each other on this day at least
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Vatican ^^
so sorry, i'll reply to your GB post as soon as i can...
but for now i'm sending you this card ne ^^ Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year
It's okay Sara
I'm famous for my patience
I give you one too
I hope you have a Merry Christmas Sara
And I'll try to be a better bro from now
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Nimiru ^^
just dropping by to leave a card. hope everything is going good for you ^^ Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year
take care and see you around ^^
thank you and Merry Christmas to you too!
how about we celebrate it with a glass of milk? hehe
a toast for a good holiday with the ones will love and more to come!
Quote by Lionhearted911Hello
Milkiyo-chan ^^
hehe once again... WELCOME BACK!
and since you are back, i'm dropping by to extend my greetings and send you a
card ^^ Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New
Year
take care ^^ hope to see you around
Sincerely,
Sara
:D thank you! merry christmas to u too
going anywhere to celebrate?
I am doing fine as well. Just enjoying some break time.
so glad that you liked my UP. I feel like i am celebrating V-day already with
that UP. lols. ^^
hey sensei! haha yer, well, lotsa things happen and anyways how are u? and thanks for the cardie~ merry xmas! and i doubt i will be onlining much next yr anyways, i am currently wanting to look for a modelling job, so i can earn my own money :P
Hey, thanks, sorry for not being active these two days, on 24th I was busy helping my old man with the dinner and on 25th my brother was in the computer all the day, however, I can still tell you I wish the best for you, because christmas and new year aren't the only days when friends are friends
By the way, thanks a lot for the card, sorry for not being able to make one for you myself....
Yo S-chan! You're missed too, I hope you had a beautiful holiday and honestly wishe we could speak sometime soon ^^ it was cool you know!
Until next time!
Haoh77
oh!~ sara-nee chan!~ thanks much!~ ^^ sorry for the ate reply~ too many!~ @-@
but
thanks again for the card and well wishes!~
and computer always disconnect~
*hugs* oh sara-nee chan? have any plans coming to singapore?
[p.s: thanks for adding me to your fl i'll do the same!~ ^^]
norine!~
*hugs sis*
I missed you too!
Yeah...I can't wait either...^^...so happy!
I'm preparing for school alright...
which I'm dreading...
but still...
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you too!
Hey there Sara!
Thanks for the card! I would be giving out cards too, but I don't have those kind of skills at the moment!
So, did you have a great Christmas?!
-Jonathan
Awwwwwwwww, I am so touched.
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, happy holidays and whatever other blessings are needed.
Hope to see you soon, my dearest love. Know that the feelings of love between us are oh so very mutual.
Love you loadies and loadies too, Beloved
Sincerely,
Thomas
Oh different brother
I knew that
I was just joking
Ahh..... The good memories of the past
It's so weird when they grow up and become taller than you or something
Aww... that sounds adorable
Oh ho I seez
I wonder if you are so happy happy all the time because of him
Meh..... The teachers usually dont care about me
They care about their favorite students (which are either the smart ones or the cool ones who suck up to them)
I never join into the "Fun" either
Since it's always the popular kids having all the fun
Chinese whisper? Never heard of that before
Wow.... that's quite a lot of trouble.....
Shared exam answers? Dum dum dum!
Yeah we get what we deserve in the end
Of course I knew that you wouldnt do such a thing
You know.... it's really weird to hear yourself talking and to hear your voice that was recorded
You sound like somebody totally different... just wanted to mention it
Adham? Is he one of your brothers? The name sounds like Adam with a slight alteration in the pronounciation
Like Sara and the forbidden "H"
Yeah.... sometimes.... it's really hard to appreciate God
Even when he's there..... to me.... and to people.... he's something so obviously like air and water that we dont realize God's help
Well that is sure hard to believe but it doesn't really matter does it?
But I guess we are conscious of our beauty more and more since people put a lot of importance to it
But I dont really like pretty pretty girls
For some reason..... majority of them are kinda..... sassy and bossy and like ummm how to you describe it..... In one word, they're just.... "self-righteous".... wait that's two words but combined....
I'm not saying that you are (since you are pretty pretty) but I gues I'm being stereotypic
Wow... that's pretty harsh.... fell down the stairs......
I never broke anything so I dont know the pain.....
That sounds scary
It's harder to believe how you were..... since you told me quite often that you dont trust people easily
Wow...... you sound like one of those coolio anime characters who transforms *twinkly eyes*
No wonder so many people admire you
You know.... you really are a mystery the more I get to know you
You know.... in my case.....
i lost almost all the hope I had.... or any happiness I had
Whenever I tried to get back up..... or whenever I even tried to move on......
Everything around me just collapsed
Whenever I cried out to God...... it felt like he was a million mile away
I guess that's why I was so....... bitter towards God... and people
I was so angry at everything that when I was young (around elementary?....) my dream was to be a dictator and enslave humanity
Quite cruel...... but I just couldnt really take it......
But.... I guess I was naive.....
I only prayed to God when I needed something...... I cried out to God only when I wanted to die... I only thanked him when I felt satisfaction.......
I shouldn't have really expected anything from God when I was so.... self-obssessed....
But I really wanted everything to go away....... Even God.......
Never really bothered about everybody else's pain... because I always thought I was the one suffering the most and I thought those people were the ones causing it
I've heard a lot of people in my life telling me to get over it......
And I did.... and when I got over that mountain..... there was a thousand more mountains.....
Sometimes I look back at life and it's really funny....
To realize.... all those thoughts.... all those feelings made me into who I am today
I guess it's hard to be treated as a normal human nowadays....
Well I see no difference
No freedom, not being treated the same which is being mistreated
I feel that it's unfair and when I say it's unfair, then it is
Culture?... well if it is so, then I must say that I dont really appreciate the culture like how I dont appreciate Koreans and how they worship elders as if they were their gods
........ You surprise me every second
I really cant appreciate anything...... sometimes even when they're gone......
I'm like..... "I'll live without it......."
Hmm I get what you mean
Memories affect people a lot.......
I dont understand how those scientists always are thinking in that little box and never realize how awesome and endless this world is..... It's unfathomable by mere human intellect
I see... I guess it was quite compulsory to be one in KSA?......
I'm a Christian by the way and I'm not a hypocrite
Actually.... I think I'm more of my religion
I believe in the Christian God but in my own way.... God is the God of each and every individual after all
I heard that the Muslim Koran was quite similar to the Bible
And from how you say things, it makes me feel like we believe in the same God
I could've been Buddhist or atheist and lived a simple life (and that life would've been more easy and more prosperous)
But my father gave up everything
And he was kicked out of the house and he got beat up for believing in something else (since my grandparents were strict Buddhists)
It really is cruel what people can do...... But I guess.... it is the matter of heaven or hell after all.....
I have no idea how my father became Christian.... although I heard that he saw something in a dream or something...... or something........ or..... something else..... I dont know
I dont really believe that since I didn't really experience it myself
And just because my parents were Christians..... I wasn't
I pretended all my life...... trying to live what my parents would expect me to
And actually I knew that there was God... I just didn't...... trust him.... or like him
But now I believe him with my own faith.... not from the faith of my parents but from my heart
So does Tommy have a religion?
I usually dont get hungry
My parents are kinda worried that I'll turn out all weak and stuff
But sometimes I get these crave for food (very rare cases)
Wow you even have a scheduled sick time?
But you must be really strong to fight all the sickness and stuff
I dont know to tell the truth
But the Sara right now seems quite.... hmm...... impenetrable
Yeah it's like that sometmes with friends too
When I fight with friends it's like "How can somebody curse so much and be so offensive to a friend?"
And few hours later it's like "Hey you wanna come over to play my new game?"
Yes.... I am aware of that...... but when I think things through.......
That person has a life as well... and makes me think "what right have I got to live any more than that person does?"
So did Tommy vote for sacrificing himself?
Well.... actually I was like that too.... I'm still a bit like that
I used to think..... I would rather save somebody else's life rather than my depressing sad little life
And I thought I could die for those who was walking down the street
But now.... I think I can die for others because I have the faith of what will be of my life after death
Of course I'm scared of it and I cannot promise myself that I will die for others when that time might come but I think I can..... maybe..... Of course I would not die.... it's not like I'm in such a hurry to just die...... and disappear.......
But....I will not save others by killing others.... never..... but if I have to, I will save others by dying
I understand what you mean Sara
It's really hard to sacrifice for others......
I didnt expect you to kill yourself for others... but I still think you are kind
After all... there are different kinds of kindness and.... people appreciate your kindness as well
And just because you can die for somebody, it doesnt mean you are strong or kind... I think......
*wipes blood*
I seriously need to eat more vegetables
I didn't mean grudges for you
I meant that I was kinda similar but I held grudges
I'm like that to my father too
When I was younger I was..... sad whenever my father got mad at me or hit me or something
But later I was just bitter at him and now I just dont care what he says
"Do your blabbering so I can get back to my sleep"
So I guess I have that kinda barrier as well
But every time I did that.... I kinda felt isolated from everybody
I started to be indifferent to everybody.... and didn't care what happened to everybody.......
I changed a bit now... but I used to be.... quite cold and cruel (now that I think back)
That's so cute
Wouldnt normally see that kind of siblings these days
Nobody really appreciate the gift of siblinghood anymore...... much
Hehe
I forgive too often
I should get the Nobel peace prize
Merry Christmas to you too
HOpe you have a wonderful 2008
sara-nee chan!~~ ^^
happy holidays and hope you have a wonderful time!~
norine!~
Yeah I guess we can be completely nice to each other on this day at least
A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AS WELL
It's okay Sara
I'm famous for my patience
I give you one too
I hope you have a Merry Christmas Sara
And I'll try to be a better bro from now
awww~
arigato gozaimasu~! 
here's my gift in exchange
the smallest
Christmas card of all in MT 
and do enjoy some Turkish apple tea too
(i was in
Turkey for a week last month)
oh, i gtg now. dun wanna disturb u and ur Tommy playing snow
take care, and have a blessed Christmas & Happy New Year! HOHOHOHO~
hai hai~
let's have an msn conversation sometime soon yo!
anyway, merry christmas&happy new year to you too
hope you like the card
Merry Christmas!
But
I'm sure I'll get on to drawing him soon
Yeah, havent been doing any art of Zuru for a while
Thanks so much for you support!
thank you and Merry Christmas to you too!
how about we celebrate it with a glass of milk? hehe
a toast for a good holiday with the ones will love and more to come!
:D thank you! merry christmas to u too
going anywhere to celebrate?
hope you having a good holiday as well.
Have a Merry Metal Christmas
Hi, how are you?
I am doing fine as well. Just enjoying some break time.
so glad that you liked my UP. I feel like i am celebrating V-day already with that UP. lols. ^^
Hello sis! Thanks for the holiday wishes and this is for you!
You have a wonderful heart and are such a great person, never let anyone tell you differently!
Have a great holiday sis and take care! 
*hugs*
~Jocelyn~
Wow! I'm taking it! Mwahahaha. A good piece for my treasure chest. Thanks alot.
And this is for ye.
Hi Sara^^
Just dropping by to wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...may all your dreams come true
Take care!
-Maria
hey~
Yo Sara-chan! ^^
I am just here to wish you a Merry Christmas!
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If not,
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-Jonathan