Quote by Lionhearted911
thanks for the card sis! it's actually very nice. sadly i didn't make one
too...
so *hugs* thanks again and ...hope your eid was nice? ^^" though we live
together so *pokes*
hahaha yea, having a good time with Tommy :P ^//////^
hahaha see you Shushuuuuu!
was really fun playing video games with you tonight ne! poor Zhou Yu
died...idiot thanks for saving my butt though cuz Sun Ce was gonna die in a
minute
hope we can play more for the rest of your holiday ^^
love you sis!
Ja! *hugs*
your very welcome!
btw!
lool guess what?
DANG! dude all your music is so opposite of my taste except some sheesh
*close to falling asleep after listening to a few*
but I found one song that I knew off and I saw
two different versions
*ahem ahem* *sings with a very high high pitch(same voice of the singer)* *Sweet
dreams are made of me, whoever cannnn
disagree, everybody's lookin for me, some of them wanna use ya, some of them
want to get used by me, some of them wanna abuse ya, some of them want to get
abused by me~~* hahaha
hey wasn't this how the song goes? lool hahaha jk
jk jk
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besides don't you get in trouble for just falling asleep on your desk? :P
hehe wow you read like a robot?!
bleh...like my brother. he's turning thirteen in april and reads like he's
trying to put me to sleep...or make me laugh my head off soo
boring. he came to ask me for help writing some informing thing about
basketball...hehe so well i wrote it for him and he said he was gonna have to
read it infront of the teacher and students as a presentation thing. so i tell
him to demonstrate how he was gonna read it and omg it was just hilarious. so i
was like 'put some more feeling into your voice! you're trying to inform people
about basketball, not tell them indirectly that it's a boring sport from the way
you're reading it." hehe but oh well...
ro be honest when i was his age exactly i got into a reading competition and won
first place. there's just something amazing in reading with feeling. putting
strength into your voice when you wanna be persuasive, changing your tone to
express emotions, changing the volume depending on how much you want your point
to stick in the mind of the listeners. i think it's also why i won in debates. i
think the way you use your voice matters and makes a big difference. so i read
the thing to my brother and told him to imitate me...hehe he was better after
some practice since i nagged and nagged at the points when he sounded off :P
well...as long as the country is not at war and is not so poor, i think it's a
good place to live in. see there are so many people who live in such worse
conditions. in my opinion, people are racist everywhere, i don't think you can
escape racism at all. and boring...well, you wanna be amused, guess you gotta
amuse yourself :P it's probably better off than here, us women have no
recreational places besides shopping malls! and well
all-women clubs and all...but it's not like other places where women drive and
go to parks and so on... so consider yourself fortunate. i mean if i don't
exercise at home, i get no freakin exercise at all!
haha well i'm a morning person. usually when i'm in an even more cheerful mood,
i sing in the morning :P but yeah,
i'm usually a morning person. i guess i like the sunshine and the birds singing
and everything seems so full of life and energy... it's a nice feeling
^/////^
hmmm well is apathetic good? i don't think i've been in many situations where i
had nothing to gain or nothing to lose. though usually i make it so i'm in the
'something to gain' position, but in my opinion even when gaining something, a
sacrifice is made. hehehe wonder if that's going off topic though ^^"
in my opinion, the world's a nice balance. good and evil, happy and sad, love
and hate...it seems that both are present in equal amounts as to cancel each
other out leaving the earth a neutral place. but i don't think humans can be so
neutral. we either love or we hate, we're either good or we're evil... don't
think i've met a person in the middle of it all i don't
really think a person like that exists. a person always tends to favor one thing
over the other...
i know...it's so sad to be without a pet. to be honest when i hear others
talking about their pets i always get this longing for the puppy i had to give
away. it's almost like having to give him up left this empty space in my heart.
actually, everytime a friend i love leaves or so, it leaves this empty space in
my heart that's so hard to fill up. though i don't usually talk about it much to
anyone, it's still there. then i have all these dreams about reuniting with my
friend or asking mother if i could keep the puppy. then i wake up and think to
myself 'i really miss them so damn much it haunts me'
...i think i'm always haunted by my memories, esp good cheerful ones. i guess
you never know loneliness till you know love though. ironic how they both start
with 'l' too and then you can never decide if you'd rather have lived without
knowing love or if you're oh so glad you know both love and the loneliness it
brings. ^^
i kinda follow this saying i heard "What the eyes see and the ears hear,
the mind believes" so usually i don't believe many things unless i see or
hear them. it's a reason why gossip doesn't change the way i treat someone. or
like is someone talks bad about another person, i never treat the other person
rudely just cuz i heard bad things about her. to me, if she treats me right,
then she deserves to be treated right. it's none of my business how she treats
others :P but well i think i'm alive. sometimes i really don't want to die
though. i feel like if i do, i just might go to hell... but that's cuz i'm not
much of a religious person...i used to be...it's sad...i know i should be now
more than ever... i'm sure i will one day...i hope i don't die before
then.
hahaha i don't think carrots would cause AIDs well it's
true though, it seems things that were once good are suddenly not so healthy
anymore... but i think fruits and veggies are healthy and nothing will change
that. who knows :P but it's good to eat healthy. this arabic saying goes 'the
healthy mind is in a healthy body' just trying to say that if the body is
healthy and good to go, then the mind is usually positive and ready to face any
obstacle. i find it to be true. like when i'm sick, i always am down and my
mind's not so positive and so on, but when i'm healthy i'm actually cheerful
usually. like after exercising i'm always cheerful
oooh i really don't like scary movies one bit
and yep my body's made of iron i didn't
catch a cold, next morning i was up and about, all excited about going again to
the beach but in the morning since the water is rather warm and it's lovely to
swim by day. i don't catch colds from sleeping without a blanket or swimming in
cold water. now this time though i showered with cold water cuz something was up
with our warm one. i think it affected y tummy cuz the next thing you know, i'm
feeling nauseous allll night ^^"
hmmm well i would kill. i'm worried i'd be smiling too i don't
think i'd have regrets either. i think that's my protective cold side. at times
there are things you just need to do without hesitating. i never had to kill of
course and i hope i don't have to anyway ^^" but at times when things need
interference, i do things other people don't expect me to do. like this one time
my brother was bugging our neighbour and she came banging on our door like a
hooligan and screaming... and it was 3 am thank you so very much... but we were
all awake anyway...
so we go to see what's her problem and she's screaming and yelling about how my
brother and our neighbour's son were doing something to bug her, maybe ding dong
ditch or something...
but she was screaming rudely at my mother, and my mother was sick....so mum sat
on the edge of our pool and the woman was still going on and on and on, in the
end i stepped infront of mum and was like 'CAN YOU CHILL OUT PLEASE?! WHAT ARE
YOU YELLING LIKE THIS FOR? MOTHER'S SICK AND YOUR VOICE IS JARRING!" and
mother kept pushing me away from in front of her but the
woman was like 'i didn't expect this of you' and i was like 'i didn't expect
this of myself.'
and she says she has problems and so on and i tell her everyone has problems and
she needs to hang in there. we had major problems during those times, mother was
so ill and that woman... but anyway, she stopped yelling at mum that's for
sure.
awwww well i think the Scot's plaid is lovlely! it's sooo cute. hehe and funny,
the skirts don't look weird or out of place on them... i don't think they look
bad either.
hahah now women wear whatever they want :P
looools well not die in real life, but die in my world maybe you know,
i'm the kinda person who forgives but it's so hard to forget. even if i want to
forget....it's like i just can't. like when someone hurts my feelings, it's like
my heart creates a barricade against that person, so if the person does the same
thing again, it usually won't hurt my feelings as much, but it's not a good
thing, cuz things change when i can't find it in my heart to treat the person
the same as i used to. even if i do, in my heart the feeling is never the same,
then i have to struggle to hold onto feelings like love and caring towards that
person. it's almost like the more someone hurts me, the colder i become towards
that person. it's sad...
like once my closest friend hurt my feeling so much...later she apologizes and
we still hang out together but she was always begging me to treat her the way i
used to... i tried! i just couldn't let her in again, like the barrier just
can't be broken by me, so it stays there keeping her out so she never again can
hurt my feelings... it's weird isn't it...
but at times there are exceptions... like deep love and so on...my heart melts
when someone is affectionate towards me, so even if they happened to hurt my
feelings, when they're all affectionate and make me feel secure enough that the
love is not lost, then the barrier seemingly crumbles again ^///^" very
complicated ne...
haahaha it's so funny, the destroy us all echo
i don't mind moving on from childhood to adulthood and everything, every stage
is interesting, it brings with it it's own miseries and joy...and its different
experiences ^^
well still in KSA...not for long though...but anyway ^^
yea i'm glad i have siblings...it's fun and interesting and esp when i'm close
to sis then we talk alot and it's really nice, cuz it seems when things go wrong
with everyone else, i can always turn to sis for comfort. esp since she has a
strong personality. at times she's ruthless in answering me and commenting on
why i'm sad, but it reminds me i shouldn't just be down like that...it helps
even when she's mad at me. besides i like taking her opinion in everything! if
she says that shirt is ugly, i go 'yea you're right' even if i thought it was
nice at first but she has influence over my opinion on things. it's really nice
though... we're like opposites.
i'm me and you're you. the people who like you, like you for being yourself. i
wouldn't really want you to change either. i wouldn't want you to give up though
^^
hehehe another late post... just haven;t been on the computer much
well then, take care Ju!
hope to hear from you soon!
Sincerely,
Sara
[/quote.minitokyo.net/">Lionhearted911
Hello Ju ^^
hehe i can never just sleep anywhere. i think it's the part of my that's
paranoid or just doesn't trust others... so i don't sleep in public unless i'm
in serious serious need of a nap.
i never ever slept in class! hehe it's hard to understand how people can sleep
in class
besides don't you get in trouble for just falling asleep on your desk? :P
hehe wow you read like a robot?!
bleh...like my brother. he's turning thirteen in april and reads like he's
trying to put me to sleep...or make me laugh my head off soo
boring. he came to ask me for help writing some informing thing about
basketball...hehe so well i wrote it for him and he said he was gonna have to
read it infront of the teacher and students as a presentation thing. so i tell
him to demonstrate how he was gonna read it and omg it was just hilarious. so i
was like 'put some more feeling into your voice! you're trying to inform people
about basketball, not tell them indirectly that it's a boring sport from the way
you're reading it." hehe but oh well...
ro be honest when i was his age exactly i got into a reading competition and won
first place. there's just something amazing in reading with feeling. putting
strength into your voice when you wanna be persuasive, changing your tone to
express emotions, changing the volume depending on how much you want your point
to stick in the mind of the listeners. i think it's also why i won in debates. i
think the way you use your voice matters and makes a big difference. so i read
the thing to my brother and told him to imitate me...hehe he was better after
some practice since i nagged and nagged at the points when he sounded off :P
well...as long as the country is not at war and is not so poor, i think it's a
good place to live in. see there are so many people who live in such worse
conditions. in my opinion, people are racist everywhere, i don't think you can
escape racism at all. and boring...well, you wanna be amused, guess you gotta
amuse yourself :P it's probably better off than here, us women have no
recreational places besides shopping malls! and well
all-women clubs and all...but it's not like other places where women drive and
go to parks and so on... so consider yourself fortunate. i mean if i don't
exercise at home, i get no freakin exercise at all!
haha well i'm a morning person. usually when i'm in an even more cheerful mood,
i sing in the morning :P but yeah,
i'm usually a morning person. i guess i like the sunshine and the birds singing
and everything seems so full of life and energy... it's a nice feeling
^/////^
hmmm well is apathetic good? i don't think i've been in many situations where i
had nothing to gain or nothing to lose. though usually i make it so i'm in the
'something to gain' position, but in my opinion even when gaining something, a
sacrifice is made. hehehe wonder if that's going off topic though ^^"
in my opinion, the world's a nice balance. good and evil, happy and sad, love
and hate...it seems that both are present in equal amounts as to cancel each
other out leaving the earth a neutral place. but i don't think humans can be so
neutral. we either love or we hate, we're either good or we're evil... don't
think i've met a person in the middle of it all i don't
really think a person like that exists. a person always tends to favor one thing
over the other...
i know...it's so sad to be without a pet. to be honest when i hear others
talking about their pets i always get this longing for the puppy i had to give
away. it's almost like having to give him up left this empty space in my heart.
actually, everytime a friend i love leaves or so, it leaves this empty space in
my heart that's so hard to fill up. though i don't usually talk about it much to
anyone, it's still there. then i have all these dreams about reuniting with my
friend or asking mother if i could keep the puppy. then i wake up and think to
myself 'i really miss them so damn much it haunts me'
...i think i'm always haunted by my memories, esp good cheerful ones. i guess
you never know loneliness till you know love though. ironic how they both start
with 'l' too and then you can never decide if you'd rather have lived without
knowing love or if you're oh so glad you know both love and the loneliness it
brings. ^^
i kinda follow this saying i heard "What the eyes see and the ears hear,
the mind believes" so usually i don't believe many things unless i see or
hear them. it's a reason why gossip doesn't change the way i treat someone. or
like is someone talks bad about another person, i never treat the other person
rudely just cuz i heard bad things about her. to me, if she treats me right,
then she deserves to be treated right. it's none of my business how she treats
others :P but well i think i'm alive. sometimes i really don't want to die
though. i feel like if i do, i just might go to hell... but that's cuz i'm not
much of a religious person...i used to be...it's sad...i know i should be now
more than ever... i'm sure i will one day...i hope i don't die before
then.
hahaha i don't think carrots would cause AIDs well it's
true though, it seems things that were once good are suddenly not so healthy
anymore... but i think fruits and veggies are healthy and nothing will change
that. who knows :P but it's good to eat healthy. this arabic saying goes 'the
healthy mind is in a healthy body' just trying to say that if the body is
healthy and good to go, then the mind is usually positive and ready to face any
obstacle. i find it to be true. like when i'm sick, i always am down and my
mind's not so positive and so on, but when i'm healthy i'm actually cheerful
usually. like after exercising i'm always cheerful
oooh i really don't like scary movies one bit
and yep my body's made of iron i didn't
catch a cold, next morning i was up and about, all excited about going again to
the beach but in the morning since the water is rather warm and it's lovely to
swim by day. i don't catch colds from sleeping without a blanket or swimming in
cold water. now this time though i showered with cold water cuz something was up
with our warm one. i think it affected y tummy cuz the next thing you know, i'm
feeling nauseous allll night ^^"
hmmm well i would kill. i'm worried i'd be smiling too i don't
think i'd have regrets either. i think that's my protective cold side. at times
there are things you just need to do without hesitating. i never had to kill of
course and i hope i don't have to anyway ^^" but at times when things need
interference, i do things other people don't expect me to do. like this one time
my brother was bugging our neighbour and she came banging on our door like a
hooligan and screaming... and it was 3 am thank you so very much... but we were
all awake anyway...
so we go to see what's her problem and she's screaming and yelling about how my
brother and our neighbour's son were doing something to bug her, maybe ding dong
ditch or something...
but she was screaming rudely at my mother, and my mother was sick....so mum sat
on the edge of our pool and the woman was still going on and on and on, in the
end i stepped infront of mum and was like 'CAN YOU CHILL OUT PLEASE?! WHAT ARE
YOU YELLING LIKE THIS FOR? MOTHER'S SICK AND YOUR VOICE IS JARRING!" and
mother kept pushing me away from in front of her but the
woman was like 'i didn't expect this of you' and i was like 'i didn't expect
this of myself.'
and she says she has problems and so on and i tell her everyone has problems and
she needs to hang in there. we had major problems during those times, mother was
so ill and that woman... but anyway, she stopped yelling at mum that's for
sure.
awwww well i think the Scot's plaid is lovlely! it's sooo cute. hehe and funny,
the skirts don't look weird or out of place on them... i don't think they look
bad either.
hahah now women wear whatever they want :P
looools well not die in real life, but die in my world maybe you know,
i'm the kinda person who forgives but it's so hard to forget. even if i want to
forget....it's like i just can't. like when someone hurts my feelings, it's like
my heart creates a barricade against that person, so if the person does the same
thing again, it usually won't hurt my feelings as much, but it's not a good
thing, cuz things change when i can't find it in my heart to treat the person
the same as i used to. even if i do, in my heart the feeling is never the same,
then i have to struggle to hold onto feelings like love and caring towards that
person. it's almost like the more someone hurts me, the colder i become towards
that person. it's sad...
like once my closest friend hurt my feeling so much...later she apologizes and
we still hang out together but she was always begging me to treat her the way i
used to... i tried! i just couldn't let her in again, like the barrier just
can't be broken by me, so it stays there keeping her out so she never again can
hurt my feelings... it's weird isn't it...
but at times there are exceptions... like deep love and so on...my heart melts
when someone is affectionate towards me, so even if they happened to hurt my
feelings, when they're all affectionate and make me feel secure enough that the
love is not lost, then the barrier seemingly crumbles again ^///^" very
complicated ne...
haahaha it's so funny, the destroy us all echo
i don't mind moving on from childhood to adulthood and everything, every stage
is interesting, it brings with it it's own miseries and joy...and its different
experiences ^^
well still in KSA...not for long though...but anyway ^^
yea i'm glad i have siblings...it's fun and interesting and esp when i'm close
to sis then we talk alot and it's really nice, cuz it seems when things go wrong
with everyone else, i can always turn to sis for comfort. esp since she has a
strong personality. at times she's ruthless in answering me and commenting on
why i'm sad, but it reminds me i shouldn't just be down like that...it helps
even when she's mad at me. besides i like taking her opinion in everything! if
she says that shirt is ugly, i go 'yea you're right' even if i thought it was
nice at first but she has influence over my opinion on things. it's really nice
though... we're like opposites.
i'm me and you're you. the people who like you, like you for being yourself. i
wouldn't really want you to change either. i wouldn't want you to give up though
^^
hehehe another late post... just haven;t been on the computer much
well then, take care Ju!
hope to hear from you soon!
Sincerely,
Sara
[/quote
Hello Sara!
Umm I dont trust people either
But since people dont really care, I just sleep ayway :p
But I guess I understand what you mean
Well.... majority of the teachers dont care...... and some teachers do so....
yeah
Usually it's okay
I dont understand how people stay awake in class
Umm I meant I read like a robot if I'm reading something planned out
Like a speech or whatever
Thirteen? But your brother looked so young and tiny and cuuuuttte in the picture
13..... Let me see...... I was 13 in....... 2005........ I was still a middle
schooler back then TT^TT
Oh I get what you mean.... I've seen people read like that
I usually read in my mind so I dont read out loud
Hahahax that's hilarious
I kinda read like that too sometimes...... not very often but sometimes
I really can't do persuasive speeches or anything like that
You seem to be basically good at everything...... *jealousy
spaarrrkkksss*
Well the country is still at the risk of war since it was just a truce with
North Korea and even if it looks all good and stuff, the people dont have decent
jobs and if they dont go to a college near the capital, they're considered
stupid and people dont hire them
It's just one corrupt country
It's not a wonder so many people are going to the US where people are acutally
appreciated for their talents and not which school they came from or what grades
they got
Yeah there are worse places but I wouldn't call Korea a good place to live in
either
And it's not just common racism.... Koreans are basically....... natural born
racists or something
Either that or they're just too in love with themselves, they think everybody
else is inferior
Wow..... that really is........ well..... unfair.......
I dont really get it..... so why are women so mistreated?
Hmm..... the sun usually irritates me...... so bright and what not..... and
what's up with the birds being all loud? How about some sleep?
You know..... that reminds me of something that I read in a book
"Why must the sun rise every morning? If it just forgets to rise one day or
not at all, we would see it's importance and learn to appreciate it"
And I was totally glad that there was at least one person who thought like I
did
I dont really know....... I always feel like I'm losing something whether I'm
pessimistic or opitimistic
I think the balance is tipping a bit...... people are changing.... the world is
becoming more and more evil and corrupt......
True that there is nobody who doesn't have a bias...... because every opinion or
thought we have is already biased
Oh I get that too.... even when I see people playing with their siblings I just
wanna adopt one TT^TT
It's always hard to say goodbye.... but we have to move on Sara.......
I did that so often.... I thought.... "What's the point of having friends
anyway?"
I remember my friends too......... it's quite funny to remember how I was with
them.......
Then again.... it's quite sad like you said
But it was worth it right?
Yeah I think you don't really learn to appreciate something until you know it's
gone.....
Well I usually believe things that I dont see and dont believe things that I
see
Because we cant see love or hatred or hear it.... but we know it's there like
air
And I know that there is God even though I dont see God because....... I just
cannot accept the theory that the earth was just coincidentially made at the
right temperature and right location with right amount of everything with all
the animals to keep on life and it's cycle
Yeah that's true.... gossip is really a big weapon in society
You know..... I feel everything..... I realize things around me..... but there
are times that I doubt...... "Am I really alive?"
What if..... by some chance..... everything that I see, feel, hear, taste,
smell... everything.... what if everything was just memory..... or illusion....
or just a dream?
I'm sure that you have the faith to go to heaven........ although we are
probably of different religion.......
.............
You know Sara...... it's really hard for me....... when I talk about heaven or
hell.......
Because I do believe in it..........
Sometimes I wish that there was no God........ or heaven or hell.......
Anyways..... Let's move on!
Well the carrot and the AIDS thing was just hypothetical
I was just trying to say that they always change what they say
But I guess that's true
I havent seen vegetarians dying from diabetes :p
And yeah... when I'm hungry, I don't do well in school :p
You dont like scary movies? That's one more odd thing about you *adds to the
list*
Wow..... you really must be healthy.... or strong.... whatever the difference
is
I get cold and fever all the time
It's not much to brag about but whenever I got colds, I got fevers along with it
like a package
I'd regret it all my life either way.......
For killing...... or not for being able to save someone I love
Wow....... I can't imagine you doing that eithe
You surprise me every minute......
Hmm....... nope
Just can't imagine you shouting or yelling or being angry.......
Scottish people have some odd sense of fashion though.......
Yeah now women can....... I think now they wear basically everything...... and
some clothes that children should not see *cough cough.......* crud... I'm
coughing blood again
Im like that too
I forgive but still have burning grudges inside me
But for me, since I have really bad memory, I just forget about it and just move
on
Even if I dont forget, I just try to..... for some reason
If I dont..... I feel like I need to break something because of the anger inside
me and the regret for forgiving that person
Yup.... human relationship is one of the most complicated thing.......
Yeah I saw that in a cartoon
Adulthood to me......... seems like the boringest thing ever........
Oh I sees
Still in KSA........ KSA.........?
*looks it up*
Oh I seez d(=w=)b
That sounds totally fun
So does your brother also tell you if the shirt is ugly or not?
Yeah actually...... I dont' know if I want to change a whole lot either.....
although I changed dramatically since elementary.......
Dont know if you believe me but I was cheerful and optimistic until elementary
It's okay
I forgive you
I'm generous enough to do that
You take care too Sara
And hope you make all the right choices
Quote by Lionhearted911
ehehe...i never ever slept during class! people who are able to actually amaze
me. my friend used to sleep on my shoulder and get us both in trouble her for
sleeping and me for supporting her by giving her a shoulder to sleep on i can never
sleep in class. i usually never sleep outside of my home...but sometimes when
i'm dead tired and my head hurts i do fall asleep in the car, but that happens
only when we're traveling. this one time the plane made me so dizzy and sick,
then we had to drive four hours to the city where our beach house was...i slept
on and off on the car...but it was very restless...when we got home it was like
around 8 maybe... pm of course...i just went straight to bed...i think i
changed, but i'm not sure since i was so dizzy and tired can't
remember :P
usually on school days i only take naps when i have a migraine... but when
there's no school i nap whenever i feel like it :P ^^" cuz i have nothing
to do and enough time to spare for a nap.
hmmm well class president... was unexpected on my part too... i've been class
president though in both eleventh and twelfth grade " and
both were times i didn't run for anything! in eleventh, our homeroom teacher,
who was also a new teacher in the school btw, said to me on the second week of
school that i'm class president. when i was like "what really?!" she
said "yes, you seemed like the only fitting person. i talked to other
teachers and they said you were perfect."
in twelfth i was always always always late to class! this one day i come during
the middle of our first period and everyone tells me they nominated me class
president in homeroom while i wasn't there! it was rather amusing... ^^"
and i said "i can't believe you guys...." haha they said the teacher
complained i was always late in the mornings, how come a class president is
late? but nooo my friends just had to insist and everyone in class happens to be
my friend anyway ^^" so they all mutually agreed and i was given the
work... ^^" but it's ok.
as for being part of the school council...i did say a speech then. it was
something i said out of the blue without any sort of preparation which
impressed the teachers and students cuz they all came to me afterwards saying it
was a nice speech that seemed to be so full of feeling and meaning. i
understand. when you prepare a speech, it means it's not coming from the
heart... but i didn't prepare...i guess it seemed sincere then... so yea
^^
hehehe i work best during the day, i like shopping during the day...everything
during the day is nice... at night....i donno but i don't seem as effective
^^"
and i do not like garlic..
hahaha good luck! i hope you do crush them all and be top student! would be
something wonderful to hear and i'm sure you can do it!
hehehe pessimistic...
sometimes being pessimistic is not a horrible thing...
but everything with limits is good. being too optimistic you end up
disappointed, being too pessimistic you end up in despair... but in the middle
is good.
oh don't even remind me. we got a dog for over the summer...
...then we had to give it away when the summer was over...
i cried loads and loads over it. it was so heartbreaking cuz i loved it so very
much...
...it was even hard to recover...months after and remembering him would make me
hold back tears.
i'm ok now...still...memories of the cute puppy haunt me in my dreams where i
sometimes beg mother to keep him ^///^"
hmmm well i'm sure there is scientific proof and evidence, the different
atmospheres and so on...
...but your eyes are proof enough... or do you not believe what you see? then
what are the white fluffy things? how come the stars are floating up there? why
is it that the color's blue by day and black by night? things like that... make
you believe? in my opinion, no one believes what they don't want to believe.
i think the opposite. when science says the food is healthy, then it's
healthy.
when ads say the food is healthy, then you turn to the nutritional value on the
product to make sure
ugh the sea at night is actually a lil freaky...
once we went swimming at night and omg the water was so cold and i was so very
miserable..
there were a few reasons i was out there in the water, and none of them was cuz
i wanted to swim...or had anyone to swim with. so i stood in the water like a
shivering bundle of misery cursing under my breath and to top
it off there were guys who kept staring and swimming wherever i would swim...and
they go 'pssst' as though i'm a freakin cat.... so rude and annoying... made
things even worse glad that day was over... ^^
hmmmm well i think i would have the courage to kill if it was to protect. the
consequences of hesitating could be great, i mean you could lose someone you
love. so i'd rather do away with a criminal haha how
evil and cold, but you're right. i do have a dark side to my nature. of course i
do! i just keep it hidden since there is no need to go around feeling malice or
anger.
hmmm well i wonder why it's alright for girls to wear pants but guys can not
wear skirts. but when you think about it...when a girl wears a skirt, her legs
are smooth and so on ...guy's legs ^///////^ well you know... so i don't think
it would look nice. besides i don't think i'd find a guy in skirts cute...even
if it was not stereotyping, guys look good in pants, girls look good in both
mwahahaha
besides long time ago a woman was forbidden to wear pants anyway...
hahahaha well i never say 'go die in a car accident' i just say 'yea whatever,
you're wasting your time and i don't believe you' things like that not too
extreme :P
finally with Tommy? we've been a couple for over eight months... ^/////^
well i guess you can never really understand love...always full of surprises and
there's always something you're trying to unsuccessfully reason out. you said
it, we do stupid things because we have feelings and emotions. i wouldn't say
'stupid' but something you usually wouldn't do, or things you never dreamed of
doing, or things that when someone else did them, you thought they were
completely stupid but you realize now you're doing them too and you're not
thinking you're stupid at all :P ^^"
hehehe everyone has a hidden side to them. my friend said my evil side was
hidden almost like it couldn't wait to just show itself and devour everyone she said it
was like a 'Lioness waiting to pounce" but the my friend was one to talk!
her evil side was like a dragon waiting to fire
still sometimes those hidden sides give us strength, that i am sure of.
well college never seemed like mountains...i never thought for once of not going
to college. though i never really thought i would be a doctor either... but
anyway...a part of me can't wait for the rush of studying...exams make me feel
really excited, the sense of challenge.. at the same time i worry i might not
have much time to play...or chat and be on MT... so yea...
well i wanna get out of here, thankfully i am...but still there's someplace i
want to be more than ever...and to make my dream come true...i need to work hard
in college and finally be able to make it on my own.
well it's ok to complain
at times i find i usually complain to my closest friends, it feels like you have
someone to really talk to..
but i think complaining too much will make the weaker side of our nature
dominate. that's why i don't complain so much, i worry my whiny side will get
convincing that i'd feel sorry for myself.
in truth, my dominating side is the stronger part of my personality that says
i'm never a victim and that keeps pushing me forward. it's good that way. like
when i cry, if i let my weaker side take control, i'd cry for hours, at times i
feel like i have many tears to spare ^^"
oh well ^^ it's fun talking to you too
sorry for the late reply, had things that needed to be done and was playing with
my brother so...
hope to hear from you soon ^^
take care Ju-chan! and good luck!
~Sara
Oh yeah.... I think I remember you telling me that........
I always fall asleep during Bible class and Algebra class this year
Last year was Geometry and Spanish
I never helped anybody sleeping in calss.... since I was always the one to lie
my head on the table and act like I was dead........
Oh oh oh! I always fall asleep in cars! Always....
My dad says it's some kinda side effect..... or something
Instead of getting car sick, I just fall asleep... I dont know why but
especially in those big buses.......
I don't fall asleep in planes that much........
You're quite different from me...... I sleep whenever I have the chance......
When I'm riding to school...... before class starts..... right after I eat
lunch, I go to the classroom so I can bash my head against the table and fall
sleep.......
Wow...... that'll look good on your transcript especially if you're going to the
US for college
Korea doesn't give a crud cake......
In Korea, people are classified by their grades and so called intellectual
ability
Totally makes me sick...... that's why I never want to live in Korea...... the
people are racist as well........ It's like the worst country evur..... not to
mention the boringest country
So you can recommend presidents? Wow... that's pretty cool
I think you are a reliable and trustworthy person as well........ although
letting people sleep on your shoulder is not a president-like thing to do :p
Hmm I understand..... I can't prepare speeches either..... (not that I can speak
in public anyway )
But if I have something infront of me to read out.... that feels so........
boring.... and systematic..... like a robot....... I can't really put my
feelings into it....... insincere as you said.....
I don't really understand morning people...... I feel really numb and lethargic
during morning
I will....... I'll crush them to the nano scale....... I have decided to be
numero uno
Well I thought being optimistic leaves you disappointed but being pessimistic
left you apathetic because you have neither to gain nor to lose
But yeah....... neutrality is good
It's so sad when you have to depart from animals TT^TT
It's so cruel to be separated.........
But sometimes..... it's better not to have them...... because unless it's a
turtle..... I'll probably see it die before I do........
What if I say I don't believe what my eyes show me or what my nose smell or what
my hands feel, or what my ears hear or what my mouth tastes?
Sometimes there are times that I doubt if I'm even alive......
I know that I can feel, see and all that.... but it's just all memory after
all.....
Everything that the brain translates is.... just information......
So does that mean I don't want to believe that I'm alive?...... I guess that
makes sense..... kinda
But at the same time..... I want to believe......
Well you can believe what those scientists say
They'll tell us that carrot is good this year and the next year they're gonna
tell us it causes cancer and infect our body with HIV
Yeah..... I'm really afraid of the deep ocean..... especially at night
I don't close my eyes when I see something scary or gory on television but I
turn away when I see those underwater documentaries because they freak me
out.... totally
.......... you really are one odd person Sara.......
So did you catch a cold or anything after that? Or is your body iron as
well?
Actually......... I dont know what I would do at those kinda
predicaments.....
I would want to save the one I love..... but I just don't have what it takes to
kill......
I can't kill a roach for my sake or anybody else's! well..... that's because I'm
afraid of them but...... when it's me that's doing the killing..... I feel
so..... sick......
Even when we had to kill a chicken for some kinda camp thing........
Oh how I loathed those who pull the chicken's leg from it's head..........
........... I guess the world will end the day you release your hidden
side........ :p
Yeah I guess it wouldn't look good with a guy wearing a skirt...... with his
bushy and bulgy legs and what not..... I guess Scottish people are
brave?.......
Yeah..... women weren't allowed to wear pants because they revelead more of your
leg or something..... while the skirt conceals the leg or
something.......
Oh.... I must be the only one who's that extreme.....
Sometimes I just want to get that frustration out so bad but I just can't
infront of that person so I just start cursing and cussing inside........
Oh.... nevermind.....
I was under the impression that you were "with" Tommy from your last
pos
With as in......... with! with! Okay? WITH
........... I still dont really understand it....... I have my own definition of
"love" and I guess I'll only understand that definition
Well whatever it is... it sounds good enough to cause the world to
end........
When you let out your hidden side.......... It's gonna destory us all! destroy
us all! destroy us all! *keeps echoing*
Wow......... you are one odd person........ the more I dont understand you the
more I get to know you.......
I never wanted to move on from my childhood..... Because the world of adults....
seemed so depressing and miserable.......
So...... dry.... and gray........ so broken........
I don't think I would want to leave my brothers/sisters if I had any.... Of
course I have my life too.... but I think I would want to make them happy before
myself.....
I'm so jealous you have siblings TT^TT
*poking your cheek* TTT^TTT
So where are you now?
Yeah that's true....... but it feels like my weaker side engulfed me
already.....
I really do admire your strength.......... but I don't think I would want to
change myself so drastically either
Everybody would be like........ "Whoa... that dude's got some serious mood
swings"
Aww that's so sweet
Playing with your bro sounds nice
I don't mind... I can wait...... I'm famous for my patience....... and
slowness...... and drowsiness......... X_x
hey Sara, hope u'r havin a good time!
*glances at time*
ohhhhhhh...now now now...*checks msn*...yeah! there! hope you're having a good
time with Tomm! hahaha
anyways juz droppin by with a card, here ya go,
take carez~!
<3 Shushuu~
merged: 12-21-2007 ~ 06:41am
oh crappppppppp there's a typo on the card! it's Shushuu i mispelled my lovely
nickname LMAO! omg...arghhhhh i don't feel like changing it now...i haven't
saved...arrrrrghhhhh
DANG! rofl~ oh well, hmph!
Quote by Lionhearted911
hahaha tell me about it. but thing is i manage my time well... you see, i always
put a schedule for myself and stick to it. if i don't say 'ok at noon i
exercise, an hour later i shower, then an hour after that i sit with
mum..." and so on...then i start worrying so much about not having enough
time to finish what i need to in a certain day. but that is especially when i
have school, then you need to make time for school work. though truth is i did
most of my HW in school so i never had work to do at home except essays...which
i am really good at. besides i'm fast in things i do...i can finish a persuasive
five-paragraph essay and get an A on it all in 25 minutes. it makes my friends
jealous ^^" but it's nice, then after the teacher returns our essays my
friends always always want to read mine. they say mine always sound oh so
philosophical and interesting ^^ i think essays and english is my strongest
points...
...and math! i used to do both classwork and homework at the same time...it was
sooo fun during math class! in fact i was actually a good student academically
and was always done with my work that the teacher tried to ignore it when i ate
grapes while working (you see she punishes student who eat during class ) but then
again i have a good relationship with all my teachers ^^... i miss
them so very much...
my math teacher hated me and loved me at the same time though... sometimes when
she smiled to me she seems so insincere... but anyway, i think something in the
way i deal with people makes it impossible for them to hate me alone, so then
there's the love-hate thing
...actually was the same with this biology teacher i once had ^^" she
picked on me so very much, but when she needed someone reliable to do something
for her, she always called me... and i think it didn't help much that i was also
class president ^^" and a representative as well...so i usually stayed back
to talk to her and so on ... *sigh*... *smile* ^^
hmmm i'm listening to a nice song. you know, whenever a hear a nice song, i
can't help but feel so cheerful... like now! ^^
hehehe i don't work well at night at all! i always say i work best under
pressure during the day. like all my will to finish work is going down with the
sun
awwwwww do your best Ju! i hope you get better grades next year. still, try your
best. i hope you find the will to study ^^"
hehehe i do like biology alot
actually. i always liked science too. and MATH! i usually get good grades in
math
politics...well we never took that but i can imagine how boring it would be.
politics and i are worlds apart. i barely even watch the news anyway
hmmm true, it's human nature to want to depend on others, more so it's probably
how humans were created in the first place. social creatures huh... well i think
even the loners don't really want a world to themselves... but we never know.
still it's true and i'm a clear example. if i'm cooped up in my room for so
long, i start having major issues. probably why i loved school. i think i like
interacting with others, learning from them, talking to them about the most
random things... though i don't trust people in general, i never say something
that could be used against me...still i do like dealing with people in
general.
there's strength in admitting you need others...and strength in realizing you
cannot do everything on your own... so it's almost like strength and weakness go
hand in hand ^^
sometimes the stupid things you do are the best things
well i'm not completely sure about what a silver lining is...but my own
definition or understanding ...hmmm... well silver lining would probably be the
sun's reflection... so when the clouds cover up the sun, sometimes the sun's
rays peek out from the ends of the clouds, causing silver linings...
...the quote probably is trying to say that even when things are rather dark and
so on, there's always hope and ...erm... well that even when bad things happen,
something good tends to come out of it... heheh something along those lines :P
and no we gave Cloud away ^^
the sky's real, trust me
hehehe well i used to swim for hours and hours and hours! literally i'd stay
five hours in the water, swimming back and forth and enjoying the soothing
sensation of swimming in the sear... something i really miss. the sea always
seemed to wash away anything that troubled me. always worse goggles and dived in
deeper to look at the fishies and it was just so soothing and almost soul
cleansing...really miss it...
...hehe talking about Saber and courage ^^" this one time about four years
back, it was summer, and we always stayed up late during summers. my sister and
mother and i all go downstairs for a snack, it was like 3 am or something... my
father was upstairs watching a movie. you see, our door to the outside had two
glass panes, they were colored, but if anyone outside passes infront of our
door, we could see the shadow. our kitchen door was a hall away from the front
door, so looking out of the kitchen, you can see the front door.
well anyway, what happens is mother suddenly starts saying in a low voice that
we were to wait in the kitchen but if we hear something odd, we are to call
father for help. so basically i turn to understand what was going on and there
was a shadow from the panes (outside our door is our garden...so the shadow
wasn't exactly in front of the door, but more so in our garden). so sis goes
"omg Sara..." and all i worry about is there's no way we could call
dad... since the man would be clueless, it's almost like asking matters to get
worse.
i donno if i was thinking straight ^^" but well i go over to the cupboard
and pull out a knife and then follow my mother thing is it
turned out to be our baka housekeeper, doing i donno what... but my mother
starts laughing at me holding a knife like i was gonna stab someone with it. but
i think i would have without a second thought actually... and the only thing i
was thinking was that i was so mad that someone actually wanted to try and get
into our house.
after that mother started calling me her lil hero she was
saying that she doesn't need dad anymore since i'm 'man enough' to take care of
the household
but there were other times where things like this happened. like another time
dad traveled and it was only my sis and mother and i. mum comes to me and says
she smells cigarettes coming from downstairs and then she goes down ahead of me,
but i run to catch up with her and then push her up the stairs so i could go
ahead...ehehe...trust me there was no one... but still i made sure i checked
everywhere just in case ^^" i guess this is what you call tomboyish
^///^"
and it's not gay at all :P a tomboy is still a girl
when i have nothing to do, i read or draw... hmmm... or daydream in details...
sometimes my expression becomes so intense when i'm daydreaming in details with
feeling and so on
well the only thing i ever really feared was my father...
as for insecure...i think everyone can't help but feel insecure. even i
do....sometimes i do alot...
my closest friend left forever and i never heard from her...even though i miss
her so much it's almost one sided...
...you know alot of things happened to make me feel this way... but i guess if i
don't feel so much affection from someone i love and someone who claims to love
me, then i start feeling insecure.
hah! when i feel empty...it's dangerous... cuz that's when i get pessimistic and
nothing in the world could cheer me up...besides i become cynical. lucky for the
people around me i rarely say what i think if it risks getting their feelings
hurt. cuz even if someone says 'i care about you' when i feel like that, in my
head i'm saying 'yea right....like i'm falling for that' and on the outside
'awwww..i'm touched' ^^" what can i say...i guess i'd rather stay on my own
in my issues than hurt someone else's feelings, even if they are
insincere.
i used to like sleeping. i thought of plots for my stories, i daydreamed... now
whenever i go to bed early, i'm haunted by worries. i'm glad i have Tommy to be
with during the night hours, when he's not around, it's almost like the light of
my life has gone. such dependence don't you think, but i'm ok like this. true
there was a time i never depended on anyone. but things are alright now because
i feel secure and our feelings are sincere. ^//////^ i really do love that man
so much. hehe not a surprise since we've been a couple for over eight months and
friends for about a year ^^ so it's really wonderful.
ugh...i hate waking up with a headache! sucks completely. usually when i wake up
i spend ten minutes in bed cuddling my pillow and just taking my sweet time
thinking nice thoughts.
you see sleep also usually relieves me of stress, so in the morning when i wake
up, i actually feel really cheerful and at peace. and i thankfully don't feel
like i'm about to throw up! when that happens i feel awful! and i
complain
hmmm to escape from reality, in my mind, i create a fantasy world...or i read
well Ju, you can change if you want to. this is one fact i know a 1000%. why?
simply because i changed when i really wanted to. i changed 120 degrees if you talk
to mother, you'd know i'm serious. i was a weakling...cried over everything...
i'm stronger now...and much more tolerant. reliable now too ^^ when i was young,
my parents always called me names, i think i was a shame. but now my father
shows me off to his friends and asks me to read speeches on his behalf during
business meetings and things like that ^^ so you see...people are able to change
themselves. people are who they want themselves to be. ^^
it's the strength of your will that can change your life. ^^
so in my opinion, Ju, it's your fault. you have no one to blame but yourself. at
least i blame myself for almost everything that goes on around me. i think it's
best to blame yourself, that way there's no one to hate. no one is in charge of
your life, at least, no human or animal. only God ^^
don't let yourself be pulled down. every time you fail, try even harder and
harder. what you work for, you get ^^
ahahaha as a member of the school council, at times i was asked to teach the
younger classes when their teachers were busy and i had free time. i get angry
alright, so angry that i sit and stare till the class quiets down. true i never
shout or yell, but i go 'what's your name, you over there? yes, cuz i think you
and i can pass by later to the principal's office for a nice chat' hehe it works
on quiting everyone down in no time.
but my friends at times ask me to explain something they don't seem to
understand from the teacher. hehe one of my teachers wrote on my college
recommendation that i'm a wonderful teacher myself and that i always explain
difficult concepts in easier terms :P it's pretty sweet of her, and i'm glad i
have a skill to make others understand my point...
i make others understand work so easily, but it's hard to make them understand
my feelings and what i really want ^^"
Gambatte!
hehe wrote quite alot hope you
didn't get bored...
as for now, i gotta run!
take care Ju! good luck with everything!
hope to hear from you soon ^^
~Sara
It's a wonder how people manage their time while I always do anything that I
comes to my mind
It seems to me that you really dont have enough time to do everything you want
in one day....
Wish I was like that
I sleep during classes, come home and take a nap and eat dinner (yes I sleep
quite often...... not a lot but often) and digest my dinner by sitting infront
of the compy and do my homework right before bed
Sometimes I realize I dont have enough time to finish it....... so I sleep late
again, doze off at school, take a nap..... and repeating cycle.
Wish I could get A's in 20 minutes so I can get back to my slumber~
It's like that for me too........ even the teachers you hated once........ when
they leave...... or when I leave.... it's..... quite sad
You were the class president?! That's quite surprising and expected at the same
time
You would be the kind of person fitting for that position but never thought you
would
I never ran for anything...... It's quite a bother to do a speech and
everything...... and I'm not even responsible enough to take care of myself
I'm listening to a nice song too
But the lyrics are a bit....... mysterious and a bit....... psychotic and sad
all at the same time
I think I have some vampire blood in me
I don't like the sun..... and I don't function well during the day
I'm a bit anemic.... (need more blood to suck on....... )
But I like garlic..... and I see myself in the mirror and think....... Why do I
have reflection?
Yup...... I decided to crush everybody next year
I'll be the top student and laugh at everybody else's futile attempts to beat me
academically
Hahahahhahahahahaha............ I'm so evil...........
*gasp*........... *more gasp*............. *runs out of breath and starts
coughing*
I just cant believe it when somebody says that they like science........
It's like...... beyond explanation.........
I don't watch the news either....... I get depressed by how many people are
suffering every second
And I realize...... that the world is going to end quite soon at this
rate
It's quite funny to see how each human react to different situations........
Sometimes I amuse myself...... to see how different I am
......... Well it sure isn't silver
Well I think the silver lining thing is only trying to say "Things can only
get better when it can't go any worse........"
I'm so pessimistic that I even impress myself
*gasp and totally stunned*
You did what to Cloud?!?!?!
That is such a sad story TT^TT
I cried when we gave our dog to somebody else because we had to move.......
Or when we gave back the doggie that we took care of because the owner went to
som trip.......
It's always so hard departing from animals TT^TT
Well can you prove to me that the sky is real with some scientific proof and
evidence? (although I dont trust science that much......)
I think that all the food products that science claim to be healthy are just
normal food that they want to increase sales.
Wow.... I'm instinctively afraid of the water
Even the thought of deep ocean water where it's dark...... makes me sick
And I almost drowned once..... actually twice or more..... so that makes me even
more afraid of swimming
Whenever we do swimming for our PE, I am totally nervous....
Even fishes and sea creatures freak me out........ I can't even eat seafood that
well
Wow...... that's some experience you had
I dunno if I have the courage to kill someone but I think I'll probably reach
for the knife as well..... at least for..... intimidation or something
I think I'd feel safe with you as well
I think that's just courage..... I mean..... it's only a stereotypic mindset
that guys have to be strong and couragous
And who decided that girls could only wear skirt?........ if guys wore skirts
before girls did, it would be more natural that guys wear it now
But since girls did, it's so.......... odd for a guy to wear one
Yeah true but I meant that I like the "boyish side" of tomboys
So.......... well....... that sounds a bit gay :p
Hahaha.... you're such a weird person Sara
And I mean that in a....... good way
I usually daydream about how my story should go.... for my novel which I'm
trying to write.....
I feared my father as well....... all throughout my childhood
but now I'm just..... indifferent to him
And just... ignore him
........... Wow......... I can never imagine you being pessimistic.......
I'm like that too.....
Outside I'm like......... polite and stuff but inside I'm like "go die in a
car accident"
I dont like them but I try not to hurt them.
Oh, so are you finally with Tommy now?
I'm never really going to understand that kind of relationship........
Just seems so.... I dont know..... unreal.......
I'm not really saying insincere...... but I guess....... I dont really believe
in it
Oh I hate waking up to greet the sunlight.......
I feel more safe and secure when it's dark....... Im no goth person but when
it's bright..... I just dont work too well :p
When I wake up with the sick feeling in my stomach.... and when my head is
pumping.... and when my eyes can't see straight.... that's when I feel most
alive......
I don't notice the fact that I'm alive until I have that feeling......
Yeah reading's a great way to escape reality as well.......
You know........ you are totally right........ but I don't want to admit it
........... You have a hidden....... evil side............
College seems like mountains for me.......
I dont feel like I'm ever going to go there........
I'm not much of a student anyway.......... and I dont even know where to
go......
I don't know if I can live in Korea anymore........ if I should go somewhere
else........ but we just don't have the money and stuff
I had quite a fun chatting to you
I feel that I'm always complaining to everybody....... and it's about time I
stand up for myself........ or something.......
Well anyways take care Sara
hahahahaahaha yep he does *winks and tickles you* Tommy's my hottie
^//////////^
awwww i'm glad you think so highly of me Helenita ^^ to be honest i try to be
sweet and considerate. it seems these words are associated with me often, so i
need to work hard to live up to such a reputation. but it's in my nature, i
don't like making others cry...and i don't like hurting other people's feelings.
i believe what goes around, comes around. so it means if i hurt someone, i would
one day also be hurt...a cycle that seems never-ending...so i refrain from
saying things especially if i don't mean them or if i will live to regret them
^^
awww it's so nice of you to protect your friends truth to be
told, this is where you and i are alike. like this once, when we were younger, i
was only in like second or third grade and this guy who's older than me picked
on my sis (who's two years younger than me) the next thing you know, the next
day i wear these big boots i had and i kick the poor guy to the ground the guy
never picked on my sister again! mwahahaha, of course there's a sour lining
beneath all the sweet looks but also, in
my school i used to be part of the student council...so once in a while i had
duties like watching over some meetings and ceremonies..and this once where were
students lined up in rows and rows...and there was a girl pulling the hair of a
younger girl standing in front of her. well to be honest, i'm pretty strict when
i have to be, especially when it comes to bullying. so after seeing the girl
doing it a second time, i stand ready to do something about it, but still i
wanted to give the bully a third chance (hoping she might stop) when she reached
the third time i go "hey you over there! what do you think you're doing
huh?!" and then everyone turns to stare at the girl...hahaha it was so
funny. but then i became a very less-liked part of the council, cuz when i say
'get out of the building' i mean get out rules are
rules, and when i'm on duty, you know they're being followed
...that's why i always had so many duties the
council president thought i'm so reliable but it was
very fun, nice moments. i never abused my authority, but rules are rules really
hahahahaha i love your joke about your angry voice being louder! it's so
hilarious!
i like reading mystery, sometimes horror, and any book that's in sight i read
encyclopedias, dictionaries, biology books, anything at all i love
reading ^^
ahahahahahahahaha relieve himself "sorry
my camel ate your food"
awww sounds like a wonderful time you had with your aunt ^^ thanks for sharing
the experience, it sounds really nice and wonderful ^^
oooh Spirit is about the horse itself. a beautiful, wild Stallion that is robbed
of it's freedom when a couple of horse-catcher guys catch him! a wonderful
wonderful wonderful...wonderful movie of how the Stallion fights for his
freedom! i love the movie, and i could hug the writer for the wonderful plot!
god bless the writer for such a heartwarming animation! there is a Spanish
version Helenita! you have to watch it ne ^^ it's really worth it, trust me.
here's one of my fav parts of the movie, a song called 'Sound the Bugle" in
english. sadly i couldn't find the original english clip, so this is the spanish
one ^^
Sound the Bugle
and this is the link to the lyrics in english, i think the lyrics are just
wonderful so i had to share them with you ^^ i donno if they are the same in
Spanish...so here it is ^^
the movie is a lil old...maybe 2000? i remember it being in the cinema when
mother was pregnant with my youngest brother who's almost turning five, so the
movie is around that old... ^^
well Sara in arabic actually means something close to 'cheerful' or 'pleasant'
...things that make a person happy is described using my name ^///////^ my
parents tease me and say the reason i smile so much is cuz my name is all about
happiness :P ^^
and i like moonlight ^^ your name has a nice meaning
hahahahahaha well let's see...
Arabs in general don't speak that good of english....like my American friend
always comments how everyone has such accent when talking english...thankfully
because i was in school when i was barely 2 and a half...english became so much
like my mother tongue...so i don't have that accent but
Syrians....5% of the population speaks english...yeah when we go there and try
to make them understand what 'water' is...XD well Syrians
don't speak much english...i think more french, Saudi's well alot of them speak
english...maybe 40% ? alot of the new generation is in international
schools...so most speak good english, and most of my friends were from the
higher ups around here, so they've been to London and DC and so on, they're good
english speakers, hmmm if you're thinking other arabs...well french is more
common than english...like even in Egypt, they speak more french, and Lebanon
which is close to Syria, they speak way more french too ^^
well i don't have relatives...or i do...but ehehe...don't worry about them
we go to syria for vacation, like in summers since we have a beach house
there...so it's usually fun. as for things on the news...i wouldn't say Syria's
oh so peaceful, but it's nice when you know where to go... there aren't many
decent places, the country's not so rich and advanced...but if you know where to
go, then you blend with the right people ^^ like there is this one cafe with
AMAZING crepe...i still fantasize about that yummy crepe...had it almost every
single day..... *melts* that thing was yummier than anything... but then again
the cafe had amazing food....i wish we could employ the cook but then again i'd
probably get so fat just soooooo goooooood!
hahahahahahahaahaha love bullfights so what does
it say over there about arabs' likes?
ahhhh so wonderful ^^ your father being a surgeon. well i'll be getting into
college soon...and well going to study Medicine. hopefully i'll specialize in
Pediatrics ^^ well, does your father say anything about college being so hard?
at times i worry i won't have time to play when i get into college..but knowing
me, i'll make time for my bf no matter what ^^
it's very interesting, my sister wants to be a lawyer, my father wanted me to be
a doctor though he's an entrepreneur, then again so is my mother, they both
studied business stuff in college ^^
hahahahaha beer so we're not the only ones who learn whatever we want from french
class! hahaha sounds so fun leaving the
useful things
oooooh! well before i get married i'll come to you! see i wanna cook all these
yummy things for my hubby when we're married....but i'm not much of a cook at
the moment ^^" still i'll learn for sure since i do want to cook for him
^//////^
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahaha you're gonna break alot of guys' hearts then sending them
packing when they want too much sooooooo
funny Helenita! and awwwwwwwwwwww that's sooooo sweet! i mean the gf asking
about your bro's likes. i think it's very normal ^^ and nice too. talk about a
devoted gf ^^ hope things go well between your bro and her ^^
and good luck too Helenita ^^ i hope you
and are remain friends for long, till you tell me about your first date and the
first guy you send packing ^^ *hugs*
you're so cute and funny kiddo.
awwwww...sorry Helenita i don't watch many movies in general, and this
Braveheart is one of the few for him i know....hehehe ^^
hahaha yea! i am a fan of Enrigue ^^ and i listen to his songs in both versions,
though i enjoy the english cuz i understand it :P but i think he's so naughty!
like his video clips ^^" i feel like a pretty woman can so easily trick him
who knows :P
and thanks for the recommended singer, i'll check him out for sure, does he sing
in english too? ^^
ahhh Esperanze ^^ very nice name...maybe i will name my daughter that...need to
ask my hubby what he thinks though :P ^//////^
*pokies* it sure is really fun talking to you Helenita ^^ many times i came
close to calling you 'lil sis' hehe ^^ it's very amusing and yep, i do love
talking to you ^^
so...how about spanish dancing? have you watched The Mask of Zorro?
till next time Helenita ^^
take care!
*hugs*
~Sarita
tee hee, I knew it^^
Yep, I think no one really is naturally always calm and understanding, nice
people are those who make an effort to be that way...hmmm, you made me think
there...maybe I'll try to be nicer, although I won't bet on itXDDD....haha, it
seems we're both protective people, I didn't know you could do that. I'll try
doing it sometimes, there are people here who deserve a good kick or two, after
all^^. I like what you said about sour linings...mwahaha, people find that very
true about me, it's a good for rascals and bullies...to know that not all people
can be messed with. The downside to that would be...tee hee, sometimes I wish I
could be the "pampered"one in my circle of friends, instead of being
the one that they rely on....I guess that's the advantage of girls who are
"girly" ...anyways, maybe I'm just not ever going to be that way...being a
"leader" does have its fun moments. At least I can order people around
at school nyahahaha...you, get me some coffee! jk
Besides, I kinda like it when my teachers think that it's safe for me to be
assigned something, that it won't blow all over the place...which is why usually
I'm the head for the holiday events student organizers, been one for three
straight now, haha, well, I like making props and decorating rooms...so it comes
naturally. The problem would be that some people, boys mostly, wouldn't take the
work seriously, like missing class pretending to have colds or flu when they
were clearly fine and able yesterday! And so...some of us have to double up and
take some work home to finish...waaaa ...some
people have no school spirit...or just plain lazy, I'm betting lazy^^...Lol for
being less-liked though, haha...as long as they can't say that to my face, I'm
fine with that...I don't really believe in being liked by everyone...you'll just
end up pretending and always trying to act nice to everyone...what happens when
they hate each other, you won't be able to take a side, which I don't like.
Hmmm...I think that's what Pa meant when he said that I was like my abuela...she
usually hates it when she has no conviction about something, pretty much the way
I am...well, I believe all sides have something good to say...I just don't want
to end up trying to side with all of them lol! that would be stupid DDD...haha...I hope I'm making sense^^
And yes...my angry voice is much more convincing haha...it takes effort to mute
it!XDDDD
Also...I don't like girls who think that being pretty and cute will get them to
wherever they want to be...really now...I find it strange that some people think
that looks are the best way to get somewhere...they help, but you need something
else of course...then again, I don't belong to that category so I can talk!
Bwahahaha...actually, I'm surprised that some people here in MT said I'm
pretty...very flattered actually^^...and people I haven't met personally, tee
heee...uh oh, I'm getting conceited...thanks for that anyway ...and hey,
I think you'll make a good pediatrician...you look like a very motherly person,
you love children right? Well, I like being around kids...to an extent, I guess,
I mean, I don't like them always underfoot and spilling things! Haha...some of
my kid cousins are like that...and I do have a lot of younger cousins, as Pa was
an eldest child and he has two married sisters...XDDD, Ma on the other hand is a
middle child, and her younger brother, my uncle Leonard is getting married soon
so...more kids are likely to be over for Christmas^^When they aren't acting up
they're really adorable though...and sweet in an offhand way...not like
grown-ups at all ,
with all the fakeness haha...is that even a wordXDDDD?
Tee hee, you're a very wide reader...I'm kinda selective, but I love to read
anything that's not completely useless...like the entertainment section of the
newspapers here tend to be. What about there? I mean...a bunch of stories about
the personal things of actors and actresses....eewwww, don't know why a lot of
people like to read that><...but I do love stuff about airplanes and
hmmm...ships and old architecture...dunno, I'm interested in those kind of
things. Dictionaries are helpful, especially Spanish tp French ones...haha, at
least I did fairly well...I was kinda expecting the
"fail"XDDDDD...
Pa usually scares us with college stories lol...he even said that the university
library was haunted! And I actually believed it when I was young...I remember he
told us this story about the girl's bathroom near the dormitories being haunted
when he was a student...haha, I was about nine and I was so scared my sis had
too sleep in my roomXDDDDD...for a grown man, Pa can be so childish...^^If you
haven't seen what he is like around the house, haha...he looks very serious and
all, you wouldn't know that he's clowny at home...we love him that way,
though^^...anyway, I think guys who can make you laugh are better than ones who
just stand around looking to impress you or something, of course that doesn't
mean that I won't send him packing....haha, you'll be one of the first to know,
Sarita, maybe I'll take a picture of him with his bags and send it to you
lolXDDDDDDD
By the way, I really liked that video...so full of emotion, I think I'm gonna
get that DVD! Was that scene in the carriage in the middle of the movie, or the
beginning maybe? I like it, poor horse though, missing the free days...and I
recognized the singer too. He's Raul Fuentes, haha..mostly his songs are about
women though...he even sounds like one sometimes...and the lyrics! Lovely! No
big difference between the versions though( the Spanish one is "Toca El
Clarin", literally "play the bugle" ), that part about being a
soldier in a battle was so touching....haha, I'm humming it right now, thanks
for the links Sarita^^, and yep, it's pretty old, but I like the drawings...the
horses are so cute! Oh, maybe I can get it as a Christmas
gift! Or maybe too late for that...the New Year, maybe!
Oh, that's so sweet, cooking stuff for him...I'll give you recipes...for really
spicy onesXDDDhahaha..jk,jk^^...anyway, the German girl, her name Cristiana,
which I think sounds very Spanish haha...she's very nice...sometimes I don't
understand some things she says, though...poor me doesn't know a lot about law
stuff, except the bit about not letting people push you aroundXDDD...now that IS
a law! I think I'll name it after meXDDD!
Hahaha...I think most pretty women can trick menXDDD*nudge nudge and...poke!*,
they're just made that way, I think^^...hey, is it rue that Arab culture is
mostly dominated by men? I doubt it, maybe it's another one of those
"news" stuff...kinda hard to really know things unless you've been
there^^
Spanish dance...well there are a lot...like Flamenco( my fave )...mostly I like
the graceful kinds, not the weird ones with ummm...uncomfortable
movements?XDDDDD....actually when I was younger I wanted to take ballet
lessons...but I got more interested in horseback riding, anyway, you can't start
that at thirteen, we used to joke about bones cracking and allXDDDDDD...what
about you, I bet you're a pretty good dancer^^...and I think tommy will agree,
Esperanza is one of the "romantic" name after all, like Serafina or
Ariadna, which is my sis' name^^haha...actually I like hers more than mine ...
Hey, I'll be ftattered to be called lil sis^^coming from you, for some reason I
can speak my mind when I talk to you...or at least clear enough for someone to
understandXDDDD...hope we'll be friends for a looooong time, if MT's still
around...so I can send you that picXDDDDDDD!
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hahaha trust me i study for the exam a night before too! imagine me study day by
day no
will...i think i'm the kind who works best under pressure, so basically, when
the night of the exam comes, i'm pressured into studying, so i study really well
good luck with your exams Ju! do your best and work hard ^^
hmm well i forget things that i find boring, but usually i remember alot of my
biology lessons and so on :P
oho, what is this? weak? actually i don't really believe i'm weak...and i don't
really want anyone else to solve my problems. thing is, i do appreciate others,
i think i love talking about my serious problems with people who are very very
very really close to me. when i can't talk about my problems with them, i get
lonely.... but still...i believe i have the strength to overcome my problems.
and i think everyone has the strength too. hamsters...awww reminds me of my
kawaii Cloud. he was a white hamster with grayish streaks. do you know why i
called him Cloud? to me it was a symbol of hope. from the saying 'every Cloud
has a silver lining' and the gray fur very much looked silver... so it was a
reminder of my faith such a cute
thing he was... chubby too...always massaged his lil back..and the cutie always
closed his eyes when i did....i miss him...
hahaha well smart, about the girl boy comment...let's say the saying is then
only for personality traits and so on ^^ and no problem with you being
rebellious ^^ i don't see it as so, actually is a rather interesting viewpoint.
strong... inner strength is what matters! ^^
eeew skimmed milk...
wow no salt? i hope you eat lots of fish to make up for it. you see, salt is
iodized because if our bodies run short of iodine, serious problems with the
thyroid gland could happen... but too much salt could cause heart attacks
^^"
hahaha good luck eating all the stuff that doesn't taste good ^^"
well i usually like most kinds of cheese but there are some kinds that i don't
touch. i don't like pumpkin though...and garlic and onions..
hahaha yea Saber is considered a Tomboy since she's a warrior playing around
with a sword...not feminine much...but she's wearing a dress and so on...so yea,
she is considered a tomboy.
well i don't climb trees there aren't
any to climb here...but i know i would if i could get the chance...once there
was this huge cliff extending from within the sea...i swam right over to it and
climbed it to the top...i was so stupid though since my feet were bare and the
top was filled with dry plants and thorns... but see, my
mother gets bugged cuz i do that, act like a tomboy
heey i never said i didn't have enough time! i do of course! i said i'm young,
which means i still have time to see my dreams through right to the end ^^ haha
and talking back....i never talk back...well ok i just rarely do. get into
trouble if i talk back, and it always makes bigger issues out of small
nothings... so usually i keep my comments to myself ^^
awwwww i don't like inactiveness... i love sleeping, but if i sleep alot my head
hurts anyway. i don't like having nothing to do, so the more free time i have,
the longer i exercise. usually i read or draw...anything that in my opinion
would be useful. i only watch anime when i have to be on the computer, like
sometimes while replying to things and so on....i used to sit and watch but now
i don't anymore... i try not to think depressing thoughts, if i have to, i
shower to clear my head
...i try to see the good things in life and remember i have faith that things
will turn out alright
if i lived a worthless life, i have no idea, and seriously, i don't think i did.
usually i'm satisfied with how i spend my time.... and besides...i don't want to
be worthless...sometimes i try hard just so i can prove to myself that my life
is making a difference...
...well it doesn't always work, but when i feel loved then i'm alright. even if
bad things happen around me, when i'm cheery, i tend to be able to endure and
hang in there...
well... this is all we can do anyway, cheer ourselves on, hang in there... it's
useless to give into despair...i don't want to go through life already dead. a
person without hope or dreams or any happy thoughts....is almost like a zombie
^^" so cheer up Ju! don't give up...sometimes it's really hard but if you
stay focused on your dreams and so on...and don't tell me you don't have
dreams...make one.. give yourself a reason to live...something or someone to
live for ^^
i look at my pics when i was a kid and feel proud of the person i chose to
become now. true i looked so innocent and cheerful...but i'm still working hard
and living to the fullest.
well good luck trying to be cheerful ^^ to be honest i don't know how it is to
not be cheerful forever...it seems being cheerful is in my nature. i love being
cheerful...if i'm not i start worrying if something is wrong with me ^^"
hahahah well true it's hard to find teachers who care, but most of my teachers
were wonderful women...i always joked with them and sat with them...they were
really nice people...i miss them so very very much now that i'm done with
school...and i wish i could see them again...which is why i wanna visit the
school soon ^^"
thanks for being sweet. i'm glad i encourage you ^^ and i would always cheer for
you so don't give up Ju! ^^
hahaha i am Level ONE BILLION! ^^
no worries ^^ it was fun hearing your opinion on matters
hope to hear from you again!
~Sara
I guess both of us need to work on some time management
I work best at night.... when I'm 2 hours before my bedtime....... when I'm a
bit hungry......
Oh and I work better if the temperature is low
I was quite disappointed with my results....... I guess it was..... expected
since I didn't study much....... but I was so........ well........ down all
day.........
I kept thinking....... about this and that.... but my mind went blank everytime
I wanted to do something......
I didn't really have the will to do anything today......
But I'm all better now
I just decided that I will do better next year and make my teachers pay
dearly......
Oh yes...... they will pay....... They shall pay....... for making me
miserable
I am so... evil.....
you like biology?.......... *stunned.......*
............ *still stunned...........*
..................
Science is........ like the opposite of who I am...... along with politics and
math..... math is a bit okay but I just hate science and politics....
They seem like so...... arbitrary as if they made something up of thin
air.......full of nitrogen.........
Well as long as you cannot do everything by yourself, that's a sign of
weakness
We're not perfect.... that's why we're week
We are social creatures.... therefore always depend on others
We are creatures with emotions and feelings.... therefore do things that are
stupid......
Cloud?..... I was guessing that it was because he was fluffy........
Cloud....... That reminds me of a line that I read......
The sky is just an illusion full of dust and darkness........
It was in a manga..... and......... after I read that....... I also thought
about it........
How do I even know that the sky is real?........
Then again.... it didn't really matter......
Do you think I think too much?...........
So what exactly is a "silver lining?"
And.... so...... did he....... well....... nevermind
Well actually it does apply to even genders
I know what a girl is..... but I don't really understand them
I know who you are..... Sara..... but I don't understand you
I might know what milk is.... but I won't understand it until I see, taste....
smell, touch and feel it.......
So knowledge and understanding is different... that's what I think
I am aware that there is happiness..... but I don't understand it......
Sometimes I want to add salt in my milk as well.........
But my dad is total anti-sodium person
Ewww....... I hate seafood...... I can't even get close to one
Well I do eat finish very......... well..... almost never
But I eat other things that make up for the lost salt
I believe the sickness was hypo.... something or maybe hyper.....
Hypotonic?.... wait..... no that applies to all solute not only salt.... I
forgot the name
I think pumpkins are okay... I like garlic....... (you must be part vampire or
something? ) but I don't like onions either
Saber wasn't that feminine but I was attracted to her....... (I hope I'm not
turning gay or something :p )
No trees?....... We gots lots of trees to climb here
Wow.... you really are strong.... I can barely swim like 15 meters and come out
choking to death all tired
I think tomboys are cool
I admire their strength and.... courage i guess
Personally..... I think I have too much time and nothing that I want to
do..........
Sometimes.... when I am at my house........ I feel so.... funny
That I have absolutely nothing to do....... nothing........ and there's nobody
to even care
So....... why was I even born?.....
I feel so.... empty..... that I just can't help myself but to..... feel so
insecure... and scared.....
But I don't know how to get rid of that fear..... so..... I feel more
frightened......
I'm going off topic again.... sorry
I like sleeping.... It feels so..... safe.....
I feel so peaceful when I'm about to sleep..... because I don't have to think
anymore.... I don't have to remember anymore
And I like the feeling when I wake up
Being dizzy and headache...... and even the feeling when I want to throw up
All the symptoms of a hangover :p
Actually I don't like having nothing to do..... but I never have anything to
do.....
So I tend to space out a lot.... and daydream too
I like doing those things too..... but sometimes I don't feel the necesity or
the will to do even the things I like....... maybe..... too much sleep?
I'm watching more animes these days..... I want to escape from reality but I
guess it's just futile
You still sound like a teacher........ one of those nice ones though.......
I tell myself.... that I want to change but sometimes.... I just.... can't
escape from myself.... *sigh sigh sigh*
I look at the world.... and I mix with it......
But I don't mix with the happy side of it........ but with the gray and darker
side of it
But..... I don't want to blame myself for who I am......
But I dont want to blame others either
Sometimes it feel so magical... how we can change......
And I always want to return back..... and realize that today only comes
once....... and yesterday will always be yesterday
You know something funny? whenever I try to change.... whenever I find
hope.....
There's always something that pulls me down right away.... as if it was all
planned out
Thank you Sara..... I guess I change everyday..... more negative it seems but
still thanks for sticking by me
I think you would make an awesome teacher yourself (I can't imagine you getting
angry at your students.........)
Quote by cygnostratushey! you've got
a photo! now I see why Tommy liked you... *giggles*
anyways, give my regards to kiba... it's kinda rare for cats like me (well, a
white tiger on my case) to go along with dogs like kiba (a wolf on his
case)
merged: 12-14-2007 ~ 02:16pm
hey sara, I was playing with your pet frisky and I burst out laughing when I
made frisky "fly"... OMG! I JUST
CAN'T STOP LAUGHING! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
*whacks cyg* very funny mister! are you trying to say my looks are the only good
thing about me?! jk:P but Tommy 'liked' me before seeing my pic :P he loved me after
your very welcome!
sheesh 
*close to falling asleep after listening to a few* 
btw!
lool guess what?
DANG! dude all your music is so opposite of my taste except some
but I found one song that I knew off
and I saw
two different versions 
*Sweet
dreams are made of me, whoever cannnn
disagree, everybody's lookin for me, some of them wanna use ya, some of them
want to get used by me, some of them wanna abuse ya, some of them want to get
abused by me~~* hahaha 
hahaha jk
jk jk 
*ahem ahem* *sings with a very high high pitch(same voice of the singer)*
hey wasn't this how the song goes? lool
take carez!
cya~
Hey, how are you?! I apologize for not being so active, I have so many notifications to respond to!
Yes, my projects went well! Thank you for asking!
So, are you ready for Christmas?!
-Jonathan
Oh yeah.... I think I remember you telling me that........
I always fall asleep during Bible class and Algebra class this year
Last year was Geometry and Spanish
I never helped anybody sleeping in calss.... since I was always the one to lie my head on the table and act like I was dead........
Oh oh oh! I always fall asleep in cars! Always....
My dad says it's some kinda side effect..... or something
Instead of getting car sick, I just fall asleep... I dont know why but especially in those big buses.......
I don't fall asleep in planes that much........
You're quite different from me...... I sleep whenever I have the chance......
When I'm riding to school...... before class starts..... right after I eat lunch, I go to the classroom so I can bash my head against the table and fall sleep.......
Wow...... that'll look good on your transcript especially if you're going to the US for college
)
Korea doesn't give a crud cake......
In Korea, people are classified by their grades and so called intellectual ability
Totally makes me sick...... that's why I never want to live in Korea...... the people are racist as well........ It's like the worst country evur..... not to mention the boringest country
So you can recommend presidents? Wow... that's pretty cool
I think you are a reliable and trustworthy person as well........ although letting people sleep on your shoulder is not a president-like thing to do :p
Hmm I understand..... I can't prepare speeches either..... (not that I can speak in public anyway
But if I have something infront of me to read out.... that feels so........ boring.... and systematic..... like a robot....... I can't really put my feelings into it....... insincere as you said.....
I don't really understand morning people...... I feel really numb and lethargic during morning
I will....... I'll crush them to the nano scale....... I have decided to be numero uno
Well I thought being optimistic leaves you disappointed but being pessimistic left you apathetic because you have neither to gain nor to lose
But yeah....... neutrality is good
It's so sad when you have to depart from animals TT^TT
It's so cruel to be separated.........
But sometimes..... it's better not to have them...... because unless it's a turtle..... I'll probably see it die before I do........
What if I say I don't believe what my eyes show me or what my nose smell or what my hands feel, or what my ears hear or what my mouth tastes?
Sometimes there are times that I doubt if I'm even alive......
I know that I can feel, see and all that.... but it's just all memory after all.....
Everything that the brain translates is.... just information......
So does that mean I don't want to believe that I'm alive?...... I guess that makes sense..... kinda
But at the same time..... I want to believe......
Well you can believe what those scientists say
They'll tell us that carrot is good this year and the next year they're gonna tell us it causes cancer and infect our body with HIV
Yeah..... I'm really afraid of the deep ocean..... especially at night
I don't close my eyes when I see something scary or gory on television but I turn away when I see those underwater documentaries because they freak me out.... totally
.......... you really are one odd person Sara.......
So did you catch a cold or anything after that? Or is your body iron as well?
Actually......... I dont know what I would do at those kinda predicaments.....
I would want to save the one I love..... but I just don't have what it takes to kill......
I can't kill a roach for my sake or anybody else's! well..... that's because I'm afraid of them but...... when it's me that's doing the killing..... I feel so..... sick......
Even when we had to kill a chicken for some kinda camp thing........
Oh how I loathed those who pull the chicken's leg from it's head..........
........... I guess the world will end the day you release your hidden side........ :p
Yeah I guess it wouldn't look good with a guy wearing a skirt...... with his bushy and bulgy legs and what not..... I guess Scottish people are brave?.......
Yeah..... women weren't allowed to wear pants because they revelead more of your leg or something..... while the skirt conceals the leg or something.......
Oh.... I must be the only one who's that extreme.....
Sometimes I just want to get that frustration out so bad but I just can't infront of that person so I just start cursing and cussing inside........
Oh.... nevermind.....
I was under the impression that you were "with" Tommy from your last pos
With as in......... with! with! Okay? WITH
........... I still dont really understand it....... I have my own definition of "love" and I guess I'll only understand that definition
Well whatever it is... it sounds good enough to cause the world to end........
When you let out your hidden side.......... It's gonna destory us all! destroy us all! destroy us all! *keeps echoing*
Wow......... you are one odd person........ the more I dont understand you the more I get to know you.......
I never wanted to move on from my childhood..... Because the world of adults.... seemed so depressing and miserable.......
So...... dry.... and gray........ so broken........
I don't think I would want to leave my brothers/sisters if I had any.... Of course I have my life too.... but I think I would want to make them happy before myself.....
I'm so jealous you have siblings TT^TT
*poking your cheek* TTT^TTT
So where are you now?
Yeah that's true....... but it feels like my weaker side engulfed me already.....
I really do admire your strength.......... but I don't think I would want to change myself so drastically either
Everybody would be like........ "Whoa... that dude's got some serious mood swings"
Aww that's so sweet
Playing with your bro sounds nice
I don't mind... I can wait...... I'm famous for my patience....... and slowness...... and drowsiness......... X_x
See ya~
hey hey^^
of course I remember you lol, I just thought it was the other way around ;P
well, my I couldn't abandon my love for art after all
hey Sara, hope u'r havin a good time!
*glances at time*
ohhhhhhh...now now now...*checks msn*...yeah! there! hope you're having a good time with Tomm! hahaha
anyways juz droppin by with a card, here ya go,
take carez~!
<3 Shushuu~
merged: 12-21-2007 ~ 06:41am
LMAO! omg...arghhhhh i don't feel like changing it now...i haven't
saved...arrrrrghhhhh
rofl~ oh well, hmph! 
oh crappppppppp there's a typo on the card! it's Shushuu i mispelled my lovely nickname
DANG!
*poke* *poke*
Hey you!
Thanks for adding me to your hot list
It's a wonder how people manage their time while I always do anything that I comes to my mind
It seems to me that you really dont have enough time to do everything you want in one day....
Wish I was like that
I sleep during classes, come home and take a nap and eat dinner (yes I sleep quite often...... not a lot but often) and digest my dinner by sitting infront of the compy and do my homework right before bed
Sometimes I realize I dont have enough time to finish it....... so I sleep late again, doze off at school, take a nap..... and repeating cycle.
Wish I could get A's in 20 minutes so I can get back to my slumber~
It's like that for me too........ even the teachers you hated once........ when they leave...... or when I leave.... it's..... quite sad
You were the class president?! That's quite surprising and expected at the same time
You would be the kind of person fitting for that position but never thought you would
I never ran for anything...... It's quite a bother to do a speech and everything...... and I'm not even responsible enough to take care of myself
I'm listening to a nice song too
But the lyrics are a bit....... mysterious and a bit....... psychotic and sad all at the same time
I think I have some vampire blood in me
)
I don't like the sun..... and I don't function well during the day
I'm a bit anemic.... (need more blood to suck on.......
But I like garlic..... and I see myself in the mirror and think....... Why do I have reflection?
Yup...... I decided to crush everybody next year
I'll be the top student and laugh at everybody else's futile attempts to beat me academically
Hahahahhahahahahaha............ I'm so evil...........
*gasp*........... *more gasp*............. *runs out of breath and starts coughing*
I just cant believe it when somebody says that they like science........
It's like...... beyond explanation.........
I don't watch the news either....... I get depressed by how many people are suffering every second
And I realize...... that the world is going to end quite soon at this rate
It's quite funny to see how each human react to different situations........
Sometimes I amuse myself...... to see how different I am
......... Well it sure isn't silver
Well I think the silver lining thing is only trying to say "Things can only get better when it can't go any worse........"
I'm so pessimistic that I even impress myself
*gasp and totally stunned*
You did what to Cloud?!?!?!
That is such a sad story TT^TT
I cried when we gave our dog to somebody else because we had to move.......
Or when we gave back the doggie that we took care of because the owner went to som trip.......
It's always so hard departing from animals TT^TT
Well can you prove to me that the sky is real with some scientific proof and evidence? (although I dont trust science that much......)
I think that all the food products that science claim to be healthy are just normal food that they want to increase sales.
Wow.... I'm instinctively afraid of the water
Even the thought of deep ocean water where it's dark...... makes me sick
And I almost drowned once..... actually twice or more..... so that makes me even more afraid of swimming
Whenever we do swimming for our PE, I am totally nervous....
Even fishes and sea creatures freak me out........ I can't even eat seafood that well
Wow...... that's some experience you had
I dunno if I have the courage to kill someone but I think I'll probably reach for the knife as well..... at least for..... intimidation or something
I think I'd feel safe with you as well
I think that's just courage..... I mean..... it's only a stereotypic mindset that guys have to be strong and couragous
And who decided that girls could only wear skirt?........ if guys wore skirts before girls did, it would be more natural that guys wear it now
But since girls did, it's so.......... odd for a guy to wear one
Yeah true but I meant that I like the "boyish side" of tomboys
So.......... well....... that sounds a bit gay :p
Hahaha.... you're such a weird person Sara
And I mean that in a....... good way
I usually daydream about how my story should go.... for my novel which I'm trying to write.....
I feared my father as well....... all throughout my childhood
but now I'm just..... indifferent to him
And just... ignore him
........... Wow......... I can never imagine you being pessimistic.......
I'm like that too.....
Outside I'm like......... polite and stuff but inside I'm like "go die in a car accident"
I dont like them but I try not to hurt them.
Oh, so are you finally with Tommy now?
I'm never really going to understand that kind of relationship........
Just seems so.... I dont know..... unreal.......
I'm not really saying insincere...... but I guess....... I dont really believe in it
Oh I hate waking up to greet the sunlight.......
I feel more safe and secure when it's dark....... Im no goth person but when it's bright..... I just dont work too well :p
When I wake up with the sick feeling in my stomach.... and when my head is pumping.... and when my eyes can't see straight.... that's when I feel most alive......
I don't notice the fact that I'm alive until I have that feeling......
Yeah reading's a great way to escape reality as well.......
You know........ you are totally right........ but I don't want to admit it
........... You have a hidden....... evil side............
College seems like mountains for me.......
I dont feel like I'm ever going to go there........
I'm not much of a student anyway.......... and I dont even know where to go......
I don't know if I can live in Korea anymore........ if I should go somewhere else........ but we just don't have the money and stuff
I had quite a fun chatting to you
I feel that I'm always complaining to everybody....... and it's about time I stand up for myself........ or something.......
Well anyways take care Sara
tee hee, I knew it^^
Yep, I think no one really is naturally always calm and understanding, nice people are those who make an effort to be that way...hmmm, you made me think there...maybe I'll try to be nicer, although I won't bet on itXDDD....haha, it seems we're both protective people, I didn't know you could do that. I'll try doing it sometimes, there are people here who deserve a good kick or two, after all^^. I like what you said about sour linings...mwahaha, people find that very true about me, it's a good for rascals and bullies...to know that not all people can be messed with. The downside to that would be...tee hee, sometimes I wish I could be the "pampered"one in my circle of friends, instead of being the one that they rely on....I guess that's the advantage of girls who are "girly"
...anyways, maybe I'm just not ever going to be that way...being a
"leader" does have its fun moments. At least I can order people around
at school nyahahaha...you, get me some coffee! jk 
Besides, I kinda like it when my teachers think that it's safe for me to be assigned something, that it won't blow all over the place...which is why usually I'm the head for the holiday events student organizers, been one for three straight now, haha, well, I like making props and decorating rooms...so it comes naturally. The problem would be that some people, boys mostly, wouldn't take the work seriously, like missing class pretending to have colds or flu when they were clearly fine and able yesterday! And so...some of us have to double up and take some work home to finish...waaaa
...some
people have no school spirit...or just plain lazy, I'm betting lazy^^...Lol for
being less-liked though, haha...as long as they can't say that to my face, I'm
fine with that...I don't really believe in being liked by everyone...you'll just
end up pretending and always trying to act nice to everyone...what happens when
they hate each other, you won't be able to take a side, which I don't like.
Hmmm...I think that's what Pa meant when he said that I was like my abuela...she
usually hates it when she has no conviction about something, pretty much the way
I am...well, I believe all sides have something good to say...I just don't want
to end up trying to side with all of them lol! that would be stupid 
DDD...haha...I hope I'm making sense^^
And yes...my angry voice is much more convincing haha...it takes effort to mute it!XDDDD
...and hey,
I think you'll make a good pediatrician...you look like a very motherly person,
you love children right? Well, I like being around kids...to an extent, I guess,
I mean, I don't like them always underfoot and spilling things! Haha...some of
my kid cousins are like that...and I do have a lot of younger cousins, as Pa was
an eldest child and he has two married sisters...XDDD, Ma on the other hand is a
middle child, and her younger brother, my uncle Leonard is getting married soon
so...more kids are likely to be over for Christmas^^When they aren't acting up
they're really adorable though...and sweet in an offhand way...not like
grown-ups at all 
,
with all the fakeness haha...is that even a wordXDDDD?
Also...I don't like girls who think that being pretty and cute will get them to wherever they want to be...really now...I find it strange that some people think that looks are the best way to get somewhere...they help, but you need something else of course...then again, I don't belong to that category so I can talk! Bwahahaha...actually, I'm surprised that some people here in MT said I'm pretty...very flattered actually^^...and people I haven't met personally, tee heee...uh oh, I'm getting conceited...thanks for that anyway
Tee hee, you're a very wide reader...I'm kinda selective, but I love to read anything that's not completely useless...like the entertainment section of the newspapers here tend to be. What about there? I mean...a bunch of stories about the personal things of actors and actresses....eewwww, don't know why a lot of people like to read that><...but I do love stuff about airplanes and hmmm...ships and old architecture...dunno, I'm interested in those kind of things. Dictionaries are helpful, especially Spanish tp French ones...haha, at least I did fairly well...I was kinda expecting the "fail"XDDDDD...
Pa usually scares us with college stories lol...he even said that the university library was haunted! And I actually believed it when I was young...I remember he told us this story about the girl's bathroom near the dormitories being haunted when he was a student...haha, I was about nine and I was so scared my sis had too sleep in my roomXDDDDD...for a grown man, Pa can be so childish...^^If you haven't seen what he is like around the house, haha...he looks very serious and all, you wouldn't know that he's clowny at home...we love him that way, though^^...anyway, I think guys who can make you laugh are better than ones who just stand around looking to impress you or something, of course that doesn't mean that I won't send him packing....haha, you'll be one of the first to know, Sarita, maybe I'll take a picture of him with his bags and send it to you lolXDDDDDDD
By the way, I really liked that video...so full of emotion, I think I'm gonna get that DVD! Was that scene in the carriage in the middle of the movie, or the beginning maybe? I like it, poor horse though, missing the free days...and I recognized the singer too. He's Raul Fuentes, haha..mostly his songs are about women though...he even sounds like one sometimes...and the lyrics! Lovely! No big difference between the versions though( the Spanish one is "Toca El Clarin", literally "play the bugle" ), that part about being a soldier in a battle was so touching....haha, I'm humming it right now, thanks for the links Sarita^^, and yep, it's pretty old, but I like the drawings...the horses are so cute! Oh, maybe I can get it as a Christmas
gift! Or maybe too late for that...the New Year, maybe!
Oh, that's so sweet, cooking stuff for him...I'll give you recipes...for really spicy onesXDDDhahaha..jk,jk^^...anyway, the German girl, her name Cristiana, which I think sounds very Spanish haha...she's very nice...sometimes I don't understand some things she says, though...poor me doesn't know a lot about law stuff, except the bit about not letting people push you aroundXDDD...now that IS a law! I think I'll name it after meXDDD!
Hahaha...I think most pretty women can trick menXDDD*nudge nudge and...poke!*, they're just made that way, I think^^...hey, is it rue that Arab culture is mostly dominated by men? I doubt it, maybe it's another one of those "news" stuff...kinda hard to really know things unless you've been there^^
Spanish dance...well there are a lot...like Flamenco( my fave )...mostly I like the graceful kinds, not the weird ones with ummm...uncomfortable movements?XDDDDD....actually when I was younger I wanted to take ballet lessons...but I got more interested in horseback riding, anyway, you can't start that at thirteen, we used to joke about bones cracking and allXDDDDDD...what about you, I bet you're a pretty good dancer^^...and I think tommy will agree, Esperanza is one of the "romantic" name after all, like Serafina or Ariadna, which is my sis' name^^haha...actually I like hers more than mine
...
Hey, I'll be ftattered to be called lil sis^^coming from you, for some reason I can speak my mind when I talk to you...or at least clear enough for someone to understandXDDDD...hope we'll be friends for a looooong time, if MT's still around...so I can send you that picXDDDDDDD!
Best wishes and take care
***from Emilia***
I guess both of us need to work on some time management
I work best at night.... when I'm 2 hours before my bedtime....... when I'm a bit hungry......
Oh and I work better if the temperature is low
I was quite disappointed with my results....... I guess it was..... expected since I didn't study much....... but I was so........ well........ down all day.........
I kept thinking....... about this and that.... but my mind went blank everytime I wanted to do something......
I didn't really have the will to do anything today......
But I'm all better now
I just decided that I will do better next year and make my teachers pay dearly......
Oh yes...... they will pay....... They shall pay....... for making me miserable
I am so... evil.....
you like biology?.......... *stunned.......*
............ *still stunned...........*
..................
Science is........ like the opposite of who I am...... along with politics and math..... math is a bit okay but I just hate science and politics....
They seem like so...... arbitrary as if they made something up of thin air.......full of nitrogen.........
Well as long as you cannot do everything by yourself, that's a sign of weakness
We're not perfect.... that's why we're week
We are social creatures.... therefore always depend on others
We are creatures with emotions and feelings.... therefore do things that are stupid......
Cloud?..... I was guessing that it was because he was fluffy........
Cloud....... That reminds me of a line that I read......
The sky is just an illusion full of dust and darkness........
It was in a manga..... and......... after I read that....... I also thought about it........
How do I even know that the sky is real?........
Then again.... it didn't really matter......
Do you think I think too much?...........
So what exactly is a "silver lining?"
And.... so...... did he....... well....... nevermind
Well actually it does apply to even genders
I know what a girl is..... but I don't really understand them
I know who you are..... Sara..... but I don't understand you
I might know what milk is.... but I won't understand it until I see, taste.... smell, touch and feel it.......
So knowledge and understanding is different... that's what I think
I am aware that there is happiness..... but I don't understand it......
Sometimes I want to add salt in my milk as well.........
But my dad is total anti-sodium person
Ewww....... I hate seafood...... I can't even get close to one
Well I do eat finish very......... well..... almost never
But I eat other things that make up for the lost salt
I believe the sickness was hypo.... something or maybe hyper.....
Hypotonic?.... wait..... no that applies to all solute not only salt.... I forgot the name
I think pumpkins are okay... I like garlic....... (you must be part vampire or something? ) but I don't like onions either
Saber wasn't that feminine but I was attracted to her....... (I hope I'm not turning gay or something :p )
No trees?....... We gots lots of trees to climb here
Wow.... you really are strong.... I can barely swim like 15 meters and come out choking to death all tired
I think tomboys are cool
I admire their strength and.... courage i guess
Personally..... I think I have too much time and nothing that I want to do..........
Sometimes.... when I am at my house........ I feel so.... funny
That I have absolutely nothing to do....... nothing........ and there's nobody to even care
So....... why was I even born?.....
I feel so.... empty..... that I just can't help myself but to..... feel so insecure... and scared.....
But I don't know how to get rid of that fear..... so..... I feel more frightened......
I'm going off topic again.... sorry
I like sleeping.... It feels so..... safe.....
I feel so peaceful when I'm about to sleep..... because I don't have to think anymore.... I don't have to remember anymore
And I like the feeling when I wake up
Being dizzy and headache...... and even the feeling when I want to throw up
All the symptoms of a hangover :p
Actually I don't like having nothing to do..... but I never have anything to do.....
So I tend to space out a lot.... and daydream too
I like doing those things too..... but sometimes I don't feel the necesity or the will to do even the things I like....... maybe..... too much sleep?
I'm watching more animes these days..... I want to escape from reality but I guess it's just futile
You still sound like a teacher........ one of those nice ones though.......
I tell myself.... that I want to change but sometimes.... I just.... can't escape from myself.... *sigh sigh sigh*
I look at the world.... and I mix with it......
But I don't mix with the happy side of it........ but with the gray and darker side of it
But..... I don't want to blame myself for who I am......
But I dont want to blame others either
Sometimes it feel so magical... how we can change......
And I always want to return back..... and realize that today only comes once....... and yesterday will always be yesterday
You know something funny? whenever I try to change.... whenever I find hope.....
There's always something that pulls me down right away.... as if it was all planned out
Thank you Sara..... I guess I change everyday..... more negative it seems but still thanks for sticking by me
I think you would make an awesome teacher yourself (I can't imagine you getting angry at your students.........)
I feel level negative 1 billion TT^TT
Talk to you soon