Quote by 95ElizabethYou know.... I
think I'm sick today....
I read half the bible today.... Uuumm... For no reason at all...
I not only read the bible.... I read about greek mythology too.....
Persephone.... Scawy..... Mary Magdalene..... Selene.... Venus... Demeter...
Zeus.... Isis... Venus.... Athena... Uuumm.... Christianity is... Scawy... And
so is greek.... Really scawy.... I thought it was supposed to make humans feel
better... But... It's really scawy.... Too many saints and gods.... And
goddesses... Eeee.... I don't think I'll touch a bible for a long long
time...
Sick again?
You have to take care of yourself Elizabeth............
Wow........ you read half the Bible?
You read more than me.........
Well....... yeah.......... Christianity isn't all about the happy
things........
It usually condemns the mundane things on earth.........
I understand that you aren't ready to accept something beyond what you want to
believe............
Hope you get better soon.......... Take care of yourself
Eli-chama........
merged: 09-23-2007 ~ 08:58pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth I don't think I
should be christian... What's the use if I do...? I don't believe in god....
God is good.... Underworld is bad..... But I believe there isn't right and
wrong...
You know... It's not very nice to believe there isn't right and wrong...
To believe there isn't right and wrong.... That also means I'm confused....
People who don't believe in right and wrong ussually have problems with their
mind and have split personalities and are a bit abnormal....
I'm always confused with things.... My mother always scolds me for that....
Because I never answer with no or yes... I ussually say "probally",
"maybe", "kinda", "don't know".... Hehe....
It's kinda useless to ask me anything.... I would just reply you with something
confusing
Vatican.... SInce you don't like the name vatican... What do you want me to call
you? ^_^
Ju-sama....? That mens Mr Ju.... It makes me feel as if you're married... And I
don't want you to marry anyone else.....
You'll forget about me....
Are you bored of me....?
Elizabeth, I can't tell you to become Christian or not......... and I can't tell
you what to believe........
What you want to believe is your choice
What you think is the truth is your choice
You want to know my story?
I don't know if I've told you yet but I'll tell you again anyway.........
My parents are missionaries........ people who go around the world telling
others about God and Christianity..........
And......... at first....... I hated them for that........
Because I didn't want to leave Korea to leave my friends and family behind with
all my memory........
But....... I couldn't help it.........
I couldn't live alone....... so I had to follow them
At first........ I felt like dying......... it was.......a torture everyday
In a strange place........ people mocking me for being a foreigner and all
that.......
And later I got used to that........ but we had to move to another
country........
Just about when I felt comfortable......... and I hated my parents........
They did fight a lot........ even before I was born.......... but I hated them
more for making me leave my friends........
Then we moved and moved..... to other countries........
And I noticed that I was changing.........
I didn't feel much of anything anymore........
I couldn't cry anymore........ I couldn't be happy anymore and I felt numb
everyday........
I refused to make friends.......... I was going to lose them eventually
anyway....... so why make any friends?
I lived for about 2 years like that........ with a little bit of bullying at
school.......
And there were so many people I wanted to kill........ but I was a coward......
I knew I couldn't kill anybody yet I wanted to so bad.........
Then later........ I realized I was lonely........ I knew that I didn't want to
make friends but I didn't want to be alone.........
What if nobody needed me?........ What if nobody cared about me?
And I was scared........
Later....... I met you....... and I wanted to be your friend........ I wasn't
sure why but I wanted to be your friend........
And I was happy that I got to know you and be your friend
But I was still scared.......... What would happen to me when I
die?..........
And I was scared about death
I told myself that I wasn't scared but to tell the truth....... I
was........
I knew there was God........ and I knew there was heaven and hell........
But I didn't know......... where I would end up.........
So I was scared.........
But a few months ago, I was at this......... seminar thing......
Where children of missionaries met.......
I didn't care......... I didn't care about any of them........
I wanted to be alone......... Because they wouldn't understand me either
And I wouldn't understand them........
But....... at that seminar...... when I heard that Jesus died for me and that
God loved me........ I felt............. so guilty and....... weird
And I realized that I wanted to believe in God...........
Well.......... yeah........ I told you my story.......
It probably won't matter to you much....... but I just wanted to tell
you......
I know that I might not seem like I've changed much........ and I haven't to
tell the truth......
But I'm working everyday....... to change.........
I know..... that it might seem like there is no right or wrong.........
And I want to believe that too....... but there is truth and lies.........
Like murdering......... I might say what's wrong with killing?
But we know even if people don't tell us, that murder is wrong
Sorry that you had to read all that....... but I just wanted to tell you......
for some reason..........
I don't really know........ I don't really have a specific name that I want to
go by......
I don't really like my real name either so I don't know
I won't forget about you......... even if I get married or even if I am too busy
to come online......
I always remember you........ when I pray, when I am having fun........ whatever
I am doing, I remember you.........
Bored with you?........ No way
Hitomebore Eli-chama........ and you don't have to know what that means
Quote by 95Elizabeth... Hostel...?
Why...? Are you with exal....? No.... Why I say eeeee...? because I wanna... Why
vatican...? Because he's dumb and stupid...
no, i'm no longer living with exal or my parents ....i'm in a college now.....
doing a fashion designing course and living in a hostel..... man, life is
getting so weirder now days.....
ok, i don'thave a problem of you saying eeeee.... i remember it was exal who
used to keep saying eeee.... well, you sound really cuuuute and funny when you
say eeee.... so do continue....
well, about vatican, i think you both really have grown very strong with each
other.... i do hope your friendship lasts forever...... take care, see ya
Quote by 95Elizabeth
It's as if they're saying girls aren't brave and they're totally useless...
HAHA! BUT YOU HAVE PROVED THEM WRONG! YOU'RE A COWARD AND I'M STRONG!
OOoooo! VATICAN IS TRYING TO BE BRAVE! It's okay... You can run arround in
circles and cry in pain....
If you think violin is hard... Try the piano... Lots and lots of
keys....
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MY PERFORMANCE WAS GREAT! But.... I was really hot since I was acting two roles
and needed to wear 6 layers of clothing..... And... I wore black lipstick and
eyeshadow..... Scawy....
Yeah it is......... everybody is equally important........... People are just
different not better or worse...........
I guess you did prove them wrong
............... umm okay............
Piano?......... well I want to learn violin first
And I'm not musically talented so I can't really concentrate with two
instruments............
That's good to hear
It would've been cool to see you with black lipstick and eyeshadows hehehe.....
I tried on lipstick too when I was younger......... my lips felt so dry and I
never put it on again
Quote by 95Elizabeth.... You are so
weird..... What's wrong with ou anyway...? You're supposed to be
offended...
thanks .... nothing im fine .... im not offended because i know you mean no
harm.....but if you did then you'll be lookin towards a massive
dissing...yayyyy
Quote by 95Elizabeth....... Are you
ever sad....? *sprays mosquito repelent at micey*
of course i am unless you mean by getting mad ,crying then happy happens all the
time but i get over it no use because people don't pay attention butttt guess
what i am always lonely but i won't take it out on other people....why? i don't
know....haha that was the way i was BUILT.....and thanks for the replent i have
a bunch of mosquito bites.....lol
Quote by 95ElizabethDidn't you always
have photoshop....?
..... Eeee! I am so killing vatican later!
He blabs about you having your birthday and he doesn't blab about mine!
EEEeee!
EEEeeee! AND WHY DOSE HE TALK SO MUCH ABOUT BEING WORRIED ABOUT YOU ALL THE
TIME!?!?! I'M KILLING HIM FOR THAT TOO!
Thanks for the belated birthday wish.... Have a nice day!
yes..i have photoshop...but at home...but now i'm in a hostel....awaaaaaayy from
home.....
you're really so funny CHWEEEEEEEEETY LIZ.....hmmm....EEEeeee? you're EEEeeeeing
for what? you seem to be more worried about him......is he cracking up? and
please dont kill little vachikan........okee?
Quote by 95ElizabethYou don't think
you would want to cry infront of me.... I have splite personalities so I might
be nice and I also might scold you
My mother is... Uuumm.... A little harsh I guess.... used to it...
I hate seafood too... EXCEPT FISH!
Mmm... The link didn't work....? It works on my computer...... Mmmm.....
What a pity... I liked the singing at the link I gave you....
I memorized 8 songs in 9 days! YAY FOR ME!
After tomorrow's performance I have a performance a month after that then I have
another performance 3 months after that! YAY!
I just love the stage! I'm so used to it that... I'm not even excited....
Much....
I won't cry infront of you.......... I usually don't cry when there are
people.......... even if I want to cry I usually don't unless I'm
alone..........
I cried once or twice infront of people........... but I didn't care about
others when I was...........
Wow....... you have split personality as well?........ I think I have one
too........ or maybe more like multiple personality.......... or maybe it's just
one personality but I'm getting confused.........
I think your mother is more than just a little harsh!
Fish.......... some of them are okay but the smell makes me nausiated
@_@
Yeah....... it didn't work so I heard it on youtube........
Wow! 8 songs in 9 days? That's really awesome
It usually takes me few days to memorize one song
Performance tomorrow!
Wow........ you really have a gift of going infront of stage
I usually go numb and I lose focus when I go infront of the stage.......... so
many people staring........ their eyes......... so sharp and piercing.........
like daggers to my conscience........... I'm so scared
OOOOOoooo! BUT WHY?!?! .... Oh yeah... I know why..... It's okay... I won't hit
you if you cry... (I hope)
It's not really good to have split personalities.....
YOU'RE SO CUTE! IF I WAS THERE RIGHT NOW I'LL JUMP ON YOU AND HUG YOU LIKE A
LITTLE TEDDY BEAR!
I like soft and fluffy and cute thingies!
My mother is..... Well she dose make me want to die at times... BUT ELIZABETH IS
STRONG NANO!
Unlike you coward... Chicken... I like chickens... But sometimes I don't cause
they chase me....
YOU CAN'T LEARN IT BECAUSE YOU'RE STUPID! AHHH! YOU'RE SO CUTE WHEN YOU'RE
DUMB!
It's really easy.... Oh yeah... Are you still learning
violin?
Why?......... well........ I guess........... it's.......... pride?.........
no....... actually it's........... I don't know
It's because my father always got angry when I cried......... or maybe it was my
uncle......... and said boys weren't suppose to cry........ which is
stupid......... because I'm only a human..........
So I am afraid to cry infront of people..........
Hehe....... okay......... I hope you won't hit me........
Yeah........ it's not fun........ to have more than one personality........
feels.........really......... weird and annoying.........
Umm......... okay......... although I don't believe I fit into any of those
catagories..........
I like you too
Yeah....... Elizabeth is strong......... a lot stronger than I am
Umm......... I'm...... sorry
I don't wanna be dumb or stupid TTnTT
Yeah....... I'm still learning violin........ but too hard for me..........
And I hurt my neck and my arm few days ago so I can't even practice
merged: 09-20-2007 ~ 09:36pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Your uncle or dad is stupid... Boys or girls... they're all the same.... Humans
aren't perfect...
If you want to cry just cry... It's your life and there isn't right or wrong
only what you believe you should do...
You have bad memory.... I like hitting you!
BUT YOU ARE CUTE! EEEee! SO CUTE!
Of course I'm stronger! MUAHAHHA!
You are dumb and stupid... Stupid.... BUT I STILL LIKE YOU!
Awww! Are you okay...? I hope so... WHAT IF YOU DIE?!?! OOOOOooo! I LIKE VIOLIN!
I know........... boys are rather stupid...........
They expect boys to be stronger and have no fear when we're just
humans...........
And I hate the thought of going to the military......... I'm not going to kill
anybody......... so why waste time there?
Unfortunately......... I do have terrible memory
Umm........ okay........... I get hit a lot so I'm used to it TTmTT
Hehehe......... practicing your evil laugh?
Thank you......... I like you a lot too..........
Umm......... my neck is a lot better....... I couldn't use my arm for few days
but it's recovering............
I won't die.......... from just a minor injury
Although i was a bit afraid when I hurt my neck TTmTT
I like violin too
That's why I'm learning it.........
Violin is the only instrument that I want to learn.......... well actually I
wanted to learn flute as well but I can't
Because I used to learn clarinet but my teacher told me that I probably
shouldn't play any instruments where I use my lung because I can't blow for a
while TTmTT
But I wanted to learn violin more than flute anyway..........
But violin is so hard......... too many things to remember and do at
once.........
I get so confused when I hold the violin
Quote by 95ElizabethAs happy as
ever..... What's up...?
huh.....this is totally wierd but i like it......the celing is whats up in my
home right now but you know what else *squeezing eli* ......i LOVE
YOU.....yayyyy
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Kitties are scawy!
You are a coward! Coward! Go cry to your mommy!
Aww... But what if you don't like my voice...? THEN YOU'LL HATE ME!
NOOO!
I don't really like cats........ but kitties are okay
My mommy?.......... she's not home........... not that I would do that even if
she was home
I'm sure that I would like your voice
And even if I don't, I don't think that would make me like you any less than I
like you now
merged: 09-18-2007 ~ 09:35pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI like birds!
Birds are pwetty!
Oh! Then if you don't go to your mommy when you're sad... Who else are you going
to turn to?
AHHH! YOU'RE SO SWEET! But... I don't know how to
anyway...
I like birds too........ but they always fly away from humans..........
I usually take in my own pain.......... when I'm sad........ I just.........
sleep and wake up and do what I have to do..........
Sometimes it feels like it doesn't matter to my parents whether I'm happy or
sad......... and I feel that it never really mattered to them in the first
place......... I don't know what they're really thinking.......... but it's
okay.........
I can work things out on my own......... somehow
............... But that's unfair isn't it?
You're gonna hear my voice but I won't be able to hear yours
merged: 09-19-2007 ~ 09:25pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
.... Your parents do love you.... If they didn't... They would never want to
have you in the first place...
My mother is... cruel I guess.... But I know she still loves me... Anyway! Even
if she didn't I want to believe that!
She scolds me when I'm sad... She scolds me when I don't think her way... She
scolds me if I cry.... She scolds me if I believe there isn't right or
wrong...
Well she even scolds me when I'm sad, happy or emotionless... But who cares! I
never listen to her! I believe what I wanna believe! She scolds me for that
too....
Don't be so sad! If you keep your pain to yourself nothing will change! And I
will get angwy at you! MEEAANNNIIIEEE!
Life can be cruel at times but what's the use of thinking of the sad things in
life! If you think sad you will be sad! That's what my grandma tells me!
You think it would make your friends feel better if you keep the pain to
youself... But... NOOOO! WE ARE VERY SAD IF YOU DO THAT! IT MAKES US THINK YOU
DON"T TRUST US!
MEANNIIIEE!
When you're sad just think elizabeth will always always be there for me! BECAUSE
I'M THE BEST! MUAHAHHA!
....... I still can't get that evil laugh.... HAHA! BUT! AT LEAST I CAN ACT!
YOU'RE JUST STUPID!
STUPID MEANIE!
Twirly twirly twirly! Birds are just misunderstood! OOOooo! Could you hear this
song please? ^_^ I'm singing this song a few months after my acting performance
cause I have another singing performance after that! http://vabhighlandoaks.dadeschools.net/wings.html
Don't ask why I showed it to you! I felt like it! SO LISTEN! OR ELSE! I'M
TESTING YOU ON THIS HAM BURGER!
Ooo! FOOD! I like fish! Salmon! RAW! YAY!
I will show you my voice... If you teach me how...
I know.......... but it sometimes....... just feels like they don't care much
about me
Yeah......... your mother is......... too harsh....... and cruel
Every mother cares about her child........... I think...........
There are few who are cruel enough not too but most mothers care about their
child.........
You know......... it's...... kinda hard.........
Because it burdens me also when I tell others about my pain.........
I do tell others how I feel occasionally....... sometimes when I can't hold it
in any longer.......
Although it feels like there isn't anybody around to hear me cry out..........
or listen to me....... or care about what I say
I'm really glad that you care about me though
Elizabeth will always be here for me.......... and I'll always be there for
Elizabeth.........
Umm Elizabeth......... the link you gave me didn't work on my computer for some
reason......... so I heard it on Youtube instead........
Is that okay?
I liked the piano and the flute
Especially the flute...... and the lyric was really nice
Testing?.......... Are you going to perform this song?
I don't like seafood........... actually I don't like eating at all
Hmm.............. let me see...........
How to host a voice file supported by electronic data...........
............ do you have an mp3 that can record?
Quote by 95ElizabethYou're so
stupid... Why do I like you anyway...? You're so dumb...
But kinda cute ^_^
Of course there are people worse then you!
And I'm so much better! You don't see me complaining everyday do you! I do but
not as much as you!
Of course I won't the brought down so easily!
I'm queen elizabeth! you don't see Queen Elizabeth running arround crying and
complaining like you!
^_^ But I like it that you complain to me... Because then I know you care to
talk to me and you trust me...
But wouldn't! I AM the best, wise perfect person! MUAHHAHHA!
^_^ Be strong okay? I'm not slightly worried about my life!
My parents don't really effect me really... Because they're not the most
important...
Like my grandmother always tells me!
The words from someone important to you are words that truly matter! Yes yes!
HEHHE! I'M SO SMART! MUHAHAHHA! ^_^
I'm working on my evil laugh for the performance this friday ^_^
Have a nice day now!
I like you a lot as well X3 and I don't need a reason
Yeah! you are so much better
Hehe........ I'm glad that you seem to be feeling better.........
I'll try harder as well
I don't cry!........... not too much........ and I don't complain........ a
lot......... I think........
I care about you even when I don't talk to you........ I care about you every
second
I'll be strong.......... So you have to be strong as well!
Don't worry too much......... I'm sure that you will be fine whatever you decide
to do........
You are important
Oh cool...... another performance?
Wow! You're gonna make a name for yourself
merged: 09-17-2007 ~ 09:28pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Haha! I WAS ALWAYS STRONG! MAUHAHHAA!
You do cry chicken! And you do complain! Kitty!
Vatican! What should I call you? I can't be calling you vatican forever...
It reminds me of vatican city....
Of course you care about me!
I'll kick you to Antarctica if you don't... HAHAHA! Just joking!
Well I don't go to many performances! EEEeee! I WANNA BE A VOICE ACTRESS WHEN I
GROW UP TOO!
Hehehe......... I guess you were always stronger than I was
Umm.......... I only cry once in a million billion trillion years!
Well......... guess I do complain......... kitty?...........
Vatican......... vatican......... actually I was getting bored with that name as
well........
I don't know really........ what do you want to call me?
Hehe...... of course I care about you! Or else I'll kick myself to Vatican
city
Voice actor?....... Cool! I wanted to be one as well........ few years ago......
and decided my voice wasn't good enough........ and too hard TTmTT
merged: 09-17-2007 ~ 10:00pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Kitty.. I don't know what was with that....
I don't know what I should call you.. Ju... George.... Chicken... sandwhich...
Cake... cookies.... sweets...... duck... Don't know! I'm
bad at names
How can you kick yourself....?
EVeryone has a nice voice!
My voice currently sounds like... rie Tanaka... + Hina ichigo... + Hell girl...
+ Saya.... + Shinku.....
Well I was also given the ability of changing my voice! ^_^ But my real voice is
like the 5 of them added together! When I speak my voice sounds.. Uuumm.... Like
an adult... Moody... Adult... When I sing.... I sound really sweet.... Don't
know why....
Hey hey! Some time you'll visit me for real right?!? ^_^
Ooooo! Could you record your voice? I wanna hear it!
PLLLEEEAAASSEEE!
Do you like pretty pretty kitties?
............... Yeah.......... call me anything you like........ and I'll be
okay with it
Umm.............. somehow........ I guess I can kick myself........
Wow............ all that voice in one person?
My favorite voice actor is Noto Mamiko or the Hell Girl like you said
That's cool....... I don't know how to change my voice
Mine sounds weird..........
I want to visit you...... and I will......... one day............ some
how........... after I get the money......... and work things
out...........
My voice?.......... umm.......... umm........... umm..........
ummm...............
*runs away*
merged: 09-17-2007 ~ 10:06pm
Elizabeth, I'm not sure if you're still online.......... but I have to go now
Good night and pleasant dreams princess
merged: 09-18-2007 ~ 07:54pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Mmmm... I'll call you.... Don't know....
Kitties... Are scawy nano... But I like you though! You're a coward!
..... You won't show me your voice....? GGGGWWWAAAHHHH! *cries* I DON'T LIKE YOU
ANYMORE!
Hmm......... I don't know either
Kitties?.......... they are cuddly and adorable
Me?......... A coward? TTnTT
Umm.......... my voice.........
........ well......... I wanna hear your voice first!
hello CHWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETY LIZ firstly, i'm really sorry i could not
wish you on your birhtday...so well, i know it's late but...a very HAPPY
BIRTHDAY to you.....and i could not make you a card either coz i dont have
photoshop here....well anyway...i hope you enjoy everyday of your life....
see ya
Quote by 95Elizabeth
....... ^_^
At least you know who you don't want to be....
I don't remember who's the real me anymore....
Because I always tell myself to be happy... I don't know how happy and sad is
anymore...
And I don't remember how to cry and only smile....
Maybe I'm happy.... Maybe I'm not..
I don't know.... Who are my friends... Who are my enemies... Who do I love...
Who do I hate....
But.... I'm sure I like you the most most of all!
ovulioey ^_^
You don't need to know what it says... Even if you do don't answer me...
I know I won't like the answer.... ^_^
Well... Have a nice day and hope you do better at school
merged: 09-14-2007 ~ 11:09pm
Vatican... My parents are fighting again right now... Because of me....
Maybe if I'm dead they'll be happy....
I don't want to live anymore....
Because I know I can't do anything.... I'm a failure..... I'm nothing....
I know your parents fight.... But..... but....
I don't know what to say anymore... I'm sorry...
I probally will not talk to you for a while again.....
So much noise.... Disgusting world... I hate it.... I wish I could jump down the
window.... ^_^
Sorry.....
Yeah I guess I know who I don't want to be at least.........
Well Elizabeth......... you can make yourself from now on.........
It doesn't really matter who you were but you can choose who you want to be from
now on...........
Even if you don't know, everything is still in you
Your emotions, and your feelings
You're the one to decide what you should become
Hehe........ I'm really happy......... that you care for me ^_^
Hmm........ yeah........ I'm not really sure what that says
Elizabeth.......... forget about your parents...........
Because............. they should've realized........ a long time
ago..........
That you are important........... So important that I won't trade you for
anything that the world can offer me
Don't say that Elizabeth........ I love you.......... and I don't want you to go
away..........
I know it's hard........ and every parents do fight....... and the world
is.......... cruel and vile........
But....... I'm too selfish to let you go........ I don't........ want you to go
away........
I decided not so long ago........ to change once more
I can't just ignore and deny people......... even if it is stressing for me,
there are others who are suffering more
And I can do better than how I'm doing right now
If I try harder.........
So Elizabeth........ I know I can't help............ but please be safe.........
and I care about you too much to let you to just give up your life..........
Quote by 95ElizabethI'm sorry... I'm
not bored with you...
Sometimes it's harder to tell someone you care about how you feel because you
know it will hurt them.....
I'm only trying to keep away from you for a while because I might say something
that would hurt you...
You're doing something.... Being my friend... It makes me really happy to know
you care about me ^_^
Thanks for worrying but you don't have to...
haha... Ussually I worry and now it's your turn
I hope you're doing fine.....
That's really a relief......... ^_^
I thought you were starting to get bored with me
Yeah it is........ but........ I want to know Elizabeth........ when it hurts
Because......... even though I might not fathom your pains, I want to........
weep for you when you are sad.......... and smile with you when you are happy
So from now on........ I just want you to be honest with me........ So I can
pray for you without hesitation..........
I'm doing that too........ I'm kinda......... avoiding people......... and also
you these days.........
I'm afraid I'm turning into somebody that I don't want to be these
days..........
So until I......... start putting myself together.......... I won't really be
talking to anybody much.......... So hope you understand
I feel so lucky that you are my friend as well ^_^
Yeah now I guess it is my turn........ although I always worry about you
anyway
I'm......... not doing too well to tell the truth...........
But I'm sure that I can get back to my old self
Stay safe Elizabeth....... and if I don't respond sometimes......... Please
understand..........
Elizabeth........ I read your post on the group........
And......... I........ am sorry.........
I know that you are going through a hard time....... yet I can do
nothing..........
When somebody I love is suffering........
Sorry......... I know that........ maybe you won't like me too much
anymore......... but I just want you to be happy.........
If singing makes you happy, then......... I do your best at singing........
don't lose your dream........ hold on to it and don't let it go.......
I think.... maybe you probably want some time away from me..... and I
understand........ maybe you are getting bored with me as well
Anyway........ I love you no matter what and I don't care what other think about
it
Because I like you the most.......
I may not understand how you feel......... but I always care for you.........
So hold on tight Eli-chan........
I better go now......... too many things to do these days
Kinda........ giving me stress......... maybe that's why I'm so angry these
days......... I don't know
Anyways....... umm........ be safe..........
Love ya Eli-chama
hope you loved the present and hey sorry for being late on the computer have
alot of homework and i am very cool with eli-chan being wierdand alll but hey
ain't every one wierd....haha just kidding...hi...hi....hi...hi...
Hi! Do you mind if i add you to my friends? Before you ask why, the two main
reasons are that I like having new friends and the second reason is that I'm
very social person. I hope you're doing fine.
Quote by 95ElizabethMaybe you're
bored of me.... ^_^ And you don't know what to say to me anymore cause we
already said everything possible to say.......
I thought you liked going to church...? You always talk about
god.....
I'm not bored with you Elizabeth.......... I like you a lot...... and I always
will.........
Sorry........ I've........ been really weird the last 2 days.........
Yesterday and today.......... I'm feeling a bit better today........ but today
wasn't a good day for me either
Yeah....... kinda........ don't know what to say anymore..........
No..... I hate going to church..........
Because........ they always talk about unnecessary things at church
It's waste of time going there........ and I don't like going out
I'd rather read my Bible alone at home..........
Well I do believe in God..... although sometimes I do have moments that I go my
own way instead of trusting God, I still am devoted to him.......
WHAT ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY?!?! or it was anyway i am very sorry that i forgot your
birthday i had no idea..very sorry..anyway happy late birthday i hope you
enjoyed it and i wish you the best of luck im going to get you a card but it
will probobly come some time later but i am getting you one anyway take care!
Sick again?
You have to take care of yourself Elizabeth............
Wow........ you read half the Bible?
You read more than me.........
Well....... yeah.......... Christianity isn't all about the happy things........
It usually condemns the mundane things on earth.........
I understand that you aren't ready to accept something beyond what you want to believe............
Hope you get better soon.......... Take care of yourself Eli-chama........
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Elizabeth, I can't tell you to become Christian or not......... and I can't tell you what to believe........
What you want to believe is your choice
What you think is the truth is your choice
You want to know my story?
I don't know if I've told you yet but I'll tell you again anyway.........
My parents are missionaries........ people who go around the world telling others about God and Christianity..........
And......... at first....... I hated them for that........
Because I didn't want to leave Korea to leave my friends and family behind with all my memory........
But....... I couldn't help it.........
I couldn't live alone....... so I had to follow them
At first........ I felt like dying......... it was.......a torture everyday
In a strange place........ people mocking me for being a foreigner and all that.......
And later I got used to that........ but we had to move to another country........
Just about when I felt comfortable......... and I hated my parents........
They did fight a lot........ even before I was born.......... but I hated them more for making me leave my friends........
Then we moved and moved..... to other countries........
And I noticed that I was changing.........
I didn't feel much of anything anymore........
I couldn't cry anymore........ I couldn't be happy anymore and I felt numb everyday........
I refused to make friends.......... I was going to lose them eventually anyway....... so why make any friends?
I lived for about 2 years like that........ with a little bit of bullying at school.......
And there were so many people I wanted to kill........ but I was a coward...... I knew I couldn't kill anybody yet I wanted to so bad.........
Then later........ I realized I was lonely........ I knew that I didn't want to make friends but I didn't want to be alone.........
What if nobody needed me?........ What if nobody cared about me?
And I was scared........
Later....... I met you....... and I wanted to be your friend........ I wasn't sure why but I wanted to be your friend........
And I was happy that I got to know you and be your friend
But I was still scared.......... What would happen to me when I die?..........
And I was scared about death
I told myself that I wasn't scared but to tell the truth....... I was........
I knew there was God........ and I knew there was heaven and hell........
But I didn't know......... where I would end up.........
So I was scared.........
But a few months ago, I was at this......... seminar thing......
Where children of missionaries met.......
I didn't care......... I didn't care about any of them........
I wanted to be alone......... Because they wouldn't understand me either
And I wouldn't understand them........
But....... at that seminar...... when I heard that Jesus died for me and that God loved me........ I felt............. so guilty and....... weird
And I realized that I wanted to believe in God...........
Well.......... yeah........ I told you my story.......
It probably won't matter to you much....... but I just wanted to tell you......
I know that I might not seem like I've changed much........ and I haven't to tell the truth......
But I'm working everyday....... to change.........
I know..... that it might seem like there is no right or wrong.........
And I want to believe that too....... but there is truth and lies.........
Like murdering......... I might say what's wrong with killing?
But we know even if people don't tell us, that murder is wrong
Sorry that you had to read all that....... but I just wanted to tell you...... for some reason..........
I don't really know........ I don't really have a specific name that I want to go by......
I don't really like my real name either so I don't know
I won't forget about you......... even if I get married or even if I am too busy to come online......
I always remember you........ when I pray, when I am having fun........ whatever I am doing, I remember you.........
Bored with you?........ No way
Hitomebore Eli-chama........ and you don't have to know what that means
no, i'm no longer living with exal or my parents ....i'm in a college now..... doing a fashion designing course and living in a hostel..... man, life is getting so weirder now days.....
ok, i don'thave a problem of you saying eeeee.... i remember it was exal who used to keep saying eeee.... well, you sound really cuuuute and funny when you say eeee.... so do continue....
well, about vatican, i think you both really have grown very strong with each other.... i do hope your friendship lasts forever...... take care, see ya
Yeah it is......... everybody is equally important........... People are just different not better or worse...........
I guess you did prove them wrong
............... umm okay............
Piano?......... well I want to learn violin first
And I'm not musically talented so I can't really concentrate with two instruments............
That's good to hear
It would've been cool to see you with black lipstick and eyeshadows hehehe.....
I tried on lipstick too when I was younger......... my lips felt so dry and I never put it on again
thanks .... nothing im fine .... im not offended because i know you mean no harm.....but if you did then you'll be lookin towards a massive dissing...yayyyy
Tell me how your performance went Eli-chama
of course i am unless you mean by getting mad ,crying then happy happens all the time but i get over it no use because people don't pay attention butttt guess what i am always lonely but i won't take it out on other people....why? i don't know....haha that was the way i was BUILT.....and thanks for the replent i have a bunch of mosquito bites.....lol
yes..i have photoshop...but at home...but now i'm in a hostel....awaaaaaayy from home.....
you're really so funny CHWEEEEEEEEETY LIZ.....hmmm....EEEeeee? you're EEEeeeeing for what? you seem to be more worried about him......is he cracking up? and please dont kill little vachikan........okee?
I won't cry infront of you.......... I usually don't cry when there are people.......... even if I want to cry I usually don't unless I'm alone..........
I cried once or twice infront of people........... but I didn't care about others when I was...........
Wow....... you have split personality as well?........ I think I have one too........ or maybe more like multiple personality.......... or maybe it's just one personality but I'm getting confused.........
I think your mother is more than just a little harsh!
Fish.......... some of them are okay but the smell makes me nausiated @_@
Yeah....... it didn't work so I heard it on youtube........
Wow! 8 songs in 9 days? That's really awesome
It usually takes me few days to memorize one song
Performance tomorrow!
Wow........ you really have a gift of going infront of stage
I usually go numb and I lose focus when I go infront of the stage.......... so many people staring........ their eyes......... so sharp and piercing......... like daggers to my conscience........... I'm so scared
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Why?......... well........ I guess........... it's.......... pride?......... no....... actually it's........... I don't know
It's because my father always got angry when I cried......... or maybe it was my uncle......... and said boys weren't suppose to cry........ which is stupid......... because I'm only a human..........
So I am afraid to cry infront of people..........
Hehe....... okay......... I hope you won't hit me........
Yeah........ it's not fun........ to have more than one personality........ feels.........really......... weird and annoying.........
Umm......... okay......... although I don't believe I fit into any of those catagories..........
I like you too
Yeah....... Elizabeth is strong......... a lot stronger than I am
Umm......... I'm...... sorry
I don't wanna be dumb or stupid TTnTT
Yeah....... I'm still learning violin........ but too hard for me..........
And I hurt my neck and my arm few days ago so I can't even practice
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I know........... boys are rather stupid...........
They expect boys to be stronger and have no fear when we're just humans...........
And I hate the thought of going to the military......... I'm not going to kill anybody......... so why waste time there?
Unfortunately......... I do have terrible memory
Umm........ okay........... I get hit a lot so I'm used to it TTmTT
Hehehe......... practicing your evil laugh?
Thank you......... I like you a lot too..........
Umm......... my neck is a lot better....... I couldn't use my arm for few days but it's recovering............
I won't die.......... from just a minor injury
Although i was a bit afraid when I hurt my neck TTmTT
I like violin too
That's why I'm learning it.........
Violin is the only instrument that I want to learn.......... well actually I wanted to learn flute as well but I can't
Because I used to learn clarinet but my teacher told me that I probably shouldn't play any instruments where I use my lung because I can't blow for a while TTmTT
But I wanted to learn violin more than flute anyway..........
But violin is so hard......... too many things to remember and do at once.........
I get so confused when I hold the violin
huh.....this is totally wierd but i like it......the celing is whats up in my home right now but you know what else *squeezing eli* ......i LOVE YOU.....yayyyy
I don't really like cats........ but kitties are okay
My mommy?.......... she's not home........... not that I would do that even if she was home
I'm sure that I would like your voice
And even if I don't, I don't think that would make me like you any less than I like you now
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I like birds too........ but they always fly away from humans..........
I usually take in my own pain.......... when I'm sad........ I just......... sleep and wake up and do what I have to do..........
Sometimes it feels like it doesn't matter to my parents whether I'm happy or sad......... and I feel that it never really mattered to them in the first place......... I don't know what they're really thinking.......... but it's okay.........
I can work things out on my own......... somehow
............... But that's unfair isn't it?
You're gonna hear my voice but I won't be able to hear yours
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I know.......... but it sometimes....... just feels like they don't care much about me
Yeah......... your mother is......... too harsh....... and cruel
Every mother cares about her child........... I think...........
There are few who are cruel enough not too but most mothers care about their child.........
You know......... it's...... kinda hard.........
Because it burdens me also when I tell others about my pain.........
I do tell others how I feel occasionally....... sometimes when I can't hold it in any longer.......
Although it feels like there isn't anybody around to hear me cry out.......... or listen to me....... or care about what I say
I'm really glad that you care about me though
Elizabeth will always be here for me.......... and I'll always be there for Elizabeth.........
Umm Elizabeth......... the link you gave me didn't work on my computer for some reason......... so I heard it on Youtube instead........
Is that okay?
I liked the piano and the flute
Especially the flute...... and the lyric was really nice
Testing?.......... Are you going to perform this song?
I don't like seafood........... actually I don't like eating at all
Hmm.............. let me see...........
How to host a voice file supported by electronic data...........
............ do you have an mp3 that can record?
heyyyyyy heyyyyyy heyyyyy*slaps on back* HI eli-chan he he he heeee heeeeyyyyy
I like you a lot as well X3 and I don't need a reason
Yeah! you are so much better
Hehe........ I'm glad that you seem to be feeling better.........
I'll try harder as well
I don't cry!........... not too much........ and I don't complain........ a lot......... I think........
I care about you even when I don't talk to you........ I care about you every second
I'll be strong.......... So you have to be strong as well!
Don't worry too much......... I'm sure that you will be fine whatever you decide to do........
You are important
Oh cool...... another performance?
Wow! You're gonna make a name for yourself
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Hehehe......... I guess you were always stronger than I was
Umm.......... I only cry once in a million billion trillion years!
Well......... guess I do complain......... kitty?...........
Vatican......... vatican......... actually I was getting bored with that name as well........
I don't know really........ what do you want to call me?
Hehe...... of course I care about you! Or else I'll kick myself to Vatican city
Voice actor?....... Cool! I wanted to be one as well........ few years ago...... and decided my voice wasn't good enough........ and too hard TTmTT
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Do you like pretty pretty kitties?
............... Yeah.......... call me anything you like........ and I'll be okay with it
Umm.............. somehow........ I guess I can kick myself........
Wow............ all that voice in one person?
My favorite voice actor is Noto Mamiko or the Hell Girl like you said
That's cool....... I don't know how to change my voice
Mine sounds weird..........
I want to visit you...... and I will......... one day............ some how........... after I get the money......... and work things out...........
My voice?.......... umm.......... umm........... umm.......... ummm...............
*runs away*
merged: 09-17-2007 ~ 10:06pm
Elizabeth, I'm not sure if you're still online.......... but I have to go now
Good night and pleasant dreams princess
merged: 09-18-2007 ~ 07:54pm
Hmm......... I don't know either
Kitties?.......... they are cuddly and adorable
Me?......... A coward? TTnTT
Umm.......... my voice.........
........ well......... I wanna hear your voice first!
hello CHWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETY LIZ firstly, i'm really sorry i could not wish you on your birhtday...so well, i know it's late but...a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you.....and i could not make you a card either coz i dont have photoshop here....well anyway...i hope you enjoy everyday of your life....
see ya
Yeah I guess I know who I don't want to be at least.........
Well Elizabeth......... you can make yourself from now on.........
It doesn't really matter who you were but you can choose who you want to be from now on...........
Even if you don't know, everything is still in you
Your emotions, and your feelings
You're the one to decide what you should become
Hehe........ I'm really happy......... that you care for me ^_^
Hmm........ yeah........ I'm not really sure what that says
Elizabeth.......... forget about your parents...........
Because............. they should've realized........ a long time ago..........
That you are important........... So important that I won't trade you for anything that the world can offer me
Don't say that Elizabeth........ I love you.......... and I don't want you to go away..........
I know it's hard........ and every parents do fight....... and the world is.......... cruel and vile........
But....... I'm too selfish to let you go........ I don't........ want you to go away........
I decided not so long ago........ to change once more
I can't just ignore and deny people......... even if it is stressing for me, there are others who are suffering more
And I can do better than how I'm doing right now
If I try harder.........
So Elizabeth........ I know I can't help............ but please be safe......... and I care about you too much to let you to just give up your life..........
I'm a girl.... No offense taken.
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No matter...
That's really a relief......... ^_^
I thought you were starting to get bored with me
Yeah it is........ but........ I want to know Elizabeth........ when it hurts
Because......... even though I might not fathom your pains, I want to........ weep for you when you are sad.......... and smile with you when you are happy
So from now on........ I just want you to be honest with me........ So I can pray for you without hesitation..........
I'm doing that too........ I'm kinda......... avoiding people......... and also you these days.........
I'm afraid I'm turning into somebody that I don't want to be these days..........
So until I......... start putting myself together.......... I won't really be talking to anybody much.......... So hope you understand
I feel so lucky that you are my friend as well ^_^
Yeah now I guess it is my turn........ although I always worry about you anyway
I'm......... not doing too well to tell the truth...........
But I'm sure that I can get back to my old self
Stay safe Elizabeth....... and if I don't respond sometimes......... Please understand..........
are you sure i would be glad too...oh? thats too bad why?
merged: 09-14-2007 ~ 07:26am
are you sure i would be glad too...oh? thats too bad why?
My day was fine. Nothing too serious has happened.
Elizabeth........ I read your post on the group........
And......... I........ am sorry.........
I know that you are going through a hard time....... yet I can do nothing..........
When somebody I love is suffering........
Sorry......... I know that........ maybe you won't like me too much anymore......... but I just want you to be happy.........
If singing makes you happy, then......... I do your best at singing........ don't lose your dream........ hold on to it and don't let it go.......
I think.... maybe you probably want some time away from me..... and I understand........ maybe you are getting bored with me as well
Anyway........ I love you no matter what and I don't care what other think about it
Because I like you the most.......
I may not understand how you feel......... but I always care for you.........
So hold on tight Eli-chan........
I better go now......... too many things to do these days
Kinda........ giving me stress......... maybe that's why I'm so angry these days......... I don't know
Anyways....... umm........ be safe..........
Love ya Eli-chama
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELI-CHAN
sorry for the late greeting...
anyway, take care always
hope you loved the present and hey sorry for being late on the computer have alot of homework and i am very cool with eli-chan being wierdand alll but hey ain't every one wierd....haha just kidding...hi...hi....hi...hi...
Hi! Do you mind if i add you to my friends? Before you ask why, the two main reasons are that I like having new friends and the second reason is that I'm very social person. I hope you're doing fine.
I'm not bored with you Elizabeth.......... I like you a lot...... and I always will.........
Sorry........ I've........ been really weird the last 2 days.........
Yesterday and today.......... I'm feeling a bit better today........ but today wasn't a good day for me either
Yeah....... kinda........ don't know what to say anymore..........
No..... I hate going to church..........
Because........ they always talk about unnecessary things at church
It's waste of time going there........ and I don't like going out
I'd rather read my Bible alone at home..........
Well I do believe in God..... although sometimes I do have moments that I go my own way instead of trusting God, I still am devoted to him.......
Umm......... so how are you today Elizabeth
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WHAT ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY?!?! or it was anyway i am very sorry that i forgot your birthday i had no idea..very sorry..anyway happy late birthday i hope you enjoyed it and i wish you the best of luck im going to get you a card but it will probobly come some time later but i am getting you one anyway take care!