I am dementing all kind of gossip that I am deceased , I assure
everyone that this is only a temporal suspension. So do not worry, for I will be
back... In some time. In the meantime, be patient, please. I did not forgotten
about any of you, and of course it is nice to see that you didn't forgotten
about me either.
merged: 11-07-2007 ~ 06:20pm
I am dementing all kind of gossip that I am deceased , I assure
everyone that this is only a temporal suspension. So do not worry, for I will be
back... In some time. In the meantime, be patient, please. I did not forgotten
about any of you, and of course it is nice to see that you didn't forgotten
about me either.
It's been a pretty long time ^_^ Reading the other member's posts are starting
to make me think of you as deceased :S I really hope that isn't the case. I hope
you're doing well
Iwo I really hope that you will come back to us I for one miss you so much I
haven`t seen you on messenger either
hope that things are ok and that the reason why you are not here is because you
are having fun and minding your own life
don`t forget us and don`t forget your mistress I look at the lovely rose that
you have sent me and always think of you #hugs#
my life is also a busy lately and I am happy to be more lively than usual
Where are you? I miss you my friend. Hope you're doing alright and taking care of
yourself. I sent you a text message the other day... I don't know if you got it.
Did you get my letter? I got two from you. Thank you so much. I guess
I'll try to email you again later. Hope you're well. Miss you! Take care of
yourself and I hope you let me know you're alright soon. *hugs* Bye.
merged: 09-21-2007 ~ 11:35am
Hey. Just thought I'd stop by and say hello. Hope you're doing well. I've been
working and working... I'm trying to keep up with all my groups, but it doesn't
always work out that way.
Oh, my little brother got into a car accident tonight. A 16 year old girl ran a
yield sign and hit my little brother and a girl he was riding in the car with.
They are both alright, but it took them 4 hours in the hospital for a doctor to
see him... it makes me so mad. Stupid doctors. What if he had broken something?!
Argh... people here are so stupid. He just has a splint on his wrist... but I'm
still kinda worried for him. I'm really glad that he's okay. It has really been
such a weird night tonight. Oh well...
Hi
I want to ask you for some help.
I would really like to revived a group but don’t know how to. I don't know if I
really should . . . I'm afraid I'd really offend the former administrator by
doing so.
I know she said she was busy with school and everything but now she hasn't been
on MT for eleven weeks and I would really like to see that group pretty and
active again.
I got lots of ideas too but cant do a thing . . .
Could you help me?
*big puppy eyes*
Hello there my Lord Ender #hugs# well from when I`ved heard what happened to
Sema
I haven`t been that active..today is my mam`s birthday so we had celebrated a
little
a few days ago I went with some friends at a club and danced a little so now as
a result my bones hurt
but I managed to have some fun and I am happy
don`t know life is a little strange lately after we had here a terrible hear
like 29 degrees in the house at night o.O
now it is raining and we have problems with the trees that are falling because
in the middle they are empty
o yes lately I watch some TV most of the groups are quiet
and I miss you a lot I miss the fun that we had together even if I know that you
have now the chance to have a better life
I am really happy for you my dear I hope that one of this days I can catch you
online so we can share some news till then many hugs and do your best my cute
Hello my wonderful friend. ^^ I hope things are going well for you in England.
Perhaps it will even stop raining for a little while. Its about
time I wrote you, right? I'm so slow anymore about everything. Sorry about that.
You asked me awhile back how I was... Right now, here at the house is crazy. My
little brother decided to move back into the house, so there's even less room
now; every weekend I'm hardly at home anymore since my older brother needs me to
babysit for a week at a time ; my
grandfather might also have diabetes (my father has it) but my grandfather
doesn't seem to care anything about it; its been so hot here I can't sleep
anymore; and I still don't have a real, steady job yet.
I feel like I'm going crazy. This
week I'm moving my stuff and cleaning house so my little brother can move all
his stuff back. I feel as if there's no room for me here anymore. Perhaps when
all of the high school students go back to school, there will be some job
openings for me. ^^ See, I'm trying to stay optimistic.
Anyways, enough about me.
How are you? Are your parents going to send your coat? Are you on good terms
with your flat-mate? Do you like your job? Are things going well overall?
^^
*hugs* I miss our evening chats. Perhaps
we'll figure out each other's schedules and work out some time to be on msn or
something. Take care of yourself and I hope you write me back soon! *hugs* Bye!
I been off MT for a while cos of school and stuff but yeah i would like to join
hellsing group. I just redid my page and was wondering where did u host all the
images and how did u do it... Well anyways ty for u help in advance...:)
Quote by LordEndervonHellsingHello
my Mistress ^^.
I was wondering how are you theese days? I hope that you are allright. Anyway, I
guess that my postcard didn't reached you, so I bought next one today, and I
think it is just as good as the previous one, and I am planning to send it on
monday. I hope that this time it will be delivered as it should be.
Anyway, I also got my scores today from matura, so now I can thank you for all
the wishing me well, since I passed . So thank
you, my Mistress . Also, I got quite good marks, most likely the best ones in school
(and that's not me bragging, that's fact ).
I hope that we will talk again, before I will ride abroad and will be severed
for some time from MT and you...
So now I will go, but I hope to hear from you soon .
Ja ne, my Mistress ^^.
merged: 06-30-2007 ~ 08:50am
By the way - your new layout, plus avatar and sig are just great ^^. Sorry that
I tell you that now, not earlier, but I hope it isn't too late .
..Wielkie u?ciski od mnie.. *horay* mój Lord *Ender* jest jed z lepszego
od jego szko?a (szkolny):*nya*: potrzebuj? (chcie?) ?eby mie? ten sam *grads*
lubi? was przy *uni* *T*_*T* ale moje ogólne stopnie (jako??) s? 7/8
czym? wokó? & (oni) za
wszelk? cen? korzystam z moich wakacjów teraz:) *omg* JA obydwa
rzeczywi?cie przyjemny rozmieszcza? parami (para) letnich butów dzi?
kocham & (oni) tak dalece
*don*`*t* poznaj? jaki (co) mówi? (przemawia?) o postkarcie..JA `*ved*
dla tego demaskowa? ale przypuszczam co to by?o zagubione (zgubiony) po drodze
*u*_*u* *T*_*T* JA rzeczywi?cie brak (potrzeba) do wi?ksza ilo?? (bardziej;
wi?cej) od Rumunii po prostu (dopiero co) inny dzie? przy ludziach (lud)
TELEWIZJI mówi?y o cenach przy niektórych po?ytkach które
b?d? rosn?? (uprawia?; stawa? si?) wy b?dzie (wola) prawdopodobnie *wander*
dlaczego ten tekst jest w polskim przypuszczeniu co JA `*ved* znajdowa?
*translator*
merged: 07-08-2007 ~ 02:33am
OMEDETOUD for your success my dear Lord Ender I am proud of you #hugs# I am sure
that you will manage to do your best
you are a guy full of resources I also
hope that that next year me and my family will go to Amsterdam
for the chance of a better life
I always enjoy chating with you so because of that I miss you already
hope that we can share some impressions soon #big hugs#
^^ I made your guestbook page sparkle. Oh, no...
now your page is girly...
I shall corrupt your page as long as I am able to. I'm in a
good mood today. I hope it stays that way. I have
even tagged all of my friends on my friendslist to see how they all are too.
I've had some time today to say hello to each and every one of them (on msn or
their guesbooks). Perhaps we'll talk later. have a nice evening... even if we do
not get to talk. *hugs* Bye!
hehe hallo Ender-san ^^ i know i'm pretty late on replying your favs ut i was
too usy latly gomene ^^
ut i really apreciated it
you don't know whow happy you've made me!
so i wanted to give you this ^^
Yahooo! I only have a few more days of work and then i'll be free
.....Until my job starts.......
My comp is acting weird so i cant be long.
Just to tell you that i miss you my Master and that i feel really guilty that i
haven't written to you in such a long time. Please forgive me!*big puppy
eves*
Oh and please tell yothsothgoth that i miss her and will write as soon as my
comp stops making fun out of me.
Hello Iwo my sweet I haven`t
write to you in ages 1 week already o.O u_u gomenasai for not giving any sign of
life
I still did not receive your letter anyway
hope we will manage to exchange letters soon because I am curious about your
hand writing +_+
ha I`ved finished my exams..have I told you that I am going to uni with my mam
guess what we already finished one year *~* I`m so happy
my grandmother just camed to visit us..and shared some info about the rest of my
family from Ploiesti
one of my cousins will get married soon and she wants me and my bro/mam to come
to her weeding
I always liked weeding because people have fun I
remember when my grandfather dyed everyone was so sad I cryed a
lot then because I was influenced by my mam and grandmother
anyway I never had the chance to understand my grandfather o.O I cryed more when
my cat dyed 1 year ago u_u how can we be so attached by a cat..I am crazy
how is life ? here is hot and I managed to get used with the heat..I actually
like it now..
wops have I told you about my new group is quite a success in 5 days we managed to gather
a lot of members
my associate is Yui a new talented MT member she made
a great job in adding some things on the club
+ who can resist to the work of Carnelian
must go now my back hurts a little when I stay in my room at the laptop..I have
a small chair..and I must stay a little inclined.. ^_~
hope to hear from you soon...some news ..and perhaps your voice..via messenger
The last straw has been broken. I do not understand why everything is the way it
is, but... it still is. So. I am alone. I think I just got dumped by my
boyfriend. I don't even know. He wouldn't even tell me. We don't get to
see each other but once a month at most. Its kind of a ghost relationship. He
tells me he has no other friends but me. I tell him he needs to get out with
friends and do things. He doesn't seem interested in getting friends. If I go
out with friends, he's "lonely" and is upset that I've
"ignored" him.
When you spend 5 years with someone who doesn't know what you'd want for your
birthday, doesn't talk to you about their past, and gets upset/depressed if you
accidently forget to call them... what kind of relationship is that?! I called
him a little late (10pm), he's mad at me... sleepy... doesn't want to talk. Then
doesn't call the next day... then I see him online... but he doesn't talk then
either. He just said, "I don't know what I am." Then I said, " I
don't know what I am either." Then he leaves. I told him he should let me
know if he's upset with me... he doesn't even say that.
Perhaps my priorities aren't straight. Perhaps I've been used all this time...
because we were both lonely... I don't know. I asked what he and I were... what
could I call us... he doesn't know. 5 years, and we don't know... anything...
about each other. He was my first boyfriend. Hell, I don't even know if we're broken
up or not. I don't know anything at all. This is my week from hell... and I
ranted again. Dammit.
I'm not "sick" like you said. I'm hurt. There is a difference.
merged: 06-19-2007 ~ 09:29am
(I sent this link to Diana too!)
I was looking around and I stumbled upon these in the Hellsing Community at
LiveJournal. I saw these and thought I should share them. Enjoy! Cute
Hellsing Dolls and Sprites!
nya
and a lot of hugs to you my Lord..ha I have a god day even if tomorrow I got
another exam
about your smg yah in
a short time not too many interesting things happen so don`t fell obliged to
write to me..
I`m happy that you have the chance to follow your plans now in a short
time..I`ved listend at the TV that Englad has restrictions only for the new
state members of UE
like we romanians and bulgarians anyway I
don`t have any intention to go to work in Engladn perhaps just to visit it
life can and would be better..for a lot of MT members this community and the
internet in general is like refuge..
but I`m happy that I have here the possibility to create and to make such good
friends...lately I`m wathing a lot of new anime series
did youn know that Devil May Cry is an anime now too...Dante is so damn
cool..I`ved seen the first episode and I sed to my self WOW O.o cool
I`ved read what yothsothgoth has write to you..poor girl being sick and all
someone must cheer her up
:3 :3 :3 ja ne dear
merged: 06-15-2007 ~ 10:55pm
haha did I managed to scare you with the new song from my page..yay Dante *~* is
now an anime character
now about your wallpaper..the bg looks great to me I like it a lot
now about the characters..perhaps it will be a good idea if you will like to use
a colored scan..not from manga MT
mods seam to have something with that
anyway let me give you some tips..about the edges of a copyed picture
ok first copy the picture then paste it where you want to the bg..and after that
look for Edit and chose stroke..and it will add an extra bored to your image..a
dark color would be good
an another thing you can treat the img like a text..because you can add all the
effects that a test can have
ex ..anew layout for my first group on MT http://lovingayashi-no-ceres.minitokyo.net/
is like she is shining
Ok... sorry about having to leave so quickly. I got yelled at and guilted into
getting the hell off of the computer immediately. I think I need to move out of
the house... but I have nowhere to go. I'm going insane living with them.
I'm glad you have so much optimism... I'm jealous of that for sure.
I'm also kinda jealous of your new lease on life... that you are going out into
the world and are going to make something of yourself. Please don't
misunderstand me... I am very happy for you
getting a job and traveling abroad... that is TRUELY WONDERFUL. However, I
cannot see myself going anywhere right now, or ever... so I've found myself in a
little depression. I wish I had your optimism. I feel like I can't do anything
right... or fast enough... or good enough... for anyone. I can't seem to make
anyone here happy.
I honestly haven't slept or eaten right or much since I got sick. I don't know
if it was because I thought I was going to die because I hurt so bad... or if it
was because I felt like my parents didn't care. They did, but it was like...
this isn't a big deal... here, you're feeling better now... start cleaning house
again... I feel like I'm being used. I almost just want to take a walk... just
anywhere... away from here.
I really do hope you have a great interview tomorrow. Perhaps you can write me
and let me know how it went? Also, send me the pics you made too. I'd love to
see them, I just don't know when I'll come online for awhile. My parents don't
want me to be on the computer very much anymore... my mom doesn't like me having
online friends either. Since I still live with them, I should respect their
wishes... but I do not have to like it. I
enjoy my online friends, especially since I have quite a few now. I don't get to
have a social life at home... because I need to stay here and help my mom. All
my friends live elsewhere, and I have no way to see them. Like I said... I dont'
have a life... its an existance... until I can have something better.
Oh, I also wanted to thank you again... very much... for giving me the
Tchaikovsky music. I love it very much. I hope you have a good evening. Sorry
that I wrote so much... I hope you don't hate me for writing so much in your
guestbook... and that I talk too much about myself and my miserable existance...
omg... I sound emo... ...I feel
awful now...
Quote by LordEndervonHellsingTo
make people immortal and indestructible at wish. This way, suffering, wars,
everything that caused one man's inhumanity to other would no longer have any
meaning, since there would be no pain, no death and no gain from it. Therefore
any crimes, killing, wars would be meaningless (depsite the fact that they are
now) and it would give mankind some time to think over their doings.
Good awnser, as always. Have a nice evening/morning. Until later, my friend.
Quote: Hmm... How should I thank
you properly for the gift... You sure know how to please your servant . I guess
I'll go with the "I worship the earth you walk on" routine . So thank
you Mistress, you are great, and your wallpaper is tottaly great and awesome!
. I
don't really know how to thank you properly. So, again if there would be
anything you need from me, let me know .
(besides, I am trying to work on some gift for you as well... So you may expect
to get something like that from me too ).
nya I`m so very happy that you like the present..don`t worry it was not that
hard to make it..I`ved just gather a few pieces from some images that I had for
the bg..the hardest part was copying the girl..her hair
tormented me a little but the result camed out quite acceptable
now I am experimenting with some landscapes in Terragen here is a small sample
of what I`ved work on till now
it looks cool ei it looks like a bg made for a game
Quote: I got a new layout for
Maverick Hunters group and it looks really awesome . I hope
that I can get some more members for this group... But we'll see...
On the other hand, my planes got screwed up... It came out that we won't make it
with money and I can't go to university, at least not yet... So I am going
abroad, to England, and I will try to bting the rest of my family there too.
Then, perhaps I can study there in England. But for the rest of time that I will
be here, I will have some more free time so I think we can chat some more... I
will sure miss our voice chats for a while. But still, it is a good chance to
improve my life standards...
Yes I have seen that Mely May has write in your guest book announcing you that
she made the layout..I like her style only that the colors seam too dark to
me...I can`t see what people write there but the
design is nice...
now about going to England..hmmm do not know if it is the best choice..I know
from a friend of mine that is a doctor and lives in Norway that he went there to
work..as a doctor of course (btw he is asian)
and after a while he cammed back in Norway..don`t know what happend..but he was
not very happy about it
anyway I think that everything will be OK for you ^_^ better want to do
something with your life
I would not refuse the chance for a better life either.. even if I must go to
Holand to start a new one
till then I enjoy the time that we can speak and write to each other
I`m still waiting for your postcard I hate Romania and I`m sick of all the
things that they (the parliament) promise us and never accomplish
~_~ don`t worry my dear I am also optimist I want a better life for me and my
family and I will not stay like this..things must be done
I am dementing all kind of gossip that I am deceased
, I assure
everyone that this is only a temporal suspension. So do not worry, for I will be
back... In some time. In the meantime, be patient, please. I did not forgotten
about any of you, and of course it is nice to see that you didn't forgotten
about me either.
merged: 11-07-2007 ~ 06:20pm
, I assure
everyone that this is only a temporal suspension. So do not worry, for I will be
back... In some time. In the meantime, be patient, please. I did not forgotten
about any of you, and of course it is nice to see that you didn't forgotten
about me either.
I am dementing all kind of gossip that I am deceased
Hello^^ Just wanted too wish Happy Halloween to the Admin helping me out in Evangelion Queen
Ender-san?
It's been a pretty long time ^_^ Reading the other member's posts are starting to make me think of you as deceased :S I really hope that isn't the case. I hope you're doing well
Iwo I really hope that you will come back to us I for one miss you so much I haven`t seen you on messenger either
hope that things are ok and that the reason why you are not here is because you are having fun and minding your own life
don`t forget us and don`t forget your mistress I look at the lovely rose that you have sent me and always think of you #hugs#
my life is also a busy lately and I am happy to be more lively than usual
Where are you?
I miss you my friend. Hope you're doing alright and taking care of
yourself. I sent you a text message the other day... I don't know if you got it.
Did you get my letter? I got two from you. Thank you so much. 
I guess
I'll try to email you again later. Hope you're well. Miss you! Take care of
yourself and I hope you let me know you're alright soon. *hugs* Bye.
merged: 09-21-2007 ~ 11:35am
Hey. Just thought I'd stop by and say hello. Hope you're doing well. I've been working and working... I'm trying to keep up with all my groups, but it doesn't always work out that way.
Oh, my little brother got into a car accident tonight. A 16 year old girl ran a yield sign and hit my little brother and a girl he was riding in the car with. They are both alright, but it took them 4 hours in the hospital for a doctor to see him... it makes me so mad. Stupid doctors. What if he had broken something?! Argh... people here are so stupid. He just has a splint on his wrist... but I'm still kinda worried for him. I'm really glad that he's okay. It has really been such a weird night tonight. Oh well...
Hi
I want to ask you for some help.
I would really like to revived a group but don’t know how to. I don't know if I really should . . . I'm afraid I'd really offend the former administrator by doing so.
I know she said she was busy with school and everything but now she hasn't been on MT for eleven weeks and I would really like to see that group pretty and active again.
I got lots of ideas too but cant do a thing . . .
Could you help me?
*big puppy eyes*
Thanks for your time
Hello there my Lord Ender #hugs# well from when I`ved heard what happened to Sema
I haven`t been that active..today is my mam`s birthday so we had celebrated a little
a few days ago I went with some friends at a club and danced a little so now as a result my bones hurt
but I managed to have some fun and I am happy
don`t know life is a little strange lately after we had here a terrible hear like 29 degrees in the house at night o.O
now it is raining and we have problems with the trees that are falling because in the middle they are empty
o yes lately I watch some TV most of the groups are quiet
and I miss you a lot I miss the fun that we had together even if I know that you have now the chance to have a better life
I am really happy for you my dear I hope that one of this days I can catch you online so we can share some news till then many hugs and do your best my cute
Hello my wonderful friend. ^^ I hope things are going well for you in England. Perhaps it will even stop raining for a little while.
Its about
time I wrote you, right? I'm so slow anymore about everything. Sorry about that.
You asked me awhile back how I was... Right now, here at the house is crazy. My little brother decided to move back into the house, so there's even less room now; every weekend I'm hardly at home anymore since my older brother needs me to babysit for a week at a time
; my
grandfather might also have diabetes (my father has it) but my grandfather
doesn't seem to care anything about it; its been so hot here I can't sleep
anymore; and I still don't have a real, steady job yet.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
This
week I'm moving my stuff and cleaning house so my little brother can move all
his stuff back. I feel as if there's no room for me here anymore. Perhaps when
all of the high school students go back to school, there will be some job
openings for me. ^^ See, I'm trying to stay optimistic. 
Anyways, enough about me. 
How are you? Are your parents going to send your coat? Are you on good terms with your flat-mate? Do you like your job? Are things going well overall? ^^
*hugs* I miss our evening chats.
Perhaps
we'll figure out each other's schedules and work out some time to be on msn or
something. 
Take care of yourself and I hope you write me back soon! *hugs* Bye!
blink blink omg sugoi so you made it #Di jumps around like a mad kid# CONGRATULATIONS my dear Lord
I am so happy for you
the
husband of my cousin was in England a week ago
perhaps in the future I can visit you
I also
want to see the how life is there #big big hugs#
sorry that I haven`t answer to you sooner I was sick for a few days and here it was very hot
did not had any life in me to write back
I
am proud of you my immortal
think assertive my twisted optimist..and things will go your way
HI
I been off MT for a while cos of school and stuff but yeah i would like to join hellsing group. I just redid my page and was wondering where did u host all the images and how did u do it... Well anyways ty for u help in advance...:)
..Wielkie u?ciski od mnie.. *horay* mój Lord *Ender* jest jed z lepszego od jego szko?a (szkolny):*nya*: potrzebuj? (chcie?) ?eby mie? ten sam *grads* lubi? was przy *uni* *T*_*T* ale moje ogólne stopnie (jako??) s? 7/8 czym? wokó? & (oni)
merged: 07-08-2007 ~ 02:33am
I also
hope that that next year me and my family will go to Amsterdam
OMEDETOUD for your success my dear Lord Ender I am proud of you #hugs# I am sure that you will manage to do your best
you are a guy full of resources
for the chance of a better life
I always enjoy chating with you so because of that I miss you already
hope that we can share some impressions soon #big hugs#
now not so late ^^
^^ I made your guestbook page sparkle.
Oh, no...
now your page is girly... 
I'm in a
good mood today. I hope it stays that way. 
I have
even tagged all of my friends on my friendslist to see how they all are too.
I've had some time today to say hello to each and every one of them (on msn or
their guesbooks). Perhaps we'll talk later. have a nice evening... even if we do
not get to talk. *hugs* Bye! 
I shall corrupt your page as long as I am able to.
hehe hallo Ender-san ^^ i know i'm pretty late on replying your favs ut i was too usy latly gomene ^^
ut i really apreciated it
you don't know whow happy you've made me!
so i wanted to give you this ^^
Yahooo! I only have a few more days of work and then i'll be free
.....Until my job starts.......
My comp is acting weird so i cant be long.
Just to tell you that i miss you my Master and that i feel really guilty that i haven't written to you in such a long time. Please forgive me!*big puppy eves*
Oh and please tell yothsothgoth that i miss her and will write as soon as my comp stops making fun out of me.
Bye!
Hello Iwo my sweet
I haven`t
write to you in ages 1 week already o.O u_u gomenasai for not giving any sign of
life
anyway
hope we will manage to exchange letters soon because I am curious about your
hand writing +_+
I still did not receive your letter
ha I`ved finished my exams..have I told you that I am going to uni with my mam guess what we already finished one year *~* I`m so happy
I
remember when my grandfather dyed everyone was so sad 
I cryed a
lot then because I was influenced by my mam and grandmother
my grandmother just camed to visit us..and shared some info about the rest of my family from Ploiesti
one of my cousins will get married soon and she wants me and my bro/mam to come to her weeding
I always liked weeding because people have fun
anyway I never had the chance to understand my grandfather o.O I cryed more when my cat dyed 1 year ago u_u how can we be so attached by a cat..I am crazy
is quite a success in 5 days we managed to gather
a lot of members
she made
a great job in adding some things on the club 
how is life ? here is hot and I managed to get used with the heat..I actually like it now..
wops have I told you about my new group
my associate is Yui a new talented MT member
+ who can resist to the work of Carnelian
must go now my back hurts a little when I stay in my room at the laptop..I have a small chair..and I must stay a little inclined.. ^_~
hope to hear from you soon...some news ..and perhaps your voice..via messenger
How have you been? I haven't heard from you in a while.
The last straw has been broken. I do not understand why everything is the way it is, but... it still is. So. I am alone. I think I just got dumped by my boyfriend.
I don't even know. He wouldn't even tell me. We don't get to
see each other but once a month at most. Its kind of a ghost relationship. He
tells me he has no other friends but me. I tell him he needs to get out with
friends and do things. He doesn't seem interested in getting friends. If I go
out with friends, he's "lonely" and is upset that I've
"ignored" him.
When you spend 5 years with someone who doesn't know what you'd want for your birthday, doesn't talk to you about their past, and gets upset/depressed if you accidently forget to call them... what kind of relationship is that?! I called him a little late (10pm), he's mad at me... sleepy... doesn't want to talk. Then doesn't call the next day... then I see him online... but he doesn't talk then either. He just said, "I don't know what I am." Then I said, " I don't know what I am either." Then he leaves. I told him he should let me know if he's upset with me... he doesn't even say that.
Perhaps my priorities aren't straight. Perhaps I've been used all this time... because we were both lonely... I don't know. I asked what he and I were... what could I call us... he doesn't know. 5 years, and we don't know... anything... about each other.
He was my first boyfriend. Hell, I don't even know if we're broken
up or not. I don't know anything at all. This is my week from hell... and I
ranted again. Dammit.
I'm not "sick" like you said. I'm hurt. There is a difference.
merged: 06-19-2007 ~ 09:29am
Cute
Hellsing Dolls and Sprites!
(I sent this link to Diana too!)
I was looking around and I stumbled upon these in the Hellsing Community at LiveJournal. I saw these and thought I should share them. Enjoy!
They even have a nice Pip and Anderson one!
about your smg yah
I`m happy that you have the chance to follow your plans now in a short time..I`ved listend at the TV that Englad has restrictions only for the new state members of UE
like we romanians and bulgarians
life can and would be better..for a lot of MT members this community and the internet in general is like refuge..
but I`m happy that I have here the possibility to create and to make such good friends...lately I`m wathing a lot of new anime series
did youn know that Devil May Cry is an anime now too...Dante is so damn cool..I`ved seen the first episode and I sed to my self WOW O.o cool
I`ved read what yothsothgoth has write to you..poor girl being sick and all someone must cheer her up
:3 :3 :3 ja ne dear
merged: 06-15-2007 ~ 10:55pm
haha did I managed to scare you with the new song from my page..yay Dante *~* is now an anime character
now about your wallpaper..the bg looks great to me I like it a lot
now about the characters..perhaps it will be a good idea if you will like to use a colored scan..not from manga
anyway let me give you some tips..about the edges of a copyed picture
ok first copy the picture then paste it where you want to the bg..and after that look for Edit and chose stroke..and it will add an extra bored to your image..a dark color would be good
an another thing you can treat the img like a text..because you can add all the effects that a test can have
ex ..anew layout for my first group on MT http://lovingayashi-no-ceres.minitokyo.net/ is like she is shining
Ok... sorry about having to leave so quickly. I got yelled at and guilted into getting the hell off of the computer immediately. I think I need to move out of the house... but I have nowhere to go. I'm going insane living with them.
I'm glad you have so much optimism... I'm jealous of that for sure.
I'm also kinda jealous of your new lease on life... that you are going out into
the world and are going to make something of yourself. Please don't
misunderstand me... I am very happy for you
getting a job and traveling abroad... that is TRUELY WONDERFUL. 
However, I
cannot see myself going anywhere right now, or ever... so I've found myself in a
little depression. I wish I had your optimism. I feel like I can't do anything
right... or fast enough... or good enough... for anyone. I can't seem to make
anyone here happy. 
I honestly haven't slept or eaten right or much since I got sick. I don't know if it was because I thought I was going to die because I hurt so bad... or if it was because I felt like my parents didn't care. They did, but it was like... this isn't a big deal... here, you're feeling better now... start cleaning house again...
I feel like I'm being used. I almost just want to take a walk... just
anywhere... away from here.
I really do hope you have a great interview tomorrow. Perhaps you can write me and let me know how it went? Also, send me the pics you made too. I'd love to see them, I just don't know when I'll come online for awhile. My parents don't want me to be on the computer very much anymore... my mom doesn't like me having online friends either. Since I still live with them, I should respect their wishes... but I do not have to like it.
I
enjoy my online friends, especially since I have quite a few now. I don't get to
have a social life at home... because I need to stay here and help my mom. All
my friends live elsewhere, and I have no way to see them. Like I said... I dont'
have a life... its an existance... until I can have something better.
Oh, I also wanted to thank you again... very much... for giving me the Tchaikovsky music. I love it very much. I hope you have a good evening. Sorry that I wrote so much... I hope you don't hate me for writing so much in your guestbook... and that I talk too much about myself and my miserable existance... omg... I sound emo...
...I feel
awful now...
thanks for the comment on my thread.
finally someone that understands what i am trying to say. lol
Hello oh great... LEH 0.0 well. Hello. ok... goodbye... ps- i love disturbed:)
ok
bye:)
Good awnser, as always. Have a nice evening/morning. Until later, my friend.
nya I`m so very happy that you like the present..don`t worry it was not that hard to make it..I`ved just gather a few pieces from some images that I had for the bg..the hardest part was copying the girl..her hair
tormented me a little but the result camed out quite acceptable 
it looks like a bg made for a game 
now I am experimenting with some landscapes in Terragen here is a small sample of what I`ved work on till now
it looks cool ei
Yes I have seen that Mely May has write in your guest book announcing you that she made the layout..I like her style only that the colors seam too dark to me...I can`t see what people write there
but the
design is nice...
now about going to England..hmmm do not know if it is the best choice..I know from a friend of mine that is a doctor and lives in Norway that he went there to work..as a doctor of course (btw he is asian)
and after a while he cammed back in Norway..don`t know what happend..but he was not very happy about it
anyway I think that everything will be OK for you ^_^ better want to do something with your life
I would not refuse the chance for a better life either.. even if I must go to Holand to start a new one
till then I enjoy the time that we can speak and write to each other
I`m still waiting for your postcard I hate Romania and I`m sick of all the things that they (the parliament) promise us and never accomplish
~_~ don`t worry my dear I am also optimist I want a better life for me and my family and I will not stay like this..things must be done
#hugles#