Quote by 95ElizabethYo.... I have
come to take you to a place... A far place.... Unable to return.... Death....
ROLLER-COASTER! TICKETS! THAT WOULD BE 20 DOLLARS PLEASE! THANK YOU! *rika
becomes bankrupt* THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND DONATION!
*stick tongue out*
i am not become bankrupt yet.
I put most of my money somewhere
You never get it! Mwuhahahaha! *sigh*
Quote by 95Elizabeth...................
Humans are so stupid........ Selfish and cruel.........
Vatican...... What's the point of living?
What's the point if you're friends betray you again and again....
What's the point if everyone is so cruel to you.....
What's the point if your life is so sad......
Sometimes I wish I was emotionless then I won't feel pain, sadness or
anything......
Sometimes I wish I was dead.......
But I know just wishing won't do any good.... Wishes don't come true
anyway.....
Sorry I'm in a bad mood...... Life is just so cruel....... But I don't regret
living and meeting you and my friends...
But I know you and everyone else are going to leave one day.......
How was your day?
Mmm...... I don't know actually
I never found the answer for my life
But........ I'm trying my best at the moment to try my hardest for my friends
and family
I make the same mistakes......
I keep forgiving people who'll betray me again....... I keep making friends when
I know that I'll eventually have to say goodbye
But...... maybe it's because there are probably people who feel the same
way........ that the world is cruel........ people who wants everything to be
over.......
I feel that way too........ so I don't have to feel the pain over and over
So I don't have to realize every single day that my life is........
hopeless
Wishes don't come true? So there's no use praying?
I'm sorry Elizabeth
It seems that I don't really help much........
Sorry...........
Don't say that Elizabeth because I'll try my best to be here for you when you
need me
Because you are someone really important to me
My day wasn't that bad
School is over....... exams went well, it kept raining and raining........
I stood in the rain for few minutes.........
Nothing else really happened
How about you Elizabeth? How was your day?
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
........ I wish your life was happy.......
I'm so glad that you think I'm important......
No one ever said that to me.... Not my parents... Not anyone....
Sometimes I feel like you're the only one who cares.....
The only one that will be sad if I die....
The only one who loves me for me.....
We all make the same mistakes and not knowing how much we're hurting someone
else.....
I have to admit even I'm selfish......
They always say they will protect the people important to them and think that
they are the heroes....
But they forgot about everyone else.... We're all humans...
No one is more important.... But if you let me choose if you will die or someone
I don't know dies...
I can't myself but let you live and the other person die...
Forgetting that that person has people that care about him/her.....
There really is no right or wrong.....
Only what you choose....
I'm glad your exams went well....
Rain... It's so calming.....
My day... My day was fine....
It was raining too.... I was sitting on a chair and singing to the
rain.....
I truely wish for your happiness as well
You are someone very dear to me.........
I'm sure that a lot of people care for you and love you
Really...... I believe that
We're all a bit selfish and stupid sometimes
Acutally I'm not too sure either......... if I would chose you or someone
else....... I think I would really want you to live...... but I think I would
also want the other person to live as well...........
But I would give you my life.......
Yeah I got perfect on my biology exam ^^
And A on all my exams
I'm not sure about history though....... that was really hard
I wish it would rain everyday.........
Singing to the rain........ I've sang to my puppies before but never to the
rain
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
I can't tell you how happy i am to have met you....
I guess no one is perfect.... We're all a bit cruel... But I wish we were not
cruel.....
I sing to almost everything.... I thank the rain for providing is water....
I thank the earth for giving us a place to live....
I thank the flowers for giving us beauty....
I'm so glad you got good grades! ^_^
Me too
So~~ happy though
Wow you sound very thankful for everything
I usually am not
Thank you ^^
I guess I'm better at studying then I thought
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 09:38pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Many people like you alot......
i'm so happy for you ^_^
No one really likes me...... Maybe I'm too moody and cold-hearted.....
........ I'm so mean......... I'm only nice to you...... I'm so mean.......
But I really hate change..... Cause when I was sweet many people used to think I
was weak and bully me....
But now that I'm more cold hearted they don't pick on me as much......
I am happy for you that you've got so many new friends so don't take me
wrong!
I'm not jealous or anything!
It's just....... I really feel that my friends are not as much anymore....
lilwolfmaiden doesn't talk to me much...
Bumble-bee has no interest in me...
Rai is not active....
rorenzu is bored of me....
lacus and krys are not here...
orpheuz was never really a friend....
tenko is not active....
There are just so many problems with my life.....
Well but I am glad that your life is better! ^_^ I think it is..... Since you
have more friends and seem more happy....
You know I am happy for you and yet I'm sad....
Not because I have less friends but cause you don't seem very happy....
Wait... That doesn't make sense......
.......... I hope your life will be happy......
Mmm........ people do?
Sometimes I wonder why people like me....... but I guess that's good
I see....... mmm....... I thought that you were nice even when I first met
you
Just............ suffering pain inside.......
I know you aren't jealous because you have very good friends as well ^^
Well....... umm
Lilwolf seemed to be kinda busy
Bumble-Bee does like you
Rai........ not active
Rorenzu seemed like she does like you
mmm yeah lacus and krys not active
Orpheuz sounded like he liked you as well
Tenko...... yeah not that active
Yeah everybody has a lot of problems with their lives........ everybody
And everybody seems so sad.........
Thank you very much ^^
Well it's because......... I have to be the one to choose that I am happy or
not
And I keep doubting....... if this is really happiness or if I can really be
happy
Sorry.........
I hope your life will be peaceful and full of joy as well ^^
............. You're.... You're so worrying....
You are clumsy, you keep doubting, you're just.... Really.....
I always feel like you'll hurt yourself if you were left alone for even just one
day......
You're really even more worrying then a 10 year old....
And you make 10 year olds worry about you......
I'm sure one day you'll find someone that would make life so much better for
you! ^_^
So enjoy you life while it last and remember every single moment of your time
with the people you love! ^_^
I think I've said that before..... Well that's cause I need to reming you again
and again!
Sometimes I feel like your mother!
Uuu...... umm sorry
I'm never that responsible........ and I never do anything right
Yeah I hope I do because I heard that I can't adopt my children unless I get
married........
Well......... mm......... if I have to get married, I guess I would want someone
who loves me and who I can love
Thanks for the reminder
My mother?......... Uuu........ sorry
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:23pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Yes yes! I'm used to reminding you by now! You have such bad memory!
Or maybe not mother..... I seem like...... Your note book that you read if you
forget something.....
And there is no need of saying sorry......
Uuu....... bad memory isn't too fun
Notebook........ I named my notebook Elizabeth?......
weird
But I want to say sorry......... I wanna I wanna!
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:32pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
.......... Are you sick....? Well I guess not.... You know if I forget
you're 14 you're kinda cute! ^_^
I don't feel sick or anything........
What you talking about Eli-chan?
Me no cute! Me angry and mean!
*hiss* Meow!~
Me scratch you if you say that again
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:48pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
EH! You're so cute! You're even cuter! You know I change my mind! I don't mind
hugging you! You're so cute!
Noo!
I'm not your teddy bear!
Now I bite you if you say that again!
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 11:09pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Ah! You're so cute! Cute little vatican sama!
Okay...... I surrender
But why do people call me cute? Even Sara said that
I told her not to but she didn't listen.........
Oh well
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 11:31pm
I'm gonna go to bed not Eli-chan
Sooo~~ sleepy
Good night...... pleasant dreams and see you tomorrow
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 07:34pm
Quote by 95ElizabethSorry if you
don't like me calling you cute.... Sorry.....
Bye and hi!
How was your day?
I don't mind if it's from you
My day.......... didn't really start off great
I was keep thinking about what Marisa said in the PM all day........
I hung around MT almost all day
Now I'm trying to make a wallpaper..........
How about you? How was your day?
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:16pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Marisa? Who's she?
My day.... It was okay....... I went to my friend's birthday party and I spent
almost all my time in a corner humming and thinking if you're sad...... You say
you're happy when you're not...... It makes it hard to know if you're sad or
not.....
Marisa......... Marmaladeboyfan........
I don't want to write all that out so I use her name........ and I prefer her
name over Marmalade something
I see...... I don't like birthday parties....... that's why I never had
one.......
And I've only been to one or two of them
I don't know either really.......... Most of the times when I'm happy, is when
I'm with you......... and usually I don't really feel anything........
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:45pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I see.......
I feel happy when I'm with you too......
Everyone else is....... Cruel......
But there is so much we haven't seen of this world so we shouldn't say if we
hate or like this world yet...
We know this world is cruel but there are people that care for us.....
Like I said.... The words of the people that don't care about us are not the
words we should care about but the ones that care for us.....
Even though no one wants to remember sadness but I think we should....
Forgetting about something is like leaving a part of you behind....
We feel pain and feel happiness...... That's what living your life to the
fullest means to me.....
Your happiness is the best present you could give me.....
I'll treasure every single moment with you and the people I care for.... Good or
bad.....
I hope your life will be better......
It's not time for you to die yet as you haven't fulfilled life.....
Haven't fulfilled to find the person most important to you that would care for
you and you care for her the same! ^_^
Well it doesn't have to be marridge and stuff! Just the person most important to
you!
I wish you the best of luck in your life!
We only live once so make the best of it and respect your life and the life of
others!
We may be selfish sometimes..... We choose the people we love and forget about
the other person that has people who care for him/her.....
Even the kindest person will be a bit mean....
No one's perfect right? ^_^
Yeah guess we shouldn't........
You're right........ so very right........
I also wish that your life gets better day by day
Happier every single second
Most important person.......... guess it doesn't really have to be a
"she" but I don't know.........
At this moment the most important person is you....... although I feel that my
other friends are also very so important
But I don't feel that my life is about finding someone.........
Yes....... I have to admit that we're only humans.........
Thank you for reminding me ^^
...........
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:58pm
Quote by 95ElizabethYou really take
your friends as very important people! ^_^
But please don't sacrafice too much for them....
Like I've said...... They'll be sad knowing you sacraficed so much for them that
caused something bad for you....
Well I guess you don't have to find the most important person!
You have your most important people around you anyway! ^_^
For me I want to find my purpose in life.....
Yes yes! I'm like your note book!
I have to repeat what I say again and again cause you forget!
But I just hope I helped......
I don't sacrifice too much.........
Most of the times I can't do much except try to cheer them on
Yeah I already do have the people I love around me....... even if I can't see
them
Purpose in life.......... I see
Sorry.........
Yeah you do always help
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
.................
I'm glad I helped! ^_^
Though I still don't think I'm much of a use except for my ability to talk too
much!
I can't see you but I'm sure you're a nice person even if you act mean!
I don't take you as someone mean even though you say
so!
You're much more useful than just talking because you know exactly what to say
for situation..........
I see.........
You know something Elizabeth?............
I think you're weird as well
But thank you
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 09:20pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I do? Well I glad I do! ^_^
You know! I always say people are weird and they say "You're really weird
and you think I'm weird!"!
Yes yes! Humanlings are really odd!
I call people weird too
All the time...... but I don't remember what they said back........
You are weird as Elizabeth not as a human
Umm......... sorry I called you weird
I meant special ^^
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
It's okay! ^_^
I don't mind!
You're special too!
I wish I could stay with you forever! Though I know that's not possible!
I'm sure you have you life to live and I'll just get in your way!
By the way I'm going to put a pic that I think you'll like next week as the pic
of the week! ^_^
Hehe thank you
Me too! I want to be with you forever and ever until time ends
What are you talking about Elizabeth?....... You've only made my life better so
there is no way that you can get in my way
I wonder what that is............
Oh..... But I'm going to Korea next week.........
Mmm.......... not good
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
Really? Thanks!
AHHH! I'LL MISS YOU!
I'LL MAKE IT THE PIC OF THE WEEK WHEN YOU'RE BACK
THEN!
Of course really!
Me too
Airplane is always so fun to ride..... but only when the sun is up because I
can't see the clouds at night
Okay thank you ^^
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 11:24pm
I know that you're already offline but wanted to say goodnight ^^
Hope you have pleasant dreams and I'll see you again!
merged: 05-27-2007 ~ 08:23pm
Quote by 95ElizabethVATICAN VATICAN
VATICAN!
You're so sweet!
I hate to say but...... You're the most important person to me!
I blame it on you! You made me say something nice! I don't even say that to my
mother!
It feels so weird! It's the first time I said that! I blame it on you!
So how was your day? ^_^
Yay!
Me too! You're the most important person to me............ Although I feel
terrible to say this because of my other friends but don't care
Uuuu........ Sorry......... NOT
Hehe...... you always say nice things anyway
My day...... went to church..... MT, took a nap....... MT..... making
wallpaper...... MT and still here!
How about you?..... How was your day?
merged: 05-27-2007 ~ 09:11pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI say nice
things? Mmm... I'm rather selfish..... Somehow I only feel like being nice to
you....
Everyone else doesn't understand me.....
They take me for granted and they are so cruel.....
I do like my friends on MT but.... They will leave sooner or later....
I can see that by thinking of my past friends.....
They slowly loose interest in me and leave.....
MT is nice but sometimes it's also pain.....
When I'm with you I'm always telling myself you won't leave and will be
different from everyone else...
But I know you will leave sometime..... You'll loose interest in me and mix with
some other better people.....
Please don't forget about the rest of your friends......
I understand how it feels so please don't forget about anyone cause of
me......
Though I don't think I'm that important to you....
You probally just be nice to me cause you don't want to hurt my feelings....
But having you around makes me happy even though I know you'll leave.....
It just makes me feel better to believe in my dreams......
Anyway you make me sing better when I try to sing happy songs! ^_^
I just have to think of you and hope you'll be with me forever! ^_^
So thank you again! For everything..... ^_^
You really do come on MT alot....
My day was fine! ^_^ I had my flute, singing and piano lessons and I sang alot!
^_^
The teacher said I improved on my singing! ^_^ She says I sing with more feeling
now! ^_^
Thanks for asking! ^_^
You know! I now have two happiest days of my life!
One was when it was the first time I sang on stage.... I remember.....
I was really scared and sang with a soft voice but then I remembered my dream
and I sang okay I guess! ^_^
Everyone even the teachers were shocked that I could sing and they clapped
really loud at the end!
I won first prize and from that day I was the best singer in school.... Everyone
knew my name....
But..... After two years.... I kept wanting to win cause I thought it was the
only way I could get friends...
And it was true..... I only thought of wining and I started to sing worst each
time....
I slowly got lower and lower marks and lost.......
Someone else was more well known.... Everyone started forgetting about
me.....
They didn't remember my name anymore...... They stopped playing with me.....
It was great while it lasted.... But since then and didn't sing and refused to
come out of my room for a week and only cried.....
I hated myself and the world so much and tried to destroy my voice and kill
myself....
But thank you! ^_^ You made me much more happy!
I started to sing again when you said that I sure like singing! ^_^
Thank you for always being there for me! ^_^
I changed to a new school and no one knows I can sing!
But I'll do my best in the contest they will be having every year! ^_^
I'll sing with the best voice I have! Not to win but to touch the hearts of
others! ^_^
Thank you for showing me a more beautiful world! ^_^
Even if you do leave! I'll still remember you forever! ^_^
Oooops! I talked too much again! Sorry!
Yeah you do say nice things......... everybody is selfish anyway.........
People are so mean........ a lot of times.........
I see....... yeah it's really hard to sometimes see my friends leave even on
MT.......
You meanie! Don't say that
I'm not going to leave! Even if you tell me to go away forever and even if you
say you hate me, I'm not going to leave you! Well actually....... I will if you
want me to leave but I won't leave just because I want to unless I die or MT
shuts down and we have no other way of communication left........
I'm not going to forget anyone so don't worry too much silly.........
Well even if you do feel that way, I think you are important
And that doesn't make sense because I always hurt people's feelings........
I say mean things here and there to other people and sometimes even to my
friends.........
So that's not true! You are important
Please believe me
I don't want to be a liar
That's great!
I know that you'll keep improving day by day
I see...... that happened to me too.......
When I did very good at something, people approached me but when they found out
I wasn't so great, they just all left.........
But I knew already........ those people weren't my real friends and will never
be.......
I'm the happiest whenever I'm with you ^^
So I guess that means I'm happy everyday
You should keep pursuing your dreams........ and I believe that you can achieve
anything because you're Elizabeth
And thank you....... so very much for being with me ^^
New school........ I'm always afraid of new things....... because I had to say
goodbye to my old friends so many times.......... I was so scared....... every
time I moved.......
That I promised myself that I would never make friends again...... so that when
I moved again, I wouldn't cry........ but I did make friends
And I cried again....... but I think it was worth it..........
But now it seems that I don't really have friends........ in real life........
but it's ok because I feel secure and safe whenever I think you are
there........
Always give it your best Elizabeth! I'm always cheering for you ^^
And I'M NOT GOING TO LEAVE!~!~!
You're the most important person to me! You're more important then me!
Though I do feel really bad that not my other friends are the most important
people....
But I can't stop being too selfish! You're just the most important person to
me!
I don't know why but you just are!
I'm so happy when I hear you say you're not going to leave!
Promise!
If you do leave I'll probally stop singing and get sick and kill myself!
That was what happened when I lost for my singing contest!
Singing is the most important thing to me but I can't believe I'm saying
this!
You're more important then singing! I rather loose my voice then let you
die!
Uuu....... you're making me blush
Me too! I think you're the most important person to me right now....... my other
friends are so very close and dear to me but you are number 1 now
Yeah I promise
I won't leave you....... ever
NOOOO! You can't do that........ please
Now I'm obligated to stay with you because I can't let you do that
Singing contest........ I see........
Actually....... I've cried a few times when I didn't do so well with
contests......
I never expected myself to win....... but even then, I was so angry at myself
because I expected myself to do better........
But....... now I don't really mind...... I'll get what I worked for and there's
nothing I can change about it
I'm soooo glad that you said that........ but I still think you should reach for
your dream
We'll all eventually disappear........ and I will always be here and cheer you
on ^^
So always do your best whether you are singing or doing anything
else..........
So how was your day Elizabeth? ^^
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Good night princess.........
Sleep well..... pleasant dreams and I will see you tomorrow..... ^^
Who asked you to blush
Well I know you will have someone more important to you one day but the
happiness you gave me will always be remembered! ^_^
I guess you don't remember but that was what you told me!
It's okay! You can leave or whatever if you want^_^
I'll be happy as long as you're happy!
If I truely think you're the most important I would be happy if you're happy no
matter what you do! ^_^
Yeah you're right as always!
I will still hold on to my dream!
I want to sing the best song I can and reach people's hearts!
We will try our best to fulfil our dreams until the day we finally meet! ^_^
I'll always remember you when I look at the moon! ^_^
By the way... I didn't ask you what was you dream...
So what is your dream? ^_^
My day was okay I guess!
We had sports today and I played net ball as usual!
That's the only sports I'm good at! I always score at least one goal when I
play! ^_^
We'll have a competition soon! ^_^
I'm going to sing! What's your favourite song by the way? ^_^
How was your day?
Am I talking and asking too much again? Sorry....
Wow...... I just came back online and found your message
Well you made me blush
I don't need anybody more important Elizabeth.......... because you'll always be
a priceless treasure in my heart....... forever and ever
Because I already consider you......... like part of my family
Hmmm I see......
But I don't want to leave
I don't feel too happy when I think that I can't see you........
But thank you ^^
Yes you should........ sing for yourself and every single person.........
I believe that you can move people's hearts with your songs ^^
My dream......... right at this moment, I want to be a writer...... and a
graffic artist for animes and stuff
Because anime always gave me hope and dream when I didn't have hope..... when I
was alone
So I think I want to give other kids happiness as well by helping to make
animes
Net ball I see........ I'm not sure what kind of sport that is but sounds
interesting
Wow you're going to sing
Wish I can go to listen to your songs TT____TT
My favorite song? I have sooo~~ many but mmm....... my top few favorite songs
would be Hajimari no Hi, Yuugao, Kimi ga Iru, Suki Dakara, Find the way,
Chiisana Mahou and a lot more.......
My day?........ very normal
MT, read some books, took a nap, MT, watched some anime and MT again
No no you don't talk too much at all
Please feel free to write more because I find it fun to read what you write
^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 08:54pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
You're so sweet! ^_^
But I'm really sure you'll find someone more important!
Anyway I can't do much for you...
I'm always getting in the way....
THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME!
I'LL TRY MY BEST AND I HOPE YOUR DREAM COMES TRUE!
writer and graffic artist... I'm sure you can so it! ^_^
Lets do our best! ^_^
Find The Way it is! I have no idea what the rest are!
Hihi!
You sleep so much!
Not saying it's a bad thing but it's just cute!
You really are cute! HAHHA!
I'm glad you don't think I talk to much! ^^
I like reading what you say too but sometimes it's sad...
But you seem happy these few days! ^_^
I'm not sure if you really are but I hope so....
Mmm........ maybe but I don't think so
But even so, you'll still be very very very very very very important to me
NUUuuuuu!
Stop saying that! Because you are always helping me...... you are my precious
notebook after all ^^
Yeah we should try our best to acchieve our dreams
Hehe..... some of them are in my music player in my UP
Sleep too much?......... Nonono! I just sleep often
I don't sleep that much
People keep calling me cute......
Even Marisa...........
Oh........ is it?........ I'm sorry
I don't mean to sound so sad........
Hehe yeah I've been feeling kinda happier than usual past few days
I hope you are feeling happy as well ^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 09:33pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
YOU REALLY ARE SWEET! CUTE LITTLE VATICAN! ^_^
Yes yes! I'm your notebook! Haha!
Who's your favourite singer by the way? ^_^
Mine is TANAKA RIE! SHE HAS SUCH A SWEET VOICE! Everey song on my UP except for
the Illya song is from Tanaka Rie! ^_^
Mmmm....... I guess I don't mind if you're the one calling me cute.... and I'm
not that little
My favorite singer? Mmm........ Minawo, Noto Mamiko (Jigoku Shoujo's voice
actor), Tarja, and Yukari Tamura.........
Yeah Rie Tanaka has a nice voice
Mmm I see...... was she also Chii's voice in Chobits?
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 09:48pm
Quote by 95ElizabethFine! little....
OOoooo! The voice of jigoku shoujo! I like her too!
Yes yes! Rie Tanaka is the voice of Freya from chobits! She also sang alot of
the chobits songs! ^_^
You
meanie!
Yeah I like Jigoku Shoujo's voice...... also Esther Blanchett's voice in Trinity
Blood
But I don't think she has many songs..... i only have........ 4 or 5 of her
songs
Yeah it seems like Rie Tanaka did sing a lot of songs........ Freya........ Mmmm
I don't remember too well but I think she's Chii's sister if I'm not wrong
Quote by 95ElizabethAHHH! I'LL MISS
YOU SO MUCH!
I hope you'll stay safe, happy, in one piece, normal, vatican!
I miss you already! AHHHHHHAHHAHA!
WHAT IF YOU GET HURT?!? WHAT IF YOU'RE SAD?!?!? WHAT IF! YOU DIE!
I'm so worried! AHHHH! I hope you'll not be too sad.....
........ I'm worrying too much again........ Sorry............
You can take care of yourself since you're older and I'm tiny... Tiny.....
Well take care..... You may not read this but who cares... It just makes me feel
better to talk to you....
Hope you have a good time..... I'll miss you......
Quote by 95Elizabethhi.... I know
you're not there but it makes me feel better just to talk to you cause when I'm
not with someone for even just a day I feel like they're going to leave
forever.... You don't have to read if you don't want to....
My day was fine and I spend most of my time daydreaming and singing....
I hope you're doing fine.... I'm so worried!
You don't have to reply me if you don't want to...
Have a nice day......
Hello Elizabeth-san~!~
I missed you sooooooooo~~~~ much
I'm back for today........ still have an exam tomorrow........
If you want to know...... the exams were hard..... and I didn't do too well on
some of them.......
But it's okay...... no problem
I'll just have to do better tomorrow and next year
I'm not that hurt..... well except my arm got almost crushed into pieces but it
didn't so I'm fine
Sad....... not really because it's been raining quite a lot these days and the
rain kinda cheers me up ^^
Dying........ that's not a problem but......... there are so many things that I
haven't said to you...... so many things that I want to talk about with you and
my other friends.........
Hehehe....... yeah you do worry too much Elizabeth-san~!
Actually..... mmm.....
I can't really take care of myself well
I'm too clumsy and always mess up on everything so my father is like "Do we
have to do everything for you?"
Well you sure are smart and thoughtful for someone tiny
And you're not too small at all Elizabeth
You are small only when you think you are small
Even if you are, does it really matter?
I'm sorry I left you for a long time........
And I'm not going anywhere so don't worry
I might not be able to come online from time to time but I'm still going to be
here
I hope your days were fine when I wasn't here the past few days.........
My days were okay too
So how was your day today?.......
I still have to study for one more exam but it's pretty easy and I've already
finished studying for it actually....... but I forget things really quickly so I
have to memorize it over and over again
Well then........ ^^
merged: 05-24-2007 ~ 06:55pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
VATICAN! I MISSED YOU!
Just do your best! My parents say that too..... I'm clumsy too.... I fell and
bleeded.....
....... Really common... That always happens to me.....
I'M GLAD YOU'RE ALIVE! YAY!
The rain calms me too.... The water.... Falling from the sky.... I used to think
they were shiny water faries.....
Don't say sorry... And sorry.....
I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE DAY AND DO YOUR BEST! ^_^
Hello Elizabeth! I'm back
I think I did enough studying...... basically memorized the whole thing @_@
But I'm sure I'm gonna forget it tomorrow ''
Are you okay Elizabeth?....... I hope you are......
Hehe.... thank you
I think tomorrow's test is going to be the easiest...... well the longest test
but easiest
It's raining now
I'm so........ well sad but happy at the same time
Water fairies..... I just thought that the clouds were crying or
something
Quote by 95ElizabethI'M GALD YOU'RE
NOT HURT! Churches are.... Scary.... So is wasabi..... And humans.....
scary.....
My day was fine..... My father came today..... He just
sleeps......
Mmm...... I don't get hurt everyday or anything
Churches are....... boring
Wasabi tastes good
Oh........ I see....... he must be tired......
But I'll be here if you want to talk to me about anything okay?
Well take care and hope the rest of your day will be lovely
merged: 05-21-2007 ~ 03:48pm
Elizabeth!
How are you today?....... Doing well I hope
Just came to say that I probably won't be dropping by for a while because of the
final exams....... And I have no idea when I'm going to Korea either but I'm
sure that it's sometime this month @_@
I'm gonna miss you so~~~ much
Just in case you want to know about my day........ it wasn't too great but it
rained today so it felt really good
I probably can't respond your message if you write back but be safe and be
careful please
Quote by 95Elizabeth...........................
Are you sad? just checking.......
This world is stupid and cruel......
Selfish stupid humans.........
Sorry......
So how was your day? ^_^
............... sad.........
Not really.......... I was a bit....... umm....... earlier but I'm okay now
I hope you aren't sad........
My day......... nothing happened at all...... absolutely nothing
So guess it was pretty good since nothing bad happened either
How was your day Elizabeth?
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 10:35pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth...........................
Are you sad? just checking.......
This world is stupid and cruel......
Selfish stupid humans.........
Sorry......
So how was your day? ^_^
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 10:21pm
I'm so glad you're not sad now! I was worried sick about you! I always am....
I'm fine! I'm glad you're fine! I'll be fine if you're fine!
My day was okay I guess..... Noraml... I practiced my harmonica, flute, piano, I
sang alot, daydream, went to the mall with my mother...... Humans eyes are...
scary.....
So how was your day?
You worry too much Elizabeth....
That's really good to hear
I see.... mall...... yeah too many people so I get nevous
Ummm....... my day.....? nothing as I said.....
Come to think of it, I kinda had a fight with my mother........
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 10:54pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I know I worry too much.....
You had a fight with your mother? Mmm.... I know I shouldn't worry about your
buissness but if I may ask, did you and your mother make up at the end?
I wish I knew why you were fighting but I guess it's none of my buissness...
But I hope you and your mother are okay now....
Umm.......... not really........
........... but it's okay now
It's not really like a "I hate you" fight..... it's more like "I
think you're wrong about this" kinda fight
So it's okay
Mmm...... you wanna know? If you do, I'll tell you
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:08pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
that's good to hear....
It's okay I don't need to know.... Talking about it would only make you
sad.....
So I don't need to know..... It's none of my buissness anyway...
I'm just glad it's over now..... i hope you're not
sad....
Not really....... It wasn't really a serious fight.......
I argue with her all the time....... well...... almost every time I talk to
her
I wasn't really sad because of the fight........ earlier........
Sometimes........ for some reason I just get.... umm...... nevermind
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:22pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
mmm.... I understand if you don't want to talk about it but just remember she'll
always love you.....
I hope whatever it is it's not too bad......
Yeah I know
It's nothing Elizabeth....... my mother and I get along fine...... well most of
the times........
Just have a different views on things so we argue a lot that's all
Thank you for reminding me
And I'm 100% sure that your parents love you too!
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:30pm
Byebye!
See you tomorrow ^^
merged: 05-20-2007 ~ 12:14pm
Quote by 95ElizabethVATICAN! I MISSED
YOU!
How was your day? I hope you didn't get hurt or
anything.....
Hello Elizabeth!
Glad you took the time to drop by
My day?.......... nothing happened much yet...... just went to church.......
Um....... no not really
I didn't get hurt
How about you? Are you doing okay?
Whew, just finished the exams... With all the caffeine circulating within my
blood I don't think I will sleep anytime soon. So expect me to be more active on
the groups, including Chobits Fanclub .
BTW how's life for you lately? At least for me it was kind (for the oral exams
it wa 90% on English and 100% on Polish) and now I
have at last vacations .
So, how are you?
Quote by 95Elizabeth..............
I'm not saying this cause of what you posted in the group....
It's just you seem so....... Sorry.... I guess I'm just worrying too much....
We don't live for the past but the future....
A person that lives life with hatred and wanting revenge has no meaning in
life.....
We should put the sad things that happened to us behind and see the new world
around us and the new people.....
So don't be so sad about the people who left you or anything like that...
I'm not asking you to forget about them. I'm just saying don't be too
sad.....
Cursing god, the world and everyone in it is not going to do any good is it?
If you were to die and I would be so sad for the rest of my life and hating god
for making you go to heaven and not wanting anyone to be my friend and locking
myself up in the room won't mae you feel happy would it?
So just help the world become the peaceful place you always wanted by at least
not living for the past okay?
You probally don't hate the world as much now but I just wanted you to
know....
So how did your day go?
I see........ Okay
But Elizabeth........ it's really hard........ to see the real me........
To change the real me....... if there really is a real me
I see..... Mmm..... I've always been..... thinking about right now
That I wanted to be happy at this moment....... that I wanted someone to
recognize me right now......... but the future......... guess nobody will
know
You're absolutely right Elizabeth.......
Yeah........ I should embrace the people who left and meet new people.......
Uuu....... you're right again...... I wouldn't want that to happen.........
Yeah I should
My day........ I didn't go to school today...... that was good
And I went to the mall........ the last time I went was like.......mmm....... 3
months ago?.......
And........ it wasn't bad........ I looked around...... the movies were all
boring...... not that I would watch movies anyway
Just....... mmm......... what did I do..........?
Oh....... I just bought some....... posters for my room.......... and that's
about it
But I get tired whenever I go out so I don't stay out for too
long.......
So how was your day Elizabeth?
merged: 05-14-2007 ~ 09:33pm
Quote by 95ElizabethYes! We should
live for the future!
You didn't go to school? Why? Yeah movies are always the same thing... Stupid
love.... So untrue..... Yes yes... I agree....
My day was fine and normal.... I go to school, I get bullied by stupid teens(not
saying you), I daydream, sing to the fountain, play with marbles, stay in my
room and go to the garden....
It's always the same thing..... Stupid teens.... Always taking my stuff....
Gotta kill them....
I don't mean you! I mean some of them! Well all of them.... But not you and some
other good humans!
Sorry! Sorry!
Umm........ not so sure actually....... sometimes I don't bother to ask since
it's usually the same thing
yeah..... movies..... always the same boring thing..........
And lots of killing and violence
You see? Teens are stupid! and so are adults..........
..............
Yeah maybe we should kill them........ all of them.......... NOT!
You're so funny Elizabeth..... hehe.........
merged: 05-14-2007 ~ 10:03pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
............. Funny? Am I? Mmm.....
Are you okay? You're so worrying....
You're saying nonsense again! Stop hurting yourself!
Are you okay? I hope you are! You are okay right?
I hope you get some sense back! I'm so worried! Plaese tell me when you feel
better!]
Sorry but I have to go! Bye!
Sorry sorry!
Yeah! Very funny hehe......... sometimes you make me laugh........ sometimes
What do you mean if I'm okay? Do I always sound sick or something?
Well I don't feel anything wrong except I feel like throwing
up.........uuuu.......
Mmm....... did I say something wrong?........ I don't remember saying anything
wrong but if you say so.........
Hehe...... don't say sorry.........
Bye bye Elizabeth
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 08:23pm
Quote by 95ElizabethMmm.... Okay if
you say so.....
Look... I won't be here for two-three days cause of camp.....
I'll miss you so much and think of you every 30 minutes! well I do think of you
every 30 minutes...
Don't hurt yourself and don't sacrafice too much!
Don't feel too sad about things!
Just stay vatican! I'm so worried! I hope you'll be okay!
..... Talking too much again..... I guess I'm just worried again.....
Sorry.....
But please take care of youself!
I don't want to come back and see you feeling really sad about something!
................
So how was your day?
I see...... camp
Long time since I've been to one.........
Uuu...... I'll miss you so~~ much as well!
I also think of you a lot......... every few minutes
Since I always think about so many things......... and you're important along
with my other friends so I keep thinking about you too ^^
Haha I won't.......
You too ok? Stay safe and stay out of trouble while at camp
Sad about things........ mm....... yeah I'll try....... and I don't feel as sad
as I used to these days
Hehe...... I'll be just fine..... thank you for worrying but you really don't
have to
I don't think I'll just change that much in just a few days Elizabeth......
My day.........
Nothing special.... just studying for the coming final exams.......
How about you?
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 08:52pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Mmm... Okay that's good to hear.... I'm glad you don't feel as sad now.....
But I'll still be worrying about you... I don't want to forget about you even
for just a second...
If I forget about you for even just a while it seems like I'll forget you
forever.....
I'll be careful on camp and I won't fall down the cliff since we're doing
absailing, jumping of cliffs, sliding down cliffs and etc......
Mmm.... I finished my exams already..... I hope you do well....
My day was fine..... I get bullied by teenagers, daydream about what's bad and
good about life and I seem to only have found 3 things good about life and 396
things bad about life......
I sang, play the fute, play the piano, drew, walked around the garden, go on
MT.....
Mmm....... yeah I'm glad too that I'm not too sad and depressed
I get meaner and even more tired when I'm sad or depressed
Uuu..... you sound so nice
I feel the exact same way.......
Umm....... okay...... that sounds....... dangerous
But I'm sure that you'll be fine! But always be careful........ always
Thank you....... I'm not so confident but I did fine last year so I don't feel
to stressed out or scared this year......... 2 exams tomorrow and 6 exams
sometime next week
Teenagers......... we should really get rid of them.......... or lock them up or
something
They really do serve no purpose in this world...... maybe except for the very
few nice people..........
But these days even children seem a bit mean and scary........ guess it can't be
helped.........
I see........ but at least you still have 3....... I used to have none
but I just changed my way of thinking and got more and more good things......
although I also got more and more bad things as well.........
I see......... always sound so peaceful
Mine is always boring
........
Wonder if there'll be anything better to do when I go to Korea.......
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 09:29pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
You're not mean..... Don't say that...... You're the nicest person I met in my
whole life.....
............ You're better then my stupid father...... He's smart but the wises
people don't know the simplest thing.......
I'll be careful.... I hope I don't daydream when I'm doing it.... I can daydream
on a roller-coaster...
Just relax and do your best! You'll be worst if you panic!
Teenagers are humans..... It's not of their age but who they are..... They be
what they chose to be....
If they want to be mean let them.... It affects themselves the most.....
Mean children.... Reminds me of that evil boy in my class.....
He's so mean he makes me wish I was never borned.....
But I'll still live as long as you and the other people I care about is still
alive....
And I'll live because I can see the future and my friends would want my to
live.....
There's so much of this world I haven't seen..... I want to see snow, cherry
blossoms and most of all the most beautiful music....
You must think it's weird to want to hear the most beautiful music but music
means more then just something to entertain to me.....
Music is a way to express feelings and a musician that sings without experience
of the song is nothing......
I still don't get why you like my day! It's so..... Mmm.... Well I guess one
man's meat is another man's poison! ^_^
Do you miss Korea?
UUuu..... thank you
but I just meant that I become a lot more meaner when I'm sad........ I think
you might have noticed...... or maybe not but I think I do change a lot when I
become emotional
Well but I still do have minor changes even when I'm not emotional
Keep changing every few minutes........
Well you really should decide for yourself when to daydream and when not to
When your life's on the line, I think you can leave the daydreaming for later
right?
Thank you for the advice! I'll try not to freak out
Yeah they are........ but even though I know that age does not mean
nothing...... I just can't help but to notice as people get older...... they
realize more and more....... about sin...... about the........ bad things and
yet...... they don't think about the consequences....... the effect it
has......
But you are right.......
Mmm...... mean people are almost everywhere....... yeah we should try to forget
about those kind of people and live for the people who matters for us.......
although I feel so...... terrible when I can only love the people around me and
not the people outside my comfort zone.......
I know...... I know it's impossible to love each and every single
person.......
but..... I try to love everybody around me....... I try hard but....... I really
have a hard time
?...... doesn't it snow in Malaysia?
Snow...... it's been few years since I've seen snow....... The Philippines is no
place for snowing
I used to think that snow was cloud falling from the sky....... and I always
wanted to touch the cloud....... but it melted away.......
I don't think you're weird at all for thinking like that
Music is soothing and comforting....... something very
mysterious........
Very....... odd expression but I'll agree.......
Everybody has different views........ and I really think your days are..... much
more nicer than mine.......
Korea?
Umm..... not really
I don't really have any friends there....... I don't really like Korean
people........
I know I'm being stereotypical by catagorizing everybody in Korea the same but
most Koreans are really same.......
Usually racists...... always so arrogant and think they're the best
But I really miss the weather...... I love autumn in Korea
Very windy..... the leaves change color and beautiful...... although I don't
remember much......
The last autumn I saw was...... 9 years ago?........ if I remember........
But I do remember something...... my mother bought me a toy for me..... and I
was in the park playing with it and realized that the wind was blowing hard and
my mother told me it was because it was autumn..... and she told me that the
trees changed their clothes or something.......
Memories are really....... precious........
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 10:15pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I have noticed how you act when you feel sad....
I won't say you're mean... You just kinda go...... Nonsensical....
But when you are sad you do say things that kinds hurts me but it hurts me more
to know you're sad....
You don't change... Vatican will alaways be vatican.....
I would still like you no matter how cruel you get or no matter how weird you
get.....
yeah I won't daydream! I don't wanna die yet! You'll be sad if I died and I'll
be sad I died....
Vatican.. ....I can't help but notice you are dissapointed about this
world....
There are bad things about the world but also good things....
Even you and I are not totally good.....
No one is borned bad and we can change....
It's their choice...... If they don't want to change and they like the way they
are so let them be.....
If you've done all you could do for them, you have done enough and sense will
tell you just to let them be what they want to be.....
No one can explain why humans are what we are......
We are who we are..... No one is perfect..... Even I don't understand the humans
100%.....
Humans do so many things but for such stupid reasons....
They kill to be rich and forget about others....
Someone that used to live a peaceful life starts to go crazy for really dumb
reasons....
A dumb reason to someone may be everything to someone else.....
Vatican........ Don't force yourself to love someone you can't.....
No one can love every single person and if they force themsleves to.... It's not
love.....
Love the people who you truely love and not for the reason that you want
to.....
If you forced yourslef to like me all this while..... I would be really sad but
yet I'll be glad you tried....
Please love who you love and not because you think you should love
everyone.....
There is no snow in Malaysia.....
Yes.... memorise are precious..... I never got many stuff when I was
young.....
I always tried to do my best but my parents were never proud of me....
Then I guess as a grew my life became worse and I just wished I was never
borned......
But you've made me thought about life more and for that I thank you....
I thank you for everything you've done for me.......
You're one of the good things about life....
Sorry but I gotta go... I have camp tomorrow...
Bye and thanks again....
Yeah...... I must agree........
I try my best to keep myself quiet.......
I see............
Mmmm yeah you're right..... I'll always be me and Elizabeth will always be
Elizabeth...... but as time goes by..... .second by second...... we do change
At least little by little...... although we may not always notice it
Will you? That's so sweet
I will too...... always....... no matter how things are I will still love
you
Disappointed............ I don't know...... maybe something more different than
that....... or maybe something more stronger than disappointment
I know....... I know..... nothing is ever perfect in this world and I'm a fool
to expect something perfect out of this world........ but I don't know...... I
guess I always dream bigger than what reality can offer.......
But Elizabeth....... I can't let go of those people........
I can't abandon them....... even if I might not know them well or not like
them...... those people are also people too as you said
Who needs love and care...... and need to be taught what is wrong and
right....... if there is wrong and right but...... we can determine some of the
things...... Like by common sense we know that killing is wrong......
Yeah people are so weird....... and sometimes I just can't help myself but to
hate them......... well actually quite often
But........ you know....... as much as I hate pain and sorrow...... they hate it
too........ so I don't really want that.......
Love....... well........ yeah I know it is impossible to love every single
soul...... every single person......
and I'm not forcing myself...... rather..... hoping..... that I'd be able to
love someone as I get to know the people.......
Okay Elizabeth........ I don't really force myself to love anybody........
And........ some people....... I just love without a reason....... rather weird
and funny....... but I don't really like that feeling......... while I do like
it in some ways
Mmm..... so you've never seen snow.........
Well it's really....... mystical...... and magical
Can't really describe with words...... Like I said before it feels like the
cloud is falling......
Very soothing...... and really cold
My hands got frostbites....... and felt really numb while I was trying to make a
snowman.......
I felt that way too........ well in a different way though.......
My parents really did love me....... I knew that.......but I saw no purpose for
my existence.......
I was not much of use to them..... never really helped with anything
And I was so afraid....... because my parents were keep fighting........
Kept asking........ why am I so useless? Just to see them fighting....... just
to sit there staring...... listening to the screams...... the loud
yells.......
Couldn't handle it...... just locked myself in the room and hoped nothing would
happen........
Now most of my memories are filled with hatred........ and
tears........
But now...... I'm trying to make new memories........ something that will last
forever....... and you are in there..... in my imaginary book of memory that I
will cherish along with all my other friends........
Thank you very much too......... for always taking the time to talk with
me...... and sharing your thoughts........ and just being there...... as my
friend....... as Elizabeth
Yeah better get some sleep Elizabeth
I should be going soon as well
I'll talk to you when you come back
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 08:40pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
.........................
All memorise sad or happy are important....
If you never felt tears you won't know what life gives....
If you never felt happiness your life will only be tears....
I know you say I did enough for you but yet I still wish I could do more.....
I want to give everyone happiness, memorise of the time they spent but I don't
want to turn their world into a dream.....
Too much happiness means nothing......
I wish you would smile and be happy but I know I can't do much.....
Sometimes I think I turn my own life into a dream.....
I wish for so many things but I can't do anything about it......
Parents are.......
They want us to be happy and they think what they do is right....
But the best way to make us happy is just for them to be happy.....
Just laughing together and being with eachother is already doing so much for
us.....
I don't truly hate my father but..... I just want him to spent time with me.....
To love me....
My parents once almost broke up.... They were shouting at eachother.....
My mother told me that no matter what happens she'll always love me.....
I didn't understand anything then cause I was too young....
All I could remember was me sitting by the staircase and them fighting and
shouting so I know how it feels.....
I never wanted to cry, scream or anything...... I always kept a smile on my
face.....
Every time I'm sad or angry I just laugh.... I don't know why.....
I want to fill your memorise with happiness but I know that would never come
true.....
I would only make your life worst..... Yeah...... Worst.....
I hate to see you worry about me and when you are sad or something but I force
myself not to cry....
I don't want to cry...... I don't want to scream... I just want to keep that
smile onmy face......
If I cry the people that care about me will cry..... I don't want them to cry
and I don't want to be known as a cry baby.....
So how was your day? ^_^
Elizabeth!~
You're back
Missed you so~~ much..........
Gimme a hug before I hug you
I see...........
Yeah.......... I must agree........ that if we don't know what sadness is......
we won't appreciate happiness........
I do that too....... so many things that are going wrong
So many things that I wish could change but I know that I can do nothing about
it
Yeah it really would be nice....... if families could spent each day together
having a nice time...... laughing...... smiling and sharing
But sometimes the world doesn't allow that.......
Yeah....... that happened a lot between my parents
And my father even tried to suicide....... and I thought....... maybe I can be
more happy if he just died........ maybe if he died....... that it might be
alright
But I was little and I was being selfish.......
I've asked my mother to divorce my father many times....... because I couldn't
take it........ but after I saw my mother being patient with him....... I
decided that I can forgive him if she can too.........
I see........ laughing is really weird........
I'm like that too....... just so funny....... for no reason
When I'm tired...... when I feel like dying....... everything seems so funny and
I just laugh......
Stop saying that Elizabeth! If you think that you are making my life or anybody
else's life worse, just try the best you can
After all...... nobody can make my life perfect
And nobody can make my life worst
Because I believe that....... even if people don't like me....... if I can see
the people who I love happy, it doesn't matter....... my life can't be worst
because there are a lot of people who are suffering as well.......
Yeah...... nobody likes pain...... nobody likes sadness
It would be so wonderful if everybody could keep smiling......
My day........
..............
Kinda tiring....... nothing special
I watched an animated movie "Finding Nemo"........ quite a touching
story about a father and a son....... although the story was quite
predictable..........
We have a class party now but I'm really not the person who goes out to a
party.......... you know........
I just feel so insecure with people........ So I was invited but didn't
go........
Yeah....
everything just seems funny when you're sad or angry.....
........... Sometimes I wish I never existed......
I don't go to paties either....
Scary people.... Crowds....
I wish you were happy.... I wish I could do more for you......
But I can't make you happy.... I can't do anything....
Nothing...... All I can do is talk and nothing more....
I can't do anything for you.....
I can't help... I'm useless..... No one needs me.... I can't do anything... I'm
no one..... No one at all...
Uumm.... My camp.... I hit my head 17 times..... Fell when I was climbing the
hill 24 times......
I'm afraid of hights.... So... High..... But I liked going to the beach....
I didn't swim..... I just sat by the beach, draw the sunset by the beach, sing,
play the flute, looked at the night sky, twisted my ankle and got lost in the
middle of the ocean cause my boat hit the rocks but I didn't panic and paddled
back cause I like the sea anyway and no one noticed me....
Noraml I guess....
Yeah...... everybody feels that sometimes........ but since we do exist.......
guess it can't be helped
You do make me happy Elizabeth..... didn't I tell you that before?......mmm I
think I did.........
.......... do you really mean that?........ because I always feel that you are
always the one doing so much for me.......
You helped me to love people again....... I'm still having troubles but because
I can love you, I feel that I can love other people as well and I'm really
grateful for you.......
So don't say that Elizabeth
If you truely were uselss, you wouldn't exist because every single thing in this
world has purpose.........
You are one of the best things that happened in my life so far
I enjoy every single moment with you
Whether it is sad or happy...... so don't worry
I'll like you no matter what and you really shouldn't feel that way........
Your family needs you too....... remember that you are always loved
Umm....... very....... frightening camp experience.......
Are you feeling okay now?....... hope you aren't hurt too bad
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 10:17pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
.........................
I also must thank you.....
Before I met you I was cold hearted, I wanted the world dead, I never trusted, I
wanted to die and alot more........
But when I met you you were trying so hard to be my friend....
I can't tell you how much I miss my old friends but I am so glad I met
you.....
I just wish I could cry right now.......
I really want you to have a good life..... I really want you to stop feeling so
sad.....
I'm going to burst into tears anytime now....
I don't know why I have to choose now to cry but I don't know.....
I really can't stand reading what you say anymore......
Thank you so much for being my friend and for just being there and so much
more.....
I just wish you'll smile and have a good life but no matter how I try I just
can't stop thinking I'm not doing enough for you.....
I'm sorry I still think like this but...... I just can't forget about it and
think I did all I could do....
If I did more for you... You would be happy by now.....
I'm sorry and thank you.....
Sorry and thank you....
I'm fine...... I'm used to it........
So you don't have to worry........
You promised...... So keep your promise........
Please..... Sorry.... Thank you.....
Please keep your promise...
Sorry I still don't think I didn't do enough for you....
Thank you.... Thank you for everything...... Thank
you.....
Yeah I do miss my old friends too..........
But I am also really really glad that I met you........
It's okay to cry Elizabeth......... even though I hate to see you sad, I think
it would be better to let your feelings out once in a while
Am I making you feel sad?
I'm so sorry........
I really do want you to be happy as well......... I want you to be happy
forever
And I don't feel that sad........ I mean sometimes things don't work out too
well for me, but I just remember that I have someone........ even though I
cannot see that person....... so don't worry too much about me Elizabeth
I've been always fine........ well maybe not always but I always managed to pull
things back together
I can't be happy just because people did things for me........
Mmm....... first of all, I am happy...... just because you are there
Second....... it has to be me....... I have to be the one to choose if I want to
be happy or not
And as I said, I am happy! So please don't feel that way........
*Gets a marker and draws a smile on Elizabeth's face*
Hehe....... you do this to me too right? Whenever I seem a bit sad........
So I'll do it too
I will keep my promise.........
Uuu...... you're making me feel embarrassed.......
Thank you so much for caring about me
You are doing more than enough for me right now....... so I hope you don't feel
bad about that..... okay?
Thank you!
I'm fine now! *draws a smile on vatican's face* HAHA!
Thank you...... I'm glad I met you I know you will keep your promise!
You get embarrassed? Didn't know..... I thought I was the only one....
HAHA! So now you get to take my place on the the shy person!
Thank you! I feel so happy!
The night is so pretty! I can't see the moon and stars today but it's still
pretty!
It calms me!
Yay!
Hehe...... I will
Yeah I do get embarrassed........ I was always shy
Well........ now I'm more scared than shy but I used to be really shy...... well
I still am
Really glad you are feeling better
The night really is pretty........
The sky is always so peaceful...... well except for the pollution I mean
Wish it was a bit more cooler here though
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 10:51pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
I'm glad you are not sad! I hope you're not sad.....
Well it's cool here at night! Humans.... Destroy nature...........
One day humanity will perish....
It has been a long time since I saw the moon......
I just love the full moon...... So lonely and mysterious but
calm.....
Haha I'm not always sad
I don't feel sad right now...... I feel rather happy seeing you happy
Yeah...... people are so stupid........
One day...... guess not today though
Yeah the moon is really mysterious in a lot of ways
And it's so much more prettier than the sun.......
The sun only hurts my eyes
>_< .... =_=" *sigh*
heyyyy elizabeth we haven't talked in a long time.
guess what my birthday was saturday i turned 9 years old just one more before yours.
Yadaaa~!
I ask daisuki-sensei To reverse For it! *laugh*
merged: 05-31-2007 ~ 09:35pm
Kazu-chan will stop the time before you would dream >D
Mmmm.............. Chobits sooo confusing @_@
Hello Elizabeth
Umm.............. well............
Hope you have a nice day as well
*stick tongue out*
*sigh*
i am not become bankrupt yet.
I put most of my money somewhere
You never get it! Mwuhahahaha!
nothin but the computer screen........lets take awhile to adjust toooooo the greatness yeahhhhhhhhhhh
merged: 05-30-2007 ~ 09:34pm
why do you ask such questions i was testing
and
i passed all what about you 
Mmm......... I don't know when I can come online again........ but please stay healthy and safe
I'll talk to you again soon
hey elizabeth long time noooooo talkkkkkkk yeahhhh how are you?
Mmm...... I don't know actually
I never found the answer for my life
But........ I'm trying my best at the moment to try my hardest for my friends and family
I make the same mistakes......
I keep forgiving people who'll betray me again....... I keep making friends when I know that I'll eventually have to say goodbye
But...... maybe it's because there are probably people who feel the same way........ that the world is cruel........ people who wants everything to be over.......
I feel that way too........ so I don't have to feel the pain over and over
So I don't have to realize every single day that my life is........ hopeless
Wishes don't come true? So there's no use praying?
I'm sorry Elizabeth
It seems that I don't really help much........
Sorry...........
Don't say that Elizabeth because I'll try my best to be here for you when you need me
Because you are someone really important to me
My day wasn't that bad
School is over....... exams went well, it kept raining and raining........
I stood in the rain for few minutes.........
Nothing else really happened
How about you Elizabeth? How was your day?
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 08:43pm
I truely wish for your happiness as well
You are someone very dear to me.........
I'm sure that a lot of people care for you and love you
Really...... I believe that
We're all a bit selfish and stupid sometimes
Acutally I'm not too sure either......... if I would chose you or someone else....... I think I would really want you to live...... but I think I would also want the other person to live as well...........
But I would give you my life.......
Yeah I got perfect on my biology exam ^^
And A on all my exams
I'm not sure about history though....... that was really hard
I wish it would rain everyday.........
Singing to the rain........ I've sang to my puppies before but never to the rain
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 09:13pm
Me too
So~~ happy though
Wow you sound very thankful for everything
I usually am not
Thank you ^^
I guess I'm better at studying then I thought
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 09:38pm
Mmm........ people do?
Sometimes I wonder why people like me....... but I guess that's good
I see....... mmm....... I thought that you were nice even when I first met you
Just............ suffering pain inside.......
I know you aren't jealous because you have very good friends as well ^^
Well....... umm
Lilwolf seemed to be kinda busy
Bumble-Bee does like you
Rai........ not active
Rorenzu seemed like she does like you
mmm yeah lacus and krys not active
Orpheuz sounded like he liked you as well
Tenko...... yeah not that active
Yeah everybody has a lot of problems with their lives........ everybody
And everybody seems so sad.........
Thank you very much ^^
Well it's because......... I have to be the one to choose that I am happy or not
And I keep doubting....... if this is really happiness or if I can really be happy
Sorry.........
I hope your life will be peaceful and full of joy as well ^^
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:04pm
Uuu...... umm sorry
I'm never that responsible........ and I never do anything right
Yeah I hope I do because I heard that I can't adopt my children unless I get married........
Well......... mm......... if I have to get married, I guess I would want someone who loves me and who I can love
Thanks for the reminder
My mother?......... Uuu........ sorry
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:23pm
Uuu....... bad memory isn't too fun
Notebook........ I named my notebook Elizabeth?......
weird
But I want to say sorry......... I wanna I wanna!
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:32pm
I don't feel sick or anything........
What you talking about Eli-chan?
Me no cute! Me angry and mean!
*hiss* Meow!~
Me scratch you if you say that again
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 10:48pm
Noo!
I'm not your teddy bear!
Now I bite you if you say that again!
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 11:09pm
Okay...... I surrender
But why do people call me cute? Even Sara said that
I told her not to but she didn't listen.........
Oh well
merged: 05-25-2007 ~ 11:31pm
I'm gonna go to bed not Eli-chan
Sooo~~ sleepy
Good night...... pleasant dreams and see you tomorrow
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 07:34pm
I don't mind if it's from you
My day.......... didn't really start off great
I was keep thinking about what Marisa said in the PM all day........
I hung around MT almost all day
Now I'm trying to make a wallpaper..........
How about you? How was your day?
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:16pm
Marisa......... Marmaladeboyfan........
I don't want to write all that out so I use her name........ and I prefer her name over Marmalade something
I see...... I don't like birthday parties....... that's why I never had one.......
And I've only been to one or two of them
I don't know either really.......... Most of the times when I'm happy, is when I'm with you......... and usually I don't really feel anything........
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:45pm
Yeah guess we shouldn't........
You're right........ so very right........
I also wish that your life gets better day by day
Happier every single second
Most important person.......... guess it doesn't really have to be a "she" but I don't know.........
At this moment the most important person is you....... although I feel that my other friends are also very so important
But I don't feel that my life is about finding someone.........
Yes....... I have to admit that we're only humans.........
Thank you for reminding me ^^
...........
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 08:58pm
I don't sacrifice too much.........
Most of the times I can't do much except try to cheer them on
Yeah I already do have the people I love around me....... even if I can't see them
Purpose in life.......... I see
Sorry.........
Yeah you do always help
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 09:07pm
You're much more useful than just talking because you know exactly what to say for situation..........
I see.........
You know something Elizabeth?............
I think you're weird as well
But thank you
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 09:20pm
I call people weird too
All the time...... but I don't remember what they said back........
You are weird as Elizabeth not as a human
Umm......... sorry I called you weird
I meant special ^^
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 09:30pm
Hehe thank you
Me too! I want to be with you forever and ever until time ends
What are you talking about Elizabeth?....... You've only made my life better so there is no way that you can get in my way
I wonder what that is............
Oh..... But I'm going to Korea next week.........
Mmm.......... not good
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 09:58pm
Of course really!
Me too
Airplane is always so fun to ride..... but only when the sun is up because I can't see the clouds at night
Okay thank you ^^
merged: 05-26-2007 ~ 11:24pm
I know that you're already offline but wanted to say goodnight ^^
Hope you have pleasant dreams and I'll see you again!
merged: 05-27-2007 ~ 08:23pm
Yay!
Me too! You're the most important person to me............ Although I feel terrible to say this because of my other friends but don't care
Uuuu........ Sorry......... NOT
Hehe...... you always say nice things anyway
My day...... went to church..... MT, took a nap....... MT..... making wallpaper...... MT and still here!
How about you?..... How was your day?
merged: 05-27-2007 ~ 09:11pm
Yeah you do say nice things......... everybody is selfish anyway.........
People are so mean........ a lot of times.........
I see....... yeah it's really hard to sometimes see my friends leave even on MT.......
You meanie!
Don't say that 
I'm not going to leave! Even if you tell me to go away forever and even if you say you hate me, I'm not going to leave you! Well actually....... I will if you want me to leave but I won't leave just because I want to unless I die or MT shuts down and we have no other way of communication left........
I'm not going to forget anyone so don't worry too much silly.........
Well even if you do feel that way, I think you are important
And that doesn't make sense because I always hurt people's feelings........
I say mean things here and there to other people and sometimes even to my friends.........
So that's not true! You are important
Please believe me
I don't want to be a liar
That's great!
I know that you'll keep improving day by day
I see...... that happened to me too.......
When I did very good at something, people approached me but when they found out I wasn't so great, they just all left.........
But I knew already........ those people weren't my real friends and will never be.......
I'm the happiest whenever I'm with you ^^
So I guess that means I'm happy everyday
You should keep pursuing your dreams........ and I believe that you can achieve anything because you're Elizabeth
And thank you....... so very much for being with me ^^
New school........ I'm always afraid of new things....... because I had to say goodbye to my old friends so many times.......... I was so scared....... every time I moved.......
That I promised myself that I would never make friends again...... so that when I moved again, I wouldn't cry........ but I did make friends
And I cried again....... but I think it was worth it..........
But now it seems that I don't really have friends........ in real life........ but it's ok because I feel secure and safe whenever I think you are there........
Always give it your best Elizabeth! I'm always cheering for you ^^
And I'M NOT GOING TO LEAVE!~!~!
merged: 05-28-2007 ~ 09:16pm
Uuu....... you're making me blush
Me too! I think you're the most important person to me right now....... my other friends are so very close and dear to me but you are number 1 now
Yeah I promise
I won't leave you....... ever
NOOOO! You can't do that........ please
Now I'm obligated to stay with you because I can't let you do that
Singing contest........ I see........
Actually....... I've cried a few times when I didn't do so well with contests......
I never expected myself to win....... but even then, I was so angry at myself because I expected myself to do better........
But....... now I don't really mind...... I'll get what I worked for and there's nothing I can change about it
I'm soooo glad that you said that........ but I still think you should reach for your dream
We'll all eventually disappear........ and I will always be here and cheer you on ^^
So always do your best whether you are singing or doing anything else..........
So how was your day Elizabeth? ^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 12:28am
Good night princess.........
Sleep well..... pleasant dreams and I will see you tomorrow..... ^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 08:19pm
Wow...... I just came back online and found your message
Well you made me blush
I don't need anybody more important Elizabeth.......... because you'll always be a priceless treasure in my heart....... forever and ever
Because I already consider you......... like part of my family
Hmmm I see......
But I don't want to leave
I don't feel too happy when I think that I can't see you........
But thank you ^^
Yes you should........ sing for yourself and every single person.........
I believe that you can move people's hearts with your songs ^^
My dream......... right at this moment, I want to be a writer...... and a graffic artist for animes and stuff
Because anime always gave me hope and dream when I didn't have hope..... when I was alone
So I think I want to give other kids happiness as well by helping to make animes
Net ball I see........ I'm not sure what kind of sport that is but sounds interesting
Wow you're going to sing
Wish I can go to listen to your songs TT____TT
My favorite song? I have sooo~~ many but mmm....... my top few favorite songs would be Hajimari no Hi, Yuugao, Kimi ga Iru, Suki Dakara, Find the way, Chiisana Mahou and a lot more.......
My day?........ very normal
MT, read some books, took a nap, MT, watched some anime and MT again
No no you don't talk too much at all
Please feel free to write more because I find it fun to read what you write ^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 08:54pm
Mmm........ maybe but I don't think so
But even so, you'll still be very very very very very very important to me
NUUuuuuu!
Stop saying that! Because you are always helping me...... you are my precious notebook after all ^^
Yeah we should try our best to acchieve our dreams
Hehe..... some of them are in my music player in my UP
Sleep too much?......... Nonono! I just sleep often
I don't sleep that much
People keep calling me cute......
Even Marisa...........
Oh........ is it?........ I'm sorry
I don't mean to sound so sad........
Hehe yeah I've been feeling kinda happier than usual past few days
I hope you are feeling happy as well ^^
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 09:33pm
Mmmm....... I guess I don't mind if you're the one calling me cute.... and I'm not that little
My favorite singer? Mmm........ Minawo, Noto Mamiko (Jigoku Shoujo's voice actor), Tarja, and Yukari Tamura.........
Yeah Rie Tanaka has a nice voice
Mmm I see...... was she also Chii's voice in Chobits?
merged: 05-29-2007 ~ 09:48pm
Yeah I like Jigoku Shoujo's voice...... also Esther Blanchett's voice in Trinity Blood
But I don't think she has many songs..... i only have........ 4 or 5 of her songs
Yeah it seems like Rie Tanaka did sing a lot of songs........ Freya........ Mmmm I don't remember too well but I think she's Chii's sister if I'm not wrong
Amaya ^_^ i wonder if you would mind to join
?
hi i am exal's friend do u want to be friends with me?
Do you really think I'm dumb? I'm sorry.
If you do. I understand. It's true. I am dumb. I'm sorry.
Maybe I should leave...
Hello Elizabeth-san~!~
I missed you sooooooooo~~~~ much
I'm back for today........ still have an exam tomorrow........
If you want to know...... the exams were hard..... and I didn't do too well on some of them.......
But it's okay...... no problem
I'll just have to do better tomorrow and next year
I'm not that hurt..... well except my arm got almost crushed into pieces but it didn't so I'm fine
Sad....... not really because it's been raining quite a lot these days and the rain kinda cheers me up ^^
Dying........ that's not a problem but......... there are so many things that I haven't said to you...... so many things that I want to talk about with you and my other friends.........
Hehehe....... yeah you do worry too much Elizabeth-san~!
Actually..... mmm.....
I can't really take care of myself well
I'm too clumsy and always mess up on everything so my father is like "Do we have to do everything for you?"
Well you sure are smart and thoughtful for someone tiny
And you're not too small at all Elizabeth
You are small only when you think you are small
Even if you are, does it really matter?
I'm sorry I left you for a long time........
And I'm not going anywhere so don't worry
I might not be able to come online from time to time but I'm still going to be here
I hope your days were fine when I wasn't here the past few days.........
My days were okay too
So how was your day today?.......
I still have to study for one more exam but it's pretty easy and I've already finished studying for it actually....... but I forget things really quickly so I have to memorize it over and over again
Well then........ ^^
merged: 05-24-2007 ~ 06:55pm
Hello Elizabeth! I'm back
''
I think I did enough studying...... basically memorized the whole thing @_@
But I'm sure I'm gonna forget it tomorrow
Are you okay Elizabeth?....... I hope you are......
Hehe.... thank you
I think tomorrow's test is going to be the easiest...... well the longest test but easiest
It's raining now
I'm so........ well sad but happy at the same time
Water fairies..... I just thought that the clouds were crying or something
boooooooooooooooooooo...................
*runs away*
good day
Thank you so much for the lovely card!
It's so beautiful > <
I love it~
Thanks again and take care!
Mmm...... I don't get hurt everyday or anything
Churches are....... boring
Wasabi tastes good
Oh........ I see....... he must be tired......
But I'll be here if you want to talk to me about anything okay?
Well take care and hope the rest of your day will be lovely
merged: 05-21-2007 ~ 03:48pm
Elizabeth!
How are you today?....... Doing well I hope
Just came to say that I probably won't be dropping by for a while because of the final exams....... And I have no idea when I'm going to Korea either but I'm sure that it's sometime this month @_@
I'm gonna miss you so~~~ much
Just in case you want to know about my day........ it wasn't too great but it rained today so it felt really good
I probably can't respond your message if you write back but be safe and be careful please
Well then see ya~! *hugs and kisses*
eloz eliz ~ i see that we;re joining the same RP there ~ hope we can play it well yeah
sure
............... sad.........
Not really.......... I was a bit....... umm....... earlier but I'm okay now
I hope you aren't sad........
My day......... nothing happened at all...... absolutely nothing
So guess it was pretty good since nothing bad happened either
How was your day Elizabeth?
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 10:35pm
You worry too much Elizabeth....
That's really good to hear
I see.... mall...... yeah too many people so I get nevous
Ummm....... my day.....? nothing as I said.....
Come to think of it, I kinda had a fight with my mother........
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 10:54pm
Umm.......... not really........
........... but it's okay now
It's not really like a "I hate you" fight..... it's more like "I think you're wrong about this" kinda fight
So it's okay
Mmm...... you wanna know? If you do, I'll tell you
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:08pm
Not really....... It wasn't really a serious fight.......
I argue with her all the time....... well...... almost every time I talk to her
I wasn't really sad because of the fight........ earlier........
Sometimes........ for some reason I just get.... umm...... nevermind
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:22pm
Yeah I know
It's nothing Elizabeth....... my mother and I get along fine...... well most of the times........
Just have a different views on things so we argue a lot that's all
Thank you for reminding me
And I'm 100% sure that your parents love you too!
merged: 05-19-2007 ~ 11:30pm
Byebye!
See you tomorrow ^^
merged: 05-20-2007 ~ 12:14pm
Hello Elizabeth!
Glad you took the time to drop by
My day?.......... nothing happened much yet...... just went to church.......
Um....... no not really
I didn't get hurt
How about you? Are you doing okay?
hmm............................................
booooooooooooooooooooo
Whew, just finished the exams... With all the caffeine circulating within my blood I don't think I will sleep anytime soon. So expect me to be more active on the groups, including Chobits Fanclub
. 
and now I
have at last vacations 
.
BTW how's life for you lately? At least for me it was kind (for the oral exams it wa 90% on English and 100% on Polish)
So, how are you?
I see........ Okay
But Elizabeth........ it's really hard........ to see the real me........
To change the real me....... if there really is a real me
I see..... Mmm..... I've always been..... thinking about right now
That I wanted to be happy at this moment....... that I wanted someone to recognize me right now......... but the future......... guess nobody will know
You're absolutely right Elizabeth.......
Yeah........ I should embrace the people who left and meet new people.......
Uuu....... you're right again...... I wouldn't want that to happen.........
Yeah I should
My day........ I didn't go to school today...... that was good
And I went to the mall........ the last time I went was like.......mmm....... 3 months ago?.......
And........ it wasn't bad........ I looked around...... the movies were all boring...... not that I would watch movies anyway
Just....... mmm......... what did I do..........?
Oh....... I just bought some....... posters for my room.......... and that's about it
But I get tired whenever I go out so I don't stay out for too long.......
So how was your day Elizabeth?
merged: 05-14-2007 ~ 09:33pm
Umm........ not so sure actually....... sometimes I don't bother to ask since it's usually the same thing
yeah..... movies..... always the same boring thing..........
And lots of killing and violence
You see? Teens are stupid! and so are adults..........
..............
Yeah maybe we should kill them........ all of them.......... NOT!
You're so funny Elizabeth..... hehe.........
merged: 05-14-2007 ~ 10:03pm
Yeah! Very funny hehe......... sometimes you make me laugh........ sometimes
What do you mean if I'm okay? Do I always sound sick or something?
Well I don't feel anything wrong except I feel like throwing up.........uuuu.......
Mmm....... did I say something wrong?........ I don't remember saying anything wrong but if you say so.........
Hehe...... don't say sorry.........
Bye bye Elizabeth
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 08:23pm
I see...... camp
Long time since I've been to one.........
Uuu...... I'll miss you so~~ much as well!
I also think of you a lot......... every few minutes
Since I always think about so many things......... and you're important along with my other friends so I keep thinking about you too ^^
Haha I won't.......
You too ok? Stay safe and stay out of trouble while at camp
Sad about things........ mm....... yeah I'll try....... and I don't feel as sad as I used to these days
Hehe...... I'll be just fine..... thank you for worrying but you really don't have to
I don't think I'll just change that much in just a few days Elizabeth......
My day.........
Nothing special.... just studying for the coming final exams.......
How about you?
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 08:52pm
Mmm....... yeah I'm glad too that I'm not too sad and depressed
I get meaner and even more tired when I'm sad or depressed
Uuu..... you sound so nice
I feel the exact same way.......
Umm....... okay...... that sounds....... dangerous
But I'm sure that you'll be fine! But always be careful........ always
Thank you....... I'm not so confident but I did fine last year so I don't feel to stressed out or scared this year......... 2 exams tomorrow and 6 exams sometime next week
Teenagers......... we should really get rid of them.......... or lock them up or something
They really do serve no purpose in this world...... maybe except for the very few nice people..........
But these days even children seem a bit mean and scary........ guess it can't be helped.........
I see........ but at least you still have 3....... I used to have none
but I just changed my way of thinking and got more and more good things......
although I also got more and more bad things as well.........
I see......... always sound so peaceful
........
Mine is always boring
Wonder if there'll be anything better to do when I go to Korea.......
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 09:29pm
UUuu..... thank you
but I just meant that I become a lot more meaner when I'm sad........ I think you might have noticed...... or maybe not but I think I do change a lot when I become emotional
Well but I still do have minor changes even when I'm not emotional
Keep changing every few minutes........
Well you really should decide for yourself when to daydream and when not to
When your life's on the line, I think you can leave the daydreaming for later right?
Thank you for the advice! I'll try not to freak out
Yeah they are........ but even though I know that age does not mean nothing...... I just can't help but to notice as people get older...... they realize more and more....... about sin...... about the........ bad things and yet...... they don't think about the consequences....... the effect it has......
But you are right.......
Mmm...... mean people are almost everywhere....... yeah we should try to forget about those kind of people and live for the people who matters for us....... although I feel so...... terrible when I can only love the people around me and not the people outside my comfort zone.......
I know...... I know it's impossible to love each and every single person.......
but..... I try to love everybody around me....... I try hard but....... I really have a hard time
?...... doesn't it snow in Malaysia?
Snow...... it's been few years since I've seen snow....... The Philippines is no place for snowing
I used to think that snow was cloud falling from the sky....... and I always wanted to touch the cloud....... but it melted away.......
I don't think you're weird at all for thinking like that
Music is soothing and comforting....... something very mysterious........
Very....... odd expression but I'll agree.......
Everybody has different views........ and I really think your days are..... much more nicer than mine.......
Korea?
Umm..... not really
I don't really have any friends there....... I don't really like Korean people........
I know I'm being stereotypical by catagorizing everybody in Korea the same but most Koreans are really same.......
Usually racists...... always so arrogant and think they're the best
But I really miss the weather...... I love autumn in Korea
Very windy..... the leaves change color and beautiful...... although I don't remember much......
The last autumn I saw was...... 9 years ago?........ if I remember........
But I do remember something...... my mother bought me a toy for me..... and I was in the park playing with it and realized that the wind was blowing hard and my mother told me it was because it was autumn..... and she told me that the trees changed their clothes or something.......
Memories are really....... precious........
merged: 05-15-2007 ~ 10:15pm
Yeah...... I must agree........
I try my best to keep myself quiet.......
I see............
Mmmm yeah you're right..... I'll always be me and Elizabeth will always be Elizabeth...... but as time goes by..... .second by second...... we do change
At least little by little...... although we may not always notice it
Will you? That's so sweet
I will too...... always....... no matter how things are I will still love you
Disappointed............ I don't know...... maybe something more different than that....... or maybe something more stronger than disappointment
I know....... I know..... nothing is ever perfect in this world and I'm a fool to expect something perfect out of this world........ but I don't know...... I guess I always dream bigger than what reality can offer.......
But Elizabeth....... I can't let go of those people........
I can't abandon them....... even if I might not know them well or not like them...... those people are also people too as you said
Who needs love and care...... and need to be taught what is wrong and right....... if there is wrong and right but...... we can determine some of the things...... Like by common sense we know that killing is wrong......
Yeah people are so weird....... and sometimes I just can't help myself but to hate them......... well actually quite often
But........ you know....... as much as I hate pain and sorrow...... they hate it too........ so I don't really want that.......
Love....... well........ yeah I know it is impossible to love every single soul...... every single person......
and I'm not forcing myself...... rather..... hoping..... that I'd be able to love someone as I get to know the people.......
Okay Elizabeth........ I don't really force myself to love anybody........
And........ some people....... I just love without a reason....... rather weird and funny....... but I don't really like that feeling......... while I do like it in some ways
Mmm..... so you've never seen snow.........
Well it's really....... mystical...... and magical
Can't really describe with words...... Like I said before it feels like the cloud is falling......
Very soothing...... and really cold
My hands got frostbites....... and felt really numb while I was trying to make a snowman.......
I felt that way too........ well in a different way though.......
My parents really did love me....... I knew that.......but I saw no purpose for my existence.......
I was not much of use to them..... never really helped with anything
And I was so afraid....... because my parents were keep fighting........
Kept asking........ why am I so useless? Just to see them fighting....... just to sit there staring...... listening to the screams...... the loud yells.......
Couldn't handle it...... just locked myself in the room and hoped nothing would happen........
Now most of my memories are filled with hatred........ and tears........
But now...... I'm trying to make new memories........ something that will last forever....... and you are in there..... in my imaginary book of memory that I will cherish along with all my other friends........
Thank you very much too......... for always taking the time to talk with me...... and sharing your thoughts........ and just being there...... as my friend....... as Elizabeth
Yeah better get some sleep Elizabeth
I should be going soon as well
I'll talk to you when you come back
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 08:40pm
Elizabeth!~
You're back
Missed you so~~ much..........
Gimme a hug before I hug you
I see...........
Yeah.......... I must agree........ that if we don't know what sadness is...... we won't appreciate happiness........
I do that too....... so many things that are going wrong
So many things that I wish could change but I know that I can do nothing about it
Yeah it really would be nice....... if families could spent each day together having a nice time...... laughing...... smiling and sharing
But sometimes the world doesn't allow that.......
Yeah....... that happened a lot between my parents
And my father even tried to suicide....... and I thought....... maybe I can be more happy if he just died........ maybe if he died....... that it might be alright
But I was little and I was being selfish.......
I've asked my mother to divorce my father many times....... because I couldn't take it........ but after I saw my mother being patient with him....... I decided that I can forgive him if she can too.........
I see........ laughing is really weird........
I'm like that too....... just so funny....... for no reason
When I'm tired...... when I feel like dying....... everything seems so funny and I just laugh......
Stop saying that Elizabeth! If you think that you are making my life or anybody else's life worse, just try the best you can
After all...... nobody can make my life perfect
And nobody can make my life worst
Because I believe that....... even if people don't like me....... if I can see the people who I love happy, it doesn't matter....... my life can't be worst because there are a lot of people who are suffering as well.......
Yeah...... nobody likes pain...... nobody likes sadness
It would be so wonderful if everybody could keep smiling......
My day........
..............
Kinda tiring....... nothing special
I watched an animated movie "Finding Nemo"........ quite a touching story about a father and a son....... although the story was quite predictable..........
We have a class party now but I'm really not the person who goes out to a party.......... you know........
I just feel so insecure with people........ So I was invited but didn't go........
How was the camp Elizabeth?
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 09:39pm
Yeah...... everybody feels that sometimes........ but since we do exist....... guess it can't be helped
You do make me happy Elizabeth..... didn't I tell you that before?......mmm I think I did.........
.......... do you really mean that?........ because I always feel that you are always the one doing so much for me.......
You helped me to love people again....... I'm still having troubles but because I can love you, I feel that I can love other people as well and I'm really grateful for you.......
So don't say that Elizabeth
If you truely were uselss, you wouldn't exist because every single thing in this world has purpose.........
You are one of the best things that happened in my life so far
I enjoy every single moment with you
Whether it is sad or happy...... so don't worry
I'll like you no matter what and you really shouldn't feel that way........
Your family needs you too....... remember that you are always loved
Umm....... very....... frightening camp experience.......
Are you feeling okay now?....... hope you aren't hurt too bad
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 10:17pm
Yeah I do miss my old friends too..........
But I am also really really glad that I met you........
It's okay to cry Elizabeth......... even though I hate to see you sad, I think it would be better to let your feelings out once in a while
Am I making you feel sad?
I'm so sorry........
I really do want you to be happy as well......... I want you to be happy forever
And I don't feel that sad........ I mean sometimes things don't work out too well for me, but I just remember that I have someone........ even though I cannot see that person....... so don't worry too much about me Elizabeth
I've been always fine........ well maybe not always but I always managed to pull things back together
I can't be happy just because people did things for me........
Mmm....... first of all, I am happy...... just because you are there
Second....... it has to be me....... I have to be the one to choose if I want to be happy or not
And as I said, I am happy! So please don't feel that way........
*Gets a marker and draws a smile on Elizabeth's face*
Hehe....... you do this to me too right? Whenever I seem a bit sad........
So I'll do it too
I will keep my promise.........
Uuu...... you're making me feel embarrassed.......
Thank you so much for caring about me
You are doing more than enough for me right now....... so I hope you don't feel bad about that..... okay?
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 10:39pm
Yay!
Hehe...... I will
Yeah I do get embarrassed........ I was always shy
Well........ now I'm more scared than shy but I used to be really shy...... well I still am
Really glad you are feeling better
The night really is pretty........
The sky is always so peaceful...... well except for the pollution I mean
Wish it was a bit more cooler here though
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 10:51pm
Haha I'm not always sad
I don't feel sad right now...... I feel rather happy seeing you happy
Yeah...... people are so stupid........
One day...... guess not today though
Yeah the moon is really mysterious in a lot of ways
And it's so much more prettier than the sun.......
The sun only hurts my eyes
merged: 05-18-2007 ~ 11:00pm
Well sometimes we need light too I guess.......
See you tomorrow Elizabeth
Bye bye
yo..thanks for the fav yo..btw, can you help me..dira is quitting the thread..