My true feeling.....
Actually..... I..... it hurts so much
I want to stab myself..... I want to cry every night
I want to scream until I go crazy
Although I do feel that.... I.... feel that I haven't finished something.....
Even though I've told you before that I wouldn't have any regrets even if I died
right now..... I don't know..... something feels empty
But what I said was sincere..... I do care about people
Although I have a hard time approaching people.... although I can do only a
little for people around me, I don't know why but my friends and family seem so
much important to me than myself.....
But I too am a human.... so sometimes I just lose control of my emotions and
become selfish
And you..... are very important to me too..... because..... I cannot say that
you truely care for me because..... I'm not you.... and I don't know what is
inside your heart.....
You might feel that I'm just a friend on MT or something else..... and even if
you do feel that way, I don't care!
You cared for me and..... that's enough for me to call you a friend
I don't know
But my friends are just too important to me to lose....
I don't consider the people in my school as my friends....
But still...... they haven't killed anybody or hurt someone I love so I don't
feel too much hatred towards them.....
But I would be willing to hurt someone if that person hurt someone I
love
If you want me to be happy..... I'll try
Not because you've told me to change but because I care and respect what my
friends say
...... Hope I answered you clearly......
Sorry......
Quote by vatican92My true
feeling.....
Actually..... I..... it hurts so much
I want to stab myself..... I want to cry every night
I want to scream until I go crazy
Although I do feel that.... I.... feel that I haven't finished something.....
Even though I've told you before that I wouldn't have any regrets even if I died
right now..... I don't know..... something feels empty
But what I said was sincere..... I do care about people
Although I have a hard time approaching people.... although I can do only a
little for people around me, I don't know why but my friends and family seem so
much important to me than myself.....
But I too am a human.... so sometimes I just lose control of my emotions and
become selfish
And you..... are very important to me too..... because..... I cannot say that
you truely care for me because..... I'm not you.... and I don't know what is
inside your heart.....
You might feel that I'm just a friend on MT or something else..... and even if
you do feel that way, I don't care!
You cared for me and..... that's enough for me to call you a friend
I don't know
But my friends are just too important to me to lose....
I don't consider the people in my school as my friends....
But still...... they haven't killed anybody or hurt someone I love so I don't
feel too much hatred towards them.....
But I would be willing to hurt someone if that person hurt someone I
love
If you want me to be happy..... I'll try
Not because you've told me to change but because I care and respect what my
friends say
...... Hope I answered you clearly......
Sorry......
................ Some people have a different way of seeing "friends and
families" I guess........
I don't think you're selfish..... You just care about people more then
yourself.......
Sometimes I don't understand myself too.......
Somehow it makes me feel sad to read what you say.....
I'm not saying I want you to keep quiet! Really I'm not!
It makes me feel happy to know that you think of me as your friend and I'm
really happy you're m friend!
Please..... I don't want you to change because of me...... I just want you to be
yourself.....
To me a friend is someone that I can talk with and someone that cares about me
as much as I care about them......
I care about everyone equally.... Just more if that person was my friend or
someone I cared about more.....
We're all humans..... The people that kills someone for revenge..... That person
didn't think that the person that was killed had people that cared about
him/her.......
I would be happy if you were happy! But I would be sad if you were happy because
I told you to be happy!
I just want you to be who you are!
And I think of you as a friend! And that's kinda special since it took most of
the people at least 1 year to be cosidered my friend!
...... Sometimes it makes me sad too..... when you say that you didn't have a
good day or you weren't feeling very well.......
You see..... I don't know that you are truely sad when you seem happy or
not..... but it gives me comfort when you don't at least..... show that you are
sad....
I don't know if it hurts you more to pretend not to be sad but for me, when my
friends suffer..... it just hurts too much..... much more than when I cut myself
or when the people at my school hurt me
But you know something Elizabeth?...... I've changed a bit...... because of all
the people and all the influences around me
Even just 1 or 2 year ago.... I wanted everything to die..... My parents, me,
everyone in the world
But..... there are so many people in the world I don't know.... There are always
evil people but.... there are also people who I would consider as my
friend......
Somehow I've changed..... and sometimes change is good
Now..... even though I still have some hatred left for people and the world, for
the people I love, I would give everything that I own
So if I change, it doesn't mean that I was forced to but I just
did.....
Yeah..... people are so cruel sometimes and don't care about others and can't
always be by you..... even so, there are people I would love even if they would
stop looking at me..... And it's that kind of little care that gives joy and
hope to people.....
You know..... if I had to sacrifice something for my friends to be happy, I
would do it..... because a smile on my friend's face is...... also a joy to me
and a gift and a blessing to me
So if you have something that you don't like about me, you can just say it
If I think you are right, I should proabably change because sometimes I can't
see my own faults....
Thank you Elizabeth..... Once again for caring..... and for being my friend
I thank you for being a such wonderful friend and God for giving me such
wonderful friends like you and the friends on FF that I don't think that I
deserve after all the bad things I've done
Anyways...... Sorry but I'm really tired.....
And I have a lot to do.... School is really annoying sometimes but I have to do
it....
So maybe I'll talk to you later if you are still there..... and if you aren't,
we can always talk tomorrow..... ^^
Well then..... take care while I'm gone Elizabeth!
Quote by 95ElizabethI don't either! I
had to read 13 pages about HTML to find out!
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I
bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I
can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your
real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I
think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned
members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
merged: 04-14-2007 ~ 12:42pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI don't either! I
had to read 13 pages about HTML to find out!
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I
bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I
can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your
real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I
think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned
members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
merged: 04-14-2007 ~ 12:42pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI don't either! I
had to read 13 pages about HTML to find out!
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I
bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I
can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your
real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I
think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned
members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
Quote by vatican92
Yeah..... you're right again
I have been foolish... I think should live my life for other people
Since I don't belive my life is mine alone.....
Money..... It's funny what people would do for money....
For only a piece of paper....
Yeah... I'm kinda jealous of those people who are always grateful even when they
are suffering.... I think those people know what true happiness is.....
Yeah Elizabeth! Be strong! I'm always praying for you so don't lose to the
world.... Don't worry because like you told me once, there are people who think
you are awesome.... Like me. I think of you as a sister and one of my best
friends
I would say best friend but I would feel sorry for all my other
friends...
Yeah... I've thought about that...
But.... sometimes I think... why should I care?
I mean I am eventually going to die and sadness is just part of life....
And sometimes, I just can't take it anymore....
So sometimes I think "If they really cared for me.... Why can't they just
leave me to just die and not suffer anymore"
I'm just glad that people like you care to even talk to me....
I don't think you are rude at all... Please feel free to write to me
anytime....
Sometimes I want to help too... although I don't think I can do
much.....
I don't think you're foolish!
If you think you live for others, that just means you care about people!
But I have to admit! It's kinda dumb to think your life is others and not yours
alone!
Sorry if that's rude!
But no one can make you do something you don't want to! You make your life and
only you can do what you want to do!
If you do what others ask you to do....
Well I don't think that's the right choice!
You'll regret it one day!
Jealous of people who are always grateful even when they are suffering......
Well I don't think you should be jealous!
If you truely want to be like them....
Just not hate life so much!
well I can't make you want to live....
If you really think you're suffering and you wat to die, I can't stop you!
It's your life and only you can decide what you want to do!
I will let you do what you want to do!
I won't feel sad if you die because you want to, because I'll know you'll be
happy!
Well.... I won't say that anyone can't do much!
There are lost of ways to "do much"!
Praying for someone's happiness is just as good as protecting someone!
Thank you! Thanks for praying for me too!
OK.... I don't mind if you call me dumb or stupid or weird....
BUt I still think that because if it was truely only ours alone, we wouldn't
care for other people and others wouldn't care about us. Because we put
importance on other people, and because other people put importance on me, I
think that I'm property of anybody who cares for me.
I see no meaning for just living for myself.... That would be selfish
So I think I should live to help other people.... I think that would give me a
purpose and a will to live....
..... Most of the times I do want to die.... but sometimes I feel that... I want
to make someone smile.... at least before I die....
If I don't, my existence would have been meaningless.... although it doesn't
really matter if I was useful or not
Thank you too... I think praying for people is the most I can do because.... I
can't really meet everybody in real life
And I truely care for all my friends on MT.... And just because I can't find my
happiness doesn't mean they shouldn't either.... So I pray.... that maybe
they'll find their own happiness......
merged: 04-11-2007 ~ 06:25pm
Teeheehee....
Okay
I'm really glad you're my friend too
Quote by vatican92Elizabe(...) I just
dropped by to say sorry about today.....
I was a little bit upset at what you said.....
Please forgive me.... I had a terrible day and I just..... sorry
Sorry.... I just had a bad day that's all.... Forget about what i said.... I
didn't really mean it.... I heard my father say how great my step sister was and
how he wished i was as useful as her and be more mature....
Sorry....
I'm sorry Elizabeth......
But I think you are awesome
I can't really say that your sister is not useful because I don't know her but
to me you're much more important than your sister because you've been a great
friend....
Still I think your father is too.... mean.....
Yeah... I was.... feeling down too.... because my mother and father were yelling
at each other again....
They've done that ever since I was born but I don't get used to it
Sometimes I wish they would just go away or I would just die so I wouldn't have
to listen to them.....
See you Elizabeth..... unless you're gonna chat with me on FF
Quote by [/quote.minitokyo.net/">(...) I just dropped by to say sorry about
today.....
I was a little bit upset at what you said.....
Please forgive me.... I had a terrible day and I just..... sorry [/quote
Sorry.... I just had a bad day that's all.... Forget about what i said.... I
didn't really mean it.... I heard my father say how great my step sister was and
how he wished i was as useful as her and be more mature....
Sorry....
I'm sorry Elizabeth......
But I think you are awesome
I can't really say that your sister is not useful because I don't know her but
to me you're much more important than your sister because you've been a great
friend....
Still I think your father is too.... mean.....
Yeah... I was.... feeling down too.... because my mother and father were yelling
at each other again....
They've done that ever since I was born but I don't get used to it
Sometimes I wish they would just go away or I would just die so I wouldn't have
to listen to them.....
See you Elizabeth..... unless you're gonna chat with me on FF
Thanks! No one ever said I was important! Well I
know my father is kinda... Uuumm... Mean... But I just learn to except it!
I know how you feel about your parents but I know they still care about you!
There are times when your parents are wrong but I bet sometimes they are nice!
No
one is perfect but no one is completely bad either! If your
parents hate eachother, they still care about you because you're their child!
Every parent is the same even if one family is "bad" and one is
"good" ! Because they will always care about their child even if they
say they hate you they still love you!
I bet I'm confusing! Sorry!
No I understand you.....
Hope I can understand URE better though.... hmmm
But you know something?.....
I don't like that.... I hate that idea
Why should I be loved just because I'm their child?
I've hated that idea ever since they told me that they wouldn't adopt a
brother/sister for me....
My parents told me because they wouldn't be able to love him/her as much as they
loved me.
I think that is unfair.... Why is it so hard to love someone outside the
family?
Why don't they stop looking at me and take a moment to look at the poor kids
starving to death?
Quote by [/quote.minitokyo.net/">(...) I just dropped by to say sorry about
today.....
I was a little bit upset at what you said.....
Please forgive me.... I had a terrible day and I just..... sorry [/quote
Sorry.... I just had a bad day that's all.... Forget about what i said.... I
didn't really mean it.... I heard my father say how great my step sister was and
how he wished i was as useful as her and be more mature....
Sorry....
I'm sorry Elizabeth......
But I think you are awesome
I can't really say that your sister is not useful because I don't know her but
to me you're much more important than your sister because you've been a great
friend....
Still I think your father is too.... mean.....
Yeah... I was.... feeling down too.... because my mother and father were yelling
at each other again....
They've done that ever since I was born but I don't get used to it
Sometimes I wish they would just go away or I would just die so I wouldn't have
to listen to them.....
See you Elizabeth..... unless you're gonna chat with me on FF
Thanks! No one ever said I was important! Well I
know my father is kinda... Uuumm... Mean... But I just learn to except it!
I know how you feel about your parents but I know they still care about you!
There are times when your parents are wrong but I bet sometimes they are nice!
No
one is perfect but no one is completely bad either! If your
parents hate eachother, they still care about you because you're their child!
Every parent is the same even if one family is "bad" and one is
"good" ! Because they will always care about their child even if they
say they hate you they still love you!
I bet I'm confusing! Sorry!
No I understand you.....
Hope I can understand URE better though.... hmmm
But you know something?.....
I don't like that.... I hate that idea
Why should I be loved just because I'm their child?
I've hated that idea ever since they told me that they wouldn't adopt a
brother/sister for me....
My parents told me because they wouldn't be able to love him/her as much as they
loved me.
I think that is unfair.... Why is it so hard to love someone outside the
family?
Why don't they stop looking at me and take a moment to look at the poor kids
starving to death?
Sorry.... just a bit.... annoyed I guess...
<_< No it's ok... I get what you say.... I don't like that idea either....
I wanted to adopt a sister/brother too... But my parents said the same thing
your parents did....
When I go to the orphanage I don't say I feel sorry for them and I truly
don't...
If I feel sorry for them, I'm like saying they're not as good as me and I'm
better....
I treat everyone the same....I don't believe that I should care less about
anyone....They're all humans....
I performed piano and singing in the orphanage before and I like doing it....
Don't you think they look much more pretty when they smile!
I just don't get why a human can just leave another human like that.....
Even if someone has no legs and is blind is still a human...
We're all the same... Why should we like and hate someone just because of how
they look....
I agree with what you say! You're a really nice person! I bet you could bring
smiles to the people in the orphanage and to everyone else!
Wow.... You still amaze me with what you say.....
I dunno..... actually I feel sorry to myself the most.....
Because I never stand up and say no.....
I just let myself get punished so somebody else would feel better
Yeah.... everybody is human......
I've just read a book on Jewish persecution book from World War 2 and it really
touched my heart.....
Why must we kill? For pride? For revenge? For.... our country?
Orphanage.... I've been to one serveral times.... but I always feel so....
uncomfortable with people no matter who they are
I even feel uncomfortable with my parents who are the closest to me at the
moment.....
But I know I loved each and every soul in the orphanage.... Because even when
they were abandoned by their parents, they were still smiling.... Still
happy.... When all I've done is complain about my parents and my
life.....
Thank you Elizabeth.... I think you are mature.... very mature
I think you are a very smart person.... You always make me feel so.... guilty
though.....
You shouldn't feel sorry for yourself!
There are many types of people in this world! People that are brave and there
are also people that are afraid!
Sometimes being brave would get you killed for the wrong reason! But
sometimes it's good for you!
Being afraid.... I think the people who are afraid are not weak! They just
need someone to help them and they also need to want to be brave!
I used to be afraid of the dark but I tried my best not be scared! If someone
says they don't want to climb cause they are scared they will fall then that's
not living life to the fullest! A part of
living life to the fullest is doing something you never done! If someone is
scared of the outside world and they lock themselves in a room, once they die
they will never get the chance to see the whole world! Trust me, if you're so
afraid of things you're gonna regret it when you die!
Just need to want to be brave and people to help you live your life!
War..... War is a useless thing.... They say it will bring peace but it will
only bring tears and blood.... Sometimes it's better not to know your enemy....
The people who fight... I really want to ask them what they're fighting for....
I'm mature? I'm not really known as the most mature person! Well I'm not known
for being mature at all! But
thank you.
Hmmm..... very true.... Yes you're always right~
Personally.... I don't think life is about living to the fullest....
I'm not sure why we live but I don't think it's about living to the fullest we
can.... but it's only my opinion....
Don't worry Elizabeth.... even if I died right now.... I don't think there would
be anything I would regret about.....
I don't know..... I might even be happy about dying....
Yeah war is.....
War is only because of the selfishness of the people....
Yepp.... very mature.... People just don't know what mature is because they're
not mature themselves :P
I started thinking about the world and stuff when I was about your age right
now.... I've doubted and cursed God, hated everything..... and everything felt
so meaningless....
Anyways for you, you've already thought about lot of things and you know about
ethics, what's right and wrong.....
So when I just began thinking about those things, you were already finding
answers....
hmm.... I'm kinda confused about what I'm saying....
Anyways Elizabeth, have a nice day and take care.... hehe... although we might
chat later on FF
merged: 04-10-2007 ~ 08:58pm
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Living life to the fullest.... Well there are lots of ways in doing that! It's
different for every one of us!
To me living life to the fullest is to find people that care about you and
bringing smiles to people's faces!
If you just care about yourself, I don't think you would be truely happy....
They say money is everything but money means nothing to me....
Money may be able to BUY friends but your friends won't be true friends!
Money made war and will eventually only bring tears....
Some people may be poor but they will be the ones who learn the most.... They
will know how it feels to go through the hard ship and if they had friends, I'm
sure they're true friends!
Being rich and spending your time sitting on a chair and letting people serve
you! Is that truely a great life? The rich can buy friends but friends who only
want you money! My life is just like that.... But I know my "friends"
don't really care about me.... Some of them say I'm imature, selfish and
spoiled.... But I don't blame them one bit! I'm not
gonna cry and feel sorry for myself! That's just gonna make them think I'm
spoiled and weak! The people who don't want to change when they did something
wrong are the people who are truely weak.... But there are always gonna be bad
things about everyone! But there
are always good things too!
Well I do know why you want to die, I want to too... But if I die the people who
care about me will be sad! Won't
want that to happen would I!
War... Not all of them want to fight! But fighting is the only way to protect
when there's a war... To protect your country and the people in it.... But that
does not make it right.... But protecting is not wrong either.... Guess the
question "What is war" can never be replied....
I hope you don't think I'm rude if I talked to much....
Thanks again! Hope your life works out!
Yeah..... you're right again
I have been foolish... I think should live my life for other people
Since I don't belive my life is mine alone.....
Money..... It's funny what people would do for money....
For only a piece of paper....
Yeah... I'm kinda jealous of those people who are always grateful even when they
are suffering.... I think those people know what true happiness is.....
Yeah Elizabeth! Be strong! I'm always praying for you so don't lose to the
world.... Don't worry because like you told me once, there are people who think
you are awesome.... Like me. I think of you as a sister and one of my best
friends
I would say best friend but I would feel sorry for all my other
friends...
Yeah... I've thought about that...
But.... sometimes I think... why should I care?
I mean I am eventually going to die and sadness is just part of life....
And sometimes, I just can't take it anymore....
So sometimes I think "If they really cared for me.... Why can't they just
leave me to just die and not suffer anymore"
I'm just glad that people like you care to even talk to me....
I don't think you are rude at all... Please feel free to write to me
anytime....
Sometimes I want to help too... although I don't think I can do much.....
Elizabeth..... I just dropped by to say sorry about today.....
I was a little bit upset at what you said.....
Please forgive me.... I had a terrible day and I just..... sorry
hi eli-chan!..so sorry if I wasn't able to go here in mt for such a LONG
time...I was so occupied by schoolworks and other stuff..but since it's summer
here already, guess I can go here more..I really am so sorry...
so what's up?..^^
how are you?..still the same or you changed?..hehe..
XD haha i'm fine thank you ^^
You? ja~
sure i will be glad!
ahha
My true feeling.....
Actually..... I..... it hurts so much
I want to stab myself..... I want to cry every night
I want to scream until I go crazy
Although I do feel that.... I.... feel that I haven't finished something.....
Even though I've told you before that I wouldn't have any regrets even if I died right now..... I don't know..... something feels empty
But what I said was sincere..... I do care about people
Although I have a hard time approaching people.... although I can do only a little for people around me, I don't know why but my friends and family seem so much important to me than myself.....
But I too am a human.... so sometimes I just lose control of my emotions and become selfish
And you..... are very important to me too..... because..... I cannot say that you truely care for me because..... I'm not you.... and I don't know what is inside your heart.....
You might feel that I'm just a friend on MT or something else..... and even if you do feel that way, I don't care!
You cared for me and..... that's enough for me to call you a friend
I don't know
But my friends are just too important to me to lose....
I don't consider the people in my school as my friends....
But still...... they haven't killed anybody or hurt someone I love so I don't feel too much hatred towards them.....
But I would be willing to hurt someone if that person hurt someone I love
If you want me to be happy..... I'll try
Not because you've told me to change but because I care and respect what my friends say
...... Hope I answered you clearly......
Sorry......
merged: 04-17-2007 ~ 04:48pm
...... Sometimes it makes me sad too..... when you say that you didn't have a good day or you weren't feeling very well.......
You see..... I don't know that you are truely sad when you seem happy or not..... but it gives me comfort when you don't at least..... show that you are sad....
I don't know if it hurts you more to pretend not to be sad but for me, when my friends suffer..... it just hurts too much..... much more than when I cut myself or when the people at my school hurt me
But you know something Elizabeth?...... I've changed a bit...... because of all the people and all the influences around me
Even just 1 or 2 year ago.... I wanted everything to die..... My parents, me, everyone in the world
But..... there are so many people in the world I don't know.... There are always evil people but.... there are also people who I would consider as my friend......
Somehow I've changed..... and sometimes change is good
Now..... even though I still have some hatred left for people and the world, for the people I love, I would give everything that I own
So if I change, it doesn't mean that I was forced to but I just did.....
Yeah..... people are so cruel sometimes and don't care about others and can't always be by you..... even so, there are people I would love even if they would stop looking at me..... And it's that kind of little care that gives joy and hope to people.....
You know..... if I had to sacrifice something for my friends to be happy, I would do it..... because a smile on my friend's face is...... also a joy to me and a gift and a blessing to me
So if you have something that you don't like about me, you can just say it
If I think you are right, I should proabably change because sometimes I can't see my own faults....
Thank you Elizabeth..... Once again for caring..... and for being my friend
I thank you for being a such wonderful friend and God for giving me such wonderful friends like you and the friends on FF that I don't think that I deserve after all the bad things I've done
Anyways...... Sorry but I'm really tired.....
And I have a lot to do.... School is really annoying sometimes but I have to do it....
So maybe I'll talk to you later if you are still there..... and if you aren't, we can always talk tomorrow..... ^^
Well then..... take care while I'm gone Elizabeth!
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
merged: 04-14-2007 ~ 12:42pm
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
merged: 04-14-2007 ~ 12:42pm
Wow...0-o...you're very committed. I wouldn't be able to get through 2 pages (I bet).
And...umm...your page is a bit messed up. I can't see the guestbook on it...I can to go to options to get to it...
And I wonder...heh heh...I'm guessing...but did you make your name by using your real name and the last two digints of 1995 (the year your born in...I think)...?
And...umm...I just want to know. I've seen a lot of restricted and banned members...how does a person get banned or restricted or muted on MT?
Hello Amaya-san!
Thanks for faving&commenting on When the world is changing::
Bye
From
Mya102
Hey lizzy! ^^'
OK.... I don't mind if you call me dumb or stupid or weird....
BUt I still think that because if it was truely only ours alone, we wouldn't care for other people and others wouldn't care about us. Because we put importance on other people, and because other people put importance on me, I think that I'm property of anybody who cares for me.
I see no meaning for just living for myself.... That would be selfish
So I think I should live to help other people.... I think that would give me a purpose and a will to live....
..... Most of the times I do want to die.... but sometimes I feel that... I want to make someone smile.... at least before I die....
If I don't, my existence would have been meaningless.... although it doesn't really matter if I was useful or not
Thank you too... I think praying for people is the most I can do because.... I can't really meet everybody in real life
And I truely care for all my friends on MT.... And just because I can't find my happiness doesn't mean they shouldn't either.... So I pray.... that maybe they'll find their own happiness......
merged: 04-11-2007 ~ 06:25pm
Teeheehee....
Okay
I'm really glad you're my friend too
really? 0-o i think urs is cooler than mine...i dont evn kno how to change the font on mine...
I'm sorry Elizabeth......
But I think you are awesome
I can't really say that your sister is not useful because I don't know her but to me you're much more important than your sister because you've been a great friend....
Still I think your father is too.... mean.....
Yeah... I was.... feeling down too.... because my mother and father were yelling at each other again....
They've done that ever since I was born but I don't get used to it
Sometimes I wish they would just go away or I would just die so I wouldn't have to listen to them.....
See you Elizabeth..... unless you're gonna chat with me on FF
merged: 04-09-2007 ~ 11:21pm
No I understand you.....
Hope I can understand URE better though.... hmmm
But you know something?.....
I don't like that.... I hate that idea
Why should I be loved just because I'm their child?
I've hated that idea ever since they told me that they wouldn't adopt a brother/sister for me....
My parents told me because they wouldn't be able to love him/her as much as they loved me.
I think that is unfair.... Why is it so hard to love someone outside the family?
Why don't they stop looking at me and take a moment to look at the poor kids starving to death?
Sorry.... just a bit.... annoyed I guess...
merged: 04-09-2007 ~ 11:47pm
No I understand you.....
Hope I can understand URE better though.... hmmm
But you know something?.....
I don't like that.... I hate that idea
Why should I be loved just because I'm their child?
I've hated that idea ever since they told me that they wouldn't adopt a brother/sister for me....
My parents told me because they wouldn't be able to love him/her as much as they loved me.
I think that is unfair.... Why is it so hard to love someone outside the family?
Why don't they stop looking at me and take a moment to look at the poor kids starving to death?
Sorry.... just a bit.... annoyed I guess...
<_< No it's ok... I get what you say.... I don't like that idea either.... I wanted to adopt a sister/brother too... But my parents said the same thing your parents did....
When I go to the orphanage I don't say I feel sorry for them and I truly don't...
If I feel sorry for them, I'm like saying they're not as good as me and I'm better....
I treat everyone the same....I don't believe that I should care less about anyone....They're all humans....
I performed piano and singing in the orphanage before and I like doing it....
Don't you think they look much more pretty when they smile!
I just don't get why a human can just leave another human like that.....
Even if someone has no legs and is blind is still a human...
We're all the same... Why should we like and hate someone just because of how they look....
I agree with what you say! You're a really nice person! I bet you could bring smiles to the people in the orphanage and to everyone else!
Wow.... You still amaze me with what you say.....
I dunno..... actually I feel sorry to myself the most.....
Because I never stand up and say no.....
I just let myself get punished so somebody else would feel better
Yeah.... everybody is human......
I've just read a book on Jewish persecution book from World War 2 and it really touched my heart.....
Why must we kill? For pride? For revenge? For.... our country?
Orphanage.... I've been to one serveral times.... but I always feel so.... uncomfortable with people no matter who they are
I even feel uncomfortable with my parents who are the closest to me at the moment.....
But I know I loved each and every soul in the orphanage.... Because even when they were abandoned by their parents, they were still smiling.... Still happy.... When all I've done is complain about my parents and my life.....
Thank you Elizabeth.... I think you are mature.... very mature
I think you are a very smart person.... You always make me feel so.... guilty though.....
merged: 04-10-2007 ~ 03:44pm
Hmmm..... very true.... Yes you're always right~
Personally.... I don't think life is about living to the fullest....
I'm not sure why we live but I don't think it's about living to the fullest we can.... but it's only my opinion....
Don't worry Elizabeth.... even if I died right now.... I don't think there would be anything I would regret about.....
I don't know..... I might even be happy about dying....
Yeah war is.....
War is only because of the selfishness of the people....
Yepp.... very mature.... People just don't know what mature is because they're not mature themselves :P
I started thinking about the world and stuff when I was about your age right now.... I've doubted and cursed God, hated everything..... and everything felt so meaningless....
Anyways for you, you've already thought about lot of things and you know about ethics, what's right and wrong.....
So when I just began thinking about those things, you were already finding answers....
hmm.... I'm kinda confused about what I'm saying....
Anyways Elizabeth, have a nice day and take care.... hehe... although we might chat later on FF
merged: 04-10-2007 ~ 08:58pm
Yeah..... you're right again
I have been foolish... I think should live my life for other people
Since I don't belive my life is mine alone.....
Money..... It's funny what people would do for money....
For only a piece of paper....
Yeah... I'm kinda jealous of those people who are always grateful even when they are suffering.... I think those people know what true happiness is.....
Yeah Elizabeth! Be strong! I'm always praying for you so don't lose to the world.... Don't worry because like you told me once, there are people who think you are awesome.... Like me. I think of you as a sister and one of my best friends
I would say best friend but I would feel sorry for all my other friends...
Yeah... I've thought about that...
But.... sometimes I think... why should I care?
I mean I am eventually going to die and sadness is just part of life....
And sometimes, I just can't take it anymore....
So sometimes I think "If they really cared for me.... Why can't they just leave me to just die and not suffer anymore"
I'm just glad that people like you care to even talk to me....
I don't think you are rude at all... Please feel free to write to me anytime....
Sometimes I want to help too... although I don't think I can do much.....
Happy Easter
good day to you
I got beaten by Nono-san
hiya happy easter~ hahax..! ^^
this card is for you!
hope you get lots and lots of chocolates~
sa-chan~
Elizabeth..... I just dropped by to say sorry about today.....
I was a little bit upset at what you said.....
Please forgive me.... I had a terrible day and I just..... sorry
hi eli-chan!..so sorry if I wasn't able to go here in mt for such a LONG time...I was so occupied by schoolworks and other stuff..but since it's summer here already, guess I can go here more..I really am so sorry...
so what's up?..^^
how are you?..still the same or you changed?..hehe..
Hello kyoko ;p
Happy easter day!
*give a lot of cookies and easter eggs* lol
bunny from me ^^
anything kyokochan ^^
merged: 04-06-2007 ~ 02:05pm
^^ ill call u amaya-chan ^^
care to be one?
good day to you eli-chan
Oh sure
! I love too 
;P
good day
Hi Elizabeth! I really like your userpage! It's really cool!
Sure
Most of my groups are quiet anyway....
And I am nocturnal
Hello, Elizabeth. ^^ I drop by to see how you are doing. Hrm...i only use Elizabeth on your UP so don't be mistaken ne. :P
good day to you
yo kyoko-san~
Have a nice day~
Ja ^^