Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangcock to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Quote by Lionhearted911 hmm no i
don't think i am the one that needs comforting...i admire your strength to deal
with all that...i think for me the stress of having to leave college and get a
job would have brought me to tears perhaps...and then taking care of so many
must be really hard on you...don't worry i far from pity you...really i think
your strength and endurance are remarkable...i am sure with a lil time and
patience you will finally find peace in some way... i hope you find a job
soon... i will pray for you so you keep up your good work ne
ahh as for me...i think i am a lil calmer now since many things have been sorted
out... here is something i wrote in my thread and am too tired to rewrite now
so:
ooooh great news desu!
my friend took 510 out of 800 on her physics exam and thing is she did not
study...she was telling me if i take physics without studying i would probably
end up with no less than 600 and she said since i am gonna study i am gonna do
even better than i dream! i was so happy i had to hug her she says she
will take the exam again with me since she says "Smart girls like you are
great moral support" i am glad
then...
also for the toefl i asked a girl who took it if it was cool and she said that
"you are smart betcha you can solve it with your eyes closed" not
perfect advice since it does not tell me the exam format or anything but it says
judging from my intellectual skill that i can manage with a great mark on that
one too...
Sat1 is not a problem since i studied before and again without studying i always
did pretty well...
now Math... stuff i never even took before but a friend said it was straight
foreward...though she said it would take three weeks to study for it...so i
guess i will worry about it after i finish the other three...
my school exams start a week exactly after i finish my last SAT exam and i guess
i am very happy and relieved now...
hahahahas so things are not going to be as bad as i might have thought...anyway
i will pray for the both of us...i am sure things will work out...i have faith
and hope that they will...
hahahahas i am sure it was exhausting to drive when you had a fever...lools! i
know i was dead tired by the time i got home...
yeah i am planning on spamming only a few minutes before bed since i am going to
be studying the rest of the day...i am only doing this for one reason...i don't
care about my grades...i just wanna get accepted into the university i really
wanna go to above all cuz there for once some of my dreams will come true...it
won't be the same if i were to go to another university...so i hope this works
out more than ever...
ahh i sure am exhausted... barely get to sleep these days... besides the
fact that i was a lil stressed alst night and now i am on antibiotics i am sooo
tired...i think i will lie down for a while...can't risk sleeping though or dad
would scold me seems to me here i get scolded all the time for the lamest reasons
anyway then i hope you take care Tommy-chan! goodluck and do you best!
Zzzz Zzzz
I hope that everything works out too. Especially for you... Hearing what those
other girls said about you regarding the tests, I'm confident that you'll do
great. You seem to be a very smart person. Just don't stress yourself out over
studying; you'll be needing your brains on this.
Sleep... Sleep... ...something that I was deprived of again last night. I had
yet another insomnia attack which kept me from getting any sleep at all.
Something just shook me awake, and got my mind racing, which keeps me from
getting to sleep. I eventually gave up on getting sleep, and ended up watching a
couple of episodes of F/SN.
It's raining on this end. I love the sound of the rain. ...but it also
interferes with my net connection. Heck, the connection died even as I was
typing this the first time around.
Sorry if this response seems a little short. I'm still not 100% fully
functional.
Take care, Sara.
Know that I'm rooting for you on whatever comes your way.
hello!
your guestbook is pretty full but i was able to find a space here =p
thanks for signing mine
i really hope he gets well soon or i'll have to stab my cpu with a kitchen knife
(cause i don't have a shotgun or a bazooka) ^^
well.. take care
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Quote by Lionhearted911 well i
guess you are right regarding Maria and Brandon...prehaps it is better to
abandon than to bring danger unto the one you love
well i skipped school today...really not feeling well at all...in fact i am
still tired now but i can't stay in bed forever... i have a major preoblem
though, besides the fact that when i am sick i barely sleep ten minutes an hour
which frustrates me since sleep is what i want...but then it seems to me when i
am physically weary, i am emotionally a total mess for some
reason or the other i get so lonely when i am sick and cry for no
reason...loools! but anyway i am better now than i was about six hours ago when
i started crying out of the blue in my head i
was calling out to mum but then again she was sleeping and i couldn't exactly go
up to her and wake her up just cuz i wanted to be with her there were a
couple of others whose company would have made me feel alot better...but even i
coul never burden them cuz i was not well...and anyway when sis woke up for
school i felt alot better and went to sleep after she left...still i am sleepy
now
haha yah no shame in giving in and i would have...but remember i told you dad
said it was ok for me to stay up at night if i sleep at 7pm? if i had gone to
bed yesterday cuz of my head my father will grab me when i get up and tell me
something like "see, you got a headache...go to bed you can't manage"
you know things like that...so i had to stay up till nightfall...it was cool but
all night my head hurt no thanks to my sickness...so could barely sleep ....T_T
mum says dad does not feel well too... and neither does mum
hmm so much for wanting to start studying for college exams soon... ha...i have
no energy now for such a thing
hmm that is pretty admirable what you did regarding your family...i am sure you
wish you were able to continue...life sure is harsh at times...but then at least
you were able to get a job and manage to help your family... that was very great
for you to sacrifice what you want for the sake of those you care about... i am
sure everyone appreciates your sacrifice ne...besides i always think what goes
around comes around...so you doing such an honorable and good deed...surely you
will be repaid for it someday...
i know they are looking after my best interest... just sometimes i wish they
would give me a chance to do a lil as i please ne i mean to be
honest even today to stay home cuz i was exhausted i hesitated so many
times...like i was worried dad would scold me...who knows he just might when he
comes back home from work..and my grades along with my sister's are becoming a
burden...i wish sis would decide when she wants to reveal to our parents since
her grade was waaay worse than mine...i told her i would come to her
defense...but keeping this a secret...probably with me being so sick is just a
burden...i really wanna get it over and done with...it's already past i don't
see what good will come out of getting scolded for numbers so you can
see why i sympathized with Mikey-chan that time ... it is just unfair that we're
too scared and worried to tell them our marks and say we will do better this
time since we still got a chance at redemption...but anyway i hope things work
out just fine..
ahhh this post seems to be filled with nothing but bad news
hahahahas...
to make it up to you, here is a link to a really really nice song...it is a bit
lively and might cheer you up since i liked it
the song is called Forever
(seventh song counting from the top ne.. i ope you like it...i really did )
take care Tommy-chan! do your best in your work! *cheer!*
That's sad to hear about that, your sleeping troubles I mean. Truth be told, I
kinda go through something similar. For some reason, my mind is more active at
night, so I tend to do a lot of thinking during the night. Unfortunately, the
first thoughts that hit my head are of all the lousy things that have happened.
Needless to say, that sort of makes me a little emotional, even more if I was
depressed earlier before. (I get depressed real easily) ...I wish I knew what to
say to you, something comforting at least...
I know that your dad gave you the okay, but I was just saying that sometimes
it's better to give your body a rest, especially if you're not feeling well.
...then again, I should talk; I'm the kind of person who would rather find
something to do than stay in bed when I'm sick.
I thank you for thinking what I did was admirable, but you probably wouldn't
have thought so if I had told you what happened afterwards. I only had that job
for a couple of months before I was let go. That was about six months ago, and
I've been looking for work ever since, but to no luck. I tried to get back into
school, but the fact that I dropped out has really hurt my chances of getting
back in (...it affected my financial aid.)
We all seek that kind of freedom some time in our lives. At the same time, if
you look at it from their perspective, they see that you have grown up, but they
don't want you to go just yet. I remember how my mom was when my sister left
home for college, and letting go is a hard thing. (...I think that I'm missing
the point somewhere...)
Nobody likes to admit to others that they have made a mistake. (...well, almost
nobody) The real problems come when they try to cover up or blame others for
their own errors. I guess that the reason they scold you over numbers is that
they realize you are a smart person; they see the potential in you to do great
things. If you can work at that chance of redemption, I'm positive that it will
work out.
I forgot to mention it in my last response, but I guess I can mention it now. I
liked the songs you pointed out. Aizome and Karinui have a nice mellow pace to
them. Forever is pretty cool as well.
Take care, Sara. Hope everything works out.
merged: 02-19-2007 ~ 04:31pm
Quote by Lionhearted911 hmmm...now
the reason i am worried sick and unable to rest like normal people is the SATs
and my other college exams... kinda keeps me awake ...
but here is what i planned today:
well for college i need to take up four exams...the SAT 1, toefl, Sat2 Math
level2, and the Sat 2 physics..
i want to apply for the Sat1 and Sat2 Physics on to take it on May2 which is the
only day availabe in May...
and the level 2 Math Sat2 exam for June 2 ...which is the date available after
May...
but then i am a lil stressed out...in my life i have never taken studies
seriously...i mean not even school exams where i spent so much time spamming and
doing as i please... no what...
i already thought up a lil schedule...i wonder though if you all think it might
work out as nicely as it seems...
here it is though it leaves out preparations for toefl...which i think i will
just go and do without studying
well...starting next saturday...i am going to get a physics tutor who will tutor
me five times a week, a chapter a day...thus in seven weeks my book will be done
and i would have studied hard for it i know... and i might be prepared (not only
to pass since that is not the issue here) to get a really good mark...
also that means i would study math for SAT 1 every friday..and the vocab i can
do in th car every morning on my way to school since i am capable of
that...
then when those two are done...i have to find a way to study Math level2...but
then i have less time for Math than i did for physics (then again even before
May2 if i am dine nicely i am gonna begin studying for math anyway and then
maybe...just maybe i can finish before deadline)
the last time i can take the toefl this year is March 24! and registration
closes three days prior to exam date...
hmm okay then i am taking the exam on March 24
hmm i am worried...seems like i know i can do it...but since it is the first
time i am a lil...too worried...stressed...scared...
lools...but anyway there is nothing i can do but prepare ne...i hope things work
out well
yeah and i am working for redemptiond for sure...hopefully it will work out
glad you liked the songs Tommy-chan
hmmm...goodluck in your life Tommy...i am sure you deserve the best there
is...with patience i am sure it will work out somehow..
hahahaha you don't have to bother yourself about comforting me it's a
comfort to write it to you so it's ok besides i am
better now so no emo attacks thanks god...just could not sleep from stress about
college exams...but now i am also a lil better so i think it is gonna be alright
ne...
hahaha there was this one time i went out to the mall shopping with mum when i
was burning with fever...really not many people love toughing things out the way
i do...though honestly less than an hour later i was leaning against things and
made mum take me back home then she got
angry that i act all tough when i had to make her come home not an hour later
hahahahaha! but it was an interesting experience...i know now not to go out when
i have a fever hahaahha
ahh i have to run for school now...in less than 20 mins
have a great day Tommy-chan! hope Silver is better too!
No wonder you're stressed. You're going to be having a lot on your plate to deal
with. All of those tests... Guess this qualifies as one of those life changing
moments...Well, if you stick to this schedule as planned, I'm sure that it will
work out for you. Just try to give yourself some leeway in your plans, just in
case something unexpected should happen. This also means that you're going to
have to cut back on the time you spend spamming. The more time you spend on
preparations, the better prepared you'll be when the time comes around.
I think that my mom sent me out one time when I had a fever once... ...no, wait,
it was my grandpa. He likes to play the lottery, but since he doesn't have a
driver's license, I'm the only one around to get him his stuff. It wasn't a
pretty sight.
...I hope that things work out on this end. Things have been messed up on this
end for too long, and I'm not just talking about my grandma and little cousin.
Several years ago, back when I was about 12, my mom hurt herself while on the
job. She suffered a crushed disk in her spine as a result, and has been
suffering in excruciating pain ever since. We've taken her to have her injury
looked at, but the damage is irreparable. She can't go back to work because of
her back, and her health has been getting worse. I had to spend my most recent
birthday in the emergency room with her because she needed a life-saving blood
transfusion. I've been looking for work so I could help with the costs of
keeping the family well-off, but the costs keep piling up. (I'm in the middle of
paying off the student loans I had to get so I could go to college...)
I'm glad that your feeling better. ...but I can't help but think that I should
comfort you when you're down. It's no bother at all. Besides, I am your friend,
after all.
Take care, Sara. Hope your day is going well.
P.S. Silver is doing fine.
Quote by Lionhearted911 hmm oh
alright i am convinced about
Brandon choosing the smaller of sorrows perhaps...still what aboutt he girl ne!
(considering the fact that i am female and would understand her feelings better)
he should have stayed! she wanted him to stay and she could care less about her
life... i would want to live with someone i love even if it means i might die
tomorrow...i know i would die happy having been with someone i cherished *nod
nod*
oh Harry sure is cruel ne...i guess money and power does that to people...a
teacher today was talking about some psychological research they did on a group
of people ne...took some people to a trip to an empty jail for their research
and what they did was split them in two...half would play the role of the
security guards and the other half were those in prison...then they told the
"prisoners" a "secret" and told them not to tell the jailers
no matter what since they would lose and be kept an extra day in the jail then
they told the jailers that they have to get the prisoners to say what the secret
is or the research would not work and blabla...so what happened...is that those
normal people who were dubbed the "security guards" turned violent and
oppressive to get the secret out while the prisoners were traumatized and
pressured so much...so basically what was thought or concluded shall i say, was
that people kinda believe in the title...become the title perhaps? Harry wanted
to become the boss of Mil. so probably...he just needed to get violent about
it...they say desperate times call for desperate measures ne
waaa so sleepy...i was being stubborn last night and remained awake through the
four hours just to prove to my parents i can make it and i really wanted to be
on the compy to talk to my friend..that was so unfair...anyway they gave me
permission to stay up on two conditions, one is that i get at least seven hours
of sleep (from 7pm to 2am) and two is that my sis would be already asleep so
that she would not stay awake with me
and well...since we are friends i don't mind you giving me advice and all...
hahahas...probably my life is no one's business but i formally give you
permission to interfere whenever you feel like it i am pretty
open minded so i never mind hearing someone's point of view...besides you are
not someone ne...you're my friend !
hahahaha yah i must agree life sure is full of so many responsibilities ne *cheer for
Tommy-chan* i am sure you can do just fine
hmm...i had lost of visions too but now that i seem close to making them within
my reach i seem to be retreating wonder why
ne...but anyway i am not giving up on what i really wanted all my life...but it
is true..you sometimes need to sacrifice alot ...like when my mother was
sick...she asked what would i do if she never got better...i had it in my head
that i would quit school to take care of home matters...afterall i must say
school and taking care of the house together is something that i might not
accomplish...then it was what i would do if my parents divorced...again i told
her i would quit college to get my siblings to have a better life...honestly she
did not like my answers but that was what i would have done... probably being
the eldest and having a protective streak in me i tend to make such decisions
without hesitation...
hmm...my head hurts i am so ready to drop but then i have to tough this out ne...if i
don't dad might change his mind about letting me stay up...took four painkillers
but the migraine won't leave me alone anyway...two
hours left now ...sigh...
goodluck in your life Tommy-chan and i hope God gives you and your grandpa
strength and patience to take care of your grandma...ahh you know what someone
told me once...since i was complaining about some troubles...he told em to think
of the happiest moment of my life...for some reason when he said that...kinda
remembered a long list of the times i laughed and was happy...by remembering the
good you realize life is not so hard i guess...
ahh...i see what you mean about sleeping though...you are right since in class i
tend to daydream alot and then...i am sleepy and well i guess i stare through
the teacher instead of at her...which is bad ...and remember i said i am taking
my report card today...i didn't do so well...i guess i really slacked this
time...got a 92%
remember what you told me about Mikey-chan? well same here...right now i decided
not to inform my parents about it...at least not for a few days till i am a bit
more energetic than now ne...so i can make up lame excuses or defend myself if
needed
though i know i did bad... so i guess i deserve a lecture...but too tired today
hmm here are two songs i like from the same anime ne...called Jigoku Shoujo...
again you can download them from Gendou so here is the link...
the rest of the songs are nice as well but those two are my fav...they are again
calm type and peaceful...lyrics are not amazing or anything but they are pretty
ok...i fell for the music though hope you
like them if you get the chance to check them out
school went great other for my annoyance at my sucky grade
thanks!
ahh hope your work goes great ne! gambatte Tommy-chan! stay cool
I'm sure that Maria felt the same way. It probably would have been able to work
out, since they did care that much for each other. But loyalties aside, he was
still bothered by everyone who had died because of him. His old gang, Maria's
guardian Asagi, Brandon didn't want her, or anyone else, to die like that.
(Sorry if it sounds like I'm repeating myself...)
In Harry's case, I wouldn't call is desperation so much as I would call it
devotion. Both Harry and Brandon sought after freedom, but Harry was so devoted
to the cause, he did what he felt was needed. When the time came, he did offer
Brandon a spot in his plan, but when Brandon refused, he had no alternative but
to do what he did. Unfortunately, with that degree of devotion, you ultimately
have to sacrifice in order to attain what you seek. You might not like the
sacrifice, but if you are that devoted to your goal, it must be done. I'm sure
that deep down, Harry regretted his actions, and was waiting for a chance at
redemption. This theory is more stable in the game, which has a different
ending. It ends with B.T.G. and Harry in a standoff in Millenion H.Q. After you
destroy the final enemy, it shows Harry at his knees, and he says something like
"I've been waiting for this day to come. Go ahead, finish me off...".
The last scene is of B.T.G. killing Harry, and then leaving the city with
Maria's daughter, Mika.
I'm sure that your parents were trying to look after your best interests. I know
that you might not agree, but sometimes we all refuse to see something somebody
else sees as 'our best interests'.
It's understandable that you would put the well-being of your family. Truth be
told, I've had similar thoughts as well. The problem lies in the long run. What
if something unexpected should happen, and you were in a situation where you
could not continue down your desired path. I had that happen to me this past
year; my family was in a severe financial crisis, and I was left no alternative
but to find a job and bring in some extra cash. Unfortunately, because of my
work schedule, I was left no choice but to drop out of the school course I was
taking at the time (Criminal Justice).
There's no shame about giving in to a migraine. If you feel like crashing our,
then by all means go ahead. Sometimes it helps to rest the body when you have a
migraine. Just don't be like me and sit in front of a blinking screen when you
have one...
Sorry to hear about your score. (Still have trouble understanding why you'd get
lectured over scoring 92%...then again maybe I do understand...) I want to say
'There's always next time.', but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to say at
this moment...
Take care of yourself, Sara. Hope your head feels better.
P.S. Thanks for the link.
Quote by Lionhearted911
hmm...Brandon ...he loved her but then...i don't understand that kind of love...
if he loved her woud he not want to be the one who makes her laugh...he knew he
was making her sad and that she wanted to be with him...what about her? i am
sure she would have wanted to be with him even if it meant her being in
danger...and Daddy had those to protect him... if he really wanted to be with
Maria he wuld have found a way to protect her and the Family...i donno... i just
have a feeling i know her torment those times...so i just wish Brandon had found
a better way than leaving her and acting like it was the right thing although
his heart was screaming for him to stop and turn back to her
hmm....lose sight of how it was before...do you really? lemme tell you a story
of a lil girl ne...she was rather innocent and naive...never got accepted all
her life...and even at home she was miserable...mocked by both her
parents...even her siblings told her she was not good enough to even be part of
the family...it was very hard for her and she was always crying alone in the
bathroom...but then she decided to change ...using her anger perhaps she was
able to change to a stronger individual...probably colder since nothing phases
her anymore and no one can really get to her until she is able to accept
them...but then you would think the girl would hold a grudge on those who have
forced her to change and would not accept her for who she was...but that is not
true for her...she decided the past was unchangeable and well...she let go of
the thoughts...buried them too...and she never ever thought about it unless
there was something there that would benefit her...true at times when she feels
vulnerable the past comes crashing down on her...but she would never be who she
was had it not been for the past...she would not have been careful about what
she says or kinder to those who are not as strong as herself...the past taught
her to be a better person...
there are alwaystwo sides to a story ne...the good one and one that the story
might have take on had she not chosen the path she did...even now that girl
knows she can turn cruel and treat others the way she is treated...perhaps a
sort of salvation from bringing others misery that she feels...but then would it
be worth it? well she does not think so...if something is not goodfor you, leave
it...that is what she always thinks...probably she is a lil baka
dreamer...thinking if she remains a good person regardless and turns the other
cheek one day she might find true peace...but then she finds it everyday...she
has lots of good friends and anyone's first impressions of her is that she is
gentle and compassionate...so i think that is reward enough for her...
if you lost sight of a past dream of happiness...use your imagination and
strength to create a new dream... don't chase after a vision you can't see
ne...so create a new vision...it is never too late although it always seems that
it is...hmm...
hahah environment...well i can relate to that ne my father
loves picking on me everyday at dinner...then the whole thing becomes more like
an ordeal than a family reunion time but then i
always was one to smile through everything...in the end probably he feels guilty
and would offer me some drink or something like it would make it all go
away...but ne you kinda get used to it besides the
fact that i make it seem that he is actually having a decent conversation and
not trying to pick on me probably annoys him bu oh well
it is my style of dealing with troubles...i would say it works a charm on other
people, like teachers... hahahas sis gets into trouble with them so often and
when one calls me i would really find a way to charm the teacher to get her not
to call my mother and get sis into real trouble... that girl sure should learn a
few tricks from me ne...being kind to others and understanding is not a bad
thing afterall... but she says as long as she has me there is no reason to miss
out on the fun...kinda agree with her so it is ok...you should get a load of
some of my sis's antics ...that girl
anyway we are pretty close so we cover up for each other all the time
i am glad you were able to sit through dinner ...i am sure that means you are
pretty strong...it's ok ne...don't let them get to you...families sometimes are
like that...you know like what they say, you fight cuz you love so i guess
you will have to excuse them ne...besides i thnk having grandparents is very
sweet...we don't really have any family so i guess we miss out on some really
cool antics... like eating dinner at four...i think i would have enjoyed the
thought of that alot...in fact you telling me makes me enjoy it
anyway...although i never met your grandparents or anything but hearing some of
this makes me feel like i was in the same position so it is cool
Harry is still gonna get it if i ever come across him how dare he
choose his goals over his friend's life? and not that! he shot him so many times
and the guy's poor eye! and he even threw him out of the elevator! comon not
just shot him and prayed his soul would rest in peace
ahh imagine...i woke up hours and hours ago (around four!) but my father came
and scolded me when i sat at the computer and i
really had plans to chat with my friend and spam...i was so annoyed that i had
to lay down in bed like this...for all that time...i know he wants me to
rest...i mean i only slept four hours that night...but it is ...comon i am old
enough to know what i wanna do and how to go about doing it my friend
is not on now...and i could not spam...and ahhh! he ruined my plans oh well...i
will still find a way to get what i want...just...need the time to figure out
how to go about getting what i want
hmm...nah...you got it mixed up Tommy-chan thank you
ne...
waaaa! school is in an hour i can't
believe i had to lie in bed or risk my computer getting trashed oh
well...past is past ne...now for some spamming
have a nice day Tommy-chan! yatta
school! hahahas soo happy...lools!
I agree with that sentiment. I feel that Brandon should have stayed with Maria.
I also can identify with why he did what he did. It was going to be painful, no
matter what he chose to do. But the pain of abandoning your love is never as bad
as the pain of having it taken away permanently.
...oh yeah, if you hated the way Harry kills Brandon in the anime, you should
see how he acted in the game. He trash-talks Brandon just before shooting him in
the eye. Afterwards, he says something like 'Go, Brandon, go back to that city.
It will serve as a fitting grave for you.'
I understand what you are trying to do, and I do appreciate it. I know that I
should definitely let go of these feelings. I want to. That's why I try to be as
understanding as I can. I don't want to see anyone go through all of the
emotional crap that I had to go through.
I had a vision once, I wanted to learn to fly. The vision was crushed when I
started comparing my failures to the successes of my sister and cousin (the
figure skater). I still haven't given enough thought to finding another goal to
pursue...my mind has been filled with trying to resolve the responsibilities
that I have to deal with.
The trouble with my grandparents has been going on for a while. I'm used to it,
but I have to keep tabs on my grandpa. He tends to drink every so often, and the
family is afraid that he will one day lash out against my grandma. The stress
from having to take care of her has been getting to him, and his back is
suffering as a result. He is the only one in the house, aside from me, who is
physically capable of lifting her when she needs to be moved for whatever
reason.
I know that this is probably none of my business, but I'm gonna have to side
with your dad on this. You should be trying to get more sleep. I know that
you're old enough to make your own decisions (please don't kill me for the 'old'
word...), but it will do some good. The body needs rest, and odds are if you
don't get enough, you could end up getting it at the wrong time. I don't know
how many chances at a job I've blown because I fell asleep at the wrong time.
(I'm a night owl too, and as a result, I'm end up in a daze most of the time.)
Then again, this is probably none of my business anyway...
Hope school was good.
Take care, Sara. ...and stay sweet.
Quote by Lionhearted911thanks alot
Segnoj-chan! hahahahas talk about patience ne but lovely
card and thank you for your wishes! i hope your year will be filled with love
and joy! take care and goodluck in everything!
Haha
yeah, no patience at all on my part
Thank you for your wishes and take care
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you answered my questions about the anime...i don't understand why Brandon thre
his love for Maria away...at first i thought he might be in denial but then he
seemed to know he liked her...hmm i donno i don't understand this...if someone
loves someone else they should say it before it is too late ... but anyway does
not apply all the time Harry was
fulfilling a vow eh...and killing people he liked in the process...including his
best friend...that was really heartless of him...when his wife,Sheri, was killed
he looked so empty and sad...he knows now how it feels to be constantly taking
things from others...all the ruthless killings gets him nowhere ne...being rich
like that...what did he gain?
hmm...it's never too late... if you really are able to get over it you live
happier really...a bit ligher inside... you father probably could not help the
way he was...you never know about his time as a child...he might have gone
through alot...like my dad who tends to be aggressive....he had a childhood
where he grew up without anyone but himself... i know it is not right for you to
make others pay for your pain and emptiness...but then no one knows about his
own pain except himself... you never know what your dad is going through ne...i
won't tell you to call and try to smoothen things out...but don't stand in the
middle...really do anything but stand in the middle motionless...make your
choice ne...either talk to your father about it and try to understand what
others don't see...or move on...maybe saying to pretend he did not exist is
hard...but then your mother, if she got over him and forgave him...if she put
her past behind her for the sake of the future...really Tommy-chan...you might
as well do the same...sometimes while you are there staring back at the
past...you miss out on alot of things on the present ne what good
will a grudge do to you? hmm...make you stronger perhaps ne...but what can you
do with your stength alone... it is understandable you would not wanna talk to
your dad...but ow long has it been...people change...times change too you
know...true if something like that happens to mum...i would probably react the
same way for those who are precious to me but then your mum left to start
anew...not to miss out on the goodness of life...she takes care of your grandma,
and eats dinner at four with your grandpa, she takes stray cats under her wing
ne...and tends to them when they are sick...even your cousins...this only means
she just wants to live today...probably you should do the same.. some things in
this life you just can't control or do anything about... personally i abandon
those things in search of something i can make a difference in...something that
can be controlled with what lil power us humans possess...
almost like...looking up at the sky and staring at only on star...you lose sight
of a beautiful starlit sky...hahahaha i love stars
ah...i already know you appreciate my frienship please
don't bother yourself like that...if you did not we probably would not be
talking all the time ne so i know...sleep well ne
everyone is talented ne...i am pretty sure you are too you know... i had no idea
how to use photoshop until three weeks ago after exams...i thought i would check
the program out and well turned out easier than you think....as for drawing all
i can say is practice makes perfect ne...since even i am not as good as i would
like to be
ahh i see probably then i was thinking OVA's for FMA...hmm never really watched
those but i am sure it would be nice...probably will sometime
ahh you know i never played FF8 oh i told you hope you had
fun
well...i am not sure we are talking about the same kinda papers Tommy-chan honestly i
have no paper to prove who i am but the
papers and thigns i keep in the chest are letters i got from friends and
anythign small i have gotten over the years...i think it's nice since i
sometimes open it to look through and it is so touching to see how long i had
kept a certain letter...then maybe if i ever forget about my past...looking
through i would probably be happy since i would know i had friends who had liked
me and cared about me back then ne
hahah i would grab my lappy first as well...then...probably the pillow i hug to
sleep since i like it very much then...i
donno many things i would like to take with me
ooh i never watched Evangelion...that is where Rei is right?
hey i wanna take my games too! and my fav
bag that i take with me everywhere
lools...dinner...why was it bad? truth to be told food is better than no food
ne...when my mum travelled dad would not go shopping and basically it was rather
sad since our usually full fridge was empty you could
imagine i lost weight during those three weeks....i am glad mum is around
ne...with her around we are a bit more free
anyway then, tomorrow my school starts...tonight i am thinking of going to bed
at 7 pm ...that way i would probably wake up around midnight or an hour after
hopefully and if everyone else is asleep i will get up to spam yups not
even school can keep me from spending proper time with my MT friends...besides
tomorrow also means i am going to start preparing for the SAT exams...
take care Tommy-chan! thanks for enjoying having me around is rather
nice to know it...ah it is also mutual ne
Of course Brandon loved Maria. That goes without saying. But at the same time,
he knew what could happen if they stayed together. (This was actually brought up
when they first started seeing each other after Maria was taken in by Big
Daddy.) Brandon knew that if he stayed with Maria, he would be putting her in
danger because of his line of work. Take into account that she lives with Big
Daddy himself, that would make the situation even more serious. Any enemy of the
Organization would more than likely use Brandon and Maria's relationship to get
to Big Daddy. Having sworn loyalty to the Organization, Brandon didn't want to
put anyone, especially Maria, into any more danger. That is why he left Maria;
so that way he could have protected her without putting her in danger.
Harry gained the freedom that he'd been trying to obtain with Brandon. They both
fought towards the same end, but when Brandon chose loyalty to the Organization
over their goals, Harry had no alternative but to make the choice he made. (Why
am I coming to his defense, I have no idea...) But it all came crashing down in
the end. (I'm still surprised that Sherri dies in the anime; she comes back in
the second video game to get revenge against B.T.G. for Harry's death.)
It's never too late...huh? I guess. My mom is still bugged by him, though. I'll
have to keep that in mind. But when a person harbors these kinds of feelings for
so long, you lose sight of how you were before these feelings took
hold.
Yep. Rei is from Evangelion. It's a pretty good series, though it turns into a
real head trip near the end, though...
You make a good point though. I should be lucky that I get food at all. Then
again, the food wasn't the problem; it was the environment. My grandpa (who
cooks by just throwing stuff at random into the microwave) was in a bad mood
because nobody came for dinner when he said it was ready. Also, my grandma
didn't want to eat what he gave her, and he got angry over that. He accused her
of messing around on purpose. (I thought, 'you try to keep a steady hand when
you've been through all the crap she's been through...') It was just a bad
environment. I would have just left to eat dinner in my room, but everyone gave
me a hard time before for 'locking myself away in my room'.
I knew what you were talking about when you were talking about 'papers'. Of
course, we keep things sacred to us hidden away, and I doubt that we'd let them
go so easily.
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haaaaaaaahahahahahahahahahaha
have a pleasant dinner sorry but
this is too funny ...although adorable too but hahahahaha i just love your
dinner timings
yes i am feeling better it is past twelve now ne...and well although my friend
left i still happen to be here...
BUT THAT HARRY! how could he kill Brandon! how could someone be willing to
sacrifice so much for nothing but power and money? is it really worth it?! that
guy sure is gonna get it if i ever see him hmm...but it
is a very interesting anime...
hmm revenge sure is a sad thing though...in life in general...i never ever
entertain thoughts such as revenge and hate...thanks to my english teacher i
told you about (not the author but my previous one who was a close friend as
well)
you see...
there was this time about four to five years ago ne...when my youngest auntie
made my mother cry...for some reason i held so much resentment towards her...and
when i talked to my teacher about my anger and hatred...she got mad at me...and
well...lectured me about love and hate...true they are entertwined...but then
she told me if i hate then it will eat me up from inside and there won't be
place for love...i guess it is true ne...but then i also think that if you are
able to love wth all your heart...then inside your head you are constantly
fighting to suppress any sort of resentment...well personally that is pretty
easy since i blame myself for everything and even so i make excuses for
others... things like stress or pressure probaby
sounds painful to others to be blaming myself for everything but then if you
understand how thinkgs work and connect dotted lines then it is ok...besides
they say your worst enemy is yourself ne
hahahaha well about wanting to hang around someone who rarely speaks...
hahahaaa
to be honest my best friend in school and the person i am closest to is someone
who speaks a sentence a day...well she used to until i infected her with some of
my talking virus now she can go as far as speaking four if i am lucky hahahas but
i love her very much and i am never phased by her silence.... i do talk to her
all the time though about everything and anything...well true sometimes i wonder
if i bother her since she remains a lil expressionless and barely says anything
when i make comments... but lately she told me that in the morning (since i
always go to school late) she told me she is always waiting for me to walk
through the door and make a grand entrance...i was touched then by her sincerity
and well made sure my entrance was extra grand just for her well you
should see the girls in the morning ne (i go to an all girls school ) they look
like ...hmm.... a gloom monster attacked their place at night but when i
walk in with a bright smile...it makes others laugh and well...it's pretty cool
since gloomy faces are not my type ne so don't
worry about being quiet...i talk for the both of us (though you
know at home i am silent my parents would neer believe i talk so much in school
) but
my friends like listening to me...and they make jokes at "Sara's
theory" of this or that... soo funny
and fun
oooh could not go to sleep? *pokes Tommy-chan* were you wishing you had a
valentine? well my valentine was solitary too...like every valentine so no problem
here... hahahahaas! but i did get a rose...hahaha one that was scanned ne since
my friend does not live here...i think that is the nicest gift i would ever
get..a scanned rose
ahh what games did you play? FMA ...very nice... though now that we mention
it...i never saw after ep. 52 ...i heard there were a couple of episodes after
that...a new season...but i am not so sure
oh fires are scary...to be honest i am a lil serious when it comes to those
things...and well...i always think ahead as to what actions i should
take...there was only one time i saw a fire when our father and freinds were
celebrating some occaison...and well we had fireworks lit...but then one of them
blew up near a large palm tree which caught fire...but the thing was not scary
in the least...my sis and i were giggling the whole time...sure was funny and
fun ne...
well fires are trouble...i wonder if i would be able to save the things i
love...my computer and books...what will i take with me? i also have a small
chest with many things i treasure inside...to heavy to carry though...probably
would be something i wuld leave behind ne... anyway why
worry now...leave it if the time comes cuz who knows the time might not come and
i would end up worrying for nothing...
hmm the only really scary thing i went through ever that was totally terrifying
was my experience with a drunken guy this summer...lools...nothing could compare
to how scared i was when he talked to me tell you
about that one next time though ...this post sure has gotten long and you would
be tired by now...go to bed early ne... besides to tell you about it in detail
iw ill have to be a lil more awake than now
hahahahahas
hahahahaahahahas! i hope you enjoyed your dinner
i wish Mikey-chan the best of luck...i am sure he is gonna turn out to be a fine
young man...
okay then...take care and hope everything is great with you Tommy-chan!~!~!~!
*starving*
I take it by your reaction that you passed the halfway point of the series.
Given how badly he wanted to get to the top, it's no surprise that he would lash
out against those who stand in his way, especially those had sworn loyalty to
Big Daddy. But it wasn't just for money and power; it was to fulfill a vow. A
vow that he would climb out of the impoverished world he grew up in, and make it
all the way to the top. He did it to fulfill that vow. ...but that still doesn't
make it any right. That scene was just as powerful in the anime as it was in the
game. Hell, it still bugs me that Brandon chose loyalty to the Organization over
his feelings for Maria. Then again, I understood perfectly why Brandon made that
choice. He was merely doing what he felt was needed to best protect those around
him.
If I hate, then it will eat me up inside, and leave no room for love. ...I guess
it's too late for me then. As much as I want to say that I don't harbor any
grudges against anyone, it would be a lie. Ever since the falling out with my
dad, I have made no attempt whatsoever to reach him. I just couldn't let go of
the way he treated my mom and sister. Plus, I'm always afraid of how he treats
his new wife. She's so timid, and I used to worry about how he treated her given
his attitude towards women. It's times like this that I believe in Karma, but
then that means that I'm gonna have to pay for being so antisocial somewhere
along the line. ...sorry for continuing this line of discussion.
It's understandable why they react that way; it's that cheerful personality of
yours. Judging from the things that you have told me, you are the kind of person
who can make the day bright just by merely being there. ...and saying this from
a quiet person's point-of-view, we sometimes might not show it, but we do enjoy
having you around.
As far as my insomnia attack was concerned, let me say this. True, my thoughts
were on Valentine's Day, but not for the reason you think. Truth be told, I was
kept up because my mind was trying to think of something I could give to you as
a valentine. I had gone to bed that night...err...morning after receiving the
valentine you gave me, and I wanted to give you something in return. I wanted to
show you that I appreciated our friendship, but I couldn't come up with
anything. (Zero artistic talent
)
By the way, you were right about me not having a valentine. Aside from a couple
of posts in my GB, you were the only one who sent me an actual valentine.
...Then again, given my personality, I'm used to being alone on that particular
day... (sorry for whining like that)
Games...let's see, I played FF8 most of the time I was up. (trying to rescue
Rinoa and raise her levels). As for FMA, I know that the show was 51 episodes
long. Then there was the movie, and the comics. (I'm up to volume 11 right now.)
I also heard that they released some short OAVs in Japan that haven't been
translated yet. FMA: Chibi party, which is a wrap-up to both the show and the
movie with super-deformed versions of the various characters. Then there's
"Seven Homunculi versus State Alchemists", which is supposed to be a
big battle between the Homunculi and the military. Lastly, there's "FMA:
Kids", which I think has Ed and Al with grandchildren. Other than that, I
don't know much else.
Fires can be scary. I guess that's why you keep your most important stuff locked
away in a 'safe' place. ...and I'm not talking about computers and valuables; I
mean paperwork that proves who you are, and other important papers. If those get
destroyed, then you're really up the creek. Anything else can probably be
replaced. (God, I'm sounding like my aunt...) ...then again, given the way I am,
if I was in a fire, I'd grab my most precious stuff first: my PC (just the case
with all the stuff), this $150 statuette I have of Rei Ayanami, and I'd pile
into a bag as many games, manga and anime as I can. Perhaps I should stop
ranting now...
Well, take care, Sara. Glad to hear that you're feeling better.
The lyrics to a great song I heard
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangcock to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Here's a link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSMNt8ZciU8
I hope that everything works out too. Especially for you... Hearing what those other girls said about you regarding the tests, I'm confident that you'll do great. You seem to be a very smart person. Just don't stress yourself out over studying; you'll be needing your brains on this.
Sleep... Sleep... ...something that I was deprived of again last night. I had yet another insomnia attack which kept me from getting any sleep at all. Something just shook me awake, and got my mind racing, which keeps me from getting to sleep. I eventually gave up on getting sleep, and ended up watching a couple of episodes of F/SN.
It's raining on this end. I love the sound of the rain. ...but it also interferes with my net connection. Heck, the connection died even as I was typing this the first time around.
Sorry if this response seems a little short. I'm still not 100% fully functional.
Take care, Sara.
Know that I'm rooting for you on whatever comes your way.
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That's sad to hear about that, your sleeping troubles I mean. Truth be told, I kinda go through something similar. For some reason, my mind is more active at night, so I tend to do a lot of thinking during the night. Unfortunately, the first thoughts that hit my head are of all the lousy things that have happened. Needless to say, that sort of makes me a little emotional, even more if I was depressed earlier before. (I get depressed real easily) ...I wish I knew what to say to you, something comforting at least...
I know that your dad gave you the okay, but I was just saying that sometimes it's better to give your body a rest, especially if you're not feeling well. ...then again, I should talk; I'm the kind of person who would rather find something to do than stay in bed when I'm sick.
I thank you for thinking what I did was admirable, but you probably wouldn't have thought so if I had told you what happened afterwards. I only had that job for a couple of months before I was let go. That was about six months ago, and I've been looking for work ever since, but to no luck. I tried to get back into school, but the fact that I dropped out has really hurt my chances of getting back in (...it affected my financial aid.)
We all seek that kind of freedom some time in our lives. At the same time, if you look at it from their perspective, they see that you have grown up, but they don't want you to go just yet. I remember how my mom was when my sister left home for college, and letting go is a hard thing. (...I think that I'm missing the point somewhere...)
Nobody likes to admit to others that they have made a mistake. (...well, almost nobody) The real problems come when they try to cover up or blame others for their own errors. I guess that the reason they scold you over numbers is that they realize you are a smart person; they see the potential in you to do great things. If you can work at that chance of redemption, I'm positive that it will work out.
I forgot to mention it in my last response, but I guess I can mention it now. I liked the songs you pointed out. Aizome and Karinui have a nice mellow pace to them. Forever is pretty cool as well.
Take care, Sara. Hope everything works out.
merged: 02-19-2007 ~ 04:31pm
No wonder you're stressed. You're going to be having a lot on your plate to deal with. All of those tests... Guess this qualifies as one of those life changing moments...Well, if you stick to this schedule as planned, I'm sure that it will work out for you. Just try to give yourself some leeway in your plans, just in case something unexpected should happen. This also means that you're going to have to cut back on the time you spend spamming. The more time you spend on preparations, the better prepared you'll be when the time comes around.
I think that my mom sent me out one time when I had a fever once... ...no, wait, it was my grandpa. He likes to play the lottery, but since he doesn't have a driver's license, I'm the only one around to get him his stuff. It wasn't a pretty sight.
...I hope that things work out on this end. Things have been messed up on this end for too long, and I'm not just talking about my grandma and little cousin. Several years ago, back when I was about 12, my mom hurt herself while on the job. She suffered a crushed disk in her spine as a result, and has been suffering in excruciating pain ever since. We've taken her to have her injury looked at, but the damage is irreparable. She can't go back to work because of her back, and her health has been getting worse. I had to spend my most recent birthday in the emergency room with her because she needed a life-saving blood transfusion. I've been looking for work so I could help with the costs of keeping the family well-off, but the costs keep piling up. (I'm in the middle of paying off the student loans I had to get so I could go to college...)
I'm glad that your feeling better. ...but I can't help but think that I should comfort you when you're down. It's no bother at all. Besides, I am your friend, after all.
Take care, Sara. Hope your day is going well.
P.S. Silver is doing fine.
thankyou Sara!
sorry,i haven been MT-ing lately.
OX
still,thanks for the cards though.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
best wishes-
teri-
Hehe, great! Thank you for your card!
Happy new year and all the best for the year!
I'm sure that Maria felt the same way. It probably would have been able to work out, since they did care that much for each other. But loyalties aside, he was still bothered by everyone who had died because of him. His old gang, Maria's guardian Asagi, Brandon didn't want her, or anyone else, to die like that.
(Sorry if it sounds like I'm repeating myself...)
In Harry's case, I wouldn't call is desperation so much as I would call it devotion. Both Harry and Brandon sought after freedom, but Harry was so devoted to the cause, he did what he felt was needed. When the time came, he did offer Brandon a spot in his plan, but when Brandon refused, he had no alternative but to do what he did. Unfortunately, with that degree of devotion, you ultimately have to sacrifice in order to attain what you seek. You might not like the sacrifice, but if you are that devoted to your goal, it must be done. I'm sure that deep down, Harry regretted his actions, and was waiting for a chance at redemption. This theory is more stable in the game, which has a different ending. It ends with B.T.G. and Harry in a standoff in Millenion H.Q. After you destroy the final enemy, it shows Harry at his knees, and he says something like "I've been waiting for this day to come. Go ahead, finish me off...". The last scene is of B.T.G. killing Harry, and then leaving the city with Maria's daughter, Mika.
I'm sure that your parents were trying to look after your best interests. I know that you might not agree, but sometimes we all refuse to see something somebody else sees as 'our best interests'.
It's understandable that you would put the well-being of your family. Truth be told, I've had similar thoughts as well. The problem lies in the long run. What if something unexpected should happen, and you were in a situation where you could not continue down your desired path. I had that happen to me this past year; my family was in a severe financial crisis, and I was left no alternative but to find a job and bring in some extra cash. Unfortunately, because of my work schedule, I was left no choice but to drop out of the school course I was taking at the time (Criminal Justice).
There's no shame about giving in to a migraine. If you feel like crashing our, then by all means go ahead. Sometimes it helps to rest the body when you have a migraine. Just don't be like me and sit in front of a blinking screen when you have one...
Sorry to hear about your score. (Still have trouble understanding why you'd get lectured over scoring 92%...then again maybe I do understand...) I want to say 'There's always next time.', but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to say at this moment...
Take care of yourself, Sara. Hope your head feels better.
P.S. Thanks for the link.
Turn in to Morpheus. *Dingles Pendulum *
Happy Lunar New Year to you too, nee-chan.
Erhm....Thank you for the card too.
*Runs
off*
Wow!
Thanks!
And Happy Chinese New Year!
*goes and watches the fireworks*
Hope you can see this too...
haha,thanks for the card!kawaii!happy chinese new year to you too!^^
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I agree with that sentiment. I feel that Brandon should have stayed with Maria. I also can identify with why he did what he did. It was going to be painful, no matter what he chose to do. But the pain of abandoning your love is never as bad as the pain of having it taken away permanently.
...oh yeah, if you hated the way Harry kills Brandon in the anime, you should see how he acted in the game. He trash-talks Brandon just before shooting him in the eye. Afterwards, he says something like 'Go, Brandon, go back to that city. It will serve as a fitting grave for you.'
I understand what you are trying to do, and I do appreciate it. I know that I should definitely let go of these feelings. I want to. That's why I try to be as understanding as I can. I don't want to see anyone go through all of the emotional crap that I had to go through.
I had a vision once, I wanted to learn to fly. The vision was crushed when I started comparing my failures to the successes of my sister and cousin (the figure skater). I still haven't given enough thought to finding another goal to pursue...my mind has been filled with trying to resolve the responsibilities that I have to deal with.
The trouble with my grandparents has been going on for a while. I'm used to it, but I have to keep tabs on my grandpa. He tends to drink every so often, and the family is afraid that he will one day lash out against my grandma. The stress from having to take care of her has been getting to him, and his back is suffering as a result. He is the only one in the house, aside from me, who is physically capable of lifting her when she needs to be moved for whatever reason.
I know that this is probably none of my business, but I'm gonna have to side with your dad on this. You should be trying to get more sleep. I know that you're old enough to make your own decisions (please don't kill me for the 'old' word...), but it will do some good. The body needs rest, and odds are if you don't get enough, you could end up getting it at the wrong time. I don't know how many chances at a job I've blown because I fell asleep at the wrong time. (I'm a night owl too, and as a result, I'm end up in a daze most of the time.) Then again, this is probably none of my business anyway...
Hope school was good.
Take care, Sara. ...and stay sweet.
Haha
yeah, no patience at all on my part 
Thank you for your wishes and take care
hi, how are you? thanx so much for the Valentine. that's so sweet of you to do so. *HUG*
many <3 to you too.
Of course Brandon loved Maria. That goes without saying. But at the same time, he knew what could happen if they stayed together. (This was actually brought up when they first started seeing each other after Maria was taken in by Big Daddy.) Brandon knew that if he stayed with Maria, he would be putting her in danger because of his line of work. Take into account that she lives with Big Daddy himself, that would make the situation even more serious. Any enemy of the Organization would more than likely use Brandon and Maria's relationship to get to Big Daddy. Having sworn loyalty to the Organization, Brandon didn't want to put anyone, especially Maria, into any more danger. That is why he left Maria; so that way he could have protected her without putting her in danger.
Harry gained the freedom that he'd been trying to obtain with Brandon. They both fought towards the same end, but when Brandon chose loyalty to the Organization over their goals, Harry had no alternative but to make the choice he made. (Why am I coming to his defense, I have no idea...) But it all came crashing down in the end. (I'm still surprised that Sherri dies in the anime; she comes back in the second video game to get revenge against B.T.G. for Harry's death.)
It's never too late...huh? I guess. My mom is still bugged by him, though. I'll have to keep that in mind. But when a person harbors these kinds of feelings for so long, you lose sight of how you were before these feelings took hold.
Yep. Rei is from Evangelion. It's a pretty good series, though it turns into a real head trip near the end, though...
You make a good point though. I should be lucky that I get food at all. Then again, the food wasn't the problem; it was the environment. My grandpa (who cooks by just throwing stuff at random into the microwave) was in a bad mood because nobody came for dinner when he said it was ready. Also, my grandma didn't want to eat what he gave her, and he got angry over that. He accused her of messing around on purpose. (I thought, 'you try to keep a steady hand when you've been through all the crap she's been through...') It was just a bad environment. I would have just left to eat dinner in my room, but everyone gave me a hard time before for 'locking myself away in my room'.
I knew what you were talking about when you were talking about 'papers'. Of course, we keep things sacred to us hidden away, and I doubt that we'd let them go so easily.
Take care, Sara. Good luck with your studies.
P.S.: Thank you...for everything.
I take it by your reaction that you passed the halfway point of the series. Given how badly he wanted to get to the top, it's no surprise that he would lash out against those who stand in his way, especially those had sworn loyalty to Big Daddy. But it wasn't just for money and power; it was to fulfill a vow. A vow that he would climb out of the impoverished world he grew up in, and make it all the way to the top. He did it to fulfill that vow. ...but that still doesn't make it any right. That scene was just as powerful in the anime as it was in the game. Hell, it still bugs me that Brandon chose loyalty to the Organization over his feelings for Maria. Then again, I understood perfectly why Brandon made that choice. He was merely doing what he felt was needed to best protect those around him.
If I hate, then it will eat me up inside, and leave no room for love. ...I guess it's too late for me then. As much as I want to say that I don't harbor any grudges against anyone, it would be a lie. Ever since the falling out with my dad, I have made no attempt whatsoever to reach him. I just couldn't let go of the way he treated my mom and sister. Plus, I'm always afraid of how he treats his new wife. She's so timid, and I used to worry about how he treated her given his attitude towards women. It's times like this that I believe in Karma, but then that means that I'm gonna have to pay for being so antisocial somewhere along the line. ...sorry for continuing this line of discussion.
It's understandable why they react that way; it's that cheerful personality of yours. Judging from the things that you have told me, you are the kind of person who can make the day bright just by merely being there. ...and saying this from a quiet person's point-of-view, we sometimes might not show it, but we do enjoy having you around.
As far as my insomnia attack was concerned, let me say this. True, my thoughts were on Valentine's Day, but not for the reason you think. Truth be told, I was kept up because my mind was trying to think of something I could give to you as a valentine. I had gone to bed that night...err...morning after receiving the valentine you gave me, and I wanted to give you something in return. I wanted to show you that I appreciated our friendship, but I couldn't come up with anything. (Zero artistic talent
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By the way, you were right about me not having a valentine. Aside from a couple of posts in my GB, you were the only one who sent me an actual valentine. ...Then again, given my personality, I'm used to being alone on that particular day... (sorry for whining like that)
Games...let's see, I played FF8 most of the time I was up. (trying to rescue Rinoa and raise her levels). As for FMA, I know that the show was 51 episodes long. Then there was the movie, and the comics. (I'm up to volume 11 right now.) I also heard that they released some short OAVs in Japan that haven't been translated yet. FMA: Chibi party, which is a wrap-up to both the show and the movie with super-deformed versions of the various characters. Then there's "Seven Homunculi versus State Alchemists", which is supposed to be a big battle between the Homunculi and the military. Lastly, there's "FMA: Kids", which I think has Ed and Al with grandchildren. Other than that, I don't know much else.
Fires can be scary. I guess that's why you keep your most important stuff locked away in a 'safe' place. ...and I'm not talking about computers and valuables; I mean paperwork that proves who you are, and other important papers. If those get destroyed, then you're really up the creek. Anything else can probably be replaced. (God, I'm sounding like my aunt...) ...then again, given the way I am, if I was in a fire, I'd grab my most precious stuff first: my PC (just the case with all the stuff), this $150 statuette I have of Rei Ayanami, and I'd pile into a bag as many games, manga and anime as I can. Perhaps I should stop ranting now...
Well, take care, Sara. Glad to hear that you're feeling better.
P.S. Dinner was really bad.