Great googly moogly, I just realized I haven't added you to my friendslist. It's time to rectify that little oversight.

Quote by CyanideBlizzardI've been interested in this series for sometime. Let me tell you this Evo, I highly recommend the manga, its not an anime yet. But everyone I've talked to loves THIS series. Seriously I would very highly recommend it. Not only did you do an amazing job with the grunge effect, which I'm calling you the master of I love your grunge work, but the additional effect of their hands glowing....thats just beautiful. IT looks SO DAMN good! Just beautifully done. Everything looks simply amazing, and the text is very beautiful and easy to read and above all else, fits perfectly. This is a definate favorite for me, no way this wouldn't be. Its too damn good.

Thanx Cy, I keep it in mind to read the manga and watch the series as well. As for the grunge effect, it seems I'm only good at those while other ppl are good in other effects besides me. But I'm still learning.

You might kill me for my long reply but I'll take the risk... =^^=

Hey there Cyanide-kun... I really don't know how to start this but gomen for such a late reply... Yeah, I've been really busy with tons of school work b'coz my final exams were closing in and I barely survived it last week... I'm a last minute person and I had to cram all of the work load... I really hate the intensive program for Math and Science... I don't like being in a class full of smart and diligent students... I mean, I'm such a lazy bum and slacker who always sleeps or draws in class... I'm not sure how in the world I got accepted there... I feel that I don't belong and that I'm so undeserving because they're all so hardworking and I just attend class everyday as if it were nothing... I really feel ashamed when I see the others take such consideration into their study... My parents were the ones who forced me there saying "you have the opportunity so why not grasp it?" *sighs* Dunno how I'll survive... I'm just too damn lazy...

Quote by CyanideBlizzardHeya there! I saw you were on! @_@ Goodness.......How are you doing Zenie-chan....I've been really worried about you lately...I mean I'm seriously worried about you and your health currently. Anyways I saw that you were online *Reponded to Paolo's comment* and I'm so glad to see that your still comming online. I figured I made something bad happened since its been awhile since I last heard from you. But anyways *Hugs tightly* I do hope life has been better....or has it been getting worse?
hehe, life hasn't been the best for me either....I swear there will never be a moment when I will actually be able to enjoy life....but I do hope your ok..=( Your such a wonderful person and your so talented I hate to see this happening to you.....I hope school is going ok for you too....anyways *Hugs and doesn't let go* Sorry ='( I'm just really worried about you...Anyways take care ok? Do your best to anyways... ^^

Regardless of that, (I apologize for my ranting) I didn't realize how much I've missed talking to you... I really agree that you're one of the few people that understand me and your words always make exact sense to me... Sorry again for this really late reply... I guess I've disappeared for a long time but I didn't really think anyone would notice or care at all... I had really minimal time of surfing last week and I was only able to check MT from time to time... I was able to make short posts but I didn't want to just leave you a few words so I decided to reply when I had I lot of time in my hands... Yes, that would be now... So yeah, thank you very much for all your concern... I'm sorry I worried you and I really appreciate all you kindness... You're such a thoughtful and caring person... I really admire you for that... So yeah, I'm back and as healthy as I was... Life HAS been a "nothing happening"- down -hell-misery- depressing-apathetic - boring situation for me.

Quote by CyanideBlizzardhehe, Yeah.......Well surely theres something that you do that brings you a smile ^^ I know its hard......music was the only thing for the longest period of time that made me really feel like myself, its what I used to express my feelings and deep emotions. I stopped writing poetry because it became to where it was nothing but violence and metaphores of me killing myself basically. Since I couldn't draw anymore music and sports were all I really had left. Solitude is the thing that has been with me the longest......For me I suppose its kinda vise versa.....Sure I love being left alone at times...but I really love company and I love being able to talk with people. I'm not use to having loyal friends either.
If it isn't being betrayed or backstabbed, its being ignored. Time has allowed me to develop and immunity towards it... but it still hurts, that is something I can never deny is my human emotions. Personally at times I hate it and wish I was numb because the pain of human instict can become so great that it almsot becomes insanity.
hehe, the irony of the quote is actually I've brought it over from an older message board. I wish I could still write like that ^.~ but I can't really anymore. The bad thing is....the more it seems you repress feelings..the more you feel dead inside.. For some reason thats kinda how I feel every now and then. I just don't like showing people how I really feel cause its completely different from how I act that people think I'm someone else. I just don't wanna bring others down with me. I feel if someone must suffer, than I'll suffer for everyone, just as long as no one else has to feel what I feel. Though its impossible to take away everyones suffering, that I've learned and been shown many times in very painful ways, I still want to do what I can to help.
Your quite deep with your words too. You know I kinda find it funny that depression sometimes brings out the BEST in people, well in certain areas. Who knew that suffering could be beneficial? @_@ I still don't get it myself..but on the topic matter. YOUR drawings ARE good. I eargly anticipate that Rena Landford drawing, and by all means only when you have nothing else to do too ^.~ Thank you so much for the reply and please take good care of yourself ok? I really enjoy talking with you too ^^. I pray that you wil have wonderful days ahead of you ^^.

Y'know, another coincidence but I also used to write poems about death and despair that were really morbid and depressing to the mind... I still do sometimes... Yeah, I know that feeling of being dead and meaningless, I always experience it too... I guess it's only natural for you to search for company as it is man's need to have a connection with others... But I really embrace my solitary existance b'coz too much people are around in my opinion...

For me, it's really a normal thing to suppress my human emotions... I do it almost everyday making people or my friends say that I'm a "no reaction person".... It's like wearing a protective mask and hiding behind the shadow of this stranger that I don't seem to know but constantly plagues my everyday existence... I guess, it's better for people like us to contain ourselves because just as you said, it will only hurt/affect others and it makes it really hard for everyone involved... "Only in this shell of mine will I endure the suffering and depression..." But you know, you still do write beautifully with such substance... Your words are always so sincere and calming to me... You have such a kind soul Cyanide, and your writing proves it very well...

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Quote by tkoGhostsounds like he is worried

I am actually, very worried about her. I care quite a bit for Zeine-chan~ hehe, shes a great person to talk with and I think we really understand what its like to be depressed....and feel like no one cares about us...but Zeine's different, shes very sweet and very caring too =D I try my best to be, but yeah. Plus shes so very talented =P hahaha, I'm not trying to suck up or anything, but just being serious.

*blushes* I love talking to you too and yeah, there's that connection wherein we can relate to one another so well... =^^= Seriously CB-kun.... *turns red* what you're saying isn't really true... You're much more sweeter and caring as well as warm to everyone here at mt... Plus, I haven't seen any of your drawings but I bet you can create such great illustrations... After all, you have a soul of an artist... ^^ You really have such a way with words blended in with a very charming and approachable personality... I don't think I've met anyone quite as thoughtful as you...

So there... Sorry for taking up a lot of space... Sorry for the extremely late replies and sorry for ranting in such abundance... Love your new userpage piccie btw... I love animals... ^-^ *smiles* How many wonderful pets do you have? See you around soon then...

Quote by CyanideBlizzardHeya knock yourself out, you've got some amazing artwork there. Seriously truly awesome, I saw your VERY nicely done Darkstalkers wall on the front page of the gallery, congrads on that. hehe I try to review quite a bit, and its great to see you out there reviewing as well. =D Anyways you do such amazing work and I would be honored to have you as a friend, I'll be adding you myself right now =D. Take care.

thx so much
actually i am should be honoured by u becoming my friend
i see ur activity and hard work in here
that truly u respect and like anime so much
*ad u now.*
thx again, c u around

Hiya ^^: Thanks for the comment and +fav on my Elfen Wallpaper. I'm glad you like it that much ^^.

Congratz on an elite member ...any time now
and I'll become one too ...j.k j.k...but
I do report at least 5 times a day when I'm on

Quote by CyanideBlizzardvirtual ON! OMG >.< I love the Virtual series @_@ I was such a
huge fan of it too. What I love even more is this increadable space
background you've done here. Just so realistic and so full of planets!
I say this has got to be one of the most populated space backgrounds
I've seen, and it looks amazing too! The effects are so beautiful and I
love the way you've done the planets too! Though it does feel somewhat
lonely, I really love that feeling and I love how beautiful she looks
against the background. espically nice effects around her waist. It
just looks so amazing, I must say you really show of your skills quite
well with your work Devilet-chan, I only regret not reviewing this wall
sooner, Its my favorite of the day, hands down =D Great job!

heya Cy, thanks for your comment and fav, it's okay if it's late really, any comment is appreciated at any time ^^; *bows* sorry for adding to your notifications.. eehh, glad to see you still around, I dunno, you seemed to have disappeared for a while, was worried, and right now I'm going to do a wallie for Kitten, hoping to cheer her up.. kk, thanks again, take care, sorry if I'm bothering you btw ;; cya then~

hey blizzy^^, wow what kind of overwhelming comments did you leave me on my two wallies (sweet mahoro and festival girl)...wahhh i'm really so pleased about it...*giving you big big hugs for that* ^^
your lines and simply every little word of you is so full of...well, i even cannot describe it...they are simply so wonderful and i really love all your comments so much^^
and of course many thnx for faving my walls...i really appreciate it very much and i'm so glad you like my works^^
i'm sorry that i had to let you wait for my reply so long, but i'm so under stress with my studies, and all the university-stuff is getting harder each day.
but i try to answer you as soon as possible in the future^^
hope your doing fine blizzy...that's something i always wish.
also wish you a nice time till we see as again my sweet friend. *hugs you again*
bye bye ^_________~

Quote by CyanideBlizzardLOL! You took 'his gravestone' @_@ He was my favorite character too.....@_@
Damn I shed a tear when 'he/she' died.. @_@ Wahhhhh, (I'm trying not to spoil
either....) Anyways! Great to hear that you've got some time off, thats fantastic!
Aww! Even with your time off you still make walls and share em' with us,
you are increadably generous =P. Thanks Rex! Alright....Now first off.....That
background is gorgeous! This is so unbelievably realistic that I thought
it was daylight outside....and then I realized that its 12:24am here......So
I've been freaking out if this is a dream or not cause the detail paid to
the scenery is simply amazing. Your work is so damn professional that I
can't believe the elite abilities you possess. I DO look foward to this
wall being on the top pages of the gallery, well it should be.....Just a
great extraction of Roy and Riza as well, and the grave looks VERY nice,
like an actual grave. ^^. Great work Rex, favorite of the day for me. A
masterpiece of FMA gathered into this wall.

hehehe
i just love ur comments

anyways, thatns for that AND the fav!!!

and btw....nice piciie u've got there!

Hello^^ Just passing by... and wanted to say hi... er something...

Woa... nice pic... @.@ [[it's even freakier than your last one...]] Lolz... nah.... just joking with ya . Sorry.... that was mean... O.o...... Anywayz, so what's up? ^^ (sorry... really bored...)

Hello there **what no gallery here!!!** You need one really you do.... so get busy **just kidding take no offense** like your userpage very interesting picture there...smiles...at least it's not underwear!!! *by the way mind if I add you to my friends?*

i still wonder.. why do you still try to make some sentences in your posts all capital while long words are auto-decapitalised? This makes your posts look f-u'ed a bit.

i don't mean this offending or anything, just curious.

Just passing by.^^ visiting my friends userpage here and there.^^ A new pic on your userpage. Man, It looks like your trying to say something. Hmmm, Let me see. I know you're trying to say this. "Mom I'm done with the laundries!". You look washed up dude.

Hiya, Cy! ^^ Just a quick little update about you-know-who: He likes me! >3< He told me on AIM yesterday. ^^ Huggles! *_*

quote=CyanideBlizzard]Girls fighting is the same as guys fighting, people fight because of disagreements, misunderstandings, or differences. Just how things are. I prefer to talk things out rather than fight, and I prefer to resolve matters than to let them rest, but no one really sees things the same as I do. Mmmm.....I always see things differently from others it seems.

i see the same way you do.

o_O;; not popular w/ girls? :: stares :: 142 friends and 5/8 are probably girls and that's not popular? not good w/ them either? o_O but you treat almost every girl in this forum like a princess ahaha~na na I'm sure if you went on a date with one girl it would be fine honto ni! =9 ::glomps cykyun:: me miss cykyun too X]

nana domo arigatou for liking my new avvy ^o^'' umm....life going bad bad ^o^ but it's okay me will surpass it mwahaha for I am pathetic little broken-chan! mwhahaha!! v.v I think being pale ish nice..being too tan ish bad >o<'' yaaaay I'm admired+respected by cykyun ^o^'' and I also admire+respect cykyun because he's such a great person to talk too ^o^'' and he doesn't mind me ranting about pointless things on my posts, at least I hope he doesn't mind.

hi there.
i see u have a lot work here and have a really nice suggestion/criticism
do u mine if i add u to my friendlist??
thx before
pls reply

hi thanks for add to your favourite my picture. and thanks for the comment bye bye

Thanks for your very encouraging and enthusiastic comment on my 'girl in avalon.' It makes me feel happy that a wall I made someone's day. Yeah, it would be a golden dream indeed - wish I could personally be there with Saber mwahaha. Ciao~

Hey there Cy..

Nah, it's really okay about that thread business, I wasn't offended, glad you sorted it out though, hehe. That's the problem with when you get angry, you start to boil up and spurt things out without even noticing. Believe it or not, I"ve flammed people in the past, well he offended some members.. that really pisses me off, when they start attacking others you know.. for no reason too, it was really dumb, but that flamming somehow ended me into getting a mod position... haha, go figure.

Oh yeah, about the money business, please just keep it to yourself, I don't want to take your money, but thanks for offering. I'll be fine really, the situation isn't that bad anymore.. and I'm trying to save up as we speak, really I don't want to take any money from you, you need it probably.. and he is my brother by blood, not a step brother... *sigh* ah well.. I don't know why either good people suffer. Like this friend I knew online, she was the nicest and most caring person I ever met... and she wanted to be a doctor, because she likes to help people, and yet, she dies from a car accident by crashes into a drunk driver... everyone else lived, except her, it's like why??! I don't understand.. but I don't want to think about it either, cuz that'll drive me nuts, haha.

Sounds to me like you've had a really bad past.. stupid people always putting down others, geez, so what if you're a little more hyper than others? We're all humans after all, and you take medication, should be better. I guess you got hurt very badly, so you just closed yourself to everything and awaiting death basically. From what you're saying to me, doesn't sound like you want to live either.. so why are you still alive then? There must be something -good- you found in life that keeps you living... Besides if you close yourself to everyone, for sure you'll never be happy, hell, I'd rather get hurt 10 times over to get the happiest moments of my life than just live life closed to everyone else. Meeeh, but you don't care right? I must be talking nonsense to you, sorry..

heh, I talked to this guy from another forum today, that forum is closed now though, admin lost his job and couldn't afford to keep it up. Anyway, the guy, Raize (his nickname, don't remember his real.. oh wait, it was Raymond) he got a teaching job in Japan (he used to live in Toronto, Canada) It was just really weird talking to him, because we haven't chatted in a looong time, maybe 3 months or so, it was almost like he was a stranger to me, I was all nervous, but it was nice to hear from him again. Guess it's only normal if you don't talk to someone in a while, heh.

Yeah, read that thread you were talking about, geez, I don't understand why some people just freak out of the blue and start flamming for almost no reason.. bah, well that's good it got closed, what an idiot. Those kinds of people are what make forums bad.. they think they literally own the thread they make.. however they should respect others' opinions.

Don't worry, you're not forcing me to write a lot, I really can talk a lot once I get started, otherwise I'll just listen, I like listening to other people, so you don't worry either if you write a lot, you're not spamming my gb *knocks your head* don't be silly.. hehe, okay, I hope you have a lovely day, take care *hug* bye bye

Eh sorry for not responding sooner. Haha yeah about snowboarding, I couldn't sit down for a week =P

cykyun!!
haven't posted anything in your guestbook lately waii!!! gomen nasai!! anyhow anyhow how's your day and everything ahaha I'm so common >o< need to try something new next time eto~hmm...::pinches cykyun's cheek:: waiii honto ni kawaii!! umm..I wanna paler skin...lets be envious of cykyun!! heeee =9 oii..

cykyun = popular ::stare at friendlist:: o_o'' eheheh most of them is probably girls na na!

woah! The comment you leave on my "Water Spirit" wall, is just AMAZING...it touched me! hehe ^^
Well, hope you like the rest of my wallies
Adding U to friendlist :O)
Byexxx, hope 2 hear from u soon!

Wow... the comment you left on my Zephyr wall... I'm so touched. o.o It is so rare to even -see- someone -try- and be descriptive about commenting, let alone a paragraph!

Don't mind if I add you to my friends, do you?