Quote by RintashaMy parents are okay,
but if you really are in a situation in what you say you are, that is a problem.
I have a friend with a mother who hates her, or at least that is the opinion
that I was led to believe. Still, her mother only raises her because her father
has to support them both as long as she lives with her mother. By the way, her
parents are divorced. Anyway, your school should have some psychologist, so go
talk with them, (I am assuming that you are in highschool), it might help.
yea...im in high school.......well things now r better...i think...well aniwaise
thankx for participating in my thread^^
Quote by RintashaJealousy is great isn't
it.... and as everyone said here, having a girlfriend/boyfriend doesn't make one
a guy or gal. Yes that was an idiotic insult and he should be hanged form being
a dimwit. The guy just has relationship issues with people general. His comfort
zone feels to be invaded; take for instance here in America. Everyone seems to
be at a certains space away from each other; that's because of their comfort
zone. In Egypt however, everyone is up in your face...... not comfortable at
all. Apply that to this relationship, and one sees the problem. He feels
uncomfortable because you're talking to "his girl" (I really do hate
that term, girls are not objects) and afraid that you may steal her.
The guy has issues, it's gender discrimination to both males and females for him
to say that you are gay. Tell him to go on a campaign all over the country and
tell the millions of single men that they are gay cause they don't have a
girlfriend. He'll get skewered in no time.
Wow, thanks for the nice comment, but you know?
I kinda feel sorry for the guy, his o called GIRLFRIEND just dump him,
hehe... sorry for him, and me, well, I got a girlfriend now, so I'm happy as a
veggie^^.
[Ahahaha! D'ont sweat it! You've been forgiven a long time ago I dont really
have the time to go on MT these days (busy working full time by night so i sleep
during the day ..... and I should be sleeping now...^_^' )
Anyways, with my ex we talked a few times and she seems positive about the
friendship thingy. And as far as I am concerned, i'll try very soon to develop a
new relationship very soon with an friend of mine who i worked with in my old
job before i worked night time. She's pretty cute and recently single .She
looked sad when i left the other job because she considers me as a good friend.
I've proposed to her that we should go out some night to talk since we never had
really time to talk with each other and she agreed..... if she dosent work that
is . If things go well, maybe and i said maybe, i'll ask her out but i'll get to
know her better first. Since i live in montreal, i'll take a walk with her on
Mont-Royal and after take a coffee somewhere and i'll bring her back home at the
end of the evening. Plain, easy and simple.That way, i'll get to know her better
and if she is my type or not.I just hope it works. She seems nice enough
thnxs for the comment by the way. The reason on why i turned dark and cold is
explanable.
At first before we started dating, the day before she confessed to me that she
loved me, my other gf dumped me and in the same day, i had an argument with my
father and i fought with him but he got the best of me and held me by the throat
against the wall for 3 long minutes....
The relationship i had with my dad wasent the best to have, he were an alcoholic
and i lived with him since i were 12 when my mom thrown me out of the house on
valentine's day. Therefore, since my father never really like to work, he got in
and out of jobs putting him and I in constant misery. He sworn to me for 6 long
years: " It'll be over in two weeks". After a prolonged exposure to
failing promises i began to be pessimistic and less trustfull even though i
never had faith in my parents or anyone else anyways and since he was an
alcoholic, i often had to take care of my own father when he was too f***img
drunk to even walk.
So therefore, the day after the fight with my dad, I came at school with a
bruised neck and my now ex gf named Stella asked me if I wanted to pass the
evening at her home so that I could some distance from my dad and I accepted. We
were in the same theater class so we got to knew each other throughout the year
and she told me she had a crush on me. So a few days gone by and we were
together....
The thing she never told me was that before meeting me, she got raped and
violented by her ex bfs so when i tried to only give her a hug, she would quake
and gasp in fear in the corner of her or my room. She often made me feel bad
about myself not only because of her constant fear but also because she
submitted herself sometimes by trying to please me so "I woudn't get mad at
her" according to what she feared. I often woke myself up in the middle of
the night just to check on her if she were ok only to find her either having a
nightmare and moving like crazy in the bed or awaken and afraid that I would get
mad at her because she though she waken me up. I often had to talk out with her
by telling her i wasnt mad or anything only that she would closen up to me so I
could her within my arms to reassure her a bit. I were totally consious
(spelling) about her fears and I dont blame her for that... I'll explain why i
talk about that later
From her side, she also tooked care of me. Since Stella used to sing, her sweet
voice used to make me cry when i was sad about my relationship with my father.
She often used to sing "I turn to you" By Christina Aguilera because i
saw myself within the song and when she used to sing it she held me close to
comfort me and wipe off my tears. I saw myself in the song becuase she were
there to help me and love me and I coudnt found anyone in the first 17 years of
my existence to help me not even a friend because i were a reject and not by my
parents since they kept fighting along with each other before they seperated but
that was when i were really young however... She were the only one that truly
wanted to be there for me and love me without bad intentions. At first I
wondered if i could really allow myself to get attached to her. I even told her
the truth. I told her i wasent sure if i really were to get emotionally attached
to her. She was aware and understood like I understood her problem of constant
fear
The relationship progressed and she came to put her fears aside. What truly
helped was that I saved her life twice, 1- Because she also got hit by a car
while crossing the street 2- I saved from slipping on the floor and knock her
head mortally on wood furniture. I got to find trust within myself to give her
and everything were perfect, until a certain point
We began to have small fights and after it grew bigger. She even left me once
before because since we had a fight and i prefered to let both ourselves cool
down she left me and said that since i dint came after her she left me... I was
crushed by that call, took some alcohol i had in store and got myself drunk at
one of my friends house who told me to came.
The next day, I went to see her after her job with a white rose so that we could
explain ourselves and it got settled by her apologies and mine.
But the fight grew darker and more often... I had the oppotunity once to dump
her and leave her for an other girl who also loved me but i refused because i
had faith it could work out. I even told Stella that a girl wanted me but i
refused because i had faith it could work out with each other but she dint seem
to notice the message i tryed to pass out that I would stand up till the end for
us. She had to have to deal with the death of her biological father she saw
twice in her life because she were in a mental hospital. I were still with her
back then, Her biological father died february 13th and i cheered her up enough
that i were able to make her laugh once.
Finally the break up came to happen soon after
She told her mother i were the best guy she ever met, that she truly felt loved
and i were the one who she would really share love for the first time in a soft
way..... but she later turned to her friends who were also mine and told them
the complete opposite.
Since the break up i saw her a couple of times and she often bad mouthed me for
no damn reason to me but to venge herself or hurt me for no obvious reason. She
kept talking trash to my face and to everone i knew just to hurt me
she held me close before and now she wants to choke the air out of me. She were
the only one to be there for me and then she abandoned me. I helped her through
her life and i got nothing but despair and sorrow, that why i turned like what i
am today
do you have any idea on how i can be what i were before all this
started?
merged: 07-03-2006 ~ 05:27am
First off i would like to clarify some things,
1- I have been single until i got 17 years old.... i dint had a gf before
that
2-The "weakness" you describe isnt about the strengh of myself in the
situation.... I woudn't not even qualify that as weak. Being weak is to run away
from the situation a.k.a. suicide. I dint even f*cking thought of it once. She
wasent worth it. I saw her once since the breakup and she acted like she never
loved me even once. I were angry and devastated so i got home, drank alone alot
and cut myself inside my hands and drawn a star on my belly with the unsharpened
dagger she gave me at valentine's day. When i sobered up, i realized it was
f*cking sick what i just done. I lightned up since and told myself she aint
worth a sh*t to me anymore no matter how i loved her before and how i still
little do now. I kept no scars of this "drunken mutilation". It was
the first time i even did this and believe me it's the last too
Being strong is to keep on with it and move along. Yes, the scars may heal over
like right now but before that, the anger, the feeling of loss, the confusion,
the sorrow and being consumed by madness isnt a sign of weakness. Giving up
is
I though for myself about this at work today and thought of what i could bring
up to her face if she ever confronts me and try to b*tch on me at college. I am
ready to counter her now. It's not revenge as far as i am concerned just to show
her i wont crumble under my emotions and finally stand up against her constant
attacks. If she dosent cause me trouble at college i wont do some to her either
but if she does i'll tell her flaws to her face too.
And no i wont slam you with harsh words, you're still young. you havent felt all
this yet....... Consider me your mentor if it happens to you. Since that breakup
of mine. I have the strange capacity to settle broken couples again ......
Quote by RintashaYou like helping
people?.........
It's better to say I dislike the way life is, and if it's ever going to get
better someone must change it. Look around your life, at how people mindlessly
hurt others for no reason at all. The selfishness that breeds unrestrained. I
believe in something better.
merged: 04-24-2006 ~ 09:39am
No worries friend. We grow by example. In that way we are all role models of a
sort.
Hey there love in regards to your reply in my guest book I bet you thought I was
closer to forty then thirty but that's okay I really don't care about what
others think of me if you want to think of me as stupid and old well then go a
head. I think it is very cool that you have honored your promise to not have sex
until after you are married and also think it is very cool that you will wait
until you are eighteen to have a girl friend that is very noble and wise of you
there love. I on the other hand have already given up looking for love and find
that really no one in this world can live up to my standards so I just stopped
looking years ago. But how about this? When you turn eighteen I will place you
under my strongest blessing and protection. When this happens all of your
crippling bad luck will be redirected to me so you will have better luck in all
aspects of your life even your love life you will find that special someone
quicker but since you'll have to wait until you're eighteen and if you want to
find a girl friend now and even have sex (you know do what you want) you'll have
to do it on your own but when you turn eighteen then all of your bad luck will
be mine and well go nuts. Not just anyone can be placed under my strongest
protect and blessing who isn't within my family. What do you say?
merged: 04-19-2006 ~ 05:00pm
*soft laugh* Fifty huh at times I do feel that old and I was actually wondering
if I do confuse people when I say that I am old thank you love for confirming my
suspicions.
merged: 04-19-2006 ~ 05:02pm
Quote by RintashaBy the way, are you
asking me to become your little onine brother?
hi boy
Welcome to Minitokyo hope you have a lot of fun here ^^
thank you for your fav to my semangas partytime wall that is great that you like my new work
too
by the was wish you a good christmastime and a happy new year
cu around
what's so amusing?
No, I don't^^ Thx for writing in the guest book anyway^^
yea...im in high school.......well things now r better...i think...well aniwaise thankx for participating in my thread^^
hey, thanks for replying to my thread 'violent video games and movies VS fairytales'
cya around
Wow, thanks for the nice comment, but you know?
I kinda feel sorry for the guy, his o called GIRLFRIEND just dump him,
hehe... sorry for him, and me, well, I got a girlfriend now, so I'm happy as a veggie^^.
Thanks
Yeah I hope for the best too 
We get
along so well I don't think it'll ever end
[Ahahaha! D'ont sweat it! You've been forgiven a long time ago I dont really have the time to go on MT these days (busy working full time by night so i sleep during the day ..... and I should be sleeping now...^_^' )
Anyways, with my ex we talked a few times and she seems positive about the friendship thingy. And as far as I am concerned, i'll try very soon to develop a new relationship very soon with an friend of mine who i worked with in my old job before i worked night time. She's pretty cute and recently single .She looked sad when i left the other job because she considers me as a good friend. I've proposed to her that we should go out some night to talk since we never had really time to talk with each other and she agreed..... if she dosent work that is . If things go well, maybe and i said maybe, i'll ask her out but i'll get to know her better first. Since i live in montreal, i'll take a walk with her on Mont-Royal and after take a coffee somewhere and i'll bring her back home at the end of the evening. Plain, easy and simple.That way, i'll get to know her better and if she is my type or not.I just hope it works. She seems nice enough
Anyways, you're forgiven for the things you said
I truly felt the need to answer you back
thnxs for the comment by the way. The reason on why i turned dark and cold is explanable.
At first before we started dating, the day before she confessed to me that she loved me, my other gf dumped me and in the same day, i had an argument with my father and i fought with him but he got the best of me and held me by the throat against the wall for 3 long minutes....
The relationship i had with my dad wasent the best to have, he were an alcoholic and i lived with him since i were 12 when my mom thrown me out of the house on valentine's day. Therefore, since my father never really like to work, he got in and out of jobs putting him and I in constant misery. He sworn to me for 6 long years: " It'll be over in two weeks". After a prolonged exposure to failing promises i began to be pessimistic and less trustfull even though i never had faith in my parents or anyone else anyways and since he was an alcoholic, i often had to take care of my own father when he was too f***img drunk to even walk.
So therefore, the day after the fight with my dad, I came at school with a bruised neck and my now ex gf named Stella asked me if I wanted to pass the evening at her home so that I could some distance from my dad and I accepted. We were in the same theater class so we got to knew each other throughout the year and she told me she had a crush on me. So a few days gone by and we were together....
The thing she never told me was that before meeting me, she got raped and violented by her ex bfs so when i tried to only give her a hug, she would quake and gasp in fear in the corner of her or my room. She often made me feel bad about myself not only because of her constant fear but also because she submitted herself sometimes by trying to please me so "I woudn't get mad at her" according to what she feared. I often woke myself up in the middle of the night just to check on her if she were ok only to find her either having a nightmare and moving like crazy in the bed or awaken and afraid that I would get mad at her because she though she waken me up. I often had to talk out with her by telling her i wasnt mad or anything only that she would closen up to me so I could her within my arms to reassure her a bit. I were totally consious (spelling) about her fears and I dont blame her for that... I'll explain why i talk about that later
From her side, she also tooked care of me. Since Stella used to sing, her sweet voice used to make me cry when i was sad about my relationship with my father. She often used to sing "I turn to you" By Christina Aguilera because i saw myself within the song and when she used to sing it she held me close to comfort me and wipe off my tears. I saw myself in the song becuase she were there to help me and love me and I coudnt found anyone in the first 17 years of my existence to help me not even a friend because i were a reject and not by my parents since they kept fighting along with each other before they seperated but that was when i were really young however... She were the only one that truly wanted to be there for me and love me without bad intentions. At first I wondered if i could really allow myself to get attached to her. I even told her the truth. I told her i wasent sure if i really were to get emotionally attached to her. She was aware and understood like I understood her problem of constant fear
The relationship progressed and she came to put her fears aside. What truly helped was that I saved her life twice, 1- Because she also got hit by a car while crossing the street 2- I saved from slipping on the floor and knock her head mortally on wood furniture. I got to find trust within myself to give her and everything were perfect, until a certain point
We began to have small fights and after it grew bigger. She even left me once before because since we had a fight and i prefered to let both ourselves cool down she left me and said that since i dint came after her she left me... I was crushed by that call, took some alcohol i had in store and got myself drunk at one of my friends house who told me to came.
The next day, I went to see her after her job with a white rose so that we could explain ourselves and it got settled by her apologies and mine.
But the fight grew darker and more often... I had the oppotunity once to dump her and leave her for an other girl who also loved me but i refused because i had faith it could work out. I even told Stella that a girl wanted me but i refused because i had faith it could work out with each other but she dint seem to notice the message i tryed to pass out that I would stand up till the end for us. She had to have to deal with the death of her biological father she saw twice in her life because she were in a mental hospital. I were still with her back then, Her biological father died february 13th and i cheered her up enough that i were able to make her laugh once.
Finally the break up came to happen soon after
She told her mother i were the best guy she ever met, that she truly felt loved and i were the one who she would really share love for the first time in a soft way..... but she later turned to her friends who were also mine and told them the complete opposite.
Since the break up i saw her a couple of times and she often bad mouthed me for no damn reason to me but to venge herself or hurt me for no obvious reason. She kept talking trash to my face and to everone i knew just to hurt me
she held me close before and now she wants to choke the air out of me. She were the only one to be there for me and then she abandoned me. I helped her through her life and i got nothing but despair and sorrow, that why i turned like what i am today
do you have any idea on how i can be what i were before all this started?
merged: 07-03-2006 ~ 05:27am
First off i would like to clarify some things,
1- I have been single until i got 17 years old.... i dint had a gf before that
2-The "weakness" you describe isnt about the strengh of myself in the situation.... I woudn't not even qualify that as weak. Being weak is to run away from the situation a.k.a. suicide. I dint even f*cking thought of it once. She wasent worth it. I saw her once since the breakup and she acted like she never loved me even once. I were angry and devastated so i got home, drank alone alot and cut myself inside my hands and drawn a star on my belly with the unsharpened dagger she gave me at valentine's day. When i sobered up, i realized it was f*cking sick what i just done. I lightned up since and told myself she aint worth a sh*t to me anymore no matter how i loved her before and how i still little do now. I kept no scars of this "drunken mutilation". It was the first time i even did this and believe me it's the last too
Being strong is to keep on with it and move along. Yes, the scars may heal over like right now but before that, the anger, the feeling of loss, the confusion, the sorrow and being consumed by madness isnt a sign of weakness. Giving up is
I though for myself about this at work today and thought of what i could bring up to her face if she ever confronts me and try to b*tch on me at college. I am ready to counter her now. It's not revenge as far as i am concerned just to show her i wont crumble under my emotions and finally stand up against her constant attacks. If she dosent cause me trouble at college i wont do some to her either but if she does i'll tell her flaws to her face too.
And no i wont slam you with harsh words, you're still young. you havent felt all this yet....... Consider me your mentor if it happens to you. Since that breakup of mine. I have the strange capacity to settle broken couples again ......
It's better to say I dislike the way life is, and if it's ever going to get better someone must change it. Look around your life, at how people mindlessly hurt others for no reason at all. The selfishness that breeds unrestrained. I believe in something better.
merged: 04-24-2006 ~ 09:39am
No worries friend. We grow by example. In that way we are all role models of a sort.
Hey there love in regards to your reply in my guest book I bet you thought I was closer to forty then thirty but that's okay I really don't care about what others think of me if you want to think of me as stupid and old well then go a head. I think it is very cool that you have honored your promise to not have sex until after you are married and also think it is very cool that you will wait until you are eighteen to have a girl friend that is very noble and wise of you there love. I on the other hand have already given up looking for love and find that really no one in this world can live up to my standards so I just stopped looking years ago. But how about this? When you turn eighteen I will place you under my strongest blessing and protection. When this happens all of your crippling bad luck will be redirected to me so you will have better luck in all aspects of your life even your love life you will find that special someone quicker but since you'll have to wait until you're eighteen and if you want to find a girl friend now and even have sex (you know do what you want) you'll have to do it on your own but when you turn eighteen then all of your bad luck will be mine and well go nuts. Not just anyone can be placed under my strongest protect and blessing who isn't within my family. What do you say?
merged: 04-19-2006 ~ 05:00pm
*soft laugh* Fifty huh at times I do feel that old and I was actually wondering if I do confuse people when I say that I am old thank you love for confirming my suspicions.
merged: 04-19-2006 ~ 05:02pm
If you want you know whatever makes you happy
hey u! told u i could make 1! i got bord so i made 1 and yah! now im bord again....very bord....bord....still bord....
okay! i bet yor gettin tired of dat am i rite?see im smart!LoL=D
well yah i jus wantd 2 leave u a comment but now i wunna go do sumthin else soo bye!
Good moring!!!:D
I live aroudn in the sacramento area^____________^
city is Rocklin
EDIT:
I am in 9th grade^^
hi boy
Welcome to Minitokyo hope you have a lot of fun here ^^
thank you for your fav to my semangas partytime wall that is great that you like my new work too
by the was wish you a good christmastime and a happy new year
cu around