nah, i haven't drifted away from you, i'm just sorta bored with MT cuz there's
barely anyone online other than my usual spamming partners. i'll try to be
online a bit more, cuz i miss chatting with you as well.
Quote by lilwolfmaidenHello Matt.
Thanks for the comment. ^_^
No one else on Minitokyo has acknowledged it is my birthday.
But as long as my friends don't hate me, who cares?
So how have you been?
Well, I saw it on shadow's website. I've been doing alright. How about you?
HI! hugs how are you? i havnt talked to you in a lonnnng time
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i hope your doing alright
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Quote by lilwolfmaidenI am doing
okay I suppose.
I have seriously missed you!
How have you been?
oh i have been doing alright my spring break started not to long ago we went to
south padre island wich has turned out to be very enjoyable...i havnt had the
opertunity to swim in a long time but there is some trouble i got sunberd today
on my sholders its pretty red though it dosnt hurt much it just seems very hot
anyway i hope i can hear fom you soon take care
Quote by lilwolfmaiden
I know I thought the IA crud was odd.
I won't because I don't date anymore, no date, no sexual stuff. Bad bad.
Besides, I think we're not on talking terms once again.
Who knows, I don't care much.
But me and Chantz are still tight as can be ^_^
I'm writing an english version for Lost Butterfly that follows the music if I
can :P Wrote a few sentences...
A butterfly in labyrinth... Fluttering without finding a way... If one day that
happened... If one day that happened.... To you always remem.... ber I'm here...
If your wings are set in flames... I'll be there with you... As we turn to
ash... So you won't have to cry... So you won't have to cry... As you look at
me... with a smile... There are as many reason to smile... As there are hearts
in this world.... But if you have too much you'll lose them all... But then I'll
find them back.... So you won't have to cry everyday.... Watching every step you
take in your life... From Heaven and Earth... I'll watch you forever...
That's all I wrote for now! And it's not
good! And it barely follows the music! I
was going to write it for you but it sounds like a love song well... boy girl
love song... Sorry.... I'm so useless.... TT^TT
Quote by springheeljack298
well i hope you feel better take care of yourself cat
im glad your alive you should keep it that way
im glad to hear from you too
Eh, I don't deserve better care.
Life is overrated.. But I have work to do before I let myself die..
But more importantly, how are you?
well i think you deserve a lot..but thats just my opinion..
im doing alright..very busy..its going to be a ruff couple of weeks..
as i said before i think your life is important..again my opinion..
love you cat..
Quote by 95Elizabeth
Lost Butterfly is one of my favourite songs ^_^ And have you seen the english
translation?
Here here! I wrote it! But I can't write but I tried! I just changed it a bit
from the original translation! It doesn't follow the music though!
Like a wandering butterfly in labyrinthâ?¦
It continues to flutter trying to find a way
outâ?¦
What if one day that happened to you?
Rememberâ?¦ Rememberâ?¦
Iâ?m always here for youâ?¦
There are as many reasons for smilingâ?¦
As many as all the hearts in this worldâ?¦
But if you have too muchâ?¦
Youâ?ll lose sight of them allâ?¦
The day that never seems to endâ?¦
Repeatingâ?¦
Repeatingâ?¦
Is starting to change the futureâ?¦
The illusion that comes to us at night named
dreamsâ?¦
Begins to show itselfâ?¦
If your wings catch on fireâ?¦
You would even reach the blazing sunâ?¦
I wish we could turn to ash togetherâ?¦
As you show me that smileâ?¦
Anywayâ?¦
One day I know we will partâ?¦
But I knowâ?¦ But I
knowâ?¦
Itâ?s okay because I met youâ?¦
Far awayâ?¦
Even when weâ?re apartâ?¦
Iâ?ll continue to pray for your
happinessâ?¦
Even if it doesnâ?t reach youâ?¦
Even if it doesnâ?t reach youâ?¦
Iâ?ll sing this song for only youâ?¦
I know it will only be when we dieâ?¦
That we know why we were bornâ?¦
But when that day comes it will be too lateâ?¦
So we continue to wanderâ?¦
When the reality begins to showâ?¦
I know itâ?s changing you to someone
elseâ?¦
But no matter how much you changeâ?¦
You will always be youâ?¦
If you scream loud enoughâ?¦
Or even if you whisper Iâ?ll be
thereâ?¦
Even if your courage to say the truth is a faint
glowâ?¦
The day that never seems to endâ?¦
Is starting to change the futureâ?¦
The illusion that comes to us at night named
dreamsâ?¦
Begins to show itselfâ?¦
If your wings catch on fireâ?¦
You would even reach the blazing sunâ?¦
I wish we could turn to ash togetherâ?¦
As you show me that smileâ?¦
I love the song and translation. ^_^
GUESS WHAT.
My lastest break-up, the one I ranted about and was upset over, came crawling
back. He apologises and says he promised he'd come back and he never stopped
loving me, he just wanted to see if he could live without me or if I was the one
he loved. He is sincere, really. But I'm not going to date
him.
What's with the IA?; and all that? Never
mind.... I write translations when I'm bored...
Though they're not good... Anyway... I just write it again in my own words but
is basically the same thing... cause the japanese translators don't make sense
sometimes...
Why won't you date him again?
Quote by springheeljack298
sorry that i haven't talked to you in a wile i wanted to but i was pretty
busy..i still am come to think of it so how is life going for you good i
hope..ugh i have one ruff week ahead of me..anyway i hope to hear from you soon
luv ya' hugs
It's okay, it's just good to hear from ya period.
Busy... Yeah.. I'm all too busy. Busy with myself. I'm unusually quiet and
miserable right now, but I made myself, I've been off-the-walls and hyper for
the past couple months, made me sick, I finally broke the happy crap. Good to be
dark ol me again..
[[It'll wear off by tomorrow or the day after
]]
Life is... okay. I'm alive, so that's a good sign.
Glad to hear from you.
well i hope you feel better take care of yourself cat
im glad your alive you should keep it that way
im glad to hear from you too
Quote by lilwolfmaiden
Eh, it is complicated.
See, there is LOVE.. and there is LUST.
I was never loved in my life by family, friends, or romantically.
So when boys started liking me, I took whatever I could get.
I loved them, but they lusted for me, thus creating bad relationships.
Then because of this love/lust combination causing bad experience I wrote of
love as bad, although I'd never had a love/love relationship.
Then I kicked love and decided to lust.
I'd lust/lust with people but I wanted emotion.
Now I do nothing, I stray away from love and lust..
But now people are starting to love me, and I feel nothing.
My bestie Chantz is a great guy, and this time I mean it. He is innocent,
respectful, polite, caring, honest, trustworthy, and he really feels for me.
But I openly told him I don't do dating or love or lust or infatuation
anymore.
He respects that <33
I think if he is a good guy and keeps a good friendship and mild interest in me
for over a year, then he's a keeper.
But it's all very comlplicated, but with every passing day I learn something
new, so the day before every day was more confusing than the one after, so my
past in very complex so I try not to think about it..
So very sorry for the late reply.
Love you sis.
No ones ever loved you before TT^TT But I do! I would die for you even though I
prefer pain than death Sis
is the best kuu!
Chantz...? He sounds nice... Better than SOME people with a name that starts
with a vati and ends with a can... He says
sorry for leaving me for so long and making me lonely and dissapears the next
day for like a week!
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Quote by lilwolfmaiden
I know you love me, I know that very well. I love you so much. I think about you
a lot. I also put "Lost Butterfly" on my music player so I can learn
the words and sing along when I think of you.
Chantz is great. He's a great guy and I can tell he's different.. But I'm still
starting to push him away.. I kick and fight and try to make him leave.. But he
knows better. He's staying.
Oh dear, people may come and go physically, but we never leave you emotionally,
we will stay by your side in your heart and ours.
Lost Butterfly is one of my favourite songs ^_^ And have you seen the english
translation?
Here here! I wrote it! But
I can't write but I tried! I just changed it a bit from the original
translation! It doesn't follow the music though!
Like a wandering butterfly in labyrinth…
It continues to flutter trying to find a way out…
What if one day that happened to you?
Remember… Remember…
I’m always here for you…
There are as many reasons for smiling…
As many as all the hearts in this world…
But if you have too much…
You’ll lose sight of them all…
The day that never seems to end…
Repeating… Repeating…
Is starting to change the future…
The illusion that comes to us at night named dreams…
Begins to show itself…
If your wings catch on fire…
You would even reach the blazing sun…
I wish we could turn to ash together…
As you show me that smile…
Anyway…
One day I know we will part…
But I know… But I know…
It’s okay because I met you…
Far away…
Even when we’re apart…
I’ll continue to pray for your happiness…
Even if it doesn’t reach you…
Even if it doesn’t reach you…
I’ll sing this song for only you…
I know it will only be when we die…
That we know why we were born…
But when that day comes it will be too late…
So we continue to wander…
When the reality begins to show…
I know it’s changing you to someone else…
But no matter how much you change…
You will always be you…
If you scream loud enough…
Or even if you whisper I’ll be there…
Even if your courage to say the truth is a faint glow…
The day that never seems to end…
Is starting to change the future…
The illusion that comes to us at night named dreams…
Begins to show itself…
If your wings catch on fire…
You would even reach the blazing sun…
I wish we could turn to ash together…
As you show me that smile…
sorry that i haven't talked to you in a wile i wanted to but i was pretty
busy..i still am come to think of it so how is life going for you good i
hope..ugh i have one ruff week ahead of me..anyway i hope to hear from you soon
luv ya' hugs
Quote by lilwolfmaidenHewwo my
wittle inverty werty!
I missed yewww!
How ish you beeeen?
^o^
Hehe, sorry for babytalking your scary wary wittle page.
Get online!
We haven't RPed in forever!
great, now my userpage went from "evil" to "scary" hah, very
funny. anyway, i'm doing okay, just a little exausted from working so much. and
sorry about not being online, i'm sorta losing interest in MT so i don't log in
as much. anyway, so how have you been?
Quote by lilwolfmaiden
Hehe I was teasing you, you're not pitifully terrified. Just messing with my
sis. ^_^
I would love to say Nathan was the best, but I'd begin to miss him even more. I
can say all these bad things about him, but there is a good reason and
explanation behind them all... I miss him. But in any case I can't see him
anyways, my family hates him and makes sure we keep a far distance.
My latest break-up was a really great guy.. Nathan's best friend in fact, but he
moved. But he was really sincere. He cared about me and always wanted to hear my
beautiful voice. He was a respectful guy and made me feel like I was worth
something. And only a couple other guys have ever made me feel that. Nathan did,
and my good friend Jesse did. But thanks to me being a freaking sex symbol I
made him kiss me, he was engaged! TT^TT His fiance made him cut contact with
me.. I miss him..
Justice is a sex-hound, But even the worst of them settle down, he is with his
best friend Amanda now and I wish them good luck.
And the few years theory? Umm not really. It is a big accomplishment to last a
year or more. And at our age, that is a seldom to rare chance that would ever
happen for us.
Thing is, I'd rather be with a guy for a few weeks, we're supposed to, you date
until you know what you're looking for.
If an angel's job is to help those who have just begun their journey... Then a
demons job must be to accept those who have stopped... ^_^ I know it seem as if
it has nothing to do with anything but it does! To me anyway! I just
don't get how you can love so many people... So... Who do you love most of all
of them? ^_^
Quote by lilwolfmaidenI'm fine
^_^
How've you been? ^_^
Thanks for complimenting my work *^^*
im glad your doing good
im alright i have to go to school though sigh..oh well just 2 days till the
weekend
oh your welcome iv always thought that you did a very good job
Quote by 95Elizabeth
....... Sis... You know... You're really bad at choosing boys..... Why do you
give yourself to boys so easily? My sister is smart! I know it! But sometimes
she can be so stupid.... It hurts me to see you like this.... My aunt was
married to a man she never slept with for 18 years.... Why do you let them use
you like that?If they loved you... They would love you even if you didn't even
kiss them once before.... Do they know everything about you? Do you know
everything about them? Would they die for you? How long have you met them? I
don't get it.... These love affairs of yours are so fake! Sis is way smarter
than this.... I believe that because I believe in you! It's.... insincere... Why
do you give them yourself so easily...? And why do they want you anyway? But at
the same time I have to tell you... To love is to let go ^^ Anyway! You have me
right? Though I'm tiny and bony and I'm scared of every single thing like horror
movies! And sometimes I run around screaming like a 5 year old when I get chased
by dogs! I still have my voice that annoys everyone so much they hopefully
forget to worry! ^_^
It's not that easy.. Whether you believe in curses or not, I believe
fully-heartedly that my family is cursed. Cursed by love. Every man a woman in
my family gets together with gets knocked up, used, abused, and left. We've seen
all the guys, the sweet and respectful ones, the hardcore and tough ones, the
quiet and mysterious ones. I have yet to meet a guy not like that. BUT guess
what? It isn't my selection in guys-- IT'S ME! I'm too naturally seductive.. I
lead guys on and manipulate them. I can make anyone do whatever I want.. But the
worse things all start with a little incident.. If I had never had my first kiss
with Justice, I wouldn't have screwed around with him the next year, and then I
never would've been a sexual person and I'd never be in this situation. But I
don't pout about the past. I am just done. No more dating, no more sexual.
Solves everything... I wish. I'm still a sexual person and I can't help but come
onto guys... I'm bi so I have plenty of girls I seduced too and make bi.. I'm
very good at being flirty.. Too good. I hate it but I can't help it. I fight it
with all my might. I don't give myself up easy... I have no self-esteem, never
have, so I make guys want me and make them take me. And my guy I lost my
innocence with, Nathan.... I really hate to admit it but I miss him.. No matter
how hard I try to hate him. And he did love me, I never kisseed hima nd he
respected that, until I cheated on him by screwing around with Justice, then I
felt I owed him.. He never made me do anything, I come off as "that
type" so therefore I must deal with the consequences.. But no more, I am
letting people know straight-out I don't do that stuff anymore. And yes, I knew
everything about my past couple loves and they knew all about me, and yes I know
more than anything, or did know, that they'd die for me. They'd cry for me. I
knew them for months. Nathan I knew for a few months, but he was a best friend
to me, and he was so respectful. He was even nervous about asking me out in fear
it was too soon. He was great.. and it saddens me to think of all the great
stuff we had.. But even when I've just met someone, I can tell who they are
inside.. And I have never really been wrong. My last guy I knew for .75 of a
year, but saw him scarce lately. But he knew more about me than anyone. There
was something very special about us. But my feelings are twisted, they let
anyone have them, it's easy to capture my interest and attention, but not easy
to capture my heart..
But you are my pitifully terrified little sister whom I love so much. And I know
you won't leave me.. But I've felt that about other people before
too...
Umm... One thing I HAVE to tell you first...
Pitifully terrified...? Who said anything about being terrified? *pouts*
Elizabeth is a big girl now! *pouts more*
Wow... You sure seem to fall for guys easily... Nathan sounds the best of them
all.. Justice.... Justice sounds like... Like... Like.... Hard to
describe since I don't know him well... I thought... If you loved someone you'd
love them most for at least a few years.... I don't know.... Little tiny
elizabeth is stupid! *knocks head and sounds hollow* I lost my brain on my way
home!
I don't think your family is cursed at all ^_^ I find you gifted! You know so
much about things a person that lives a perfect life (Not that it's possible)
I'm proud to call you my sister! And even if you told my friends about all your
relationships! I'll still say you're my big sister with pride! Because I find
sis admirable! ^_^ But.... I think I prefer to go the way of loving someone for
eternity... I wouldn't want to fool around with a guy that's only gonna
lasts me for a few weeks.... I would rather wait forever for my first kiss
that's meaningful instead of kissing a guy that's going to be my most important
person for a few weeks! But I still admire sis! Because she's great even if she
married 10 thousand times! ^_^
i'm just a random girl, but i just had to drop by...
read your poems, though i apologize cuz i'm a lil late in both reading and
commenting... but better late than never ne...
just had to tell you that you have amazing talent! keep it up yea! your
potential is .......just simply fascinating!
if you don't mind, i will add you to my watchlist ^^ that way i'll be able to
catch your poem earlier on!
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You know... Sometimes you seem perfect.... Though I see your faults but I still
think you're perfect... You have a heart of gold and golden hair! You're quite
pretty! Not lying! But the more important thing is! You're really really nice! I
love you!
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Quote by lilwolfmaiden
Well you are the first and only person I'll believe when you say I seem perfect.
That's because I know you see my faults, and you accept them. Perfect means
having faults that are accepted. A person who is called perfect usually is one
whose faults are unknown. You're pretty damn perfect, to me at very least. I
love you very much. I feel at rest when I talk to you. People underestimate my
heart and mind, thank you very much for appreciating them. I'm okay-looking ;D
And no matter what you say you are, you are very sweet, even if you don't act
that way to others or are treated that way, you have a very kind heart, even if
there is some ice on it, we'll melt it together. I promise.
<33
....... You know.... Vatican right...? He told me something.... God would love
me more than he will ever love me.... He makes me pretty angry at times... He's
really dense!
I love you.... And I believe you when you say you feel that I'm perfect....
Because I hate being judged by looks.... Like they say! A blind man sees the
clearer side of things when a man with 6 eyes only sees a stone! heh! No
actually... That's what I say!
Cause a blind man would even fall in love with someone that's the ugliest in
this world but see the golden heart in them that shines brightly! Don't mind me!
I never make any sense! heheh.... I hate your parents for ruining your life...
but I thank them for bringing you into this world.... Even if they say you're a
mistake like mine does... I know they love you... And even if they don't! They
have 2 eyes but only see a stone then! They must be looking the wrong way! The
true blind people are the ones who see the caterpillar before the turned into a
butterfly! I'm getting the feeling I have mentally challenged problems with me! But
really.... Even though I can't see you.... To me.... I think you're like a
crystal! It looks like a rock in the out-side but once you open it... It shines
brighter than a plastic crystal that shines outside but when you open it the
plastic covers all the brightness it holds! Like the moon! When you look at
it... It shines brightly but the parts you don't see... Is filled with dents and
holes.... Ah.... I'm so sorry! You must think I'm weird! I'm sorry! I make no
sense!
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Quote by lilwolfmaiden
Relax! You make perfect sense to me, I'm a poet remember? Yep, and
whether I know how someone looks or not, I always judge by their heart...
Looking at someone, I just.. know.
Exactly like my poem "Love like in the Dark", huh?
The thing is... I thanks my parents for my bad treatment... If I was.. raised
well... I wouldn't be.. me. I wouldn't be so deep, so understanding. I wouldn't
be thoughtful, I'd be another worthless waste of life. My pain made me
blossom.
My.. nickname is.. Caterpillar ^_^ Because.. I refuse to be a butterfly until
people respect as see me as the caterpillar I am. I want people to love me for
the right reasons, instead of being a pretty butterfly.
You aren't mentally-challenged either ^_^ You're thoughtful and understanding,
you have a very strong power in you. You speak with your mind, sometimes not
knowing what you're saying. You'll do great things in life. Trust
me.
TT^TT I..... I love you! Everyone who heard me say that thinks I'm mentally
challenged! I'm so glad you don't hate me now!
Like love! It hurts! But it's great! I won't forget the good and the bad... Some
people always wish they wouldn't remember the bad things in life... But if thy
forget the bad... they're throwing away a part of themselves..... I appreciate
every second of my life.... Good and bad.... Life are like stairs! If there's a
broken step.... You can't just stop going up! Because then you'll never reach
your destination! No matter how dangerous it is you still have to go up! Even if
the steps are made of needles! And I'll help you up when you can't! ^^ I know I
can't be there for you all the time since I can't see you or anything... But
I'll use my blabber mouth to help you! My nonsense! Heheh!
Caterpillar... yeah... You're like a caterpillar.... ^^ But you know... a
butterfly and a caterpillar... Is the same... Still the same person.... The same
soul... The same faults... It just changed it's skin! Like a crystal that looks
like a rock! And a crystal that is taken out of the rock! It's valuable
whichever it is!
So I'll love you no matter what you choose to become! caterpillar or butterfly!
Because you are you and forever will be you no matter how much you change!
yeah... Love like in the dark... I love your poems! Much better than the
meaningless happy go lucky ones that are talking about useless things...
I'm going to do great things...? never...
knew..... Thought I was just blabbing nonsense... heh....
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Quote by lilwolfmaiden
I could never hate you, and that is one thing I know is true.
Your "blabber" always helps me out, just know that. You're not useless
and I need you.
Your nonsense babble is very wise. You and I... are very alike.. In a spiritual
sense. You made me beam with pride.. Know that. I want to be with you, I want to
show you many things. But talking to you makes me happy enough.
You know more than your years have shown you. You see with your mind's eye. You
use more of your brain than the average person, you have a very strong aura, and
you can do much with it.
Thank you! TT^TT
You know... It's incredible... How you can read auras!
You I know.... Lots of people say "Woah... She might look little but she
knows a more about life than me!"
heheh!
But that's just cause of how I've lived in these years! Lots has happened to me
in 11 years of living!
Quote by 95Elizabeth
TT^TT I..... I love you! Everyone who heard me say that thinks I'm mentally
challenged! I'm so glad you don't hate me now!
Like love! It hurts! But it's great! I won't forget the good and the bad... Some
people always wish they wouldn't remember the bad things in life... But if thy
forget the bad... they're throwing away a part of themselves..... I appreciate
every second of my life.... Good and bad.... Life are like stairs! If there's a
broken step.... You can't just stop going up! Because then you'll never reach
your destination! No matter how dangerous it is you still have to go up! Even if
the steps are made of needles! And I'll help you up when you can't! ^^ I know I
can't be there for you all the time since I can't see you or anything... But
I'll use my blabber mouth to help you! My nonsense! Heheh!
Caterpillar... yeah... You're like a caterpillar.... ^^ But you know... a
butterfly and a caterpillar... Is the same... Still the same person.... The same
soul... The same faults... It just changed it's skin! Like a crystal that looks
like a rock! And a crystal that is taken out of the rock! It's valuable
whichever it is!
So I'll love you no matter what you choose to become! caterpillar or butterfly!
Because you are you and forever will be you no matter how much you change!
yeah... Love like in the dark... I love your poems! Much better than the
meaningless happy go lucky ones that are talking about useless things...
I'm going to do great things...? never... knew..... Thought I was just blabbing
nonsense... heh....
I could never hate you, and that is one thing I know is true.
Your "blabber" always helps me out, just know that. You're not useless
and I need you.
Your nonsense babble is very wise. You and I... are very alike.. In a spiritual
sense. You made me beam with pride.. Know that. I want to be with you, I want to
show you many things. But talking to you makes me happy enough.
You know more than your years have shown you. You see with your mind's eye. You
use more of your brain than the average person, you have a very strong aura, and
you can do much with it.
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Quote by 95Elizabeth
Thank you! TT^TT
You know... It's incredible... How you can read auras!
You I know.... Lots of people say "Woah... She might look little but she
knows a more about life than me!"
heheh! But that's just cause of how I've lived in these years! Lots has happened
to me in 11 years of living!
I just have a feeling about you. Something makes me smile. Of course it's you.
Yes, lots has happened, but you can see far beyond your years. You speak of what
you have never known or seen. Things you lived in yuor past lives, things
waiting to be discovered. All that information and memories in your mind,
speaking through you.
Maybe I was a rock in my past life! I don't
know! I've always taken an interest in rocks! Weird if I was a rock! heh! I'm so
nonsensical! Or maybe I was a blind person! you know... Sometimes I feel
connected to you... Maybe we were twins or best friends in our past lives!
merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 01:50pm
Quote by lilwolfmaidenWell I don't
doubt the best friends or twins theory, but I gotta go to bed ^_^
Oh.... Nice poem! Where did you get it from?
merged: 12-31-2007 ~ 01:23pm
Quote by lilwolfmaidenI dunno, got
that poem picture from another friend on a different site.
I am very discontent.
But very happy, I had another revelation.
LOVE SUCK NO MATTER HOW YOU LOOK AT IT.
I'm so happy I realized that. I always warned people but never took the advice
myself... I was in a relationship with someone I cared for very very much.. I
cared about him enough to lose my innocence with him... He hasn't talked to me
since. he got what he wanted and left. Oh I never would've guessed he'd do that,
he was sweet and we cared deeply for one another, I never believed I'd be one of
those people that get used, I'd never be in that situation, nooo. But we're
wrong, we're all wrong. And after that I get cozy with another guy, I was weary
about trying love again, but he promised it'd be differen.t Promised he would
help me when I cried. Promised to love me forvever. NO! It was an over-the-phone
relationship, he lives in the state below me. I felt safe, I can't get used I
figured.. But I was, once again. And he dumped me, once again. Last night. I
can't believe I EVER BELIEVED things would be DIFFERENT! They never will
be...
....... Sis... You know... You're really bad at choosing boys..... Why do you
give yourself to boys so easily? My sister is smart! I know it! But sometimes
she can be so stupid.... It hurts me to see you like this.... My aunt was
married to a man she never slept with for 18 years.... Why do you let them use
you like that?If they loved you... They would love you even if you didn't even
kiss them once before.... Do they know everything about you? Do you know
everything about them? Would they die for you? How long have you met them? I
don't get it.... These love affairs of yours are so fake! Sis is way smarter
than this.... I believe that because I believe in you! It's.... insincere... Why
do you give them yourself so easily...? And why do they want you anyway? But at
the same time I have to tell you... To love is to let go ^^ Anyway! You have me
right? Though I'm tiny and bony and I'm scared of every single thing like horror
movies! And sometimes I run around screaming like a 5 year old when I get chased
by dogs! I still have my voice that annoys everyone so much they hopefully
forget to worry! ^_^
Quote by lilwolfmaidenHello hello
hello to you too!
I didn't figure you'd drop by my page to say hi.
It was a very pleasant surprise
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Really, hope your life is doing well.
Anyways, I am off to go post a couple more poems.
Then I'm gonna make a new club.
And I'll try to revive canine-lovers ;____;
Well I thought I should give you a visit since it's been a while
Life is just like a rollercoaster with lotsa downs
But I'm okay
Oh I was gonna read your poems but I was too busy yesterday delivering the
Christmas cards
Oh I see
I hope that it all goes well
HUGS.! how are you! i havnt heard from you in SO long!
anyway forgot what i came here for..oh yeah MERRY CHRISTMAS KAT!
anyway hope to hear from you soon and oh...
here is my yahoo thing if you want to contact me their..
Undeniable879
anyway talk to you later ...hopefully..
OMG BUGGSSSSS!
*giggles hysterically and rolls around fitfully*
*arms and feet get devoured by bugs*
;_______________;
Now I am using my tongue to type!
The keys taste like Birds!
[Bird is the last name of the owner of this computer]
I used to be a huge chat room fanatic but then I lost my computer, I am using my
aunt's.
O.o wow... i didnt know they were flesh eating scarabs...
Its funny how you can giggle and all while you are being eaten.. you would have
given all the cannibals out there, pleasure in eating you.
Bravo... your really skilled with your tongue and wow you actually have some
tonge muscle training i can hardly press any button with my tongue
Birds.. wow thats a nice name.. And no one asking you to use your tongue to type
O.O O.o eww..
Quote by lilwolfmaiden
Yes it has been a while, my good man.
Well stabilizing is better than nothing, is it not?
Lots of sickness here to, and the money issues are denied in my family but we
know it's there.
I am having a lot of problems but they all revolve around my mental wellness and
my mind.
Fate mugged me, beat me, and left me to die.
I just got over a really hard time but things are, yes, looking up
now.
That is true. It is a sign of recovery.
As for your situation, I know it's not much to say, but hang in there. I pray
that things continue to look up for you.
As always, if you ever feel like chatting, no matter what the reason, feel free
to drop a line. I'm always willing to lend an ear.
nah, i haven't drifted away from you, i'm just sorta bored with MT cuz there's barely anyone online other than my usual spamming partners. i'll try to be online a bit more, cuz i miss chatting with you as well.
later.
Woahhhh *winks*
ur layout is very beautiful
Well, i just dropping by to say hi ^^
and hopefully u aint forget me
How have u been?
see u around *hugs*
Happy Birthday.
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Well, I saw it on shadow's website. I've been doing alright. How about you?
HI! hugs how are you? i havnt talked to you in a lonnnng time
merged: 03-15-2008 ~ 06:49am
i hope your doing alright
merged: 03-15-2008 ~ 11:33am
oh i have been doing alright my spring break started not to long ago we went to south padre island wich has turned out to be very enjoyable...i havnt had the opertunity to swim in a long time but there is some trouble i got sunberd today on my sholders its pretty red though it dosnt hurt much it just seems very hot anyway i hope i can hear fom you soon take care
love Jack
Hiiiii Lilwolfmaiden ^^
how are you?
hope things are good and life's treating you well..
Just dropping by to wish you a Happy Valentine's Day
hope you are spending sweet times with those you love and care about the most ^/////^
Sincerely,
Sara
I'm writing an english version for Lost Butterfly that follows the music if I can :P Wrote a few sentences...
A butterfly in labyrinth... Fluttering without finding a way... If one day that happened... If one day that happened.... To you always remem.... ber I'm here... If your wings are set in flames... I'll be there with you... As we turn to ash... So you won't have to cry... So you won't have to cry... As you look at me... with a smile... There are as many reason to smile... As there are hearts in this world.... But if you have too much you'll lose them all... But then I'll find them back.... So you won't have to cry everyday.... Watching every step you take in your life... From Heaven and Earth... I'll watch you forever...
That's all I wrote for now!
well i think you deserve a lot..but thats just my opinion..
im doing alright..very busy..its going to be a ruff couple of weeks..
as i said before i think your life is important..again my opinion..
love you cat..
What's with the IA?; and all that?
Why won't you date him again?
well i hope you feel better take care of yourself cat
im glad your alive you should keep it that way
im glad to hear from you too
No ones ever loved you before TT^TT But I do! I would die for you even though I prefer pain than death
Chantz...? He sounds nice... Better than SOME people with a name that starts with a vati and ends with a can...
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Lost Butterfly is one of my favourite songs ^_^ And have you seen the english translation?
Here here! I wrote it!
Like a wandering butterfly in labyrinth…
It continues to flutter trying to find a way out…
What if one day that happened to you?
Remember… Remember…
I’m always here for you…
There are as many reasons for smiling…
As many as all the hearts in this world…
But if you have too much…
You’ll lose sight of them all…
The day that never seems to end…
Repeating… Repeating…
Is starting to change the future…
The illusion that comes to us at night named dreams…
Begins to show itself…
If your wings catch on fire…
You would even reach the blazing sun…
I wish we could turn to ash together…
As you show me that smile…
Anyway…
One day I know we will part…
But I know… But I know…
It’s okay because I met you…
Far away…
Even when we’re apart…
I’ll continue to pray for your happiness…
Even if it doesn’t reach you…
Even if it doesn’t reach you…
I’ll sing this song for only you…
I know it will only be when we die…
That we know why we were born…
But when that day comes it will be too late…
So we continue to wander…
When the reality begins to show…
I know it’s changing you to someone else…
But no matter how much you change…
You will always be you…
If you scream loud enough…
Or even if you whisper I’ll be there…
Even if your courage to say the truth is a faint glow…
The day that never seems to end…
Is starting to change the future…
The illusion that comes to us at night named dreams…
Begins to show itself…
If your wings catch on fire…
You would even reach the blazing sun…
I wish we could turn to ash together…
As you show me that smile…
sorry that i haven't talked to you in a wile i wanted to but i was pretty busy..i still am come to think of it so how is life going for you good i hope..ugh i have one ruff week ahead of me..anyway i hope to hear from you soon luv ya' hugs
great, now my userpage went from "evil" to "scary" hah, very funny. anyway, i'm doing okay, just a little exausted from working so much. and sorry about not being online, i'm sorta losing interest in MT so i don't log in as much. anyway, so how have you been?
If an angel's job is to help those who have just begun their journey... Then a demons job must be to accept those who have stopped... ^_^ I know it seem as if it has nothing to do with anything but it does! To me anyway!
I just
don't get how you can love so many people... So... Who do you love most of all
of them? ^_^
im glad your doing good
im alright i have to go to school though sigh..oh well just 2 days till the weekend
oh your welcome iv always thought that you did a very good job
Umm... One thing I HAVE to tell you first...
Pitifully terrified...? Who said anything about being terrified? *pouts*
Elizabeth is a big girl now! *pouts more*
Wow... You sure seem to fall for guys easily... Nathan sounds the best of them all..
Justice.... Justice sounds like... Like... Like.... Hard to
describe since I don't know him well... I thought... If you loved someone you'd
love them most for at least a few years.... I don't know.... Little tiny
elizabeth is stupid! *knocks head and sounds hollow* I lost my brain on my way
home! 
I don't think your family is cursed at all ^_^ I find you gifted! You know so
much about things a person that lives a perfect life (Not that it's possible)
I'm proud to call you my sister! And even if you told my friends about all your
relationships! I'll still say you're my big sister with pride! Because I find
sis admirable! ^_^ But.... I think I prefer to go the way of loving someone for
eternity... 
I wouldn't want to fool around with a guy that's only gonna
lasts me for a few weeks.... I would rather wait forever for my first kiss
that's meaningful instead of kissing a guy that's going to be my most important
person for a few weeks! But I still admire sis! Because she's great even if she
married 10 thousand times! ^_^
so how is life treating you cat?been looking at some of your new poems they are very beautiful..
Hello Lilwolfmaiden ^^
i'm just a random girl, but i just had to drop by...
read your poems, though i apologize cuz i'm a lil late in both reading and commenting... but better late than never ne...
just had to tell you that you have amazing talent! keep it up yea! your potential is .......just simply fascinating!
if you don't mind, i will add you to my watchlist ^^ that way i'll be able to catch your poem earlier on!
thanks for the great share ^^ keep it up! Q(^_^Q)
Sincerely,
Lioness
Could you listen to this song please? It's one of my favourite songs!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-l8rchwYkY
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You know... Sometimes you seem perfect.... Though I see your faults but I still think you're perfect... You have a heart of gold and golden hair! You're quite pretty! Not lying! But the more important thing is! You're really really nice! I love you!
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....... You know.... Vatican right...? He told me something.... God would love me more than he will ever love me.... He makes me pretty angry at times... He's really dense!
Cause a blind man would even fall in love with someone that's the ugliest in
this world but see the golden heart in them that shines brightly! Don't mind me!
I never make any sense! heheh.... I hate your parents for ruining your life...
but I thank them for bringing you into this world.... Even if they say you're a
mistake like mine does... I know they love you... And even if they don't! They
have 2 eyes but only see a stone then! They must be looking the wrong way! The
true blind people are the ones who see the caterpillar before the turned into a
butterfly! 
I'm getting the feeling I have mentally challenged problems with me! But
really.... Even though I can't see you.... To me.... I think you're like a
crystal! It looks like a rock in the out-side but once you open it... It shines
brighter than a plastic crystal that shines outside but when you open it the
plastic covers all the brightness it holds! Like the moon! When you look at
it... It shines brightly but the parts you don't see... Is filled with dents and
holes.... Ah.... I'm so sorry! You must think I'm weird! I'm sorry! I make no
sense!
I love you.... And I believe you when you say you feel that I'm perfect.... Because I hate being judged by looks.... Like they say! A blind man sees the clearer side of things when a man with 6 eyes only sees a stone! heh! No actually... That's what I say!
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TT^TT I..... I love you! Everyone who heard me say that thinks I'm mentally challenged! I'm so glad you don't hate me now!
never...
knew..... Thought I was just blabbing nonsense... heh....
Like love! It hurts! But it's great! I won't forget the good and the bad... Some people always wish they wouldn't remember the bad things in life... But if thy forget the bad... they're throwing away a part of themselves..... I appreciate every second of my life.... Good and bad.... Life are like stairs! If there's a broken step.... You can't just stop going up! Because then you'll never reach your destination! No matter how dangerous it is you still have to go up! Even if the steps are made of needles! And I'll help you up when you can't! ^^ I know I can't be there for you all the time since I can't see you or anything... But I'll use my blabber mouth to help you! My nonsense! Heheh!
Caterpillar... yeah... You're like a caterpillar.... ^^ But you know... a butterfly and a caterpillar... Is the same... Still the same person.... The same soul... The same faults... It just changed it's skin! Like a crystal that looks like a rock! And a crystal that is taken out of the rock! It's valuable whichever it is!
So I'll love you no matter what you choose to become! caterpillar or butterfly! Because you are you and forever will be you no matter how much you change!
yeah... Love like in the dark... I love your poems! Much better than the meaningless happy go lucky ones that are talking about useless things...
I'm going to do great things...?
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Thank you! TT^TT
But that's just cause of how I've lived in these years! Lots has happened to me
in 11 years of living! 
You know... It's incredible... How you can read auras!
You I know.... Lots of people say "Woah... She might look little but she knows a more about life than me!"
heheh!
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Maybe I was a rock in my past life!
I don't
know! I've always taken an interest in rocks! Weird if I was a rock! heh! I'm so
nonsensical! Or maybe I was a blind person! you know... Sometimes I feel
connected to you... Maybe we were twins or best friends in our past lives! 
merged: 12-28-2007 ~ 01:50pm
Oh.... Nice poem! Where did you get it from?
merged: 12-31-2007 ~ 01:23pm
....... Sis... You know... You're really bad at choosing boys..... Why do you give yourself to boys so easily? My sister is smart! I know it! But sometimes she can be so stupid.... It hurts me to see you like this.... My aunt was married to a man she never slept with for 18 years.... Why do you let them use you like that?If they loved you... They would love you even if you didn't even kiss them once before.... Do they know everything about you? Do you know everything about them? Would they die for you? How long have you met them? I don't get it.... These love affairs of yours are so fake! Sis is way smarter than this.... I believe that because I believe in you! It's.... insincere... Why do you give them yourself so easily...? And why do they want you anyway? But at the same time I have to tell you... To love is to let go ^^ Anyway! You have me right? Though I'm tiny and bony and I'm scared of every single thing like horror movies! And sometimes I run around screaming like a 5 year old when I get chased by dogs! I still have my voice that annoys everyone so much they hopefully forget to worry! ^_^
Well I thought I should give you a visit since it's been a while
Life is just like a rollercoaster with lotsa downs
But I'm okay
Oh I was gonna read your poems but I was too busy yesterday delivering the Christmas cards
Oh I see
I hope that it all goes well
HUGS.! how are you! i havnt heard from you in SO long!
anyway forgot what i came here for..oh yeah MERRY CHRISTMAS KAT!
anyway hope to hear from you soon and oh...
here is my yahoo thing if you want to contact me their..
Undeniable879
anyway talk to you later ...hopefully..
Hello Hello hello lilwolf-san
I hope you are doing well and I wish you a Merry Christmas
MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!
O.o wow... i didnt know they were flesh eating scarabs...
Its funny how you can giggle and all while you are being eaten.. you would have given all the cannibals out there, pleasure in eating you.
Bravo... your really skilled with your tongue and wow you actually have some tonge muscle training i can hardly press any button with my tongue
eww..
Birds.. wow thats a nice name.. And no one asking you to use your tongue to type O.O O.o
hmm you lost your computer? How did that happen?
That is true. It is a sign of recovery.
As for your situation, I know it's not much to say, but hang in there. I pray that things continue to look up for you.
As always, if you ever feel like chatting, no matter what the reason, feel free to drop a line. I'm always willing to lend an ear.